In the blink of an eye, it was New Year's Eve, Zhang's mother made dumplings, and the whole family sat together to eat, and Ji He ate several.
After eating the dumplings, when it was time to ask for red envelopes, Ji He was an elf. He had already taken a fancy to a remote control plane in the mall, and he was thinking of buying it with red envelopes.
"Grandpa and grandma, Gong Xi Fa Cai." He sat on the ground, smiled and cupped his hands after speaking, acting cute and cute.
The little girl Ji Xin looked at her elder brother, who was drinking milk, and then looked up at her father, her eyes flicked over several adults.
"This belongs to grandpa." Father Zhang put it in his hand with a smile, "I hope we will be safe every year."
"Thank you, grandpa." Ji He smiled broadly holding the red envelope.
"@#￥%..." Little Ji Xin took two steps forward, imitating his elder brother, and stretched out his chubby little hand towards Father Zhang.
She didn't know how to clasp her hands, she clasped her hands together and swung them up and down.
Zhang's father still had a red envelope in his hand, and suddenly seeing Ji Xin's appearance, he laughed heartily.
This child is smart, and he is the treasure of the whole family.
"This is for Xinxin." Father Zhang put it in her palm, and Ji Xin looked down at the red envelope.
"Xin Xin, grandma still has it here, what did Xin Xin do just now?" Mother Zhang coaxed her with a red envelope.
Little Ji Xin looked at grandma, sucked on the pacifier, and threw the red envelope aside.
Not fun at all.
Everyone: "..."
"Baby." Zhang Ruowan knelt down helplessly to hug her, picked up the red envelope and put it in her pocket, lowered her head and kissed her, and said softly, "You can't throw it away."
Both Ji He and Ji Xin had four small red envelopes, while Ji Yang and Zhang Ruowan got two, and Zhang's father and Zhang mother each gave them one.
Zhang Ruowan returned to the room, put her daughter to sleep, and carefully put her in the crib. Just as she stood up, Ji Yang stood behind her. She was startled, "What are you doing?"
Ji Yang stretched out his hand from behind, also holding a red envelope between his fingers, and handed it to her.
"What more red envelope do I need?" Zhang Ruowan accepted it even though she said so.
"In my heart, you are the same as He He and Xin Xin, of course I need it." Ji Yang's beautiful eyes looked at her with tenderness and tenderness.
Zhang Ruowan didn't return.
When he talked sweetly, he said that she was his heart and soul, and he would protect her from the wind and rain for the rest of his life. Maybe in the end all the bloody storms would be brought about by him.
Not credible.
"What's the matter? I've been depressed recently." Ji Yang followed her, "It's Chinese New Year, aren't you happy?"
Zhang Ruowan lowered her head and was folding the child's clothes, pursing her lips and smiling, "No, I'm happy."
Even though he pretended to be strong, his words were still very flat.
Ji Yang raised his eyebrows, stood at her and stretched out his hand, then wrapped his arms around her waist, hugged her on the bed, and pressed her slightly, "Really? Did I feel wrong?"
"You're overthinking." Zhang Ruowan wrapped her arms around his neck and smiled softly.
Ji Yang continued to stare at her, meeting her cool eyes, as if he wanted to see her inner thoughts from these eyes.
Zhang Ruowan was very guilty, but she still insisted on looking at him, and continued to laugh with the corners of her mouth pulled, "Why do you think so?"
what did he find
But she didn't reveal anything, she was very proficient in everything, even though she couldn't remember some things, she asked the elders of Zhang's family on the sidelines, and there was nothing wrong.
"I don't know, I just think you might like someone else, not me that much." Ji Yang said this suddenly, his tone was a little hurt.
"No...no." Zhang Ruowan felt in denial.
"I know, it's because of taking care of the children. You put a lot of energy into taking care of them." He sighed as he spoke, "It's thanks to you."
"... I'm sorry, because Xinxin is still young, I can't rest assured, maybe I didn't pay attention to this aspect, I apologize." Zhang Ruowan quickly admitted his mistake.
That being said, in fact, she also knows that Ji Yang has contributed a lot to taking care of the child, and has done a lot of things, big and small. He also takes care of her in his spare time, and often gets up to do things for her. For breakfast, make her favorite meal.
"It's good to know that I'm wrong." Ji Yang snorted softly, stretched out his hand and pinched her little nose, "Ignore me if you have a child, then what do you think of me? That's not okay."
"En." Zhang Ruowan nodded heavily, "I'll review it carefully."
"What's the use of talking about self-examination?" Ji Yang bowed his head and kissed her, Zhang Ruowan grabbed his hand and whispered, "I... I'm on my period."
Ji Yang's hands froze suddenly, as if he was holding his breath, he gritted his teeth, turned over in his arms, and said after a while, "I've been children for a while, when will the two of us go out and have a couple together?" The world is just the two of us, even half a day is fine."
"It's the middle of the year, so it must be busy." Zhang Ruowan said with some hesitation, and her tone was more tactful.
