It was extremely similar to Lin Qingyu's mood.
When she got home that night, she tossed and turned and couldn't sleep anyway.
She was wondering if she had made a mistake in her memory, or if there was something wrong with her memory. In fact, Su Yi'an came back by car with her. Or Su Yi'an really disappeared for a while for some reason, but when he goes to school tomorrow, he will sit in his seat again, and then talk to her, tease her, dislike her, or even avoid her and ignore her, it doesn't matter...
Just let her know that he is still there, this world is not just a strange one like her...
It was the coldest time of spring, the sky was overcast for half the night, and thunder and rain began in the second half of the night. Lin Qingyu felt even more lonely and sleepless listening to the sound of spring thunder and rain, but now she didn't have a cell phone, and the landline couldn't recite Su Yi'an's home number, so she could only stare dryly under the quilt until the next morning.
Before dawn, she couldn't wait to pack her schoolbag early. When Pan Juan just got up and hadn't made breakfast, she just said hello and hurried out with her schoolbag and ran to school. Even Pan Juan yelled from behind: "Take an umbrella!" and didn't listen.
She ran all the way to the school in the drizzle, but before the classmates who came to open the door came, she squatted at the door with her schoolbag in her arms.
She had never felt this kind of expectation and fear of disappointment.
Waiting until the classmate who opened the door came, the child asked her: "Lin Qingyu, you came so early too? Have you finished your homework? Let me copy it." Lin Qingyu didn't have the mood to care about homework, and opened the door with eyes It immediately landed on Su Yi'an's table.
The table was still there, Lin Qingyu ran over immediately, but he cleaned up the whole table, there was nothing, Lin Qingyu immediately raised her head and asked the kid who came in with her: "This is Su Yian's table, right? Did he go on a spring outing with us yesterday?" She stared at the child closely, waiting for her answer made her more nervous than waiting for the results of the college entrance examination.
"Su... what?" The little girl tilted her head and looked at Lin Qingyu for a while, "No one has been sitting in that seat in our class."
Lin Qingyu's face slowly turned pale in every word of this answer.
She sat down on the chair exhaustedly.
The students around gradually gathered together, and Lin Qingyu was still sitting on that chair unable to recover.
Su Yi'an really disappeared, but how could it be? And why? Was there something wrong with the vow they made at the time? Or did the world suddenly go wrong
The questions in Lin Qingyu's mind popped up one by one like a blowout, but all the questions came down to the end, and there was actually only one thing she wanted to know the most—is he okay
And this question was the most impossible for her to find out, because she couldn't find Su Yi'an at all.
After a few days of being in a trance like this, the head teacher asked Lin Qingyu to invite the parents, Lin Qingyu also forgot about it in a trance, the next day the head teacher finally couldn't bear it, and at night followed Lin Qingyu We went home together.
Listening absent-mindedly to the head teacher talking with her mother in the living room, the head teacher said seriously about her recent mental state, Pan Juan looked at her worriedly, and said to the head teacher while wiping her tears: "I'm afraid she still thinks about her father …”
Lin Qingyu stared blankly at the curious eyes of Lin Bin, who was still in the first and second grades, and suddenly realized that if Su Yi'an was not here, how would she return to the original world that belonged to her alone
Or is it that she can't go back at all, and she wants to live her life as a child all over again
Lin Qingyu felt a little helpless and panicked.
In the evening, Pan Juan held her hand and spoke words of comfort to her.
Lin Qingyu had no choice but to suppress her emotions and pretended to be put to sleep by Pan Juan. She pondered for another night, thinking, if she can't go back and wants to live here forever, then she can no longer act willfully, and she has to be responsible for her own life.
The next day Lin Qingyu obediently went to school, she was still distracted in class, but when it came to physical education and music class, she didn't skip class anymore, and went obediently with the children, as if she wanted to change her mood.
But Lin Qingyu didn't expect that when she was in physical education class, her melancholy life for the past few days suddenly took a turn for the better...
Because she saw that in a small open space behind the school playground, in a corner that was not visited by people, suddenly, inexplicably, suddenly, a half-sized tree grew up.
