Tang Xuan looked at the closed door, her eyes were blurred with tears, her thin shoulders were trembling violently.
How did he go
How dare you go
He shuffled back to the room in a daze, sat on the bed and cried loudly, looked at the diamond ring on his hand, and stretched out his hand to take it out.
Constantly exerting force, the tingling sensation began to come, but the diamond ring was still stuck on the finger and could not be pulled out.
She exhausted all her strength, let go of it when it was about to be pulled out, and cried louder.
It's not that she hasn't quarreled with Ji Yang before, every time, he smiled and coaxed, it was the first time it was so serious.
Even, he didn't explain.
He walked away without looking back.
Tang Xuan hugged her leg helplessly, tears kept dripping, the phone in the corner turned on again, and a new message was received.
She walked over to pick up the phone, and it was still Fang Xin's message: "I know you may be in a bad mood, so I won't force you if you don't come out, go to bed early, good night."
A sentence is ambiguous.
She became short of breath, and tried to unlock the phone with trembling hands. After entering two sets of numbers, her eyes kept flickering, trying to remember what numbers Ji Yang would use as a password besides fingerprints.
right.
her birthday.
Quickly input a series of numbers, the interface opens at once, and it still stays on the chat record with Fang Xin.
Swipe up and prepare to let yourself die.
Finally, I saw the photo, clicked on it, my pupils shrank suddenly, and then turned up. The earliest record was at the end of September. Fang Xin sent Ji Yang an application for overtime work during the National Day last year.
Ji Yang didn't reply, and her palms started to sweat, and she continued to scroll up, but there was nothing.
Her gaze stayed on the sentence "Tang Xuan had a boyfriend whom she loved very much before", her heart began to thump, and her palms began to sweat coldly.
Panicked and at a loss, she was about to rush out to find him with her mobile phone in hand.
Before she walked out of the bedroom door, she saw Ji Yang's figure appearing in front of her. Tang Xuan was both surprised and happy, crying and laughing, "I..."
"I know it's your house, I'll get out right away, come back and get something." Ji Yang walked to the bedside, put the car keys in his pocket, then opened the cabinet to get the suitcase, squatted down and quickly opened it.
"I'm sorry, I apologize to you. I thought... I didn't go to him, but he came to me. We have nothing to do. I was afraid you might misunderstand, so I didn't say anything. I..." She spoke incoherently, seeing Ji Yang start to put clothes inside , cried even louder in fright, walked over to grab him, obviously didn't want him to go, but the exit became, "I bought these for you!"
Like a helpless child.
"Okay, I don't take what you bought, I will return it to you." Ji Yang let go, looked into the cabinet again, took a few loose sports short sleeves from the corner, put them in the suitcase, and continued to pack.
His face was expressionless, Tang Xuan couldn't help but panic, her mind went blank and she didn't know what to do.
"I apologize to you. We have no contact. I will tell you about this. I never thought of hiding it from you." She went to grab it again, trying to stop him, choking, "I bought the pajamas for you too. , I bought them for you."
The two were arguing, tugging and tugging over a piece of clothing, Ji Yang suddenly tossed the clothing and threw it into the corner, his usually soft and tender eyes were so calm that there was no ripple at this time.
Tang Xuan was frightened, her face turned pale, and she stood there looking at him.
"Okay, what you bought, you bought, and the house is also yours. I have rented it for the past two years, and I will buy clothes from you. I will send you the money, Tang Xuan, so that you will not lose money. "He looked at her with bottomless eyes, and suddenly his rationality made her tremble.
"That's not what I meant. I don't want your money." She quickly denied it, completely frightened, and bravely said, "Because you've been busy recently and don't have time to accompany me, I..."
"Don't make excuses." Ji Yang interrupted her, went to the wall to pick up the clothes, and said in a deep voice, "I should confirm the things you subconsciously believe, it's not your fault, you didn't Wrong, it's all my fault. You said you don't believe in love. I thought that as long as I treat you well enough and love you enough, you will love me. In the end, I found out that's not the case. You took my kindness to you as me I have to be nice to you, because I just live in your house, that's what I have to do, who told me I'm not as good as you?"
"I didn't..." Tang Xuan quickly denied, tears streaming down her cheeks, seeing him packing clothes, she quickly walked over.
