When Yan Mu is nervous, he likes to make an outline and write down his thoughts. It is important to have clear thoughts in any situation. Only when they become clear can the uneasy thoughts gradually become calm.
Yan Mu used the outline to calm himself down, but he couldn't calm Jiang Zhihuo down for the time being.
Jiang Zhihuo was really trying hard to hold back his laughter. He placed his phone upside down on the table, supported his forehead with his palm, and his cheeks and mouth corners were trembling from trying so hard to hold back his laughter.
Jiang Zhihuo held back his anger for a long time, and finally suppressed his smile before asking, "What's in those brackets?"
Yan Mu: “…”
"Be sincere, answer all questions, and don't hold back?"
Yan Mu had no choice but to answer: "... There is not enough time, let me remind you of the key points."
I had guessed it a long time ago, but it was still fun to hear it coming from Yan Mu's mouth. Jiang Zhihuo immediately covered his mouth, the corners of his eyes curved, and his shoulders began to tremble wildly.
Yan Mu looked at him helplessly: "You can laugh."
"That's impossible! The atmosphere won't allow it." Jiang Zhihuo refused decisively, believing that he could hold it in and trying hard, "Brother Yan, wait for me to use my power..."
Inhaling and exhaling, Jiang Zhihuo tried his best to hold back his laughter.
No matter how many times he practiced Kung Fu, he couldn't hold it in. His stomach ached and the wound on his waist also hurt. In the end, Jiang Zhihuo just covered his mouth, bit it, and cried "ouch ouch" twice before falling on the table.
Brother Yan is so damn cute!!
As soon as the table full of apology equipment and the catalog appeared, the awkward atmosphere between the two of them had long disappeared. It was still the same as before, one table, two people, Jiang Zhihuo looked at Yan Mu with crooked eyes, waiting for him to speak.
Yan Mu sighed and called out, "Xiao Zhou."
When these two words came out of Yan Mu's mouth, Jiang Zhihuo was stunned.
This sound spanned many years.
So many things, such a long distance, familiar, lively, and haunting, all condensed in these two words.
The two looked at each other deeply, and in their sight... there was a durian lying there, and there was a smell of durian floating around.
It really ruins the atmosphere.
"Wait! You can continue talking later!" Jiang Zhihuo stopped Yan Mu. Whoever bought it would be responsible for it. "Put the durian in the refrigerator first."
Yan Mu: “…”
It didn't take much time to go back and forth, but I guess both of them must have had two thoughts.
While Yan Mu was away, Jiang Zhihuo patted his face to wake himself up.
After laughing, I still feel confused when it’s time to have a serious conversation.
He thought of many ways to reunite after a long separation, any way would be fine, but none of them was so dramatic.
I thought that the memories from my childhood would not stay in my mind for long and I had forgotten them long ago. When I thought back to my childhood after I turned 18, I could only remember a few names.
Even if they really meet and recognize each other, they would at most say hello briefly, glance at each other from a distance, and not disturb each other.
Time is so cruel that it can erase everything that is unforgettable.
Jiang Zhihuo imagined that the next time he saw Brother Qin it would be this ordinary scene: they would wave, smile, pass by each other, and walk towards each other.
I could never imagine a situation where we would have to sit at a table face to face and wait for explanations.
Yan Mu didn't come back immediately after putting the durian in the refrigerator. Jiang Zhihuo heard him wash his hands and then open the door.
When Yan Mu came out again, Jiang Zhihuo had already adjusted his mood and expression.
Yan Mu sat down opposite him and put down two reports and a beautifully packaged box on the table. The lid was open and there was half a shell in the box.
Once these two things are taken out, there is no need to say anything else. All the words are inside, and my whole heart sinks.
Brother Qin didn't forget, just like him, he never forgot from beginning to end.
The tattered half of the shell that was made as a joke back then remains until now.
Jiang Zhihuo grabbed his shoulder, where there was a tattoo. He couldn't tell if it was an illusion, but he felt that the pattern on his shoulder had never been so clear and real, as if he could feel the lines, and his palms were burning hot.
