In the first issue, Brett had been surprised by the field battle between Beauty and the Beast by accident, how a rape turned into a rape, and now he feels that he understands a little bit, as expected, he can only understand the reason through personal experience.
Human beings have a set of self-protection mechanisms. When faced with strong stimuli, they will conduct self-adjustment so that their psychology can handle those overly intense emotional signals.
And human beings instinctively pursue sensory stimuli, releasing desire is the best way to transfer pain and relieve discomfort. When Bright provided services to nobles, he also came to feel.
He was both excited and in pain, his soul seemed to be out of his body, floating in mid-air and looking down at his body that was gradually stained by desire, he was ashamed of losing his lower limit, ashamed of being attracted to him by the noble body, ashamed of losing control at this time And deeply disturbed. He reminded himself countless times of its danger. He was walking on the steel wire, and every step he took might fall down and turn him into a tomato scrambled egg, but it was so tempting that he wanted to taste it even if it was poison.
The perfect body allows him to have whatever he wants, awakening the pure desire in him.
Don't think, don't think, don't measure, just indulge for a while.
This is fatal temptation.
Temptation is not the scariest thing, what's even more frightening is that Brett feels the emotional synchronization in Hodge.
Synchronize with your emotions.
Brett refused to believe that the other party was actually like him, intertwined with pleasure and pain, struggling, resisting, and sinking into it.
How is this possible
Zhazha should be pure evil, without complexity, he is the target of his own hatred, a symbol, a character in the book, a perverted villain, a bad guy he is about to defeat.
But why is it painful? He should enjoy his spoils!
Brett was puzzled.
A voice warned him: don't think about anything else, or you'll...
Brett asked: What will happen
I will... will... ah! What will happen? !
The word was there, but suddenly it seemed to disappear, losing its original meaning, all words and languages lost their meaning, or Brett lost the ability to use language, and the symbols of the words were disconnected from the meaning they represented.
Focusing on resisting desire, Brett missed the voice's warning: it's love! You will fall in love with him!
To fall in love with your enemy is the most terrible curse on earth.
Perhaps even Brett would have scoffed at that warning. Who would have believed that a rebel could fall in love with an oppressor? It's as absurd as the rabbit falling in love with the fox, and the pleasant goat falling in love with Big Big Wolf.
And that oppressor, who was nothing but skin and rotten inside, only disgusted and terrified Brett.
At this moment, he just wondered why the nobleman had such contradictory and intense emotions, just like how Brett treated Hodge in disguise as some kind of victim, which was really very, very unreasonable.
The ambivalence in Huo Qi's body was too strong. His brows were slightly frowned, as if he was dissatisfied or resisted, but the corners of his mouth were raised, and his eyes were faintly shining, like twinkling obsidian. The color is as deep as a red rose.
All these are telling Brett that Hodge is a creature full of emotions, not the inhuman and bottomless appearance in Brett's impression.
What I was holding and kissing was a human being.
Live people, flesh and blood, can laugh and hurt.
The thought struck Bright, not a symbol, not a phantom character, not an inner-city label.
It's the same person as me.
Brett felt that his rationality was really abominable, why did he think so much? Why hesitate? Why can't you fool yourself? The body is chasing pleasure, and every cell is clamoring: let's talk first!
Just squeeze in, move the piston, use yourself as a stick, and use a unique way to teach the enemy. Anyway, the enemy insults yourself in this way, and you insult yourself back in a similar way. There is no loss, and it sounds good. Fair enough.
But Brett found the devil part of himself singing, and he was so happy that he wanted to fly up to the side of the sun side by side.
The demon Brett urged him to take off his clothes quickly, and pressed the nobleman on the ground, bookshelves, and desks to subdue him, making him a slave of his own desires in turn.
How wonderful the nobles were at this time! Look, he is crazy about you, so eager for your entry, at this moment he has no resistance to you or desire.
Both of them are enjoying this form of insult and torture. If you have to define the behavior between the two now, it is to fuck you before you are killed.
Brett didn't know the principle behind it, or Hodge's purpose for doing this, he only knew that the devil laughed, there must be something wrong with this matter!
The logic is simple and crude, but very effective.
Besides, when dealing with enemies, Brett would rather have a fair and honest battle, you come and go, hand-to-hand combat, swords and swords, rather than this kind of behavior in the name of hatred to vent his desire.