Lin Qingyu has never had a physical education class since Su Yi'an disappeared, so she only found this tree today. Its branches are still bare, and it has not bloomed or sprouted like other trees.
Now Lin Qingyu has strong doubts about everything that suddenly appears, especially trees!
So Lin Qingyu first asked the physical education teacher to point to the tree in the corner and asked, "Is there such a tree before our school playground? When was it planted?"
The physical education teacher was puzzled by the question. He looked at the small sapling in the corner and thought for a while: "I have always had it. I have been working for several years, and I have always had it in my memory."
good, very good! Teacher, as long as you have it in your memory! Lin Qingyu was very happy, because in her memory, there was no such tree in the school playground!
Lin Qingyu immediately expressed her deep gratitude to the physical education teacher, and then walked towards the tree. When she went up, she kicked the tree trunk without explanation, and then practiced punches against the tree trunk, "Ping, bang, bang!" "For a while, I beat it until my little hands hurt, and the tree didn't move. It just shook the dry branches and took root in the ground quietly.
Lin Qingyu gritted her teeth at the tree and shouted: "Su Yi'an, you bastard!"
"Smelly rascal! A big liar! His mouth is poisonous and his eyes are dark! He spits on people's faces all day long!"
The dead tree didn't respond, but Lin Qingyu became weaker and weaker, and finally stopped by herself, and covered her face with her hands, her voice finally choked up: "You scared me to death..." The little girl just stood there In front of this silent withered tree, crying loudly, "You scared me to death! I thought you were gone! I thought you were gone! I thought you left me! You bastard..."
She had never cried in front of people in such a shame.
She didn't cry when her mother let her down, she didn't cry when she was struggling to survive under the pressure of life, and when she was discriminated against in employment, she could control herself not to cry when she was sober.
But now, Lin Qingyu was crying in embarrassment, out of breath.
Because she knows that shedding tears to people who don't like her means defeat, shedding tears to strangers means weakness, and shedding tears to reality is nothing more than taking an ineffective medicine.
Tears can only be loved and distressed if they are shed for those who care about her.
And Lin Qingyu did succeed at this time.
Because when her crying faded away, she finally heard the withered tree, which had been silent like a dead thing, let out a half-resigned and half-coaxed sigh, "Don't cry." Crying flowers."
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Su Yi'an spoke, his voice was like a magical breeze, blowing away the remaining haze and anxiety in Lin Qingyu's heart.
Actually, knowing that Su Yi'an is still here is enough comfort for Lin Qingyu. But in the end, she cried a little harder just now, and Lin Qingyu couldn't stop sobbing all the time. When she finally stopped, the physical education teacher had already started whistling for everyone to gather.
Lin Qingyu took a deep breath, sorted out her emotions, and said a harsh word: "I'll come to settle accounts with you after school at night."
Recently, the class teacher has paid enough attention to her. If she doesn't attend class well, she might feel that she has mental problems and ask Pan Juan to take her home. It was with great difficulty that she found Su Yi'an who had turned into a tree at school, so nothing could go wrong.
Seeing Lin Qingyu bouncing away, Su Yi'an stayed in place quietly. The feeling of being deeply rooted in the ground gave him a sense of security, he didn't need to become a human being, and he didn't have a human face, so Lin Qingyu couldn't see the dark expression on his face and the anxiety deep in his heart.
He thinks this is very good, so that Lin Qingyu won't notice the... weakness hidden deep in his heart.
Usually, Lin Qingyu didn't listen to the lectures much, and she couldn't listen to them this afternoon.
She took out a small notebook, intending to describe how bad the nature of Su Yi'an's sudden disappearance was, and then read it to him bit by bit when the time came, and asked him to promise that he would never do this again.
But after thinking about it, the reason why Su Yi'an can become a tree is because both of them have this will. Lin Qingyu tapped the tip of her pen on her head and thought for a while, then she suddenly thought that when they went on a spring outing that day, she asked Su Yi'an if she wanted to go back on the surface, but she actually had other thoughts in her heart.
Lin Qingyu could vaguely guess the reason for Su Yi'an avoiding her during that time, she knew Su Yi'an very well now, and so did Su Yi'an. He must have guessed that she would tell him that she wanted to go back soon.