He still remembers how he felt when he got the tattoo that day. It looked like a simple picture, but actually the color matching was not that easy. It had to be fogged up, and the tattoo artist smoothed his skin. The tattoo machine was a bit painful on his body, and it buzzed in his ears.
The idea of getting a tattoo was indeed a spur of the moment decision. The tattoo had been lost for many years and could not be found. It was impossible to find it. At that time, he forgot where he saw a sentence saying that tattoos are beautiful and mysterious. Carving a mark on the body and melting it into the blood is a different kind of eternity.
These words are so touching.
Who doesn't want eternity
"The first time I heard Qu Xiao say your name was Shin, I had some guesses, but I wasn't sure. This name is very common. It's not that coincidental, I always told myself. But then I saw the tattoo."
Yan Mu explained to Jiang Zhihuo word by word, telling him the process and the history.
He rarely speaks so much at once, and he means every word seriously.
"You saw the tattoo when you were drunk. People do random things when they are drunk. Don't drink in the future."
"You said that at the time, and I remember it all—"
"It's quite childish. It's a promise I made with someone when I was a kid."
"Later, when I escaped, I lost my stuff. In fact, if it's lost, it's lost. I can't go back anyway. What they said about meeting again is a joke. There are so many people. If you move, change your number, change your name, no one can find anyone else."
"The school is so small, and there are four classes on each floor. You may not even be able to meet someone on the same floor as you."
“I can’t say what I was thinking at the time, but I was very happy.”
"I..." Yan Mu looked up at Jiang Zhihuo. His expression was always dull, but there were fluctuations in his eyes. His eyes were full of emotions. He said to Jiang Zhihuo in a sincere and almost serious tone, "I have been looking for you for a long time. I, I have always missed you."
Yan Mu said this frankly. Even though there was a slight pause, it did not ruin the atmosphere. Everything was just right.
Yan Mu's ears turned red, and Jiang Zhihuo was not much better. For a moment, he didn't know where to look, and finally nodded randomly: "Hmm... OK!"
This reply was a mess.
He could talk all kinds of nonsense normally, but now he was so confused. But Jiang Zhihuo had no choice. The words "I've always missed you" shattered all his reluctance, unhappiness and confusion.
It’s really hard to stand the way Brother Yan speaks seriously.
Jiang Zhihuo's eyes wandered around. Fortunately, Yan Mu listed the catalog. He just laughed for a long time, but he didn't expect that this would come in handy for him. Jiang Zhihuo thought of the next topic based on the catalog: "Why haven't you said anything yet?"
"I don't really dare." Yan Mu said frankly, "Xiao Zhou, I am not the same as before..."
Maybe it was because he was still confused, or maybe it was because this matter was a thorn in Jiang Zhihuo's heart, so he spoke quickly and blurted out without thinking: "I have changed a lot too."
After saying this, Jiang Zhihuo realized that he shouldn't have said that and would have changed the topic to another direction.
Sure enough, Yan Mu asked him: "Why did you investigate Fu Xiuwang?"
"Ah? Aren't I asking you now?" Jiang Zhihuo tried to get away with it by asking a counter-question.
Yan Mu looked at him with a stubborn look.
The specific reason could not be explained in a few words, and since they had just come out of the club today, everything that had not been made public could only be kept secret for the time being, but Yan Mu did not want to skip it, so Jiang Zhihuo had to say, "It's over, this is the last time."
Yan Mu frowned slightly and looked down. Jiang Zhihuo still had medicine on his waist, which had to be changed every six hours.
Jiang Zhihuo added: "This was an accident. It wasn't so dangerous before. I was never injured. Now we live in a society ruled by law!"
It is not known whether this sentence is true or not, but since Jiang Zhihuo said so, Yan Mu can only believe it.
"good."
The topic had gone off topic and it was not easy to get back on topic. The two were silent for a while. Jiang Zhihuo's phone happened to ring. When he saw the note was Li Muhe, he quickly got up and went to the balcony to answer it.
It was nothing serious. After he ran out of the hospital, he told Li Muhe that he was at Yan Mu's house and asked Brother Li not to worry. Now Li Muhe arrived at the laboratory and called to ask about Jiang Zhihuo's situation and what was going on. Yan Mu's face did not look so good when he left the hospital.
