Su Yi'an said something terrible, Lin Qingyu knew it, but Su Yi'an didn't seem to have this consciousness, his eyes were still calm, looking at Lin Qingyu as usual in class.
There is probably no one in this world who can express his love like this.
And even if Su Yi'an looks so indifferent, Lin Qingyu doesn't have the heart to complain about her now, she just wants to ask three words: "Why?" She thought about it, felt wrong, and changed another sentence: "You are here Are you kidding me?" After thinking about it, she still felt wrong, so she added, "Your expression is really unique."
Yes, if you think about it carefully, if Su Yi'an doesn't like her, then there's no need to save her, help her, and help her. Available at this same time! He also disliked her time and time again! Squeeze her out! Embarrass her!
What kind of godlike man is this... Oh! wrong! He made things difficult for her first, and then helped her. After coming to this world, Su Yi'an gradually became gentle! so! He sure enough!
"I like boys!"
Su Yi'an frowned, and the serious look on his face just now was broken instantly. He stared at Lin Qingyu with disgust in his eyes: "What nonsense are you thinking about?"
Lin Qingyu gritted her teeth: "I really want to have a boy all the time, but I have always kept a girl's heart. No matter who I am with in the future, I seem to be crooked, so, just because In this way, I am ready to be alone for the rest of my life in the future!" She had a hard expression, "I'm sorry, I can't accept you."
If one had to find a state to describe Su Yi'an at this moment, then he probably felt as uncomfortable as swallowing feces.
He looked at Lin Qingyu's rejection of him with a cold face, and suddenly wanted to beat himself to death for saying that sentence just now.
"Think wildly as you wish." Su Yi'an dropped this sentence, and reached out to snatch the coat that Lin Qingyu was holding, but just grabbed the collar of the coat, but failed to take the coat over, because Lin Qingyu was Hugging his clothes tightly, he opened his eyes and asked him.
"If what I said just now was my wild imagination, then tell me what is the truth." She was so serious and so direct, "Su Yi'an, why do you like me?"
He let go of his coat: "Because of habit."
Because of habit? What a stupid answer. Just like he buys a TV and doesn’t watch it because he is used to having a TV at home, but he buys plants but doesn’t bother to water them, just because he is used to having plants at home. He likes her just because he is used to liking her
And... what kind of habit is this, this...
Lin Qingyu finally recalled the meaning of this sentence at this moment. Su Yi'an is used to liking her, that is to say, he has liked her... for a long, long time.
Lin Qingyu looked up at him: "You... when..."
"When I met you."
When she met her, she was limping on one leg and leaning on a cane. She limped and rushed to him, pushed away all the classmates who bullied him, stood in front of him, and protected him.
Lin Qingyu was a little dazed: "So long."
"Yes, that long." Su Yi'an said bluntly, "From then to now, it has become a habit."
Lin Qingyu was very surprised, but after being surprised, a huge wave of puzzlement came to her mouth: "Then why did you target me like that when I met you in University A! Is that how you show your liking? You What kind of gender education did you receive abroad?"
Su Yi'an was silent for a moment: "When do you think I met you again?"
Lin Qingyu thought for a while: "I dropped out of school when I was supposed to be in my third year, and when I came back to my third year, I took the first class and you introduced your name, and then I recognized you at that time, didn't you? An excitedly slapped the table and stood up... "
As if thinking of the scene at that time, Lin Qingyu let out a chuckle, and pulled the corner of his mouth, "But you just said this classmate, please don't disturb the normal classroom order, class performance will be included in your usual grades... oh, you still Said 'what's your name'."
"Hehe, the words are clear. I can still feel the eyes of the students around me and the private ridicule. It's really embarrassing." How much trauma has come.
After hearing this, Su Yi'an was silent for a moment before regaining his topic point: "I went back to University A, and the first time I met you was when you went to the school for suspension procedures in your junior year."
Lin Qingyu was slightly taken aback when she heard the words, unexpectedly... it was at that time.
Su Yi'an continued: "At that time, your situation was not very good."
Without Su Yi'an's detailed description, Lin Qingyu can imagine that she was forced to suspend school at that time, no matter how much she comforted herself and forgave herself, the hatred for her mother and the hatred for her younger brother were like a vicious snake every day , hissing in her ear, making her irritable and selfish and indifferent.
