Before Zhang Ruowan could figure out how to deal with the relationship with Ji Yang, a shock had hit the small family.
This year, the school arranged for teachers to undergo physical examinations.
There was an abnormality in Ji Yang's physical examination, and the hospital asked him to do a detailed examination again. It happened that the school was evaluating classes again, so he didn't take it seriously after he got busy.
As a result, a week later, Ji Yang started to cough continuously and had a persistent low-grade fever, even after taking antipyretics.
"Go to the hospital, go now." Zhang Ruowan was always a little uneasy in her heart, and immediately took action to take Ji Yang to the hospital.
The doctor looked at his physical examination form, asked him to go to the hospital, and did several examinations first, one of which was a chest X-ray examination.
Zhang Ruowan looked at the checklist, and then at Ji Yang. He looked calm, but she was suddenly a little scared.
It took an hour for the test results to be printed out, so Zhang Ruowan waited outside with him, sitting on a chair.
"Feeling better?" Zhang Ruowan gave him the water glass and asked anxiously, but she was actually fidgeting.
"Yeah." Ji Yang took a sip of water, put the glass in his hand, and paused, "Don't worry, it's fine."
"It's okay, the doctor will ask you to re-examine?" Zhang Ruowan blurted out, frowning.
It was only after the words came out that I realized my excitement.
She thought that facing Ji Yang, her emotions would be peaceful, but her heart was still hanging at this moment.
Ji Yang looked at her, pursed his lips and smiled, and then slowly restrained his smile, "I'm actually not afraid, it's just that the child is still young."
As soon as he said that, Zhang Ruowan's tears welled up in his eyes.
Even though she was badly injured by him at the beginning, she never thought that he would have any retribution. Once someone said that he was in a car accident, she hurried over, fearing that something would happen to him.
"I'm fine, I don't think it's a big problem." He comforted her.
"En." Zhang Ruowan nodded heavily, she looked at the time, and when the time came, she immediately went to the machine and agreed.
Several report sheets are quickly printed out.
Before Ji Yang reached out, she had already picked it up and looked at it.
She couldn't understand the video, but she could probably guess a little bit about the diagnosis. After scanning it, her pupils shrank suddenly, her face turned pale, and her hands and feet were a little weak.
"Let me see." Ji Yang stretched out his hand from behind her.
Zhang Ruowan didn't show it to him, and dragged him to the doctor's office, her pace was a little anxious, and the words she saw were all in her mind.
Both breast and left breast have shadows, found abnormal...
doctor's office.
Zhang Ruowan didn't let Ji Yang in, and went in by herself. The gentle and quiet person on weekdays was extraordinarily strong today.
Ji Yang didn't resist, and waited for her outside.
"They all have shaded areas, which are in the shape of an oval. It looks like a lung hamartoma, and it's not a common benign tumor. Look here, there is also a shadowed area. Here is the same. It is very likely to be lung cancer. If it has spread..." The doctor said To Zhang Ruowan, slowly export.
Zhang Ruowan suppressed the tears in her eyes, and her lips trembled when she spoke, "Then what should we do in this situation? How can we treat it."
Once a malignant tumor spreads, it is already difficult to cure, and if it is serious, life will soon end.
"Your husband has no other obvious symptoms. I suggest you go for another biopsy to confirm the diagnosis."
"If it's lung cancer... it's better to treat it as soon as possible."
…
Zhang Ruowan shuffled out of the doctor's office, and her eyes fell on Ji Yang. As a family member, she knew that she needed calmness the most, but when she saw Ji Yang, tears came down.
It's like being in an ice cellar, extremely cold.
At first, I was still thinking that if Ji Yang treated her as before, she could also live with the child.
If he changed, then she would have the ability to face the rest of her life. It would be the same with him or without him, but as soon as the doctor's words came out of her mouth, her heart felt like a blunt knife was slowly sharpening her heart.
It hurts so much, it hurts so much.
She couldn't breathe, tears blurred her eyes, and she was shaking.
"Why are you crying?" Ji Yang stepped forward and raised his hand to wipe her tears, "What did the doctor say?"
She threw herself into his arms suddenly, shaking her head, "It's okay."
It must be all right.
He has not been diagnosed yet, he is so young and has no bad habits, how could it be lung cancer
impossible!
Ji Yang hugged her, put his chin on the top of her head, and could still laugh, "Do you care about me?"
Hearing this sentence, Zhang Ruowan cried even more fiercely. She had been obsessed with ignoring some things, and planned to gradually forget Ji Yang, but she forgot that for some people, love is love.
Going deep into the bone marrow, trying to forget, may be a cramping pain.
Even if Ji Yang is an irreplaceable existence in her heart.
