I Am Your Little Sunshine

Chapter 80: I want to be by your side all the time

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After a while, the two of them bought the required information and books, and then went separately to browse other reading materials that they were interested in.

Xie Tian actually didn't have any particular books he wanted to buy, so he just wandered aimlessly in front of the bookshelves.

There are always a lot of people in front of the youth reading bookshelf, most of them are students from junior high and high schools, and most of them are girls. Just when Xie Tian was about to go around, he heard two girls discussing in a low voice the illustrator in a certain petty bourgeois literature magazine. It was very unpleasant. Coincidentally, I am talking about Xie Tian.

The two little girls were saying that he must be a tall, thin goddess with long hair, who likes to wear white gauze skirts, and has an indifferent expression. The paintings he draws always make them feel despair and imprisonment. Later, they talked about his new picture in the previous issue. , said that the intertwining of despair and hope in the new picture is like reaching out to catch a thin ray of morning light when it is more than ten degrees below zero. It is bone-chilling cold but has a warmth that makes people want to cry.

Xie Tian was the first to hear someone commenting on his painting, and by the time he realized it, he had been standing in the corner listening for a while.

The two girls didn't see Xie Tian, who was covered by the bookshelf, and left happily with the magazine. Only then did Xie Tian come out and pick up the magazine.

The magazine that Xie Tian contributes to will be revamped in the New Year, and now it has published its December issue. It is a special issue with the theme of nostalgia. There is a topic planned in it, which is an inventory of the magazine's illustrations in recent years. Three of Xie Tian's works were selected, among which One was the painting that the two girls were discussing. It was a draft he submitted during the National Day holiday.

The painting was painted after he returned to D city during the National Day holiday. He painted it very smoothly and handed it in directly after finishing it. This was the first time he drew a manuscript without the editor giving him a theme. He had no hope of being published, but the editor's reaction was so great that he even praised him for a long time. The magazine was about to be printed, and he still used this The painting topped the other paintings.

After returning from City A, the editor called Xie Tian and told him that the company wanted to package him. Xie Tian refused without thinking. The editor tried to persuade him many times, saying that he was very talented. Don't pass up the opportunity.

Xie Tian just couldn't get enough of it, and by the end the editor was a little angry. It is true that Xie Tian's paintings are not bad, but there are many people who are good at painting. It is not difficult to find someone who can paint better and be more obedient than Xie Tian for packaging. Although the company is interested in Xie Tian's appearance and wants to use this It's a marketing stunt, but at the end of the day you're pulling him in, and if he agrees, it's a win-win situation. But Xie Tian just didn't want to. He always talked little, and when communicating with the editor, he basically only talked about business matters, and didn't say anything extra.

He did not classify the phone calls made by the editor to persuade him to sign a contract as official calls. Usually, before the editor said a few words, Xie Tian would say that he was very busy studying and would hang up the phone.

The editor mentioned this project to him. Because Xie Tian’s drawings were all bought out, no additional royalties were paid for this use, so Xie Tian didn’t take it too seriously.

After a few times, the editor basically gave up the persuasion. Although the usual requests for manuscripts were still going on, Xie Tian clearly felt the difficulty of submitting manuscripts. After the manuscripts of the previous issue were reviewed, he had already had three or four drawings returned in succession. He also knows that his current personality is not suitable for living in society, and he also knows that he has offended many people intentionally or unintentionally, but he cannot get out of the prison in his heart and show himself to the public. He is the one who The deepest fear and disgust cannot be suppressed in my heart.

Xie Tian felt that his understanding of the painting was not as profound as the two girls just now. He only remembered that he was very calm when he was painting, and now he still feels no other emotions when looking at the painting.

Putting the magazine back on the bookshelf, Xie Tian shook his head and couldn't help but sigh. I'm afraid he will have to submit articles to a few more magazines.

The compensation from the previous fight almost depleted his savings. Although his uncle regularly deposited money into his card, he didn't want to take the money, let alone spend it.

There was no rush to submit the article, so Xie Tian could only comfort himself that he had no special need for money in the near future. The few savings left could last for a while. If it was not possible, he might consider going out to work during the winter vacation.

In the past, I would never have thought about working part-time. At first, I didn’t need it, but later I didn’t want to. During this period, Ma Yangyang kept pulling me out. When I think about it again, I don’t seem to be so resistant to it. .

Thinking of Ma Yangyang, Xie Tian couldn't help but start searching for that boy with bright eyes. If it weren't for this boy who was always around him enthusiastically, his life would probably be much bleaker than it is now, whether it's from a mental level or other aspects. aspect.

Thinking of this, Xie Tian suddenly couldn't wait to see him, to see him standing in front of him, with his starry eyes shining, his head slightly raised and smiling at him.