"There's nothing wrong here." Jiang Zhihuo said, "Brother Li, don't worry about us. Pay attention to the experimental data. If you worry about this and make a mistake, I will feel guilty if you have to do it again."
This statement may seem like an attempt to evade the main point, but it is true that they have not finished their discussion yet, and even if they want to report to Brother Li, they have nothing to say.
Li Muhe told Jiang Zhihuo to take care of the wound, not to touch water and remember to apply medicine, but he was called away by the members behind him just after he finished speaking. Li Muhe left suddenly just now, and gave the data to another person in the same group to help look at. It was okay a few moments ago, and it was easy to look at it. Now the amount of data has suddenly increased, and it is easy to make mistakes if you are distracted.
"I'll be right there." Li Muhe responded, and then said to Jiang Zhihuo, "If you have anything to say, you must tell me. I'm your brother, Xiaohuo."
Jiang Zhihuo smiled. Brother Li had a warm voice and his words were warm too. He felt more confident having his brother backing him up.
"I know. Don't worry, Brother Li." Jiang Zhihuo responded with a smile.
After hanging up the phone and walking into the living room, Jiang Zhihuo yawned. After tossing and turning all night, it was time to go to bed. Even though he had slept in the hospital, his biological clock was strong and he still felt sleepy.
"Do you want to continue chatting?" Yan Mu asked.
"Let's talk. We have to finish talking. Otherwise, how are we going to sleep tonight?"
Jiang Zhihuo did not return to the dining table, but curled up on the sofa nearby. The sofa was soft and it was comfortable to lie half-lying. "Let me ask you a question."
"Yeah." Yan Mu turned sideways to look at him.
"You said you were chasing me, right?"
"Um."
"So who liked me first? Or who recognized me first, Qin, brother?"
These words were blatantly looking for trouble, the tone was not serious, the expression was one of watching the fun, and one of his eyebrows was raised high.
In fact, for Jiang Zhihuo, it doesn't matter what the answer is. There is no reason and no point in worrying about it. It doesn't matter which comes first or later. It's him anyway, so why bother with himself
But Jiang Zhihuo likes to challenge Yan Mu the most. It is very meaningful to be able to challenge Brother Yan.
Maybe even God couldn't stand this kind of clumsy picking on others. Jiang Zhihuo's lower abdomen began to hurt right after he asked the question. Jiang Zhihuo covered his lower abdomen. Yan Mu noticed his movements, stood up and walked over, bent down, and put his hands on Jiang Zhihuo's shoulders.
This position is a bit like being held in the arms, with the arms pressing down with a little weight. Yan Mu has the smell of pheromones on his body, the smell of fresh rain and dew. The pain in his lower abdomen is relieved a lot, and Yan Mu does not let go, and maintains this position.
"I'm not sure."
The voice came from behind, not loud but steady, "I'm embarrassed to say what's next, but I'll force you to listen to it."
Jiang Zhihuo raised his head, met Yan Mu's eyes, and smiled slightly, "You tell me."
Yan Mu covered Jiang Zhihuo's eyes with his palms. He was indeed quite embarrassed. He was worried that he would not be able to speak while looking into those eyes and his ears would turn red.
"I never understood myself. I tried to dissect my thoughts a long time ago, but I couldn't figure it out."
"At first I was reluctant to let you move out, but later I always wanted to see you. The first time I had this thought, I was very confused."
"Xiao Zhou is you too. I have been looking for you for many years after you left. The feeling of missing you has been rooted in my heart since I was very young. I have become accustomed to it after so long."
"Everyone wants to find Xiaozhou's shadow. When I think of going crazy, I will desperately grasp that vague resemblance."
Missing someone becomes an obsession and will lead to mistakes, which is why I pursued Bai Yuyun in the first place.
Yan Mu did not make any excuses for this matter. A wrong is a wrong, and it is still a wrong even if the person involved expressed forgiveness.
"I made a mistake once, so I didn't want to hurt you. I struggled for a long time, wanting to ease the relationship with you, wanting to get over the past unpleasantness and get to know you again, and finally finally figured out what I wanted to do."
