The seven years are short in the book, but Xu Baichuan has survived day by day.
The relationship between people needs you to come and go. He has been by Tang Jin's side for seven years, and he doesn't like to "take care of" Tang Jin, but likes to take care of "Tang Jin". All his retreats and accommodations were only because of Tang Jin. Even though he was faintly afraid, Xu Baichuan still hoped to get a response, he wanted Tang Jin to like him.
He has made countless assumptions in his heart, as long as Tang Jin shows that he likes him, he can continue to stick to it. Like a cactus, it only needs a little water to keep it alive. However, when things came to an end, he found that people are still fickle. Sometimes it takes a long time to hesitate and go back and forth, and it only takes a moment to really make a decision.
Maybe Tang Jin's occasional warmth is really because of liking. But these likes are too few and too secret, so that he never found out that it is difficult to warm up the deserted seven years for him, let alone the future.
Tang Jin wanted to keep him in the rein with his love, and continue to grind around a millstone day and night like before, but it was impossible.
Xu Baichuan continued: "The three months of separation are the most relaxing time in my seven years."
"I don't need to hang around you."
"You don't need to please your family and friends."
"You don't have to act all the time."
"It's so easy and so happy."
"We didn't get together well—" After saying this, Xu Baichuan seemed to have finally let go of the big stone in his heart, and he was extremely happy. He continued: "I hope we can break up well."
Even if you will regret it later... no, it should be said that you will definitely regret it. When a person is born, he stands at the starting point of the world tree. Every time he is faced with a simple choice such as "what to eat today" or "what to wear today", countless branches will be extended forward, and there will be branches after branches. The possibility of life is once Exponential growth among yet another choice. All we spend our lives seeing is one of those possibilities. Many people will miss the scenery on their own road. Even if they can see all of this road, what about the other one? What about the millions and millions left
One-way life itself is a kind of shortcoming.
How can you not regret it
When we go to the end and look back on our life, there will always be one thing on the left and the other on the right, which makes people think about it. Since we are destined to regret it, why not have fun in time.
In the past, when I was young, I could move forward with love.
But the years passed and he was too tired, so he didn't want to push forward any more.
Every time Xu Baichuan said a word, the heavy shackles that were removed from his body were put on Tang Jin's body. At the end of the speech, Tang Jin stood quietly where he knew it was over.
The air conditioner was turned on in the room, but the overwhelming coldness was pervasive, even the clenched teeth were trembling, the arrogance and arrogance were all besieged by this menacing cold, and all that was left was nothingness, nothingness. After recovering for a long time, Tang Jinping said in a hoarse voice, "...you never... never said that."
A short sentence was cut into two paragraphs, and Tang Jin's voice was extremely unsteady, as if he was about to swallow half of it.
Xu Baichuan felt uncomfortable when he heard this, and thought to himself, why are you embarrassing him by saying these words
"It was my fault. I..."
In fact, there is no need to continue, Xu Baichuan said: "I go out wearing a coat, or is it okay to not wear it?"
Tang Jin didn't answer.
Xu Baichuan went to get the clothes again, but Tang Jin didn't stop him.
Putting on his coat while walking, and holding his hand on the doorknob, Tang Jin's voice sounded from behind, almost pleading: "What you said... I can change everything."
Xu Baichuan paused without turning his head, and said, "No need. You are fine now, but I am not suitable for you."
change? How to change it? How long will it take? To what extent
Tang Jin changed it himself, can he force his parents and friends to change it
To be honest, Xu Baichuan hasn't changed much over the years. There are too many places he hasn't traveled, too many things he hasn't experienced, even if he hates himself to the extreme, he still wants to live. Regret cannot be avoided, but joy can be replaced. Let him spend the rest of his life on a blank check. Such a thing will never happen again.
The door of the hotel opened and closed, with a clear boundary separating the two of them, Xu Baichuan wanted to turn around to take a look, but he couldn't find it as he gradually moved away. He thought to himself: There is nothing to see, he and Tang Jin, it is simply better not to see each other.