And if they both make a wish to go back, everything in this world will end. So far, they have lived in this world for almost half a year, Su Yi'an...he has adapted to life in this world.
He didn't want to change anymore.
So that day, when Lin Qingyu asked Su Yi'an if he wanted to go back, he actually respected Su Yi'an's opinion in his heart. At the moment when the question was asked, the truest wish in her heart was not to go back, but to let Su Yi'an live a life with the most peace of mind.
And even though Su Yi'an said "Yes." It sounded like he was willing to go back, but deep down in his heart, he probably didn't think so. That's why he became like this.
To become a tree was his wish when he was a child, and it was also the first subconscious appeal in his heart when he wanted to avoid something when he grew up.
So Su Yi'an became like this.
Lin Qingyu looked at the paper under the pen, then tore it off, crumpled it up, and threw it away.
After school, Lin Qingyu came to the super long corner. She looked at the dead tree and didn't speak. He just kept staring at him until Su Yi'an couldn't bear it anymore, and asked her: "It's getting dark, won't you go home?"
Lin Qingyu curled her lips at this moment and said, "Su Yi'an, we actually look alike. After being stepped on with a sore foot, he would bluff and scare others, but his first reaction was to hide."
Su Yi'an was silent.
"I thought about a lot of things to say to you today, but I don't know why, seeing you here, I can't say anything." Lin Qingyu stepped forward, raised her hand and gently stroked it. The trunk, the bark are rough, and there is no temperature. Lin Qingyu touched Su Yi'an like this, and suddenly felt distressed, "You became like this, because of this, it will make you feel safer."
"En." Su Yi'an responded, "I don't know what changes I will face after I go back, so I am uneasy."
After returning, will he still remember what happened here? Will Lin Qingyu still remember what the world over there has become now? He doesn't know, so he is afraid.
His answer made Lin Qingyu blame herself a little, she had no way to give Su Yi'an a sense of security.
In the evening, the elementary school campus was already silent, and the silent air was wandering between the two of them. Suddenly, Su Yi'an called softly: "Lin Qingyu." He could feel Lin Qingyu's hand on his heart. , but now, he can feel her heartbeat and body temperature, but because of his hiding, Lin Qingyu can't even capture his expression, "Do you want to go back?"
He asked the question that Lin Qingyu asked him that day.
Lin Qingyu remained silent and did not answer.
Su Yi'an's voice was as calm and calm as usual, without showing any emotion: "If you want to go back, I will let you go back. Don't waste your time for me."
Lin Qingyu stood in front of the tree for a long time, then suddenly raised her head and said, "Okay, if you let me go back, I will pretend that I have never known you before. After I go back, I will find Xie Chengxuan again, and then confess my love to him. Stalk him and find a job, and I will never think of you again in this life."
"… good."
Hearing that he actually answered the word, Lin Qingyu kicked the tree again: "What a ghost! Let me tell you, Su Yi'an, you were my boyfriend a few days ago, unless I dump you, Otherwise, don't even think about abandoning me."
Lin Qingyu said solemnly to the tree trunk: "Su Yi'an, listen, if what you really want is this kind of life, then I will be here to accompany you to live this kind of life. I said that I want to be your girlfriend Really, after going through so much with you, I think that I will probably never fall in love with anyone other than Su Yi'an in this life. Unfortunately, in the whole world, there is only one Su Yi'an. So I won't Give up yours."
As Lin Qingyu said this, her black pupils reflected the setting sun, as if a fire was burning in her eyes. At this moment, Su Yian seemed to be burned from the heart of the tree by the fire in her eyes , In a trance, he could feel the body temperature of a tree...
"Hey! That kid!" From a distance, a grandfather suddenly yelled, breaking the atmosphere between the two. Lin Qingyu turned her head and saw that the uncle who locked the door was holding the key and shouting at her. Shouting, "It's time to go home! I'm going to lock the gate!"
Lin Qingyu had no choice but to quietly add: "Just wait, I will come to you tomorrow."
Watching her leave, Su Yi'an gazed at the sunset. Su Yi'an, who had been emotionally silent for so many days, suddenly had expectations for tomorrow.