Ma Yangyang didn't go too far. He was basically in the same area as Xie Tian. Xie Tian found him within a short while.

He was holding a photo album and half-crouching beside the bookshelf, looking at it intently. Xie Tian was watching him from a few steps behind him, and he didn't react after watching for a while. Xie Tian took a few steps forward and squatted down next to him.

Ma Yangyang felt that there was someone next to him, and quickly moved a step before looking at the person. When he saw it was Xie Tian, he smiled like Xie Tian met him, "Are you sure?"

Xie Tian nodded, "Well, there's nothing in particular that I want to read."

Ma Yangyang gathered the photos together and stood up to put them back. He squatted here for a long time. When he stood up, he realized that his legs were so numb that they were no longer his own. He stood up in a hurry and almost fell. It took a lot of concentration to not embarrass himself in front of his crush. But he also knew that his grinning expression just now must be a bit stupid.

Ma Yangyang was thinking wildly, and Xie Tian guessed what was going on by looking at his expression, and hurriedly stretched out his hand to help him.

Ma Yangyang was supported by him like an old man. He was embarrassed and ashamed, and his heart was overwhelmed. He evaded: "I'm fine. I'm just a little numb after squatting for a long time. I'll be fine soon."

Xie Tian still didn't let go of his hand and frowned without saying, "Try standing on your toes facing the ground."

Ma Yangyang obediently did as he was told, but both of his feet were numb. He stood on tiptoe for a long time before the numbness gradually subsided. Anyway, he still gave Xie Tian a credit, "Wow, Xie Tian, you... The method is so effective, it’s really not numb.”

Xie Tian didn't reply. He scanned the bookshelves and asked, "Do you like photography?"

Ma Yangyang nodded, "Yes, I especially like portraits."

Xie Tian thought of the self-incarnated and crazy-shooting Ma Yangyang that day on the mountain. He raised his lips and said, "It's pretty good." He took out the photo album that Ma Yangyang had just put back and flipped through it. Suddenly he thought that he still He had never painted a portrait before, so he asked again: “Do you want to buy one?”

Ma Yangyang shook his head, and his tone suddenly sounded a little disappointed: "I won't buy it. We are all sophomores in high school. I can't be distracted by my poor grades."

Xie Tian looked sideways at him and saw that his eyes were still staring at the photo album in his hand, with a look of confusion and reluctance on his face, so he said, "It's good to have some hobbies to adjust the pace of study."

Ma Yangyang sighed greatly when he heard this, "You are a top student and you don't understand." He looked at Xie Tian and said, "You study for one hour and I have to study for almost three hours. I was just playful before. If you continue like this, I don’t know when they will be separated.”

If you don't work hard, even if you don't get sorted out, I'm afraid I won't be in the same class with you this time next year. Ma Yangyang didn't dare to say this, and his eyes when looking at Xie Tian couldn't help but feel a little depressed.

Xie Tian never knew how to comfort people. His mouth grew a few times, but he didn't know what to say. Seeing him like this, Ma Yangyang comforted him in turn, "It's okay. I won't be discouraged. I will definitely study hard and strive to win." Being sorted out.”

Xie Tian tightened his hand holding the photo album, stared at him and said, "You will not be separated."

Ma Yangyang felt warm in his heart by his seriousness, and felt as if his health bar had been filled up. He smiled and said, "Well, I will definitely not be separated." In order to be in the same class with you, I will definitely not separate. Not only that, I will also try to go to the same school as you, and I will try my best to always be by your side.

You can't slow down, and I don't want you to slow down, so I can only work hard to catch up.

Ma Yangyang leaned against the bookshelf and looked forward, pretending not to care and asked, "Which university do you want to go to in the future?"

Xie Tian lowered his head and flipped through the photo album and replied, "I haven't decided yet."

Ma Yangyang glanced at him sideways, sighed a little, and said in a brisk tone: "Anyway, with such good grades, you will definitely go to the best university in the future."

Xie Tian also turned around and leaned side by side with him. He was silent for a while and said, "Maybe."

Ma Yangyang asked again: "Will you take a science class next semester?"

Xie Tian shook his head and asked, "What about you?"

He once thought about going to the best university. At that time, he was very high-spirited and always thought that he would go to the best university and major, and even become the number one there. But today, he feels that even those goals are not enough. So what if we achieve everything? Nothing in this world will collapse, so what's the point of fighting for it

Xie Tian didn't know how scared Ma Yangyang was about the possibility of separation, and Ma Yangyang hadn't yet understood that Xie Tian was a rootless duckweed, and didn't understand the horror of drifting with the tide with nowhere to stop. He answered quite unconfidently, "Let's major in science." ”

Xie Tian nodded and said, "I'm about the same."