Ji Yang was in the hospital, and Zhang Ruowan was afraid that the elders would be worried, so he lied that he had a fever and needed to go down, and repeatedly assured that he was fine.
She made an appointment for a biopsy the day after tomorrow, and she accompanied him at the hotel.
Ji Yang seemed to be in good spirits, but Zhang Ruowan still tried his best to take care of him, meticulously.
the next day.
Zhang Ruowan wanted to go back to get a change of clothes and daily necessities, Ji Yang leaned on the hospital bed and stopped her.
"Is there anything I need?" She turned around and asked him softly.
"Wan Wan." Ji Yang looked at her, his voice gentle and gentle, "The second compartment of the cabinet."
"Huh?" She wondered.
Ji Yang smiled, "Bring me the contents inside and let me have a look."
"Okay, I'll come over at night, you have a good rest." Zhang Ruowan thought it was some information.
When she got home, she packed up her clothes and opened the cabinet to find them.
Seeing what was inside, my hands stopped, and it took me a long time to take it out. I flipped through each portion, my eyes were a little moist, and I held my head up slightly to prevent tears from dripping down.
She slowly sat on the sofa, her eyes were dull, she looked at the bedside, and the pictures in her memory played back like a movie.
"Why do you buy so much insurance? We don't need extra medical insurance anymore. Didn't you buy it last time?" Her stomach was slightly protruding, she held her stomach with her hand, looked at the insurance in her hand, and looked sideways at the season. foreign.
"Yes, I want to buy it." Ji Yang said without hesitation, "The insurance amount is not enough, I want to make sure that if something happens to me, you and the child will have no worries for a lifetime."
"Why did something happen? I don't allow you to say that about yourself." She snorted softly, with a straight face, very unhappy.
"Aren't you afraid that something will happen to you? I can't bear to leave you guys behind." Ji Yang leaned over to hug her, and kissed her cheek, "Is the baby good today?"
"Be good, be good every day." She smiled, leaned over to hug him, sat on him, put her slender hands on his shoulders, and leaned lazily into his arms.
Ji Yang circled her and kissed her. She seemed to feel itchy, so she stretched out her hand and smiled and pushed him away, "Necrosis, itchy."
…
The scene in the house slowly changed. She looked to the side of the sofa, and saw herself wearing a woolen hat on her head, holding a small baby in her arms, and wearing thick warm pajamas, which should have just given birth.
Ji Yang was squatting in front of "her", with his cuffs rolled up, a small basin filled with chopped ginger was placed in front of him, Ji Yang put her feet in it, she pouted and smiled, eyebrows and eyes curved, "The temperature is just right this time, which is awesome."
"Great?" Ji Yang raised his eyebrows and looked up at her.
"Baby, dad is the best." She looked down at the child with happy smiles in her eyes.
…
"Birth, give birth, give birth, give birth to a little padded jacket."
Her voice rang in her ears again, Zhang Ruowan turned her eyes to the bed, the little Ji He was sitting on the inner side of the bed, holding the bottle in both hands, drinking milk obediently, "she" was lying on Ji Yang's back, and he was lying on his stomach holding the bottle. Watching the football game on the mobile phone, "If you don't have a baby, one will have to suffer. What else will you have? My son and I are not enough?"
"I want a daughter." She leaned on his shoulder and continued to act like a baby, "Husband...you don't love me anymore."
Zhang Ruowan looked at such a self-willed self, she would act like a baby with Ji Yang, but not so much, but now the emotions in her heart are constantly changing.
This is her memory, the "awakened" memory.
The picture was still going on, Ji Yang looked at her sideways, and squinted his eyes.
"She" suddenly leaned forward and kissed him on the face, a little provocative, with an accentuated tone, "Then you say you love me or not? You, love me or not?"
Ji Yang's eyes were helpless and doting, and he turned around again, as a tacit consent.
She lay down and continued to hug him, put down his cell phone, and continued to grind him in his ear.
…
Zhang Ruowan stared at the empty bed, with a smile on her lips, those memories appeared in her mind, one after another, gradually became clear, and gradually overshadowed those painful memories.
She knows every sweet moment of getting acquainted, falling in love, getting married and having children, the road we walked together, the places we visited, what we said, and what we did.
Zhang Ruowan wiped away her tears, calmed down, got up and walked out.
Zhang's father and Zhang's mother were a little suspicious, but they never asked. Zhang Ruowan kissed his daughter, who smiled at her, and she raised her hand to touch her. The daughter really looks like Ji Yang, even more like Ji He. It is the crystallization of their love.
She bought rice for Ji Yang, two stir-fried vegetables and one soup.
When Ji Yang came here, he was leaning against him in a daze, and when he saw her coming over, he smiled, "Is the baby doing well today?"
"Well, let's eat first." She nodded, put the bed table away, set out the food, sat opposite him, and reached out to serve him a bowl of soup, "Drink something to warm your stomach."
