Yuan Wu felt that something was wrong with him these past few days.
He had dreams every night, much more frequently than before, and each dream was chaotic and oppressive, and he couldn't remember anything.
The only thing I remember is sitting in the stern and crying.
When he cried, his feelings were particularly clear and real, although he did not know why he dreamed of crying, and where the source of the pain was.
But after waking up, the scene of crying became very vague, and I couldn't even feel the real pain anymore.
Just like waking up from a terrifying nightmare that is often difficult to repeat.
Still very irritable.
Yuan Wu was walking back and forth on the boat with a cigarette in his mouth. He didn't know what he wanted to do, but he was restless and irritable, like a trapped beast, or locked in a cage and placed in a corner where no one would visit, which was particularly lonely and uninteresting.
What the hell is going on
Where is the problem
Datou was beaten by his mother again in the morning because he used a big bucket to pour the whole bag of laundry detergent in the house in an attempt to blow a big bubble that could cover himself.
His mother's beating was not soft, and his big head was howling hard, as if cheering his mother on.
However, before half an hour after the beating, Datou ran to his boat happily again.
"Brother Xiaowu!" Datou shouted as he clawed at the crack of the door.
Yuan Wuzheng was sitting in the cabin, thinking about whether to eat at noon and whether to eat instant noodles.
noon
When did he tell Datou to call him Xiaowu
Why
What the hell do you call yourself
Is it also called Xiaowu
"Little..." Datou shouted again, but was quickly interrupted by him.
"Call me uncle from now on." Yuan Wu said.
"Why?" Big Head asked.
"No reason." Yuan Wu said.
"But what kind of uncles are everyone else?" Big head clawed at the windowsill, resting his chin on the back of his hand, "I only call him uncle, you don't know who I am calling you."
"Am I the only one who isn't some kind of uncle?" Yuan Wu took out a jelly and tore it open.
"Yeah." His big eyes lit up.
"Then don't know it's me." Yuan Wu beckoned.
"Oh!" Big head ran into the cabin and took the jelly.
"Eat slowly and scoop with a spoon," Yuan Wu looked at him, "or it will get stuck."
"Well, I will eat it," Big Head scooped a spoonful of jelly, "Thank you uncle."
"He decided to find his true self...
But where to look, how to find, he has no direction, he just wants to free himself from this endless doubt...
He looked at the water quietly, who was that changing, elusive face? you or me…
Some things seem to never have an answer, just like waking up in the middle of the night and can't find the reason, the only thing that proves their existence seems to be those weird shadows, those whispers, and those cold fingertips across the skin...
He wants to tear open the darkness, roar, question, and shake off all these fears, his endurance is reaching its limit..."
It's almost the limit, it's almost the limit, it's almost the limit, it's almost there... Yuan Wu pushed the notebook aside, picked up the cup and took a sip of coffee.
When Yuan Wu wrote these words that seemed to be written before the end, there would be a feeling of breathlessness.
The terrifying supernatural plots in the story and the strangeness of facing the unknown are better than writing down these confusions that seem to be self-talking.
Almost over.
He bent his legs, buried his face in his knees, and put his head in his hands.
Is it almost over
end what
Why are you so afraid
When I saw Lin Chengbu again, it was already a week later. Yuan Wu was sitting on the fool's boat, leaning on the butt of his cow who enjoyed every boat ride.
"Where are you going!" Lin Chengbu stood on his boat and shouted at him.
Yuan Wu saw that he did not speak, and he was too lazy to shout.
Mainly because he was afraid of being frightened by the cows behind him and arched him into the water.
"How long will it take to be back!" Lin Chengbu shouted again.
Yuan Wu waved at him and told him to go back first and not wait.
But maybe it was because his hands were too unstandardized. Lin Chengbu obviously misunderstood his spirit. He nodded and started to undress.
"Fuck! Get out!" Yuan Wu roared, and immediately wanted to fly over and hang him on the boat.
The fool laughed while punting the boat.
Lin Cheng took off all his clothes in a few steps, including his underwear.
The fool couldn't stop laughing when he saw it.
Yuan Wu looked at him speechlessly as he put his clothes on his head, and then wrapped a streamer from the boat that he brought the big head to play with around his head, and tied a knot on his chin.