"God is very good to me. If I fall in love again, that person will still be you."
Jiang Zhihuo could not see anything, he could only hear the sound, which fell heavily from the top of his head to his ears. He looked at Yan Mu through his fingers, he was very close, and his palms were warm.
Yan Mu said: "You are very important."
Yan Mu said: "Don't leave again."
Yan Mu said: "If you leave any further, I will really go crazy."
Yan Mu also said: "I'm sorry for making you angry."
After saying this, he lowered his eyes.
Jiang Zhihuo's eyes were blocked, so Yan Mu could stare at the young man in front of him unscrupulously. His nose was straight, and his light-colored lips were slightly pursed. He blinked his eyes and his eyelashes brushed against his palm.
"Xiao Zhou." Yan Mu lowered his head, rubbed his forehead against his hair, and said in an indulgent tone, "Calm down, okay? Don't be angry anymore, I will listen to you."
Jiang Zhihuo pushed Yan Mu's hand away, put it on his cheek, and leaned into his palm.
When Brother Yan was saying those sweet words, he was incredibly gentle. Jiang Zhihuo couldn’t control himself, couldn’t bear it. His pulse, heartbeat, and even his reason were all clamoring. They were all saying in his ear like crazy: God has been kind to you, Jiang Zhihuo!!!
Brother Qin hasn't forgotten him!
Brother Qin didn’t forget him!
Brother Qin said he likes him!
But he couldn't show it, because, again, the atmosphere wasn't right.
Jiang Zhihuo suppressed his emotions, his heart was beating non-stop, but his face was very calm: "Is this apology about you not telling me about this, or about what happened the night before?"
On Christmas Eve, Yan Mu held Jiang Zhihuo's hand and refused to open the door for Li Muhe. Jiang Zhihuo turned against Yan Mu on the spot and asked him to leave.
There is no way to wash this away. The responsibility lies entirely with Yan Mu. He was driven by possessiveness and never considered other people's feelings. He cannot be forgiven easily unless he is punished severely.
"It's my fault, let me think..."
"What are you thinking about?"
"How can I help you calm down?" Yan Muyin's tone was unstable and she was nervous.
Jiang Zhihuo stared at him with a smile, his expression full of cunning, and he obviously had his own ideas.
"It's simple, just a crematorium."
Jiang Zhihuo sat up from the sofa, crossed his legs, and put his hands on his knees. "If it's wrong, it's wrong. If an apology can solve it, there will be no durian remote control keyboard method of admitting mistakes. But if everyone kneels down one by one, then there is no need to apologize. Don't you think so, Brother Yan?"
Chasing your wife to the crematorium has almost become a popular internet phrase.
If apologizing once doesn't work, then apologize many times. You have to show your attitude first.
Yan Mu thought about it and said, "Okay."
"Okay!" Jiang Zhihuo slapped his knee, "Let's stop here for today. I'm leaving."
Yan Mu was stunned: "?"
Jiang Zhihuo looked at him: "?"
Yan Mu: "Where are you going?"
Jiang Zhihuo: "Isn't this a crematorium? Should I refuse to accept the apology and walk away? We'll talk about it tomorrow?"
Jiang Zhihuo stood up and ran out. Yan Mu was stunned for a moment, then raised his hand and grabbed Jiang Zhihuo's wrist.
"You can't leave."
Jiang Zhihuo: "Why?"
This mask was not shed in vain. He was able to say such embarrassing words just now. He must have become thick-skinned.
"We haven't finished talking yet."
As a genius student, Yan Mu had to have a basis for everything he said. He explained seriously, "There are two types of crematoriums."
"The first is when one party likes someone, but after being hurt, they no longer like him/her, and the other party starts pursuing him/her."
"The second type is for lovers, or partners. After one party makes a mistake, the two separate, and the one who made the mistake recognizes his or her feelings, admits the mistake, and starts pursuing the other party."
"Xiaozhou, which category do we belong to?"
The author has something to say: Jiang Zhihuo: Haha, Brother Yan, your research is quite thorough
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