Lin Qingyu came early the next day, and she brought a kettle full of water with her.
She stood in front of the book, and while eating steamed stuffed buns, she greeted Su Yi'an: "Good morning, I brought you breakfast." She shook the kettle in her hand, "Is your girlfriend very considerate?"
Su Yi'an: "..."
Suddenly he felt that it would be better not to have any expectations for Lin Qingyu.
In this way, Lin Qingyu began to fall in love with a tree. Every day after class, lunch break, and after school in the evening, she would come to the playground...to water him. Su Yi'an always coldly rejects her: "Too much water will drown you."
Lin Qingyu opened her eyes wide and asked him: "Then I'll fertilize you? Chemical fertilizers are bad and not environmentally friendly. I'll find natural fertilizers for you! Which do you like? Cats, dogs? Humans?" ?Other people's is too dirty, but I can help you find a way... "
Su Yi'an: "... Lin Qingyu, if you dare to do this, don't talk about this life, don't come to me in the next life."
"Why are you so difficult to serve! I don't think it's dirty, don't you just eat this now!" Lin Qingyu lost her temper, and Su Yi'an felt like vomiting blood, and then Lin Qingyu asked, "Would you like to eat?" Why don't I dig the soil for you? I'll be careful not to stick your roots up."
"Give me a rest! Stand here and don't move."
As soon as his tone became serious, Lin Qingyu subconsciously felt nervous about being threatened by the teacher to fail the class. She stood for a while, but glanced at Su Yi'an's bare branches, and muttered anxiously: "But you haven't bloomed yet, other trees have bloomed, and you don't even have a bud... What if it doesn't bloom... "
After hearing this, Su Yi'an suddenly realized why Lin Qingyu was in such a hurry to show affection to him... It turned out that she was afraid of him and died.
Realizing this, Su Yi'an couldn't get angry anymore, and his tone softened a little: "It's just a little late." He paused, and then told Lin Qingyu, "Look up at the three people on the front left. At the top of the branch, there are new shoots."
Lin Qingyu's eyes lit up when she heard the words, and she immediately went to look for it. When she found it, she immediately exclaimed with joy: "Really! I have it!" It was worse than hearing that an infertile couple was pregnant. Happy, but after she was happy, she asked again, "Su Yi'an, what kind of tree are you, and what kind of flowers do you bloom?" After asking, before Su Yi'an could answer, Lin Qingyu suddenly smiled wretchedly:
"Hey, I heard that the flowers of plants are their x-organs. In a few days, your head will be full of that... Hehehe."
Su Yi'an looked at the little girl with an obscene smile on her face, and suddenly felt that she had suddenly lost her ability to speak...
Sure enough, after a few days, all the flowers on Su Yi'an's branches bloomed. Pink and tender, Lin Qingyu doesn't recognize flowers, but she knows that Su Yi'an's blooming is really... too coquettish.
She teased Su Yi'an many times for this, and Su Yi'an was used to it, no matter what Lin Qingyu said, he would remain calm.
Lin Qingyu no longer ran around in a hurry to show courteousness to Su Yi'an. When the sun was good, she would sit at Su Yi'an's feet with her back against the tree, and then look at the sky, squinting her eyes to enjoy the leisure.
Sometimes I also chat with Su Yi'an. Between her and Su Yi'an, there are many pasts to talk about, for example: "I never thought you liked me when I was young, I remember that I also secretly liked you when I was young."
Regarding Lin Qingyu's statement, Su Yi'an only said two words: "I don't believe it."
Lin Qingyu was surprised: "Why don't you believe it?"
"Even if you like it, it's not deep, after all, you'll forget it when you're older."
"Who said I forgot, when I came back from school and saw you in my junior year, I was secretly happy for a while."
"That's just because you're lucky you don't have to fail a course."
Lin Qingyu opened her mouth, but found that what Su Yi'an said was true. When she met Su Yi'an again, she was happiest because she had an acquaintance as a teacher. She definitely didn't have to fail this course, but she didn't expect that Su Yi'an was the one who failed. Class: "I haven't settled with you yet!" Lin Qingyu threw back the sentence unconvinced, "You said you didn't like me at the time, so it's fine to target me in normal times, and you failed my department at the end of the semester, which made me fall Retake the semester, do you think you are taking personal revenge!"
