Lin Qingyu walked quickly all the way to the small woods. On the small slope, the big tree was no longer there, and there was no tree hole for her to complain about, or even if there was a tree hole now, she didn't know how to complain... There are too many slots, and it's too bad to spit out...
She sat on the withered grass, crossed her legs, picked two stones from the ground, shook them in her hands, and then threw them out fiercely.
"Tap" The stone hit a person.
The man didn't cry out for pain, nor did he blame Lin Qingyu, he just patted the dirt on his shoulder calmly, and walked in front of Lin Qingyu.
Lin Qingyu glanced at the stains on his body, then lowered her head: "I'm sorry...but can I be left alone now?"
"Okay." Su Yi'an answered like this, but walked up and sat beside Lin Qingyu, "Just treat me as a tree now."
Lin Qingyu turned her head and glanced at his side face, as if she was amused by him, she twitched her mouth: "Is there such a handsome tree?" After experiencing the perverted incident, her feelings for Su Yi'an are no longer Simply disgusted, and even more or less... still a little dependent.
After all, he was like the legendary hero every time, stepping on the colorful auspicious clouds and miraculously appearing when she was most in danger and at a loss.
Su Yi'an also hooked his lips slightly. Then fell silent, listening to the wind passing by his ears.
Maybe it's because the winter sun is too quiet today. Sitting like this, Lin Qingyu has a little desire to talk. She has never tried to tell others about the bad things she has experienced, because no one is obliged to come. She is concerned about her misfortune, and she doesn't want to bring negative emotions to others because of herself, but at this moment, sitting next to Su Yi'an, she feels that it's okay to just tell him like this...
Anyway, he was forced to listen to her inner dramas a lot.
"Do you think it's strange?" Lin Qingyu opened his mouth, "Obviously I have become a boy now, but I still quarrel with my mother because of her patriarchal preference."
"What's so strange?" Su Yi'an squinted at her, "Do you really think that you have become a man?"
Lin Qingyu choked on Su Yi'an's rhetorical question.
"Yes, I also feel that I am only wearing a man's shell now, and I still hold on to the girl in my heart and refuse to let go. But even so, I never want to turn back into a girl."
Su Yi'an turned to look at her, and saw Lin Qingyu looking at the sky with a numb expression: "When I was young, my mother was a bit patriarchal, you know that. After you went abroad in elementary school, not long after, my father Passed away."
Su Yi'an was taken aback, but he didn't expect Lin Qingyu's father to leave so quickly. He had seen that Lin Qingyu's father had died in the teaching file, but there was no specific time in the file, and he had no way of knowing the exact time of her father's death.
"Then my mother took me and my younger brother to live on the inheritance left by my father. My younger brother..." Lin Qingyu couldn't help sighing when she mentioned these three words, "Without my father's control, my mother is still Petting him, used to being lawless, fighting non-stop since junior high school, and even more uncontrollable in high school, I have had enough of him! But even so... Mom still prefers him, for no other reason, just because he is a boy." Lin Qingyu sneered and pulled the corner of her mouth, "Isn't it ridiculous?"
"But maybe my mother's generation is like this. I don't expect her to change her concept. I just get used to it. Back then I went to see that movie with Su Xia called Tangshan Earthquake. Tell Su Xia, if you want to change to be my mother, how can you still hesitate? Just raise the knife and drop the 'click' and decide to crush the stone slab on my side." Lin Qingyu imitated the tone at that time, and said Hey hey twice as if he thought it was funny, but Su Yi'an couldn't laugh at all.
"But I didn't expect it. Although I said that at the time, when this thing happened to me, I really wanted to change my gender."
Su Yi'an asked, "What happened?"
Lin Qingyu turned to look at Su Yi'an: "I just like a listener like you who can catch up."
"..."
Looking at Su Yi'an's indifferent and disgusted face, Lin Qingyu smiled again: "Next I have to say something very tragic, you must let me adjust the atmosphere first."
In fact, it's not a long time ago, but it was this incident that directly led to Lin Qingyu's sudden suspension of her junior year.
That year, Lin Qingyu was in her sophomore summer vacation, and her younger brother was in his sophomore summer vacation.
Seeing that Lin Bin's shitty grades meant that he would not be admitted to college, the family hoped that he could get a high school diploma, and then go out to find a job by himself to relieve the pressure on the family. After all, Lin Qingyu's father left The inheritance that I have left will be used up almost. But Lin Qingyu and her mother didn't expect that Lin Bin was more anxious than both of them.
He didn't know what kind of cronies he had listened to. He didn't want to study in his third year of high school, so he wanted to go out to do business and do a "big career". Under the instigation of those gangsters who were much older than him, Lin Bin went to borrow usury and invest. A company I've never heard of.
Naturally, he was deceived.
His cronies and cronies stole the money he borrowed and ran away, but the loan sharks only recognized Lin Bin and forced him to pay back the money.
Where did Lin Bin get the money, he kept stealing it from home. But the usury interest rate is compounded by the little money he stole. The loan sharks arrested him and forced Pan Juan to pay him within ten days. If they didn't pay back, they cut Lin Bin's kidney and sold it.
Although Pan Juan was angry, she felt distressed and helpless. She was so frightened that she hurriedly pooled up all the money in the family, and even took Lin Qingyu's tuition fees for the next school year. A house is also listed for sale, but the house can't be sold so quickly.
The ten days restricted by the other party are coming.
Lin Qingyu said to call the police, but Pan Juan was afraid of getting involved with loan sharks. When the school started, the school would not accept Lin Bin. He didn't even have a high school diploma.