It would undoubtedly make him hate Hodge even more, but the hatred would be mixed with other emotions, and Brett didn't know what those emotions were, but the hatred would become impure, and he felt that it would be very dangerous.
Hodge recovered from the aftertaste, and after the stimulation disappeared, there was a deeper desire.
But at this time, the man stopped his movements, stood up, looked into his own eyes and said.
"You can torture me and deal with me in various ways, but I really don't want to continue."
Hodge didn't expect a man to give him such a firm rejection. After threatening him, he still couldn't twist his will.
It was a very painful feeling. His internal organs were hurting, but he was obviously not physically injured. It was just an illusion in the brain. The consciousness felt that he had been hurt and "should" feel pain, so the nerves produced pain, which made him With such a feeling.
Why do you feel hurt
Why do men always let themselves feel pain so easily
Because I allow it.
I'm fucking allowing him to hurt himself, Hodge thought.
He's so lucid, yet so bewildered, glad that the man doesn't know about it, or he'll use it against himself, and hates the man's insensitivity, annoyed at the way he dismisses him, so that his desire can't be relieved , into a boundless loneliness.
After being rejected again and again, Hodge began to hate everything, everything in this world.
He hated that useless experimental subject, who had no weight in Brett's heart and could not be used as an effective threat.
He hated the incompetent program group, who had no other means of publicity other than ambiguous gossip.
He hated the reckless scientist who ruined his hunting plan and lost his chance to capture the man completely.
Of course, what he hated the most was the hateful man in front of him.
Driven by hatred, Hodge intends to carry out his threat and deal with Bright with the harshest and cruelest means, forcing the man to personally destroy the child who regards him as his father. His heart is full of tyranny, ridicule and disdain.
The slave said he didn't want to continue.
I don’t want to, it’s not that I can’t.
Slaves will always express their wishes at inappropriate times, which should have no effect on nobles. Anyway, whether you want to or not, you have to do it if you want.
However, the current Hodge has been affected, probably because he once experienced the joy and satisfaction when a slave wants to get close to him, and knows what a man's tone, voice, eyes, and expression are like in that state, and he is considerate. Gentle, kind protection, that is full of attraction to Hodge.
What Hodge wants is for the slave to do intimate things with him, and the slave wants to do it on his own initiative, willingly, and even begs himself to do it.
A scientist's suggestion suddenly sounded in his ears: just modify the brain and body of No. 199 directly, once and for all, and there will be no future troubles.
The two fell into a strange stalemate, Brett did not remain silent, he firmly stated his judgment: "You don't want these either."
Just now the nobleman didn't seem to be enjoying it completely. Could it be that he has a special taste and likes forced tunes? Looking for pleasure in pain sounds like masochism, but Hodge's usual character and behavior are completely in control, absolutely S, just like the master-servant game he played with Brett before he revealed his scumbag identity , he was really enjoying the feeling of being in control of everything.
Hodge retorted him in his heart: No, I think, I feel hot and ache from thinking about it, don't you notice it
"We are the same when it comes to desire, Hodge."
This was the first time Brett called out the nobleman's name after breaking with the nobleman. He tried to make the nobleman sober and persuade him not to give in to his desires.
Since we don't want this, why insist on doing it
Hodge saw through the man's intentions at a glance. After all, the other party actually wanted to preserve his dignity and not be forced to do such a thing, but he wanted to listen to the man's words, perhaps because he missed the man's confession of his heart very much. This way of speaking, he didn't stop it.
"If you don't do these things, I will hate you too. No one in this world will hate you more than me, and I won't hate other people like I hate you. Therefore, it is meaningless to humiliate me at the expense of myself."
Brett felt that they were destined to be mortal enemies, and there was no need to add more bricks and tiles to the hatred, and there was no need to add other things to this definition. He has been deceived, played with, and tortured. It is impossible for him to have anything other than hatred and fear towards Hodge. Apex, can't be more, so he says "no point".
He believes that Hodge treats him similarly. According to the logic of inner city people, he aroused the interest of the nobles. Tried to resist, challenged the other party's authority, insulted him, injected him with medicine, and almost made him suffer cruel treatment from the lower class.
In particular, under the influence of drugs, Hodge courted him, but was rejected. This must be a great shame to the dignified nobles.
The other party must be gnashing their teeth with hatred for him, fighting to the death.
That's why he has a grudge about possessing his own body, and probably wants to win the game with this.
The author has something to say: The relationship between the two pure enemies in the text
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The second revision after the lock