"No." Su Yi'an said, "At the end of the semester, the school strictly checks and counts the usual attendance as your grade. If your usual attendance is not up to standard, you will be suspended by the Academic Affairs Office."
"I… "
Yes, at that time, she still had some part-time work that she hadn't finished. She usually counted the number of attendance checks and escaped as soon as she could. In the end... it turned out that she fell on this. Lin Qingyu looked up at the flowers on his head, and let the petals float to her face: "Then why didn't you tell me when I went to ask you why?"
Su Yi'an didn't answer.
"I've chased you and asked so many times, but you didn't tell me. If you want to be hated, it's your fault..."
"I'll answer you the first time, will you still ask me after that?"
Su Yi'an's answer interrupted Lin Qingyu's words, and then Lin Qingyu was stunned. After realizing the meaning of the words, Lin Qingyu secretly gritted her teeth in hatred: "Well, you Su Yi'an, you are so sinister. Don't you hate me! Why do you let me run after you?"
"Who said I hate you." Su Yi settled down, "It's true that you hate you. When I went to the bar where you worked, I bought a five-pointed star and gave it to you, and I was scolded as a headache."
Lin Qingyu heard the words and reacted for a long time: "When did I... ah! Pentagram!" She remembered, "You gave me that pentagram!" She scratched her head, "Brother, I was in a bar Work! It's dangerous to work in a place like a bar, okay? Every night a man sitting in a corner gives me a five-pointed star out of nowhere. What if it's a pervert? Of course, you have to stop drinking in time. Who knows it's you... "
"Isn't true love supposed to know?"
"You've watched too many TV shows. Professor Su, your girlish heart can go and compete with Su Xia."
Su Yi'an smiled slightly listening to Lin Qingyu's words.
Every day, they chat like this in their spare time, as if there is endless past and endless words to talk about. The more we talked, the more we understood, Lin Qingyu occasionally remembered what the teacher said to her when she was a child, the teacher said that Su Yi'an was sick, but she didn't realize it at the time, but now that she thinks about it, Su Yi'an has actually been sick all the time.
In his heart, because of the sudden death of his parents and the fragmentation of his family since he was a child, he did not believe that anyone would always be with him.
He is an autistic person who refuses to interact with people because he is afraid of being alone. Because without contact, there will be no expectations, and without expectations, there will be no disappointment. What he is afraid of is the emptiness after being abandoned.
So he relied on Lin Qingyu when he was a child, because in his childhood, there was only one Lin Qingyu who did not abandon him. They separated because he was forced to leave, and because of this, Su Yi'an I will always think about going back to China to find her. Although it was unsatisfactory at the beginning, but now after going around, Su Yi'an can be considered to have found the Lin Qingyu from the beginning.
It was another sunny day. On Su Yi'an's branch, the pink flowers withered and withered, but the green shoots had already emerged. Lin Qingyu sat under the tree, looked at the sun, and said with emotion: " When you were a tree before, I watched your leaves fall, and now when you become a tree again, I watch you sprout again." She grinned, "I can be regarded as a woman who has seen your life and death. Bar."
It was originally a joke, but it felt different to Su Yi'an's ears.
Lin Qingyu was right. If you counted it seriously, the time when he really met her again should be when his heart was disappointed and dry, and when the leaves were falling, because at that time, he was really disappointed in Lin Qingyu and himself. . And now, it is indeed like a dead tree in spring, new buds are born, and it is the beginning of a year full of vitality.
Lin Qingyu rubbed her back against him: "Suddenly I really want to be able to sit in your arms at this time, being hugged, with a warm chest..." After she finished speaking, she smiled and said, "But It's okay if you are like this, you can shade me. Su Yi'an, no matter what you are now, I like you. I will accompany you, just like you are willing to untie my heart knot, so accompany me to when I was a child , I am also willing to accompany you and grow up together, even if you are a tree, I will defend to the death your right to live in this land. I will protect you."
"Aren't you going back?" Su Yi'an asked her.