He tied his clothes perfectly over his head and jumped into the water.
"I... come on." Yuan Wu raised his head on the back of the cow and stared at the dazzling sunlight.
Lin Cheng was swimming very fast, and Yuan Wu could hear the sound of his arms getting closer and closer.
He closed his eyes, and the sunlight stubbornly emitted a bright white light through his eyelids, causing the tears to continue to gather in his eyes, sour and astringent.
The sound of paddling from the water began to blur, like a fading background.
In a trance he began to feel uneasy.
The feeling of being out of breath is getting stronger and stronger.
return!
He roared inwardly.
why!
Why are you!
At the same time that Lin Chengbu put his hand on the edge of the boat, Yuan Wu, who had been leaning his head against the cow, suddenly opened his eyes and rushed over, grabbed his arm, and his voice was hoarse and low: "Why are you?"
"It wasn't you who asked me to..." Before Lin Chengbu finished speaking, he saw the confusion in Yuan Wu's eyes, as well as the anxiety and despair after the chaos.
"Come up!" Yuan Wu ripped off the clothes tied to his head, grabbed his hair and pulled it towards the boat.
"Hey!" Lin Chengbu hurriedly climbed to the boat, but because his head was controlled by Yuan Wu, he couldn't adjust his posture to find a focus, "Wait... I haven't... Hey, it hurts!"
Yuan Wu seemed to have not heard his words at all, just dragged him tightly.
The fellow who was punting the boat was probably also frightened by Yuan Wu's madness. He was stunned for several seconds before shouting "Ah", and stretched out the bamboo pole in his hand from the bow of the boat.
Lin Chengbu then grabbed the bamboo pole and climbed onto the boat out of breath.
Yuan Wu still grabbed his hair and didn't let go. He wanted to break Yuan Wu's hand apart, but as soon as he raised his hand, the cow who had been lying on the boat turned his head to look at him, and let out a moo.
"Hey," Lin Chengbu subconsciously stretched out his hand and covered himself under him, thinking about it and thinking that hair is more important, so he raised his hand and pinched Yuan Wu's wrist, "You let go! I'm already here! I'm here. Let go! I'm going to be bald and fuck!"
This pinch finally made Yuan Wu let go, but after letting go, he still stared at Lin Chengbu, and the anxiety in his eyes was still there.
"I'm fine, I'm fine." While comforting him, Lin Chengbu tried to get his clothes on, but when he turned his head, he realized that the clothes were not on the boat.
The fellow who punted the boat laughed very happily, and gestured to him, pointing to the surface of the water downstream.
Lin Chengbu followed and looked over, and sadly found that his zebra panties had drifted far away. As for the other clothes, they might have sunk, but he didn't see them anyway.
"Are you all right?" Yuan Wu asked suddenly, as if he had come to his senses.
"Well," Lin Chengbu nodded, "it's mine..."
"Are you really all right?" Yuan Wu held his face in his hands and looked fixedly.
"... Hmm." Lin Cheng was half-kneeling on the boat, holding the cow's butt with one hand. He originally thought that Yuan Wu's nerves had passed, but Yuan Wu's eyes made him feel distressed to find that he had not.
"Don't do this again," Yuan Wu still held his face, "Don't do this again."
"Oh, I'm not like this anymore." Lin Chengbu replied.
To be honest, even if Yuan Wu is chaotic now, he still thinks it's good to stop time here.
But time didn't stop, and this scene, as well as the audience, was really embarrassing. Lin Chengbu squinted at him from the corner of his eye, and everyone on the boat and the cow were watching them seriously.
"It scared me to death." Yuan Wu said.
"I was scared to death too." Lin Chengbu said.
In this case, he didn't know how to talk to Yuan Wu. Just when he wanted Yuan Wu to sit back on the boat first, Yuan Wu suddenly hugged him.
He slammed his shoulders tightly, patted his back with his hands, and spoke in a low voice.
Lin Chengbu only felt that at least 24 large fireworks exploded in his head. He didn't hear what Yuan Wu said, only vaguely heard that everything was fine.
Finally, when he heard the laughter of the fellow, he came back to his senses and turned his head to look beside him.
The fellow punting pointed to Yuan Wu and then to his own head.