He felt right.
She was avoiding him on purpose, putting her whole body and mind on the child, to weaken her feelings for him.
Even though Ji Yang seemed harmless, that indelible "experience" told her: he was dangerous and heartless.
"Hehe will go to winter vacation classes in a few days, and parents can take care of their daughter, they are nearby." Ji Yang is still fighting for himself, and his words are somewhat resentful, "You used to arrange it, but you still mentioned it last time. "
Hearing this, a dazed scene suddenly appeared in Zhang Ruowan's mind. She nestled in Ji Yang's arms like now, raised her head and said sweetly, "Husband, can we just go out and play together? I'll decide." Hotels and scenic spots, go for two days.”
She frowned slightly, dismissed the scene in her mind, and sighed, "I don't really think about it. Xinxin has been very troubled recently, and I'm afraid that my parents won't be able to take care of me. Let it take a while."
Ji Yang can't help it either, the two of them who have children can no longer do whatever they want like before.
I don't know how long Zhang Ruowan said after a while.
In a blink of an eye, school starts.
Ji Yang teaches high school and is still in the class. Zhang Ruowan is also teaching high school, but they are not in the same class.
High school was already busy with courses, and Zhang Ruowan was in charge. She had never taught during that "experience", but it was easy to pick up the knowledge points and prepare lessons.
She knows all of the compulsory and often difficult points in the test.
Knowledge is constantly emerging in my mind, and the average score of the midterm exam is quite high, ranking high in the city.
She felt that she was more like amnesia, because some episodes would appear one after another. The moments of her life with Ji Yang were not like the pain in the "experience", most of them were very sweet together.
But what happened to that "experience"? Those heart-wrenching times can't lie to anyone. To be honest, she dare not trust Ji Yang anymore.
Slowly, she put her energy on the children. In teaching and research, there was only so little human energy, and Ji Yang was neglected.
Of course, even if it is well hidden, there are subtle changes that others will discover.
Zhang's father and Zhang's mother asked her several times in private, did she quarrel with Ji Yang? She denied it, of course, and then used the pressure from school as an excuse.
In this way, the two can't say anything.
When Ji He went to kindergarten, Ji Yang originally picked him up and slept in the kindergarten at noon, and then Zhang Ruowan picked him up by himself.
She just wants to keep herself busy, preferably very busy, so busy that she doesn't have to worry about some things.
Because Ji Yang treats her very well.
How good is it
It's better than when she was in love and married. People's hearts are full of flesh. She is an emotional person and her mind is easily shaken.
Once she thought about it too much, those pains would emerge again, tormenting her, and she began to suffer from insomnia all night long.
Sometimes I feel that this is a bizarre thing, maybe she has transmigrated into someone else, but it is indeed her.
Face experience parents have been telling her, big and small, that this is her.
Her body, her parents, her husband, her children, her job... are all telling her that all this is what she has experienced, and she has no choice but to maintain the status quo. If there is such a distance from Ji Yang, She also thinks it's good to live a normal life and bring up her two children.
Don't love anymore, it's too painful to love someone, and it's easy to lose yourself.
today.
Zhang Ruowan was going to take classmate Xiao Ji to the movies. It was a children's animation that had just been released. Because Ji Yang went to a meeting, the mother and son went out.
During the period, Ji Yang called once to ask about it, but he didn't say anything when he found out, but Zhang Ruowan was a little guilty and forgot to tell him. Now she likes to do things alone, and often forgets about him, so Ji Yang has a small opinion .
Xiao Ji watched it very enthusiastically, and continued to talk after the movie was shown, with a very excited expression on his face, yelling that he had to go to school to tell other children.
Zhang Ruowan smiled and held his hand, went out and squatted down to pick him up and walked out, the mother and son kept talking.
For her son, she feels that she has lost it and found it again. She has tasted the pain of loss before she knows how precious it is, and she can't wait to give all the good things she has to these two children.
"It's raining, mom, it's raining heavily." Classmate Xiao Ji hugged Zhang Ruowan, watching the pouring rain outside.
Zhang Ruowan frowned, this is not a square, her car is still parked on the right side, how can I get there
Across the street.
"We have to wait a while." Zhang Ruowan hugged his son and said to him, "We will go back when the rain stops."
Classmate Xiao Ji nodded.
The two waited for a long time, the rain continued to fall, and there was no trend of it getting smaller at all. Classmate Xiao Ji looked at her, "Mom, should we call Dad? Dad will come to pick us up."
"Father doesn't have a car." Zhang Ruowan shook her head, and the car let her drive.
"But Dad can take a taxi, take a taxi." Xiao Ji pointed to the yellow taxi outside, "Take that taxi."
Zhang Ruowan didn't want to bother Ji Yang, so she shook her head, "Let's wait, shall we wait?"
"Okay." Classmate Xiao Ji nodded, and looked at the rain in the next second, and a pleasant voice came, shouting, "Mom, Dad, it's Dad."