"It doesn't really matter whether I go back or not, because for me now, no matter what tomorrow looks like, I will not be afraid. I also hope that you are like me. No matter how hard the wind and rain are, as long as you are here, I will be at peace .”
Su Yi'an was behind her, feeling her body temperature, remained silent and did not speak, the new shoots on the tree were fresh and crisp under the sunlight.
Lin Qingyu leaned her head against the tree trunk, squinting her eyes. Under the laziness of the noon sun, Lin Qingyu was a little drowsy and wanted to sleep. With a smile on her lips, she leaned on Su Yi'an, and fell asleep slowly like this. past...
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There was a bit of noise in her ear, she heard the grown-up Lin Bin's voice that she hadn't heard for a long time, a little rough and reckless, he was arguing: "It's all mom, you usually talk about your son, I don't know How can you think that I am better than my sister? This is what people in your generation think! Look, you have forced my sister! If it weren't for you, would she be able to drink like this?"
Next to it was Pan Juan's crying, and Su Xia's patient and gentle persuasion: "Lin Bin, stop talking, your sister only drank yesterday because she was looking for a job, she is awake, and she doesn't want to see you It's so noisy."
Lin Qingyu slowly opened her eyes in the midst of such noise. As soon as she opened her eyes, Pan Juan saw: "Qingyu? Qingyu woke up."
When she shouted, several people in the room surrounded her.
Lin Qingyu turned her head to look, and beside her was Pan Juan's face who was older than when she was a child, with white hair and wrinkled face, looking up was Lin Bin and Su Xia, they were looking at her worriedly.
Pan Juan wiped her tears and muttered: "You child, you used to say that you won't go home if you don't go home. There is a lot of pressure outside, but your mother didn't say no to you. How could you ruin your body like this? It's all drunk. poisoned."
Lin Qingyu turned her gaze again, and saw the white walls all around, and the infusion tube in her hand.
She finally came to her senses, she is back, she has returned to the original world that belonged to her!
And it didn't seem that long since she was drunk!
Lin Qingyu was startled and sat up, startling the three people around her. Lin Qingyu turned her head and asked Su Xia: "Where's Su Yi'an?"
Su Xia was stunned for a long time before replying with blinking eyes: "He brought it here with you yesterday... Both of you fell down on the side of the road due to alcohol poisoning... He should be in the opposite ward now."
Lin Qingyu quickly pulled out the infusion tube in her hand, and the blood flowed out of her hand immediately. Pan Juan gasped in fright, but saw that Lin Qingyu had already got out of bed and ran to the door without shoes on.
The three chased and shouted after each other.
Lin Qingyu didn't care about it at all, as soon as she opened the door, at the same time, the door of the opposite ward suddenly opened, and a man wearing the same hospital gown as her stood at the door of the opposite ward, just different from Lin Qingyu. , No one behind him was chasing him.
And at this time, it doesn't matter if there is anyone else.
What matters is that they have each other in their eyes.
Lin Qingyu stepped out, and flew straight into Su Yi'an's arms, and Su Yi'an just opened his arms to catch her in his arms.
Embracing each other tightly, feeling each other's heartbeat love in the world that really belongs to them. Both of them exhausted all their strength, as if they wanted to rub each other into their bodies.
"You're back." Lin Qingyu said.
"We're back." Su Yi'an replied to her like this.
Behind Pan Juan and Lin Bin looked blank, and Su Xia looked at them as if she had seen a ghost: "Be good." She murmured, "You two have changed from sworn enemies to such... this is it... What kind of wine did you buy..."
Lin Qingyu hugged Su Yi'an, didn't answer, and didn't need to answer at all. Others thought they fell in love with each other after a drunk, so let's treat it like that!
They had a big dream together, and after waking up from the big dream, they finally hugged each other with the most real body temperature.
The author has something to say:
It's over~la la la~
This is not a long story, and there will be extra stories later~
First of all, I would like to thank all the little angels for their support, because of your righteous love along the way, Ah Jiu was able to use codewords as his work and insist on writing until now!
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Then I would like to thank the archangels who cheered Ah Jiu all the way, and bowed deeply again
The extra episode may be updated in two or three days, it is probably the legendary love in reality ╮(╯▽╰)╭
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