"What do you want to say?" Natalie's tone was calm, but her hands were already clenched into fists. "Or what do you want to prove, or someone wants you to prove something."
"Don't get me wrong, some idiot who only feels sorry for himself and then puts the blame on others has gone on a trip." Alizee shrugged, "I'm here only for personal reasons. Purpose."
When she said this, she paused, and the corners of her mouth became more obvious: "I really want to know why a person who has been in a relationship with someone for at least 6 years can use such harsh words to ridicule each other when they break up, as if the other party He committed a heinous crime, as if those 6 years were a nightmare!"
Natalie's breathing suddenly became a little faster, and her hands squeezed harder, but she still kept her calm: "You mean to say, do you know what happened better than the person involved?"
Alizee raised her eyebrows: "As someone close to Angie, I do know... or I have speculated and guessed some secret things based on just a few words, so I came here and wanted to ask you in person. I am really very curious. , what kind of hatred makes you say that kind of words that can make a person feel like that?"
"Self-pity? You're talking about self-pity?" Natalie sneered twice, "If she was self-pity, then this kind of thing wouldn't happen."
"That means, you did love her?" Alizee asked closely.
Natalie pursed her lips and took a deep breath: "Yes, but that's all in the past."
"Then I don't understand even more, since you love her, why are you so cruel?" Alize narrowed her eyes, "It is so cruel that a person can't help himself, refuses to admit any of his own mistakes, and is unscrupulous. Hurt others, and even almost fell into the abyss with my sister!"
"You... what did you say?!" Natalie's eyes widened suddenly, although Alizee didn't say it clearly, she still heard it from the other party's tone.
"What I'm saying is the truth. What's a bigger blow than the three same-sex lovers who were in love with me at the same time at my college graduation ceremony and didn't know how to choose?" Alizee's tone suddenly changed. It became sharp, "And the one she loves and cares about the most, ruthlessly stabbed her to the core with words and even refused to keep a fig leaf!"
"Wait... You said... You said that at the graduation ceremony I... and they... also... also offered to end the relationship?" Natalie said incoherently, she was obviously a little flustered by the news just now.
But after she was calm, she calmed down again, and immediately gritted her teeth and tried to refute from other aspects: "So you came to me? Or did you find the other two before you came to me?"
"Who made... that idiot only find your stand-in." Alizee crossed her fingers and raised her chin slightly.
"Substitute for... Substitute?!" Natalie's body trembled violently, and Kayla's face involuntarily appeared in her mind. All kinds of things on the set of "Star Wars Prequel" and those hyped scandals also flashed quickly. Those things that she deliberately suppressed in her heart suddenly popped up.
substitute? certainly! How could she not see it with her cleverness, knowing that Keira played Amidala's stand-in in "The Phantom Menace", not to mention the Oolong incident and the demonstrations on the set of "Revenge of the Sith" . It's just that Natalie has been stubbornly refusing to admit it.
"Poor Kayla," Alizee's hateful voice sounded again, her sighing tone sounded like sarcasm, "I knew that I was being used as someone's stand-in, but I chose because I loved that idiot too much. Endure it, and in the end both of them were hurt."
"What do you want to say!" Natalie raised her voice abruptly, she finally lost her composure, just like most of the times she faced Angela, she couldn't keep it to the end.
"You want to say that I made her become like that? You want to say that I should have tolerated her dating several people at the same time? You want to say that she is not wrong, it is all me?!" Natalie's chest heaved violently .
"Of course—no," Alizee spread her hands, "no one would think Angie did the right thing, in fact if she hadn't been too timid—it's really strange, she has incredible confidence and incompetence in her career. Perseverance to achieve the goal, but emotionally like a fool who doesn't know what to do; I still can't figure out why she is like this, or is this just two sides of people?"
Having said this, she chuckled and returned to the previous topic: "Let's continue with the things just now, if it wasn't for her emotionally ignorant rejection, not knowing giving up, and being too timid, things wouldn't have gotten so bad. It's fair to say that she's 60% to 80% or more of her own responsibility when that idiot almost ended up like that - but what about the remaining 20%?"
