X month X Saturday sunny
I don't know how I got home, but I know I'm in a very bad mood right now.
When I went to see Angie at her villa on Long Island today, I got the shocking news that Angie… was actually dating Nat! God, the two of them are gay!
To this day I can't describe how I feel after hearing the news, God knows how I'd react in front of them if I hadn't gone to the bathroom to be alone for a while.
How could... how could this be? ! The two of them... oh, I'm such an idiot, why can't I confess to Angie first? ! yes i like her, i love her, i want to date her, i admit it, why i just… no…
Well, actually, it's useless even if I confess. I think Angie and Nat must have been in a relationship for a long time, the kind of attachment between them...not something that someone who has just started dating would have...No wonder they used to feel a little weird between them, no wonder Angie used to be always on Nat …
God, what should I do
cloudy sunday xx
I stayed at Angie's house last night to celebrate her 19th birthday with everyone. We frolicked for a long time, and had a pillow fight in her bedroom, finally turning off the lights and hitting each other's chests.
I don't know if I've ever been caught by Angie, and I don't know if I've ever caught Angie, but... I feel bad. I thought I had adjusted my mood, and I thought I should be able to fully accept the fact that they were dating, but every time Angie showed up in front of me, my efforts were in vain, especially today.
But what can I do besides these? One is my love and the other is my best friend.
Tuesday, X month, overcast
Finally unable to hold back, I kissed Angie today because she is going to New Zealand soon. But I originally planned to kiss her on the initiative, but she took the lead in holding her face, and... it was a tongue kiss.
That feeling... that feeling... oh damn, it shouldn't be like this... idiot, why are you teasing them? If it wasn't for tentatively kissing Nat first, maybe...
Manny, don't do it again, keep this... in your heart.
Sunny Thursday, X month
I'm so angry, how can Angie do this! How can she do this! She actually attacked my chest in front of Weiwei! Does she know that this annoys and bothers me!
Well, she doesn't know, for her it's just a sign of intimacy between friends, all I can have is a wry smile.
X month X Monday light snow
I can't remember the first time that I kept rejecting Angie from writing the script for me, I didn't want to get too deep in this hopeless relationship.
But... I can't stop her from doing something about me, maybe in some ways, deep down in my heart, I actually want her to do something with me.
In the bedroom after today's house party, I almost hugged her and kissed her lips, all I could do was chase down and play.
Tuesday, X month, overcast
Angie seems to have had a relationship with another woman. This was inferred from Nat's trance-like tone of voice when I was chatting with Nat on the phone. To be honest, I was taken aback when I came to the conclusion, but surely Nat wasn't talking about me, so who could it be
Frankly speaking, I also had doubts, but I always thought that I was thinking too much, and I always thought that what I am, so are others. Just now... Angie, are you really that kind of person
Light rain on Friday, X month X
The first time I… doubted my own judgment, but the excitement in Lindsay's tone was definitely not deceiving, and she changed her tongue quickly, as if to hide her omission.
If... If that's the case, Angie would be dating Nat and Jesse at the same time. No no no, I'm afraid she and Kate are too...and maybe more than a year or two!
How could she do this, doesn't she know how much Nat loves her! Damn, this is just too much! It's just... why can't she see it at all when she's with Nat
Heck, why is my heart so messed up? Why is there a trace of anger when...
Light rain on Friday, X month X
Ms. Sophia informed me that I was offered the role in Lost in Translation. She said that my audition was excellent and that the feeling of being alone in a crowd was very well expressed... Maybe I should turn down the role... I don't want to have it in the movie... and...
Light rain on Friday, X month X
After preparing for a long time, I finally crossed it in private while Lindsay and the others went to visit Angie in Boston. Unexpectedly, Angie admitted what she had done, and I thought she would deny it.
Seeing that Angie had deep feelings for Kate and Jesse and Nat, a feeling of anger and jealousy came over me. Fortunately, I restrained myself in time, and still buried these things in my heart as before.
I probably have a feeling... Angie betrayed me, that's ridiculous...
Angie didn't explain anything in detail, just said that she would invite everyone to go on vacation after graduation, and then explain the situation to Nat and the others... I hope they (cross out a few words here)
Heck! How can I think so! Damn, I mean... I mean I hope they'll reconcile this and... have an acceptable... ending...
Light rain on Friday, X month X
I am sad, I am very sad. I don't know how long Angie would be drinking at the bar if it wasn't for Backert to call me. I took her back to the apartment, and she still yelled for a drink and asked me to accompany her.