She was afraid that he would not come back after he left.
"Including my busyness during this period, you feel that you are separating from you. Sometimes I even feel that you would rather me be worse, so that I can maintain the previous state. I have benefited, so as a balance, I have to be obedient to you Baishun." He put the coat inside, and every word he said was like hitting Tang Xuan's heart.
It even made her stunned, and her expression became dull.
Thinking about it carefully, she seems to have been stopping him, eager to maintain the previous state, keep the two in a comfort zone, and try to continue to prove her important value in this relationship.
The monthly salary is comparable to that of Ji Yang, and the house is in her name. It seems that without these, she will be abandoned at any time.
Ji Yang had already closed the suitcase. Tang Xuan came back to her senses and ran to the door quickly, leaning against the door with her back, trying to digest his words while preventing him from leaving.
"I apologize to you, I misunderstood you, I can also explain about the photo, you... don't... let's talk..." She was incoherent, her eyes were even filled with prayers, she didn't know what to do, but she would never let he goes.
"What are we talking about? What else can we talk about? You said marriage, so I want to ask you, do you want to get married and have children at the right age, and don't want to be discussed by others, or do you want to marry me?" He said to himself Sneered, then paused, "I think it just happens that I treat you well. You think you are capable, with a good monthly salary and a house. It will make it easier for me to settle down in this city. I should need you."
"But Tang Xuan, I don't want it, it's boring."
As soon as he finished speaking, Tang Xuan couldn't stop crying, she kept shaking her head, and cautiously tried to hold his hand.
However, Ji Yang withdrew his hand and glanced to the side, "Then you think that everyone can get what they need, I will transfer all the rent for these two years to you, and I will pay back the money you spent on me. You, as for the flowers I gave you, you don't need it."
"Ji Yang..."
"In this way, you won't feel that I have to do something for you to be good to you, to love you with a purpose, as if I should be bad at all, so that you are worthy of it." He felt very ironic, lost and helpless in his eyes, " I love you so much, but I can't build up your confidence and sense of security, it's my failure, it's not your problem."
The fragility in Tang Xuan's heart was completely shattered by him. She thought that no one would find out what was hidden deep in her heart.
He is so clear.
At the beginning, she really wanted him to treat her well, but subconsciously, the condition in exchange was that she was so good that he was worthy of him, as if such a combination would not repeat Tian Chengrui's path of belittling and despising her, and could buffer the pain in her heart. She has a little low self-esteem, so she never dislikes Ji's family.
She felt that she was not worthy of someone better, and she liked Ji Yang quite a bit, so she got married and had children step by step. In this relationship, she would be more "favored", at least the difference was not too big.
"No." She said without confidence.
"I don't care what other people think or say, but this person is Tang Xuan. I hold my heart and dote on the person I want to marry. Can't you feel my heart when I'm with you?" He was getting more and more off track, Kind of aggravating the nature of this thing.
But that's it, showing Tang Xuan's original thoughts in a bloody way, it's true that she loves him, it's also true that she has low self-esteem, cowardly and a little pitiful.
"I apologize to you, I shouldn't think too much, Fang Xin..."
"Is it Fang Xin? It's not that shitty ex-boyfriend of yours. It's your lack of self-confidence. Everything I do is not taken for granted, and I don't have to do it. If I don't love you, am I guilty?" Ji Yang said coldly Interrupted, his heart heaved violently, and he took two deep breaths, "Get out of the way, I'll get out immediately."
Tang Xuan suddenly threw herself into his arms, wrapped her arms around his waist tightly, and cried loudly, tears gushing out like a bank, still shaking her head.
Her original family was complicated, and she lacked love since she was a child. When she fell in love with Tian Chengrui, the other party also thought she was terrible and useless, and often made fun of and belittled her. Ji Yang was right, she was inferior, sensitive and suspicious, and she felt that no one would love her unconditionally ,
Ji Yang was still holding the trunk lever, but didn't speak.
"I only think about it when I want to marry you." She looked up at him, tears were falling unscrupulously, her eyes were blurred, and she was crying, "I'm not making a fuss out of a molehill, I'm just afraid that you will leave me and don't want me anymore."
"I was wrong, don't leave, I won't think much about it in the future, and I will believe that you also believe in myself, okay?" She softened her voice and observed his expression nervously.