Alizee leaned forward, and the sarcastic smile on her face became more and more obvious: "I think, in your opinion, since her responsibilities account for about 80%, you can ignore the 20% of your own. Right? Oh, I understand, it's normal, people are always selfish, and when they make a mistake, they always think of what's wrong first. Angie is like that, and so are you--"
"No!" Natalie's face turned white and her body trembled slightly.
But Alizee didn't give her a chance to refute, and said quickly: "You think you are very rational and calm, you think you are doing the right thing, but are you really right? In front of feelings, you can Are you really being rational and calm? Swear to God, you have no resentment and no sense of wanting to humiliate her?!"
"No... not... I..." Natalie bit her lip, her eyes becoming a little dazed.
"Yes, she deceived you, but why did she deceive you? Does she not want to solve these bad things, is she just toying with you or does she really love you?!" Alizee asked sharply.
"I gave her a chance! I tried to save it! But what happened!" Natalie exclaimed.
"Really?" Alizee smiled coldly, "Then may I ask, did you ask her directly in front of her: Angie, do you have another woman?"
"I..." Natalie opened her mouth but didn't say a word.
"Once a smart person gets into the tip of the bull's horn, it's very difficult to get out without hitting a head and bleeding. Like Anji, so do you." Alizee raised her hand in conclusion.
The room suddenly became quiet, and the two women sat looking at each other like this, one lowered his head to stir the coffee in the cup, while the other stared at the wall without focus, not knowing what he was thinking.
After a long time, Natalie finally covered her forehead soberly, and after a long sigh, she calmly looked at Alize: "Okay, tell me what you came here for, you said a lot of words in such a vexatious manner. Is there a purpose?"
Although Alizee didn't show it clearly, she still vaguely felt that the other party seemed to be relieved after regaining her senses.
"Give her a chance," Alizee whispered, "a chance to sit down and talk."
Saying that, she stood up and walked to the door: "That's it, excuse me, you can call me if you decide - I think you know my phone number - of course..."
She turned her head, and a trace of complexity flashed in her tea-brown eyes: "No matter what decision you make, I will respect you."
Natalie didn't answer, she just covered her forehead and watched Alizee go out before she smiled bitterly and sighed again. She stood up and slowly returned to her bedroom, then leaned against the wall in a daze for no reason.
own responsibility? Well, she actually reflected on whether she was too impulsive that day, but she always told herself that it was true that Angie betrayed herself. However, as Alizee said just now, even if the other party has to take most of the responsibility, shouldn't it be your own responsibility
Natalie raised her head and looked up at the ceiling with a wry smile. Her palms suddenly began to ache. If she hadn't been holding the pin tightly that day, she might not have been able to say those words at all. Yes, it is like this, I was venting with a kind of resentment, and those words were not really thought out.
Because... Because I have been worrying about losing her... And when the worry became a reality, disappointment and resentment took over my heart, so I didn't think about why I was so worried.
Natalie walked over to the bookcase and ran her fingers aimlessly across the rows of book spines. Can anyone tell me why I look like that in front of Angie
Suddenly, her fingers stopped, and her eyes fell on the place where it stopped. It was a folder or something, and the slightly old casing looked a little old. Natalie stared at it for a while, then took it out and opened it.
Inside is a stack of large and small sketches. The girls in the paintings pose naked in various shapes. Some are so detailed that even the curly hair ends on the girls' temples are clearly visible; while some are very detailed. Vague, or even only a general outline. But these paintings have a common feature. That face is Natalie's. Whether it is a detailed depiction or a general outline, which one is very obvious.
Natalie twitched the corners of her mouth, and the various images of being the mannequin of the other party suddenly emerged, causing her, who was staring at them, to smile and raise her eyebrows in dissatisfaction.
At this moment, a painting with a slightly smaller size suddenly fell out of it. Nadali, who was busy and careful to catch it, saw the painting and froze in place as if struck by lightning. It was painted by Zhang Caizhu: a short-haired girl in a short-sleeved t-shirt and shorts sat on the balcony with her knees hugged and looked out the window. The dim sunlight came in and gave her a touch of sadness. Although the date at the bottom right is not prominent in the colored pencil lines, it is clear if you look closely: October 1989.
"I didn't know who I was painting when I painted this painting two years ago, until the day before yesterday."