Thinking of that time, Lin Qingyu immediately understood: "Oh." She turned her expression cold, and responded indifferently, "So, do you feel sad when you see me like that? The old man who was once kind, pure and shining again It's gone too, leaving only an ugly, selfish and indifferent power girl." Lin Qingyu smiled coldly again, "No wonder." She threw the clothes to Su Yi'an, "Sorry, I put the one in your memory Girl, it has become what it is now."
Su Yi'an caught the clothes, Lin Qingyu turned around and was about to leave, he stretched out his hand to pull her, Lin Qingyu felt wronged, she made a gesture to shake off Su Yi'an's hand, but said to him: "My hand is hurt." Stop the action.
Lin Qingyu felt aggrieved, this Su Yi'an, no matter what the reason for her becoming like this, she concluded that she had become a "bad girl", and now she still had to take care of him in a reasonable way, unwilling to let him The injury on his hand got worse...
Lin Qingyu gritted her teeth: "I'll count to three, if you don't let go, I don't care if you are injured or not."
"I'm afraid of changing because I have never been able to get out of the shadow of my childhood. The cowardly Su Yi'an you saw when you were a child has never disappeared."
"three!"
"Once the surrounding environment changes, I will feel restless, fearful, and restless."
"two!"
"And the only one who can soothe the whispers in my heart is you."
"..." Hearing this sentence, the corners of Lin Qingyu's mouth trembled, and she couldn't count the last one.
"Lin Qingyu, you may not know that for a long time, you have been my reliance."
Su Yi'an was like this, during Lin Qingyu's countdown, he calmly spoke a few words, which moved Lin Qingyu's heart of compassion.
Because she knows him well, she knows how uneasy the little Su Yi'an used to be, how terrified he was in his childhood when he lost his parents. She had seen him look scared, so she knew how distressed Su Yi'an was.
"In these years abroad, I have used all my energy to learn what I can learn." Su Yi'an said in a voice with little emotion as if he was still in class, "Learning martial arts because I want to protect you, and graduating early because I want to I met you earlier. It has become my habit to look at the star you sent me every day to fall asleep."
Lin Qingyu couldn't believe that in a foreign country, there was someone who relied on her like this across the thickness of the earth.
"I have made all the preparations and finally returned home. I look forward to you in every possible way..."
When Lin Qingyu heard this, she finally lowered her eyes. Compared with the anger she heard at the first glance, she was more helpless at the moment. He expected her in every possible way, but she couldn't do anything to live up to his expectations. .
She was not wrong, and so was Su Yi'an.
Because they are inherently handicapped. Many people have already exhausted their energy just by thinking about their own affairs wholeheartedly.
How can there be someone who can feel your pain personally? How can anyone feel the same in this world? Just like Su Yi'an doesn't understand her changes, she also doesn't understand Su Yi'an's loss when her expectations are shattered.
"I was lost at the time, and I even resented you." Su Yi'an said, "Because you lost the girl I depended on. So the cowardly child in my heart began to avoid you and escape from loss. But he couldn't let go Fuck you, that's why you have what you call making things difficult, disgusting and embarrassing you. It's me who is naively venting my emotions on you who is innocent."
"It is my fault."
As Su Yi'an said, Lin Qingyu was taken aback for a moment. She never expected that Su Yi'an would change the subject... Just like that, apologizing to her
"Perhaps what I really dislike is when you are forced to change, and you don't have a trace of yourself." Su Yi'an put on his coat with difficulty.
Lin Qingyu thought for a while, and instead began to comfort Su Yi'an: "There is nothing to hate. Change is a normal thing. No one or anything stays the same. I have become like this. I am no longer entangled, so don't worry about it. Stuck, if you want to get used to it, get used to the change."
Su Yi'an glanced at her. He had already buttoned up his coat, and started to walk outside. While walking, he said, "My habits will never change. So Lin Qingyu, I will take the clothes from when I was a child." You, get it back."
Get her back as a child
What an international joke!
Lin Qingyu stepped forward and stopped in front of Su Yi'an: "To put it in your words, I am very used to the current life, so don't play tricks on me!"
Su Yi'an glanced at her: "I won't let you abandon your former self so easily."
Previous self
Is it the self who can smile brighter than flowers with a piece of candy? When we were young, everyone was so innocent, but if we are still like this when we grow up, if we are not stupid, then what kind of love and pampering will be needed to maintain it.
Lin Qingyu didn't believe that she was so lucky.
But Su Yi'an's serious gaze made her slightly dazzled.