A heart is hanging, and the spirit is also tense, for fear that he will pull her hand away. She has never seen him so serious, and it really scares her into a daze. It feels like he will walk out of this door forever. Will not be coming back.
"Let go first." Ji Yang looked down at her, and the words fell clearly in her ears.
Tang Xuan's body froze, and then she was on the verge of falling, never thinking that these words came from his mouth.
She thought that in this relationship, she would definitely not be the one who was abandoned, but that he loved her more than she loved him.
"I'll move out first, let's calm down first." Ji Yang said as he was about to pull his luggage and go out.
Tang Xuan's heart valve was filled with pain, her eyes filled with tears, and she held his hand firmly, not letting him leave.
"You said you would stay with me here and take care of me all the time." She whimpered softly, clutching the corner of his clothes with the other hand, speaking intermittently, "Auntie called me just now and asked how we are doing recently. So, I said everything was fine, and asked when we could go back, and it won’t be cold after a while.”
She took a deep breath and let the tears fall, "I have heard some things they said before, but I have never questioned you, I still choose to believe you. Even if there are the reasons you said, I will I have never denied that you love me, nor have you trampled on your feelings for me, I cherish it very much."
"You said you didn't want to get married early, and I said you could wait. Later, the investment in the branch made me uneasy and flustered, and I secretly lost sleep in the middle of the night, but seeing you working hard in the market, I don't want your efforts to be let down. I am willing to work with you To endure hardships, I admit, the branch office opened, the performance also improved, you started to be more busy, slowly, we may not be people in the same world, I feel very insecure, and you never mentioned the matter of marriage, That feeling, like I’m worthless, you can leave anytime, I don’t know what to do, I’m anxious all day long.”
Since Ji Yang started her business, she has held opposing opinions, and everything seems to be off the track she originally wanted.
Tian Chengrui once told her that the two of them were not in the same circle, she couldn't keep up with him, and there was no need for them to be together.
"I explained that I want to wait for a while." Ji Yang stared at her for a while, "If I don't want to get married, I won't take you back."
"But you told me that after I promised you to invest..." She answered instinctively, and realized her problem halfway through.
"Xuanxuan, that's not a quid pro quo. I propose and take you back. It's not a reward or a quid pro quo for you to agree to me. If you are willing to support me and wait for me, I should promise you. It's my responsibility. It's this." I have been you all my life, so I should give you a sense of security." Ji Yang looked into her eyes, frowned tightly and lowered his jaw, his words were heavy, "I am for us, as I said, I will work hard for what others have. Give it to you slowly, can't you feel my dedication? Do you really love me?"
The last sentence made Tang Xuan cry again. She never took his contributions for granted, but she would think that she was unworthy and unreal.
It's ridiculous to think about it.
does she love him
I have always thought that liking is liking, and I think he must love me more, but now, facing him leaving, the feeling will be a hundred times more painful than watching Tian Chengrui leave.
Psychological pain, she couldn't stop crying.
I can't accept it at all.
"You don't want to go." She couldn't calm down, she cried so hard that she spoke a few words intermittently.
Ji Yang sighed deeply, turned his head to the side, pursed his lips tightly, and did not reply.
Tang Xuan stopped crying. Looking at him who was calm, her heart began to sink, her voice was trembling, "Ji Yang..."
He twitched his Adam's apple twice, turned his head again, and looked at her.
"I love you..." Her eyes were red and swollen, filled with tears. When she said this, two lines of tears fell down.
Before the end of the sound, she felt that his heart softened, it was the kind of obvious emotion, but he was restraining himself.
"I will no longer speculate on your feelings for me, your kindness to me, and I will not forcefully add some impurities to this relationship, and I will not wantonly convict you, turning my character flaws into a sharp sword that hurts you , I'm sorry, I'm really sorry." She reached out to hug him again, buried her head in his arms, still sobbing, "I love you, I know no one will treat me like you again, I don't want you Getting bad will not stop you from progressing, I will support you, do what you want to do together, I know you are for our future, you don't need to be pressured, I think stability means that we can be together well, so that Very good."
She directly convicted without questioning today, and she couldn't escape the circle of her subconscious at all.
In fact, in essence, she didn't believe in herself.
Ji Yang paused for a while, then slowly let go of the suitcase lever. The big hand covered the back of her head, touched it soothingly, and surrendered, "Don't cry."
