It's almost a month, and every day is busy, and time flies fast. The saddest thing is that when I'm alone at home, I always feel very lonely. All I could do was smoke a cigarette and continue to look at the computer. At that time, I missed Pan Lei very much.
The whole city slept, but the lights were still on here, he just leaned against the window and smoked silently.
Acacia is grinding, from his mind to his body, even the smoke ring he spit out can be seen, he is full of loneliness.
I miss him, I really miss him. Every time I talk on the phone, he will say, "You are safe and sound." He's fine, don't have anything wrong, he's just running his head here. Knowing that there are still people in the family who miss him, he also wants to go back early.
His clothes were dirty, the food was unpalatable, and he felt tired when he got home. Even if his elbow touched the table accidentally, he would grab the phone and complain to Pan Lei. After listening to his series of coaxing, he felt no grievances.
He is always screaming, baby, baby, my baby. It's his baby, his only baby, although it's a bit boring, but now I really want to hear him say, my baby, brother's good baby, brother misses you.
Every time I hear him call me that, sweetness fills my heart. That rude and savage person, who is not even different from a bandit, is like a hooligan outside, but back to him is his man, who pets him, loves him, takes care of him like a child, treats him like a treasure to love. Really spoiled by him, so what, even if he will never cook a meal for him in this life, he can't have a child of his own with him, but their love, this relationship, is more than Everyone has to come deeply and come hard.
Falling in love is a lifetime, and in this lifetime, he will always love him as always. Even if it is gray-haired, even in the next life after death, he still wants this man.
But trying to act coquettishly at him and feel wronged to him, even if it was a small matter, he would tell Pan Lei.
I really didn't feel like I was rambling about before, but now, even if there was an extra flower bud in the yard, he would talk to Pan Lei for a long time. He also learned to take pictures, a novel discovery, a whim, a self-photograph of a whim, he will send it to Pan Lei.
Every day he goes online, he will receive an email from Pan Lei, and every day, he will receive a call from him. Before falling asleep, he would also sing the Green Flower in the Army to him, but these could not ease his thoughts, instead, they became deeper and deeper.
He was spoiled, and he became someone who would die without Pan Lei. If he had anything, if he let go halfway through, then he would never live alone.
But he will never tell Pan Lei that he is addicted to cigarettes. He will have a pack of cigarettes in two days now. He likes staying up late. He likes to email him at midnight and talk to him about studying. Progress, talking about meeting a beautiful woman on the bus, talking about the puppy from the next door neighbor running over to pee, talking about him, missing him.
It's only been a few days. It's only a month in the calculation, and there are still eleven months. I miss him so much, can he continue to be here? He was really afraid that one day, he couldn't help thinking about it, so he bought a plane ticket and went back. No matter how good the environment is, the neighbors are good, the learning atmosphere is good, everything is good, and it is not good without him around.
The thoughts piled up and the lovesickness was grinding, and he felt that he couldn't hold it any longer.
The phone sent a text message, it was Pan Lei's text message.
Pan Lei guessed that Tian Yuan was asleep, so he only sent him a text message, asking him not to forget to cover the quilt at night. Baby, it's still a little cold in spring, don't forget to put on the quilt, I really want to sleep with you in my arms, even if you kick the quilt, I will hold you, it won't freeze you, kiss and touch your little head, Be nice.
Tian Yuan smiled. He would always say something random to amuse himself, but it would make him happy every time.
After a phone call, Pan Lei was a little surprised. Considering the time difference, it should be the middle of the night on his side.
"What time are you still not resting, and you stay up late to write your thesis? Go to bed quickly, be careful that it will become a national treasure tomorrow."
Pan Lei frowned. He was not allowed to stay up late in the country. With his small physique, can he bear staying up late
"Let me tell you, don't think that I can't do anything if you go abroad, you just want to be like a wild horse, and don't think about yourself. With your small body, can you survive it? Be good, baby, be obedient. , go to sleep."
Tian Yuan remained silent, Pan Lei sighed.
"Can't sleep, baby, insomnia? Why don't I ask my mother to get something soothing and mail it to you? How about I sing you another song to coax you? Come, tell brother, what do you want to hear? The green flower in the army?"
Tian Yuan's eyes were wet, he knew himself, no matter when he called, he could know his thoughts.
Familiar voices, familiar people, but why can't they be seen through the phone line. If he was around, they would hug him fiercely, bite his lips, and kiss him fiercely.
Pan Lei smiled.
"Honey, baby, does my baby miss me?"
His voice was lowered, as if speaking in his own ear, he seemed to be able to feel it. His breath could directly reach his heart like blowing the tiny hairs on his ears.