I drank a lot of wine with her, and Angie kept talking in a mess, lying dead on the sofa. I kept trying to console her, and she finally told me that Kate, Jessie, and Nat broke up with her, just today, the day she graduated.
I don't know what to say. Isn't Angie already planned? She hugged my waist and cried and cried, I could only hug her to comfort her. This situation seems to be a replica of the original, but our positions have changed.
I don't know what's on my mind, but... I really want to hold her in my arms and not let go.
Light rain on Friday, X month X
We had sex, and I've fantasized about us having sex more than once, but never now. I should have refused, she was just drunk and it was easy to break free. And... she broke up with Nat and the others for a few days, and I'm still helping to find a way to mend their rift... This is a betrayal...
But I ended up having sex with Angie halfway through, and every time she told me about Nat and Jesse and Kate in my ear during this time, every time I contacted Nat and them, my jealousy was unstoppable. It will pop up, why they can date her and I can only feel sorry for myself by the side
However, I was just her friend after all, and faced with such a sluggish Angie, who seemed to be "dying" day by day, I didn't have the heart to do anything else until last night.
When I was kissed by her, the fire in my heart seemed to be lit, or it never went out. I just want to love her, that's all. So I woke up this morning and made a ridiculous suggestion, that between now and before Angie leaves New York, we'll be lovers, let go of all constraints and just love each other wholeheartedly. And when she left we were still just friends, nothing else.
I think I must be crazy, but it doesn't matter anymore, even if I can only have such a short-lived relationship, it is better than getting nothing, I don't care.
Light rain on Friday, X month X
It's been ten days, ten days of madness, ten days of irrationality. We go shopping, go shopping, get beauty treatments, and do everything we can, including crazy sex at home at night. I don't care why Angie acquiesced to this ridiculous proposal, I just want to have everything she has for this brief time.
Now that she has boarded the plane and left New York, it's time for me to keep my promise, but I can't help feeling sad. But it doesn't matter, it's just a matter of time, I believe...
Putting down the pen, Scarlett closed her diary, then reached out to cover her face and sighed deeply.
"That's it, Manny," she whispered to herself, "you have to remember, you have to remember."
His shoulders trembled uncontrollably.
"Welcome home, Angie." Annie stepped forward quickly, smiled and nodded, very much like a housekeeper.
"Thank you." Angela forced a smile back and looked at the surrounding arrangements. The mix of styles is very modern, there are not too many decorations that are not as elegant and gorgeous as the parents, except that it is simple and simple, but at the same time makes people feel relaxed. It is in line with her requirements, in line with her - previous requirements.
"Do you want to go around first, or go back to the bedroom to rest?" Annie continued to ask, the maid next to her had already stepped forward to pick up the luggage from the bodyguard and waited beside her.
"Go back to the bedroom, I'm a little tired." Angela's tone was light, as if she was saying something very ordinary.
"Please come with me." Annie nodded and gave the maids a wink before walking upstairs first.
Angela followed behind in a trance. Annie didn't pay attention to what she was saying, but she was stunned when the bedroom door opened. Bookcases, desks, pianos, document rejections, shelves for various trophies, lift tables for painting, etc. are all placed in their original positions, and even the direction of the wardrobe door is the same as before. It's as if she's still living with mom and dad instead of moving into a new home.
"I asked the servants to arrange it according to your bedroom over there, but some places have been slightly modified due to the different structure of the room." Annie explained in a low voice.
"Thank you, Annie." Angela replied with a slight smile, "However, there is a small problem."
"what is the problem?"
Angela's gaze moved to the bookcase, and then she quickly moved away as if she had been burned: "Take all their photos... out, don't put them here."
Annie was stunned for a moment, and a wry smile flickered from the corner of her mouth: "Sorry, I forgot."
As she said, she walked into the bookcase and picked up the photo frame placed on it, and Angela's voice rang again: "Together with... Manny's photo, please."
"Together with Manny's?" Annie raised her head suspiciously, but the movements of her hands did not slow down.
Angela covered her mouth and coughed lightly, before correcting with a wry smile: "Take everyone's photos away, just keep... Mom, Dad, and siblings."
"Okay." Annie nodded, found something to put the photos into categories, and when she walked to the door, she turned her head and asked, "Do you need black tea or coffee?"
"No, let me be alone for a while." Angela shook her head with her back to her.
After the door was closed, the girl sat down in front of the piano and stared at the balcony in a daze. The expressions on his face are constantly changing, there are wry smiles, sadness, pain and reluctance to touch.