During that time, Lin Qingyu had countless fights with Pan Juan over this.
Later, Pan Juan took Lin Qingyu to find the other party's connector, and wanted the other party to give him a little time. The connector said: "It's okay, you can use your daughter to pay for a few days of interest."
Lin Qingyu was furious when she heard this, but Pan Juan beside her didn't immediately refuse. Lin Qingyu can still feel the suffocating silence at that time. She turned her head to look at her mother in disbelief. , the voice trembled:
"mom?"
After Pan Juan hesitated, she gritted her teeth, and finally said that she would try her best to collect all the money within the deadline.
Pan Juan didn't agree, but that moment of hesitation was enough to kill Lin Qingyu's trust in her mother.
After returning home, Lin Qingyu felt chills all over her body. She asked Pan Juan: Is it true that if she can't make up the money on the last day, will she really be sent to pay interest
Pan Juan's eyes turned red from crying: "That's your brother!" She said hoarsely, "He's still so young, he hasn't finished reading yet!"
"What about me? I'm your daughter?"
Pan Juan just sat on the sofa and cried bitterly.
At that moment, Lin Qingyu really wished that her younger brother would just die like this, and she was also extremely desperate for Pan Juan.
Everything in the house was the same as usual, but she felt as if she had experienced a Tangshan earthquake. Her mother did not hesitate to crush the slate on her body as she joked before.
She really gritted her teeth with hatred, and trembled uncontrollably with hatred. At the same time, she was also afraid, terrified, and unspeakably sad and painful.
After she knew that her mother had such thoughts, she no longer dared to place all her hopes on Pan Juan. She didn't want to help Lin Bin, not at all, but as her mother said, that was her brother, a piece of flesh stuck to her body, if she didn't help now, she would go to hell with him.
Lin Qingyu contacted Su Xia and asked Su Xia to ask her parents to borrow the money for the principal owed by her brother. To Su Xia, Lin Qingyu issued an IOU, and promised again and again that when the house was sold, she would pay for it as soon as possible. Pay her back.
After returning home, Lin Qingyu treated her mother like an enemy for the first time. She said that she had borrowed money to redeem Lin Bin, and she could save Lin Bin, but there were conditions. The condition is that after the house is sold and the money is paid back, the extra money will be Lin Qingyu's.
After Pan Juan heard this, she still couldn't believe it. She said, "You are threatening me with your brother's life-saving money!"
Lin Qingyu said, "Yes." She said, "If you don't agree, I will return the money right now. I don't care if Lin Bin's kidney is there."
Pan Juan had no choice but to agree to her, and Lin Qingyu also prepared a contract, asking Pan Juan and her to sign and stamp their fingerprints, each with one point.
Organized, like a cold businessman.
And if she is not a businessman, what will she do, be a family member
She was afraid that her family would sell herself.
And businessmen, at least they can protect themselves.
She took the money in her own hands, and on the day of repayment, she and Pan Juan went to see the connector. She remembered that she negotiated with the other party with her back straight that day. Gunli, let's stop this matter now, or she will tear her head apart and bleed, and she won't want her brother's kidney either.
The other party was able to get back the principal, and had received enough interest before, so he brought this matter up. Put Lin Bin back.
After Lin Bin came back, he was very honest for a while, went to school obediently, and stopped going out to cause trouble.
Pan Juan felt very comforted. After the house was sold, she gave all the money to Lin Qingyu according to the contract, but because of this, the relationship between Pan Juan and Lin Qingyu was extremely low. Pan Juan thinks that Lin Qingyu... has gone bad.
Lin Qingyu became a girl who could threaten her with her brother's life-saving money at such a critical moment, asking her for property.
And Lin Qingyu also thought that she had become bad, indifferent, and even unhuman.
After the money from selling the house was repaid to Su Xia, there was not much left, not even enough for her tuition for a school year. Lin Qingyu didn't plan to ask Pan Juan for money anymore. I don't even want to see the face.
She made up her mind that she must break away from her family and tear off the piece of flesh called "Lin Bin" that stuck to her body. She moved out and used the money to rent a house outside.
She went to school to suspend her studies without discussing it with Pan Juan. Maybe... Pan Juan didn't care what she was doing anymore.
She lost contact with her mother just like that. What was amazing was that Lin Bin would occasionally call, admit his mistake, and let her go back. But as long as Lin Qingyu's attitude becomes tough, there will be another quarrel in the end.
Lin Qingyu started to go out to work, working three minutes a day, morning and evening, in order to collect enough tuition fees, enough for her remaining two school years, and then graduate, find a job, and leave that home forever.
"But I didn't expect it." Lin Qingyu sighed, "I'm finally a senior, I'm about to graduate, and it's fucking sexist to find a job!"
She sighed angrily, and then fell silent again: "So, Su Yi'an, do you know how disappointed I am in myself as a girl." She counted on her fingers, "My family, career, everything It's all about my gender! But you see, I'm out of that gender now, I can finally give up being a girl."
She looked at her hands, "So, really don't tell me about letting me go back in the future."
"That world, I don't want to go back."
The sun is still warm in winter, and the wind is silent at this time, cooperating with the speechless two people.
Listening to Lin Qingyu's words, Su Yi'an felt that every word she said after that was tearing the flesh of his heart. Every word and every word tore his heart into a mess. He turned his head and looked at Lin Qingyu, and then turned his face back considerately no matter how distressed he was.
Because he knew that Lin Qingyu, who was calmly saying these words now, didn't want others to see her frail appearance with tears streaming down her face.