Ji Yang took it, looked at her twice more, twitched the corners of his mouth, and didn't continue talking.
The communication between the two has been like this during this time, and she rarely replied to him, so she rarely talked about irrelevant things.
"Eat this." Zhang Ruowan served him some food, urging him to eat more.
After eating, she cleaned up the bowl and gave Ji Yang the insurance she brought, saying softly, "It's all here."
"Well, I'll take a look first, and I'll see the results after the inspection tomorrow." He flipped through it, and there were several copies in total. "At the beginning, I just bought it at random, and it was quite comprehensive, and the insurance amount was also very high."
Zhang Ruowan knew that she couldn't hide it from him. Although Ji Yang didn't say anything, he knew a lot of things. Hearing what he said, she suddenly cried, "What's the use of being tall? It won't be used."
This kind of critical illness insurance mostly guarantees death, and the conditions for claim settlement are met, and people can't stay.
Last time, although she was heartbroken, she was also afraid and flustered, and didn't want anything to happen to him. This time, as soon as Ji Yang said it, she felt powerless, feeling extremely hopeless and on the verge of collapse.
"Wan Wan." Ji Yang has always acted very rationally, "There is nothing to cry about, everyone has their own life, if it is really cancer, it will not be cured, and there is no need, save the money for you and the child, I just feel sorry for you."
"About what you said last time, I have always wanted to have a good talk with you and re-cultivate our relationship, but now I think it's pretty good, it's good if I don't like it, find someone who is good to you, and try to be as good as possible. The child is better, and there is someone to support and live with, and can take care of you."
"It will be much easier for you if your teammates are strong, but don't foolishly expose your property to the other party."
…
He said a lot, each of which was a sincere suggestion, Zhang Ruowan was already crying, and couldn't help but went forward to hug him tightly.
She didn't know what Ji Yang felt when he heard her say that day, and she didn't know how sad and disappointed he was, but now, she couldn't accept without him and didn't allow him to have a little trouble.
I can't accept it.
She loves him so much, more than herself, if something happens to Ji Yang, all his spiritual support will collapse.
"Don't cry." He hugged her back and coaxed her softly, really treating her like Ji Xin.
"As long as you, I only want you, Ji Yang, I only want you." She choked with tears, "I said I only want you, I don't want anyone, I don't want it."
"As you said, raise and educate your children with me, and don't leave me alone."
Her face was full of tears, she looked at Ji Yang, sobbing, "Honey, don't leave me alone, please? I'm afraid."
At this time, Ji Yang's complexion changed a little. He looked at her deeply, and the emotions in his black eyes surged. Zhang Ruowan took a breath and continued to speak, "I had a dream. I dreamed that you didn't want me, you didn't want my baby, and you didn't want me. Leave me alone, with someone else."
"Nonsense!" Ji Yang frowned and interrupted her seriously.
"You said you never loved me, and you're tired of me, so you don't want to have a baby with me, and tell me to get out of here." Zhang Ruowan's memory of that period is already a little fuzzy.
"Wanwan, don't have messy dreams." Ji Yang had a stern face with displeasure on his face, obviously taking it seriously, and wiped away her tears with a piece of paper, "Dreams are reversed."
"The dream is reversed. The baby is born. You have to raise it with me, walk with me, and always treat me well." She emphasized.
"...Well." Ji Yang nodded, comforting her, "I will actively cooperate with the doctor's treatment."
"It will be fine, it will be fine." Zhang Ruowan continued to hug him, leaned against his generous shoulder with her face sideways, rubbed against him, and kept saying, "I don't want you to be fine."
She felt that the previous incident hurt Ji Yang a lot. She had never treated him like this before. He found out, but those words made him very cold.
In the evening, because it was a single ward, the bed was a bit bigger, Zhang Ruowan nestled on it with him, she stayed in his arms as before, reaching out to hug him.
Ji Yang's embrace is the place where she feels the warmest, and countless moments flooded into her mind, which was super heartwarming and healing for her, and she smiled when she looked at him.
He looked down at her with doubts in his eyes, before asking, Zhang Ruowan kissed his chin lightly, still a little shy to be looked at by him.
Ji Yang rubbed her head, "Go to sleep, I have to get up early tomorrow."
"Yeah." She hid in his arms.
the next day.
Early in the morning, Ji Yang was about to undergo a minor operation, and then sent to be tested for a diagnosis. Zhang Ruowan was waiting for him outside. No one was in more torment than her. She didn't show anything in front of Ji Yang. In fact, her spirit was tense. It may not be acceptable at any time.
The test results did not come out, Ji Yang had to continue to be hospitalized, Zhang Ruowan stayed with him as a whole, and the two were tired of being together.