She suddenly opened the lid of the piano, and Bai Yu's lush fingers touched the keys and began to play without even thinking about it. There is no score, and it is completely free to play, although it is still pleasant, but the distraction is equally obvious.
Pressing the last note, the girl covered her face and sighed deeply. Although the madness of the last ten days in New York finally pulled her up a little from the abyss of pain, she was still unwilling and afraid to face certain things.
Natalie's words were like sharp knives stuck in the heart, causing a violent stir every time she thought about it.
It wasn't you, Nat was wrong, she was just pissed. A voice said in his heart.
That's you, admit it, doesn't Nat know you? Think Manny. Another voice sounded again.
Manny... Angela suddenly grabbed her hair in pain, how could she acquiesce to that absurd proposal? His fingers brushed lightly from his lips, and it seemed that there was still the smell of the other party, and various images of entanglement with Scarlett for the past ten days could not help but emerge in his mind.
Damn, how could I... Angela groaned softly, and suddenly a topic that Natalie and Natalie discussed suddenly came up. When people are in extreme pain, their thoughts will be very confused, and everything will follow the subconscious.
Am I just venting my desires on Manny's body to ease my pain? She thought with sadness that she could easily give up her sacrifice without being responsible, so... Am I just selfish possession of Kate, Jesse, her and even Manny as Nat said
She stood up in a trance, and sat down on the chair a little softly, as if the situation half a month ago was going to repeat itself. At this moment, a clucking knock on the door suddenly sounded, finally awakening her.
Angela, who was dripping with cold sweat, regained her composure, took a long breath and wiped her face. After the knock on the door rang again, she went over and opened the door: "I said I wanted to be alone..."
"I think it's necessary to talk to you about the next itinerary." Surprisingly, standing outside the door is Alizee, who is very formally wearing a short skirt and women's suit above the knee, holding a pile of documents in her hand. Folder, it looks like an office OL.
"Lily?" Angela looked at her in amazement, and asked after the other party came in, "Why are you dressed like this?"
"Mr. Jack hired me as your personal assistant after talking to me, don't you know?" After putting the folder on the desk, Alizee's expressionless face suddenly showed a look of surprise. "By the way, at that time you were still hiding in Manny's house and complaining about yourself, so it's normal not to know."
Then he raised his hand before Angela spoke: "Of course, you can fire me if you are not satisfied. Anyway, I am still a part-time part-timer and have not signed a contract."
Angela's throat rolled, the corner of her mouth twitched again, and finally she forced a smile: "How come, with you as my personal assistant, my efficiency will definitely improve a lot."
Alizee glanced at her, then opened the folder: "It's already July, in this month..."
"Wait, Lily," Angela interrupted her, "I'll talk about it later, I just want to be quiet now."
"Then," Alizee stopped the movements in her hands and stared at Angela without blinking, with a hint of sharpness in her eyes, "When are you going to discuss this?"
"It will be another half a month, probably." Angela said uncertainly, covering her forehead.
"Get out of the entertainment industry," Alizee said suddenly.
"What... what?"
"Anyway, you can't do anything now, and it looks like you won't be able to do anything for a long time in the future. Why don't you just quit and find a place where no one else is going to complain about yourself." Alizee said while packing up the documents , although there is no expression on his face, the sarcasm in his tone is very obvious, "Oh, this is not right, I should not overestimate you, maybe you will spend your whole life in self-pity, but it doesn't matter, anyway, your money is also Enough is enough…”
"Shut up!" Angela's haggard face suddenly turned blue.
Although Alize closed her mouth according to her words, she still stared at Angela coldly, without any intention of backing down. The two looked at each other for a long time, and Angela finally turned her head: "What's the arrangement?"
"First of all, there are two talk show invitations." Alize didn't bother with the previous topic, and turned over the things in her hand.
"Look at the specific content before making a decision."
"Several gay organizations invited to the event."
"Reply to them, I support homosexuality, but I will not participate in the event."
"Mr. James would like you to visit the set of Transformers. He has questions about the script."
"… tell him that I can grant him the right to modify the script at will."
"Mr. Ed would like you to be at the premiere of The Matrix 2 next week."
"... Decline for me."
"Also premiering next week is Pirates of the Caribbean, and Mr. Bruckheimer wants you to be there."
"All the movie premieres have been postponed. In addition, inform Peter Jackson that I can go back to the "Lord of the Rings" crew in advance to participate in the reshoots... Wait." Angela suddenly stopped talking, and she froze for a while. Only then did he ask: "What did you just say about "Pirates of the Caribbean"?"