On the way back, the spades were far behind the white willow, who walked forward quickly with his head down. Whenever the spades tried to approach him, he would say indifferently:
"Leave me alone, don't come over."
So the spades stopped at a distance where only Bai Willow could be seen.
In the bustling crowd, the two people are separated from time to time, as if they are connected by an invisible bond, and a stream of people who are laughing and making noise pass by them.
This distance lasted until Bai Liu returned to school. He stood downstairs in the teaching building where the lights were turned off. He suddenly stopped and his voice was steady: "I want to go to the classroom to get something, you go back to the dormitory first."
Spades stayed quiet for a long time, before oh, he lowered his head and turned slowly, and walked back from the path where he and Bai Liu went back together every night, three steps and five steps back.
From beginning to end, Bai Liu didn't look back at him.
Although the lights in the teaching building are turned off, there are no classrooms. Because this is a vacation, Qiaomu Private High School will open the classrooms as self-study rooms until midnight, where students can always study.
Bai Liu went up the stairs. He walked alone in the dark corridor towards the end of the classroom.
When he entered the classroom, Bai Liu didn't turn on the light either. He walked to the front of his seat, sat down slowly with the desk, and then stopped moving.
There is only the last big question left on the paper on the desktop. On the draft book below, there is Bai Liu doing the question and scribbling casually. The top is Spades and him. Fang Dian and Lu Yizhan use various notebooks. He filled his drawer box with snacks, and in the lower right corner of the box, he could still touch the business card that the person left for him to ask him for help.
His homework, notebooks, pens, and textbooks remained clean and undamaged from the moment he left to his return, and no one dared to approach his chair easily anymore.
—This is the best state of Bailiu in 18 years.
It is as if everyone is working hard to create a good atmosphere, wanting Bai Liu to grow up in this good atmosphere, study, college entrance examination, and welcome the future he wants.
Bai Liu slowly lowered his eyes. He looked at the messy ball of puppy thread on the draft, his hands on the table clenched tightly.
The notes of Lu Yizhan in his drawer box suddenly fell, and the college entrance examination champion wishing talisman caught in it slipped to the ground.
[Bai Liu, sister Dian and I want to tell you something. 】
Lu Yizhan scratched his head embarrassedly. He looked at Bailiu expectantly, with a hopeful light in his eyes: [Isn't it because there hasn't been a major event recently, is it going to take the college entrance examination again? Everything about the relationship will settle down, so I want to discuss with you what will happen after the college entrance examination. 】
[Regardless of your test scores, whether you want to repeat the exams or not, sister Dian and I will support you. You don’t have to think about money. Sister Dian and I were both college students at that time. If we have time and channels, we can support you. Can afford you. 】
[Just want to ask you, after graduating and working, would you like to live with me and some sister? 】
Bai Liu stared at Lu Yizhan with a strange look at what you are saying, "Aren't you getting married with Sister Dian?" Why live with me? Are you not afraid of others gossiping? 】
Lu Yizhan paused: [Because I don't want you to live outside alone without any support. 】
[Sister Dian and I don’t care what others say. We are considering this matter very seriously. Sister Dian and I are going to save a sum of money to renovate the house after graduation. Once the house has been renovated, I will let you come over and live again. Hope You live more comfortably, don't you like horror games? Sister Dian comes out to play games for you in a separate room. 】
Lu Yizhan smiled gently: [After you leave work, you can play games with her, and when I come back in the evening, I will cook for you. 】
【what do you think? 】
[Sister Dian and I will always be with you, play games, eat, go to the hospital when you get sick, and take care of them anytime. 】
[In this way, when the third year of high school is over, you will never need to be alone. 】
Beside the flashing freezer, Spades has an incomprehensible expression on Bai Liu's face, which looks quite steady and steady. He stares at Bai Liu motionlessly and says:
[Your time alone is about to end. 】
Lu Yizhan said: [Sister Dian and I will always be with you. 】
Spades said: [I'm leaving now. 】
Lu Yizhan said: [In this way, when the third year of high school is over, you won't need to be alone anymore. 】
Spades said: [Before I leave, can you tell me something like me? 】
Memories converged in confusion in Bai Liu's brain, and the different images were like that old freezer vending machine, flashing while cooling.
Bai Liu leaned down, he lay down on the desk, staring at nothing nearby. Spades often sat on it and looked at the chair where he wrote the question, as if there were all emotions in it, and no emotions at all, it was a piece of The deep sea without waves.
He thought calmly.
Lu Yizhan, Fang Dian, and Spades, they represent two completely different life choices.
If you choose Lu Yizhan and Fang Dian, the spades will disappear because he is not alone, but at the same time, he will get a normal, stable and warm life. He has no doubt that Fang Dian and Lu Yizhan will take care of him forever. , And play with him for a lifetime.
The best things Fang Dian and Lu Yizhan have ever gotten, they can neither eat nor use them. They will give them to Bai Liu. Bai Liu undoubtedly confirms that if he lives with them as Lu Yizhan said, they can indeed. Get a conventional happy life in the universal sense.
Someone takes care of sickness, someone accompanies you to play games, someone does something to eat, and people understand and sympathize with all happiness and unhappiness.
If you choose spades...
If you don't choose spades, it will disappear.
Bai Liu's calm thinking advanced to this place, and there was a short-term jam.
Spades, this monster is like a huge accident in Bai Liu’s life that is neither beautiful nor daily. It pulls Bai Liu away from the channel named [Ordinary People] with its own strength, dragging him into endless, impossible Predict the future.
—Like a misplaced [anchor].
If he chooses the spades, Bai Liu has a vague feeling that he might live a completely different life from now, full of terror, instability, and desire.
And 【alone】.
Only when he maintains a state of mental solitude can the spades exist. Later, maybe Fang Dian and Lu Yizhan can't exist around him.
Bai Liu may need to be alone until he died.
This is undoubtedly a very uneconomical deal.
If he wants to choose spades, he has to sacrifice his first eighteen years, and everyone around him has piled up the stable life for him to touch this monster.
How stupid it would be to make such a choice.
Bai Liu packed up his things and got up to go back to the dormitory. When he passed the toilet on the corner of the stairs, he keenly noticed that someone was following him. His expression became cold: "I didn't let you stay in the dormitory, don't follow me..."
Hou Tong, with red eyes, slowly walked out of the shadow. She was a little confused: "What's staying in the dormitory?"
Bai Liu stopped in time, and he calmly changed the subject: "You are following me, what's the matter?"
Hou Tong bit her lower lip, she took a deep breath, gathered the courage to say aloud: "I like you Bailiu!"
"I am willing to spend a million a year to talk to you about 80-year-old love! I will play horror games with you every day, and I will give you the best things, and let you live in a big house with me!"
"I will let you never go back to the classroom to take things by yourself. I will accompany you. When your college entrance examination is over, I will take you to see my parents. I told them about you many times and they liked it very much. yours!"
"I want to spend 62 million with you until I'm 80 years old." Hou Tong looked at Bai Liu with red eyes: "Are you willing?"
Bai Liu stayed quiet for a long, long time, looking at Hou Tong's eyes full of expectation and anxiety, his breathing gradually eased.
Between 62 million, Lu Yizhan and square dots and spades, how stupid people would choose spades
Bai Liu didn't know.
"Sorry." Bai Liu said in a calm tone, "I have someone who wants to be together all the time."
—Probably the kind of lunatic who would rather be alone to death than let go.