"He's not sick," Lin Chengbu said, "he's just... frightened."
The fellow nodded.
Yuan Wu held him in his arms for a long time, and Lin Chengbu could clearly smell the faint smell of tobacco on his body and the smell of soap on his clothes.
Considering that although the fellow didn't look at them again, but Niu never turned his eyes to stare, he didn't feel embarrassed to close his eyes and enjoy.
When Lin Chengbu counted to 66 in his heart, Yuan Wu let go of him, sat back on the boat, leaned on the cow's butt, and looked at him up and down.
"You..." Lin Chengbu squatted down.
It can be seen that Yuan Wu's line of sight gradually gained focus, moving from his face to his body, continuing down, and finally returning to his face.
Then he hooked the corner of his mouth, and an uncontrollable smile flashed: "You chose a big adventure?"
"...Actually, I never choose big adventures." Lin Chengbu looked at him.
Yuan Wu didn't speak, he touched his trousers pocket and took out the cigarette case: "Do you want it?"
"No." Lin Chengbu sighed.
Yuan Wu took out a cigarette, then turned around and asked, "Fool, do you want it?"
The fool nodded and took two cigarettes from the cigarette case.
Yuan Wu lit a cigarette and looked at Lin Chengbu, who was sitting across from him.
This time, I can see my figure very clearly, very good, with long legs and no fat.
After being freed from the deep fear, Yuan Wu looked at Lin Chengbu with an inexplicable intimacy.
Lin Chengbu was like someone who stood at the critical point of his confusion and fear. Although it disturbed his peaceful life, he gave him real feelings in the chaos of all kinds of nothingness.
A very strange feeling.
According to the old habit, the fool propped the boat to the old locust tree. Yuan Wu got off the boat, and said to the fool again: "Come over in an hour and send us back? I won't be staying too long today."
The fool smiled and nodded.
Lin Chengbu also got off the boat, then quickly jumped over and crouched under the tree.
"Where are your clothes?" Yuan Wu asked.
"Let you throw it in the water and float away," Lin Chengbu said, and couldn't help but stroke his hair, "That's you, I've already done it for someone else, it's so hard!"
"Let's be naked," Yuan Wu walked over to him and sat down, leaning against the tree trunk, "There's no one here anyway."
"Why are you here?" Lin Chengbu asked.
"Stop for a while." Yuan Wu said.
"Aren't you going to stop on the boat? At most, the big head will come to chat with you," Lin Chengbu thought for a while, "Oh and me... Are you trying to avoid me?"
"No." Yuan Wu pulled out a vine from the side, dragged out the elder, and then lowered his head and took the vine back and forth.
"Actually, I came here today," Lin Chengbu looked at him, "yes... what... "
Yuan Wu turned his head.
"Today is my birthday," Lin Chengbu said, "I want to spend time with you."
"Why?" Yuan Wu asked.
"No reason," Lin Chengbu buried his feet in the soft and moist mud next to him, "just wanted to."
Yuan Wu was silent for a while, then turned around and continued to circle the vine in his hand: "Happy birthday."
Then there was silence, and neither of them spoke any more.
However, this kind of silence was not uncomfortable. Lin Chengbu felt very comfortable except for the awkwardness of sitting on a rock with his bare buttocks.
The surrounding scenery is very beautiful, the water surface shining in the sun, the reeds swaying gently when the wind blows, the water birds passing by from time to time, and the chirping of insects from nowhere.
Quiet and comfortable.
"Here." Yuan Wu tossed for a long time, weaving the rattan into a circle.
"A birthday present?" Lin Chengbu took it and looked at it.
"Cover your bird." Yuan Wu said.
"...Fuck." Lin Chengbu opened his mouth and didn't know what else to say.
"Aren't you afraid that you will be uncomfortable?" Yuan Wu glanced under him, "After all, I have no experience with Guo Ben."
"Okay," Lin Chengbu stood up, "how do you use this thing, put it on your waist?"
"Well," Yuan Wu said, "the vine in the middle can be tightened."
Lin Chengbu hesitated for a moment, then put the rattan ring around his waist, and then tightened the rattan in the middle according to Yuan Wu's instructions... It was quite suitable, the layers of leaves made him feel less embarrassed.