Tang Xuan looked up at him pitifully, "Then you are not leaving, right?"
"Can I rest assured?" He lowered his head, covered her face with his hands, gently wiped her tears with his fingertips, sighed slightly, and said in a low voice, "Don't let others affect our relationship, life After all, it is our life. What I can’t accept the most is your distrust of me. You doubt my feelings for you again and again, and think that you are not worthy. Then what do you think of yourself? What do you think of me? Xuanxuan, you can’t feel it Do I love you?"
"right… "
"I don't want your apology," he interrupted.
Tang Xuan looked at him, stood on tiptoe without any hesitation, and kissed his thin lips with her moist and soft lips.
Ji Yang took a step back, and her slender arms climbed onto his neck with considerable strength.
Immediately afterwards, he put his feet against the edge of the bed and fell down.
She was very active, she covered her lower body and continued to kiss him, and Ji Yang turned around, even more urgent than her.
In the end, cold water was poured down her head. Today is a special time for her.
"Forget it, go to sleep." Ji Yang hugged her to calm down.
Tang Xuan pouted, and covered his pajamas again with her hands, "I bought the pajamas for you, I don't want you to wear them anymore, take them off."
"Tang Xuan..." Ji Yang frowned, and before he could say a few words, his expression changed suddenly when he saw her slide down.
The sky is getting brighter, and the morning light shines in through the windows.
The alarm clock by the bedside kept ringing.
Ji Yang moved, wanting to get up to turn off the alarm clock, but just as he moved, a white lotus root arm stretched out from under the quilt to hug him.
Not to mention the kind lying on the body, like an octopus.
Tang Xuan's voice was confused, "Don't leave."
"I turned off the alarm clock." Ji Yang hugged her and moved to the side, took the phone over, stretched out his hand and slid it, the ringing stopped, he looked at the broken screen, and then at her in his arms, " Where did you get your temper? You still have to buy your phone if it breaks down, and you drop it if you drop it.”
Tang Xuan felt wronged, hugged him silently, and rubbed against his neck desperately.
I just listened to his regretful words, "I bought it for less than a year, and it was almost 10,000 yuan. With that money, I can buy you as much cosmetics and clothes? If you don't even save it, you can buy milk powder and diapers for two months."
She opened her closed eyes quietly again, and stretched out her arms to embrace him, as if being poured with honey in her heart.
"I don't know how I got used to it. I have such a temper that the client doesn't know at all. Do you think I am too successful or too failed?" Ji Yang looked down at her as he spoke, and someone pretended to be dead and lay on top of him.
Seeing that no one came back, he was about to sit up again, she moved her body, "Don't move, you haven't put on your clothes yet, the wind is blowing in and you're freezing to death."
His words were delicate and domineering, and he reached out and patted him lightly.
Ji Yang didn't move anymore, he lay down obediently and hugged her, working hard without complaint.
Tang Xuan lay down for a while, she was about to be late, she didn't have the slightest desire to get up, she hugged him and fell asleep, "I'm asking for leave, I don't want to go to work."
"Then shall I also ask for leave to accompany you?" Ji Yang asked.
Tang Xuan didn't return, instead she raised her eyes to look at him, those eyes were clear and bright, reflecting his face.
"What are you doing with you? Lying on the bed? Make me angry?" Ji Yang also looked at her.
"I… "
"You can't solve it, or should I lie down with you all morning and come with me to get the certificate in the afternoon? I can think about it." He spoke again.
Tang Xuan was stunned.
"Okay, you have no chance to object. You hesitated and babbled, so you decided. It is the wisest choice to take him home before you don't dislike it and you are not awake. Sleep for another two hours. Yesterday I was tossed to death by you at night." Ji Yang didn't give her a chance to speak, he held her with one hand and pulled up the quilt with the other, and leaned his chin on top of her head with his eyes closed.
Tang Xuan's lips moved, but in the end she didn't say anything. She bent her eyebrows and leaned against his arms with her eyes closed.
the other end.
"It's a meeting." Yu Xiang shouted, and everyone went to the conference room one after another.
Fang Xin sat down and began to observe Tang Xuan. Seeing that the other party didn't come, it shouldn't be the case. The other party is usually dedicated to her work.
