In fact, Ma Yangyang's legs are no longer a problem for him to walk on his own, but he still can't walk for a long time. As a result, Xie Tian is better. As long as there are no elders watching, he always carries him on his back. Ma Yangyang is also happy to be pampered by him. However, after the exam, Ma Yangyang was unwilling to continue being a patient.
After the exam, Xie Tian could no longer stay at Ma Yangyang's house. Ma Yangyang was used to seeing his sweetheart every day when he opened his eyes. He was depressed when he saw Xie Tian packing clothes seriously. Recently, he Some of them were spoiled by Xie Tian. When they were separated again, they remembered that they had finally "chased" this person, and they couldn't bear to let him go.
As usual, Xie Tian went to City A to visit Chen Xueping during the holidays. During this trip, he would not see anyone for at least four or five days. It seemed that he could no longer accept separation after getting used to being dependent on each other.
Xie Tian didn't need to look at it to know that he must have a glum look on his face. In fact, he couldn't bear to do it. He was used to sunny days with a little sun every day, so who would want to be rainy. But I have to see my mother, and I have to go home.
Holding his hands and placing them on his chest, Xie Tian pressed his forehead against his and whispered, "I'll be back soon."
Ma Yangyang hummed, took out his hand and hugged the person in front of him, and said dullly: "But you won't live here when you come back. I really want to go to college as soon as possible, so that we can live together every day."
Xie Tian didn't think there was anything wrong with the willful Ma Yangyang at all. He even felt that the current Ma Yangyang who was always tired of him talking nonsense and acting like a baby made him more attracted than the sensible and restrained him in the past. Such Ma Yangyang could only The people closest to him could see that it was different from what everyone saw, so they cooperated with him and said, "Well, we will be together every day then."
Ma Yangyang doesn't know that he is messing around. He sometimes hates himself for being so coquettish. Fortunately, he has always regarded himself as a gentleman, but after meeting Xie Tian, he accidentally became crybaby and willful. But even so, Xie Tian still obeyed him in everything, making him increasingly unable to live without him. Xie Tian always said that he was his little sun, but in his heart Xie Tian was not a source of warmth.
He is an existence that is different from all his friends, brothers, and elders and peers in the family. He has made up for the small piece that is missing in his heart.
As if being bewitched, Ma Yangyang nibbled on the corner of Xie Tian's mouth and said, "I'll bring Pupu back in the past two days. Come back and see Pupu early." Without waiting for Xie Tian's answer, he added , "No, forget it, don't be too hasty, and pay attention to safety on the road."
Xie Tian's heart was numb from his bite, and he whispered: "I will come back as soon as possible and bring you the specialties of City A."
The two were tired of being together for a long time, and it wasn't until Li Shiqin knocked on the door that they separated as if nothing had happened. The moment he went out, Ma Yangyang even had the urge to come out now, so that he wouldn't have to evade, but he We know better than anyone what coming out means.
On the first day after Xie Tian left, Ma Yangyang followed Grandma Ma to her aunt's house to take Pupu, Yue Yue and the others home.
Xie Tian took the train alone for more than ten hours.
The day after Xie Tian left, Wang Yuelei and Xue Wei came to visit. The three of them played games in the living room for several hours. After they left, Ma Yangyang did an entire geography test paper by himself and took pictures for Xie Tian to praise.
Xie Tian got up early in the morning and walked around for several hours before arriving at the prison. Chen Xueping lost weight again, but she seemed to be in good spirits and calmed down a lot. She just felt a little anxious when she heard that Xie Tian never came home. Xie Tian explained and said that he was doing well now and his grades were also very good. Chen Xueping felt relieved when she saw that he was indeed much more cheerful than the last time.
On the third day after Xie Tian left, Ma Yangyang accompanied Grandma Ma to a square dance. A group of lovely old ladies were dancing happily while Ma Yangyang and Pu Pu played a flying saucer game on the side.
Xie Tian went to visit Xie Haojun for the first time. Xie Haojun looked much worse than Chen Xueping. He looked at least five or six years older. Xie Tian's visit surprised him. Before the accident, the two fathers and sons were having a bad fight, and now they couldn't help but say soft words. After a long silence, Xie Tian said I'm leaving, please take care of yourself. Xie Haojun asked him slightly excitedly if he was doing well and whether he had enough money. Xie Tian said calmly that it was fine, but there was another silence. Before leaving, Xie Haojun mentioned Tao Yuan. He left all the property he had at his disposal to Xie Tian. Tao Yuan had visited him some time ago. He vaguely knew that Tao Yuan had gone to see Xie Tian, but he also felt that I felt sorry for Tao Yuan, so I asked Xie Tian to write the money and give it to her. Although he was embarrassed to make such a request to Xie Tian, he still said it. After hearing this, Xie Tian's heart went blank. He didn't know whether it was funny or sad, or he really didn't feel anything at all.
On the fourth day after Xie Tian left, Ma Yangyang baked several plates of cookies at home. The aroma filled the whole house. Pupu and Yue Yue ran to the kitchen several times.
Xie Tian spent a long time walking around City A alone. This was a city he was most familiar with, but within a year after leaving it, it gradually became unfamiliar. The shops on the street have changed a lot, and high-rise buildings have been built on the once flat land. Some streets have completely changed. He found a small roadside shop and ordered some of the city's specialties, but he couldn't remember whether it was still the same as before. I feel uncomfortable speaking in dialect when talking to people. He was clearly standing here, but he felt that he was getting further and further away from this city, and the city where he lived and cared about became increasingly clear in his mind.
He bought some specialties and gadgets. The train left the city where he grew up far behind. With the lights dimming, he looked at the face on his phone that filled his chest. This time he really had to start over. , not to escape or follow the crowd, but to truly start a new life, where there are his beloved people and their future.
Xie Tian arrived at five o'clock in the morning on the fifth day. He originally wanted to go home and repair himself, but suddenly he was on the bus to Ma Yangyang's house.
On the fifth day after Xie Tian left, Ma Yangyang suddenly wanted to eat beef noodles. When he went downstairs, he saw Xie Tianting standing beside the hibiscus, the morning sun reflected on his face, and his heart felt as if he had just met him for the first time. Ma Yangyang suddenly felt that he fell in love with him again. He obviously and in his heart already loved him so much, but he fell in love with him again.
They burned each other with their eyes under the still scorching sunshine of the summer morning, getting closer step by step, but unable to embrace in the sunshine or hold each other's hands.
But, so what!
One day, they can stand together uprightly.
If a short separation is a test of the depth of longing, then their answer is - never leave.
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It is a very pretentious chapter, but I just want to write about their psychology of yearning for the sunshine in the darkness and persisting in the direction of the sunshine.