"Is this the world of two people?" Ji Yang looked at Zhang Ruowan in front of him and asked.
"It doesn't count! I don't want this kind of world for two people." She turned around, "Hi, let's go to another place. Who lives in a world for two people here?"
Ji Yang is always like this, saying such words to ease the atmosphere, she knows that he is afraid that she will be under too much psychological pressure.
The next day, the results came out.
Zhang Ruowan didn't dare to take it, she wanted to escape instinctively, Ji Yang went to take it while she was going to the bathroom, but she rushed over, and before he could speak, her expression was already extremely ugly.
Pale and pale, without a trace of blood.
Ji Yang didn't dare to scare her vaguely, "It's benign, it's fine, but it needs an operation."
Hearing this, Zhang Ruowan's body loosened suddenly, tears continued to flow down her cheeks, and she murmured, "That's good, that's good."
The diagnosis was pneumonia pseudotumor, a benign tumor that could easily be judged as lung cancer. Surgical resection would have a remarkable effect, and the recovery was good.
The doctor arranged for the operation, so Zhang Ruowan dared to inform Zhang's father and mother at this time.
It wasn't the malignant tumor that made her breathe a sigh of relief. Then, she was worried that Ji Yang would be dangerous on the operating table, and she couldn't sleep all night holding him for fear of accidents.
Ji Yang couldn't talk about her yet, his eyes were teary when he said it, and it was him who felt distressed.
After talking a lot, when he was thrown into the operating room, Zhang Ruowan's legs were still weak, and he didn't have the strength to stand up while sitting on the chair outside, and listened to the movement inside.
Seeing Ji Yang being pushed out with a pale complexion, her heart clenched into a ball.
He took care of him in the hospital. After he was discharged from the hospital, he was afraid that the children would make noise, so the two lived in a small room opposite. Zhang's father and Zhang mother went to take care of the two children. Zhang Ruowan also left the baby behind these days, and only Ji Yang's recovery was in his eyes. .
If her daughter cries, she is afraid of disturbing Ji Yang to rest, so she hugged and said softly, "If the baby cries again, mother will let grandma take her away."
Little Ji Xin seemed to understand, she pursed her mouth and stopped crying. She looked at her mother pitifully, and her mother only looked at her father. She blinked and tears fell again.
She is no longer mother's darling.
Two months later, after Ji Yang recovered, the two of them went on a short trip to a famous ancient capital in China.
Zhang Ruowan is wearing a light blue cut-out knee-length skirt and a yellow hat. She is slender and slender, and she can't tell that she has given birth to two children. She leads Ji Yang in front, full of girlishness .
Ji Yang looked at her back, still holding a bunch of local glutinous rice cakes in his hand, the corners of his mouth raised a curve, looking at her who occasionally turned to talk, his eyes were soft.
When there were many people, he reached out to touch her waist, and Zhang Ruowan habitually reached out to wrap his arms around him, grabbing the corner of his clothes.
I went to the pedestrian street at night, and when I came back, I had to walk back to the hotel. It was a long way, and Zhang Ruowan was still wearing wedge heels, walking more and more slowly.
Ji Yang took her hand, then squatted down and put it on his back, Zhang Ruowan retreated reflexively, "You're not in good health yet."
This look makes him a fragile doll.
"It's okay, it's okay." Ji Yang smiled, continued to pull her, picked her up easily, and walked forward.
Zhang Ruowan was afraid that he would be tired, so she leaned on his back firmly, wrapped her arms around his neck, looked at the dim street lights in front of her, she was a little dazed, like countless times when she was in love.
The sweetness in my heart is spreading.
The relationship between the two has warmed up and is better than before. Zhang Ruowan sometimes has nightmares, dreaming of those painful scenes, and Ji Yang speaks harsh words to her, with an indifferent expression, wishing that his words could turn into sharp swords and stab her hard.
This time I also dreamed that Ji Yang said that her child deserved it, who told her to look at his mobile phone when she was full and had nothing to do, and even stalked him, so she should get a divorce sooner.
Zhang Ruowan opened her eyes, her face was covered with tears, and her heart ached.
"Did you have a nightmare?" Ji Yang spoke lazily, without turning on the light, he hugged her, kissed her forehead, and patted her on the back, "Why are you having nightmares again? Sleep well."
"En." Zhang Ruowan's heart slowly calmed down again, listening to his strong and powerful heartbeat, hugging him back, closing her eyes and falling asleep soon.
This time, she had a sweet dream.
In the dream, Ji Yang and Ji He were assembling a racing car. She was sitting with her daughter in her arms, and Zhang's father and Zhang mother were sitting on the sofa watching TV. The whole family enjoyed themselves happily.
There was a smile on the corner of her mouth, and she unconsciously rubbed against Ji Yang's chest obsessively.