"Is everyone here?" Yu Xiang glanced around.
"Team Leader Tang didn't come." Fang Xin said.
"Oh, she asked for a day off, is the rest here?" Yu Xiang looked again, "It should be all here, let's start talking about today's tasks, let me talk about everyone's arrangements first..."
What she was talking about, Fang Xin had already automatically blocked, and only Tang Xuan's request for leave was on her mind.
The other party has always been a rational person, and he does things vigorously. This matter is so serious that he asked for leave
That's right, Ji Yang proposed, and the two went back to meet their parents. Tang Xuan is twenty-seven, right
If this is blown away, I am afraid that I will doubt my life, and I will definitely not be able to marry before the age of thirty.
One morning, she was in a happy mood, and her work efficiency increased several times, waiting for Tang Xuan's tragic follow-up.
It's a pity that the tragic follow-up did not wait, but Gou Lang came a lot.
I was going to work in the afternoon, and I don't know who said in the office, "Dug, this is a leave of absence to get a marriage certificate."
"who?"
"Team leader Tang, look at Moments."
…
Fang Xin had a bad premonition, quickly took the phone, opened Moments, and before scrolling down, the first one was Ji Yangfa's news.
A picture of Tang Xuan holding a large bouquet of delicate pink roses, lowering her head slightly, revealing her fair neck, her face brimming with happiness and smiling like a flower.
Scrolling down, she froze.
It was a wedding photo with a red background. The two were wearing white shirts, smiling and looking at the camera.
His accompanying text is: "From now on, my sweetheart is the person next to my pillow."
How did you get married
Didn't Ji Yang see the pictures and text she posted? Fang Xin went back to check and was sure it was sent.
The comments below kept teasing, and Ji Yang responded one by one in a good mood, "We have to organize a wedding, and the branch office will do it after we are busy."
She couldn't hold back and sent another message to Ji Yang.
Just sent it out, showing that she was blocked by someone
How does this convince her? I feel that I have been humiliated. She is the only one who plays with men, and no man has the right to play with her. She has always played with men in applause!
the next day.
When Tang Xuan came to the company, she seemed to be in a good mood. A group of people started to make fun of her, which made the company more joyful.
At noon, both Fang Xin and Guan Xue were eating in the lounge. They didn't get along with others, and even if their relationship broke down, they had no place to go.
Tang Xuan walked in, took out the food, and opened the lid. What Ji Yang cooked for her was a vegetarian stir-fried beef and a stir-fried cauliflower, a fried egg, and a bowl of radish rib soup.
"Eat so much? I'm afraid Director Ji wants to quickly fatten you up and give birth to a baby?" Li Xin said with a smile.
Tang Xuan was a little shy, but she didn't deny it.
"Really? Just getting married and trying to conceive? So fast?" Seeing her expression, Li Xin couldn't help asking.
"He cooked too much last night, so he specially saved some and brought them here today," Tang Xuan explained.
"You answered irrelevant questions." Li Xin exposed her and said with a smile, "If you don't tell me, next time Director Ji comes, I'll ask him. I'm in such a hurry to get pregnant as soon as I get married."
Tang Xuan was really shy when discussing this topic in public, "I didn't say that, would you like some ribs?"
"Change the subject with a guilty conscience, don't you want to ask our experienced people about this kind of thing? There is a way to conceive a man and a woman, you really don't want to know?" Another married female colleague came in and said something.
Tang Xuan's face turned red when they said that.
Originally, it would not be too stressful to wait for the branch company to stabilize before getting pregnant, but Ji Yang said that it would be natural and that getting pregnant earlier would be good for her and the child, so she was going to get folic acid.
To be honest, she was still curious.
"What way?" Guan Xue was more curious than she was. She had been married for two years, but she just couldn't get pregnant.
The husband's family also has opinions now, and the husband doesn't pay attention to her.
"I'm just talking to tease her." The female colleague changed the subject and looked at her meal, "Eat more, ask Director Ji to eat more, both of you have to work hard."
"You are really..." Tang Xuan felt ashamed and embarrassed, almost completely defeated.
A few people called her like this, laughed so hard, they went out one after another, Li Xin also took the dishes to wash, only Fang Xin and Guan Xue were left in the lounge.