"Thank you." He sat back on the rock, feeling his legs stretch out a bit.
"How are you going to spend it," Yuan Wu asked, "your birthday."
"I don't know," Lin Chengbu answered truthfully, "I just want to stay with you, whatever you want."
"Are you..." Yuan Wu looked at him and narrowed his eyes, "Are you..."
When Lin Chengbu heard what he said, he immediately turned his head and waited expectantly, yes, yes, I like you, so I want to be with you on my birthday! That's right!
"Do you lack fatherly love?" Yuan Wu said.
Lin Chengbu had the urge to turn his head and dive into the water to swim back to the pier: "...No, my dad loves me very much."
"Oh," Yuan Wu responded, and after being silent for a while, he spoke again, "Then you are..."
Lin Chengbu immediately ignited hope and looked at him expectantly again.
"Want my signed book?" Yuan Wu asked seriously.
"Goodbye," Lin Cheng stood up quickly, turned around and walked towards the water, took two steps before stopping, "I said I'm not your reader!"
"Oh." Yuan Wu looked at him, stopped for a while and then suddenly laughed.
Lin Chengbu froze in place.
How long
Can't remember, how long has it been since Yuan Wu smiled like this, with a bit of ruffianness and cunning... Although he remembered that Yuan Wu didn't laugh too many times, but such a smile really belongs to Yuan Wu of.
His own smile.
Before he could fully recover from the shock, Yuan Wu closed his smile and asked, "Do you like me?"
Lin Chengbu was quickly pulled back into a state of shock.
I forgot to say the answer I thought of before.
Yuan Wu didn't seem to be ready to listen to his answer after asking, leaning against the tree and closing his eyes.
"Yes," Lin Chengbu looked at his profile, "yes."
"You like men," Yuan Wu closed his eyes, his voice was very low, and he spoke slowly, "No wonder come to me to take off your clothes if you have nothing to do."
"I didn't specifically come to undress." Lin Chengbu said.
"Really?" Yuan Wu turned his head and opened his eyes to look at him.
"Of course it's true, I came over to undress me..." Lin Chengbu felt speechless.
"You really like me?" Yuan Wu interrupted him.
Lin Cheng paused: "Really, and I have said it many times."
"How many times?" Yuan Wu asked.
"I don't count," Lin Chengbu said, "I'll talk if I have nothing to do."
"Why?" Yuan Wu continued to ask with interest.
"I like it so much." Lin Chengbu smiled, and when he lowered his head, he saw the grass circle on his waist, and suddenly felt that it was quite cola to express himself in such a shape.
"How could you like a man?" Yuan Wu sighed, stopped looking at him, grabbed a grass and bit it lightly in his mouth.
Why do you like men yourself
Lin Chengbu really wanted to ask, but when he thought of that day at the farmhouse, he shut up again, but he was nervous for a while.
What should he do if Yuanwu only looks at girls from now on
"Let's buy a cake," Yuan Wu said, "I can't buy it in the village, go to Xiaojiang Town to see it, it's too late to order a cake, and see if it's ready."
"Now?" Lin Chengbu asked, the worry in his heart was instantly washed away.
"Wait for the fool to come and pick us up," Yuan Wu said, "or you can swim back, didn't you just say goodbye to me?"
"HI," Lin Chengbu immediately waved at him, "meet again."
Yuan Wu ignored him.
Lin Chengbu sat back on the stone and looked at Yuan Wu with his eyes closed. He had panicked like that when he was in the water before, but now when it comes to letting him swim back, Yuan Wu doesn't seem to care at all.
What kind of performance is this
Lin Chengbu was a little dazed. He brought two bartender glasses over today, thinking that if Yuan Wu didn't respond, he would take them out.
But now Yuan Wu suddenly said that he was going to buy a cake, and he began to hesitate again, fearing that the two cups would make Yuan Wu, who was in a good mood, fall into pain again.
Lin Chengbu felt that he was with someone who couldn't dance and had to dance. As soon as he stepped on the other side with a series of feet, he wanted to give him a back fall, but he was worried that the next foot would step on it, and at the same time he wanted to grab him. The other party's hand was around the other party's waist and did not dare to stop.
To put it bluntly, I feel that I have fought bravely to play a long-term hooligan. What a great spirit this is.