Yes, I miss you, I miss you so much.
"Crying? You fool, you are crying now, and I can't see it."
Pan Lei sighed, Ancestor, my dear, don't hang your brother's heart like this, brother is uncomfortable.
"Nonsense, how can I have it."
Tian Yuan finally spoke, although with some choking. But he endured it, yes, at this time he was distressed for nothing, and he was not a woman, so where did so many tears come from. Even if he was making a fool of himself, he should be in front of him, at least he could see it, he could hug him and coax him softly.
Pan Lei heard it, but he didn't dare to say any delicate and emotional words. He was afraid that he would actually cry. He cried and felt uncomfortable. It was him who was distressed.
"My baby is cold-blooded. He doesn't love me anymore. He doesn't want me. I'm going to tell your mother-in-law that you are cold and violent to my family."
Pan Lei was playing tricks, just to make him laugh.
He knew that Tian Yuan liked to talk to himself recently, and that was a way to express his thoughts. Pretend to be by his side, pretend that the two of them live together.
"Tianer, baby, are you asleep? Let me tell you something about our special team. The recruits are all very good, and they are very satisfied with their tasks. The superiors praised me, and I want to make another military exploit. My rank will be raised again, Tian Er, are you happy for me? My goal is to be a lieutenant general before retiring from the army. You are the family of the general, so majestic. But then, you will be more majestic than me. , Mom said, she will retire when you return to China to take charge of the cardiothoracic department."
Tian Yuan leaned against the head of the bed, listening to his trivial idle words, and felt relaxed. As if he was still in the country, still in their home. Most of the time, he was talking with Pan Lei like this, and he would be on the phone for a long time before going to bed through the phone line, and sometimes he would fall asleep listening to his words.
His ramble skills are very high, even if he has a few puppies, he can talk happily for an hour. Pan Lei understands Tian Yuan's mind too well. He is lonely, in a foreign country, without a caring person, and he is not around. He is under a lot of pressure and has a heavy burden on his heart, so he can't sleep well. Only by helping him relax his nerves can he fall asleep.
Don't tease him to talk, for fear that his nerves will be excited, and he really can't sleep. Just ramble and report to him what they ate and what they did today. How could that logistics chief be stingy, and so on.
For half an hour, Pan Lei paused for a while. He felt that Tian Yuan's breathing became longer and he thought he was asleep.
"Baby, are you asleep? Then have a good dream."
Tian Yuan was a little confused when he heard his voice. As soon as his voice stopped, he immediately woke up.
"elder brother."
Tian Yuan held the phone and called out softly, brother.
"Baby."
Pan Lei called him lovingly, "Sleep, baby, sleep. I have to study tomorrow, so don't get tired of such a heavy course."
"Brother, I miss you."
Pan Lei knew that he was wronged, so soft and coquettish, calling me to miss you, how much miss it contained, he never liked to put words like "I love you" on his lips, if he hadn't really encountered the softest of that piece. He will always be tough. He missed him, he couldn't fall asleep, he wanted to be with him, there was nothing wrong with making a phone call, even if he listened to his voice.
"Brother misses you too, baby, I'm waiting for you, and you're waiting for me too. I'll see you."
"There are still eleven months. I have studied very hard. I want to finish my studies here as soon as possible, but there is still so long."
Tian Yuan complained that the time was too long and the distance was too far. Thousands of mountains and rivers, talking on the phone can't express my heart. He was really spoiled, so spoiled that he couldn't live without him.
"Baby, be obedient, it's nothing, nothing. It will be over soon, don't put too much pressure on yourself, I know you are very diligent, but I don't want you to work hard, just one year a year, don't compress it to ** Yue, it will really be exhausting. You are already thin, and you say that if you don’t sleep, you will stay in the hospital for a few more months when you come back, how can you do that?”
Tian Yuanming knew that he was a little vexatious, but he always felt that it was not enough. Pan Lei's love was simply not enough over the phone. He wanted him by his side, pampering him like he was at home.
"Don't go to the horns, silly baby, you can't eat a fat man in one bite. You can just study at your current speed. I will work hard to apply, and I hope I can see you, okay? You take care of yourself, maybe there are One day I will suddenly appear."
"Can I take that as a Christmas surprise? I just can't sleep and lose my temper at you. I don't know you yet. If you can go abroad, pigs can climb trees."
"Do you feel better?"
Tian Yuan laughed, and he coaxed himself, don't you know? He is a special unit, can he go abroad at will? This is simply harder than a pig climbing a tree, isn't it? Just treat his words as a kind of coaxing him to be happy, but you can't believe it.
"Sing me another piece of Green Flower in the Army, and I'll go to sleep."