Guan Xue thought that the female colleague just didn't want to tell her and was a little isolated from her. Seeing Tang Xuan and Ji Yang's cultivation and seeing each other's sweet smiles made her feel glaring.
"Ding."
The microwave light goes off, and the soup and vegetables are ready.
Tang Xuan brought it out with a paper pad, and put another copy in.
"Hey, Team Leader Tang, I didn't expect you and Ji Yang to be together in the end." Guan Xue said suddenly, and then smiled again, "Before, Team Leader Ji chased after Fang Xin, I thought they could be together .”
This was the first time she said these things in front of Tang Xuan. If she had known about it, she would have said it earlier. She never thought that the two of them would get their marriage certificate so quickly.
Ji Yang is a scumbag at all, rich and scumbag, if Tang Xuan knew about these things, getting married would be like eating shit, right
It's interesting if you can't get rid of the pain.
Fang Xin knew that Guan Xue's temperament must be impatient, and she pretended to be flustered when she was suddenly named, "How long ago did this happen? Don't listen to her, Team Leader Tang. I didn't agree at the time, and we are not together." Pass."
It was as if Tang Xuan picked up what she didn't want.
"Team Leader Tang, even if you're married, you have to be on guard against Ji Yang. At the beginning, Fang Xin knew that he borrowed money indiscriminately and overdrawn a lot of credit cards. I heard that he almost hooked up with a part-time job. It was like having a relationship with someone, so I didn't dare Be with him." Guan Xue said as if she had a good relationship with Fang Xin again.
"No, those are all things in the past, people will change, Director Ji looks pretty good now." Fang Xin also denied it.
The typical want to be a female watch and want to set up a memorial archway.
Guan Xue would not do what she wanted, so she immediately said, "Didn't you tell me? You also said that Ji Yang lied to Zhang Xiaoman and didn't pay back the money. He is a scumbag. Didn't he still go outside and call for special services? All of this is hidden Team Leader Tang."
"Those are… "
"Don't talk!" Fang Xin was eager to get rid of it. Tang Xuan lowered her face and took out her own rice from the microwave. Her words were very light, "I know the money I borrowed from Xiaoman, and I didn't refuse to pay it back. It was too much. I don’t know if you have confessed your love to Fang Xin, but some people still have to control themselves, don’t chat with other people’s boyfriends or husbands in the middle of the night, and don’t go out alone, as it is easy to cause misunderstandings.”
"I don't know where you heard the news, and I don't know if there is any evidence? People still have to be responsible for what they say."
Tang Xuan said, closed the lid again, and walked out with the food.
She didn't know that her previous prejudice against Ji Yang came from the mouths of these two people, talking nonsense, nothing was right, and she confessed that it was Fang Xin who was sticking to Ji Yang like a dog skin plaster and wanted to destroy it. They are related.
As soon as she left, Guan Xue also looked at Fang Xin, and sneered, "You went to hook up with Ji Yang? Didn't you like it?"
Behind the scenes
Fang Xin turned pale for a while, stood up and walked out, "I don't know what you are talking about, I have time to study how to be a hen that lays eggs."
"Fang Xin!" Guan Xue was caught in a sore spot and blew up.
Fang Xin sneered, without stopping.
The author has something to say: How should I put it, Mier feels that people suffer in certain aspects, especially emotional aspects, many of which are due to personality defects, and even create their own slag-absorbing physique.
Tang Xuan's temperament comes from her original family, from emotional trauma, and lack of self-confidence in herself. This kind of person even has a mentality, that is, she thinks that I should find someone worse, so in this relationship, she thinks "I may I can take the lead", "Maybe I don't have such low self-esteem", and she thinks I don't deserve better, I'm just terrible, when she meets a scumbag, she still can't figure it out, and she will die a miserable death, And this kind of person, most of the boys they meet are scumbags.
The temper of this character comes from a friend around me. At first, Mi Er couldn't understand her. Later, I understood that some people want to relieve their inner inferiority complex in this way. They will magnify their own shortcomings and keep telling themselves She is not good, she is very bad, only suitable for worse, good boys will not look at her, although she is very good and good in the eyes of others, sometimes feel pitiful and pathetic, but it seems that except for herself, No one can redeem her, and the scumbag will only drag her into the abyss, and even deliberately belittle her in order to elevate herself, aggravating her low self-esteem.
Finally, good night.