I Just Came to Borrow a Light

Chapter 18

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Lin Chengbu has almost forgotten the setting of himself as a ghost waiting in line for reincarnation. Yuan Wu has always been full of compassion and sympathy for this setting, looking at the poor man who has become nervous at a young age, and is about to set off. An accident occurred in the first second.

Now that Yuan Wu suddenly proposed to restart the plan, Lin Chengbu couldn't react for a long time, and after a while, he asked, "Then you... can you remember?"

"I don't remember." Yuan Wu replied succinctly.

"Oh," Lin Chengbu thought for a while, "then try it first, didn't you say last time that the first ghost was in the factory in the northern suburbs?"

"I guess." Yuan Wu said.

"Then keep guessing." Lin Chengbu said.

Yuan Wu took another small cake and took a bite: "This cake is even worse than the broken birthday cake yesterday."

"Really," Lin Chengbu smiled, "Let's go back to the city soon, and I'll buy you chestnut cake? You used to like it very much."

"Yeah." Yuan Wu responded and put the cake that he took a bite into back into the bag.

"Don't eat?" Lin Chengbu asked.

"It's too unpalatable, like eating lime," Yuan Wu said. "The bun just now looks like sand. I'm too hungry to talk about it."

Lin Chengbu picked up the half of the cake and took a bite: "What kind of taste do you have..."

Yuan Wu lit a cigarette, leaned back, and looked up at the sun, which had begun to emit white light.

After Lin Chengbu finished eating half of the cake, he wanted to find something to say, but he didn't find it for a while. It's always been like this. Have to find an entry point for half a day.

Before looking for something to say, he could only stare at Yuan Wu up and down, but fortunately Yuan Wu didn't care about his naked gaze before.

Lin Chengbu's eyes began to slowly look down from Yuan Wu's still wet hair, a beautiful forehead, a straight nose, lips that looked a little impatient and a stubborn chin, collarbone, T-shirt... No T-shirt Can't see anything... arms, wrists...

His eyes stopped on Yuan Wu's wrist. Ever since he gave the watch to Lin Chengbu that day, Yuan Wu's left wrist had been empty and he didn't wear anything, but only now did Lin Chengbu see the wrist at the position of the watch. The deep scar on the inside.

The shock and fear in his heart suddenly surged up at the same time, as well as deep doubts.

When did this happen

Why cut the wrist

Didn't Yuan Wu take Xingtian's story as an operation manual? All kinds of suffocation and water, why was the wrist cut before

He stared at the scar for a long time.

There is only one conclusion in my mind, whether this scar was cut during Yuanwu or Yuanwu.

two years ago

During the period of sudden loss of contact

"Aren't you going to work today?" Yuan Wu raised his hand to cover the sunlight that had hit his face.

"Well," Lin Chengbu nodded, "I don't have much to do in the morning when I go to work."

"Let's go then?" Yuan Wu said.

"...Okay," Lin Chengbu stood up and watched Yuan Wu enter the cabin to pack up his things and wipe his head with a towel. He asked again cautiously, "Why do you... think..."

"Are you afraid of death?" Yuan Wu turned around and asked him.

"I'm scared to death, especially scared." Lin Chengbu said.

"I'm also afraid," Yuan Wu said, and the movement of wiping his hair stopped. The towel covered half of his face, so he couldn't see his expression clearly. His voice was very low, "I don't want to just… die."

After hearing this sentence, Lin Chengbu was sure that Yuan Wu remembered what happened in the morning.

"You... morning... uh," but to talk about this, it was still difficult for Lin Chengbu to speak. For someone like him who didn't read books well, he wanted to ask such sensitive questions skillfully. The question is simply harder than memorizing the recipe, "I mean... you..."

"What is your native language?" Yuan Wu asked.

"Ah?" Lin Chengbu was stunned for a while before he could react, "Zhong, Chinese, Mandarin."

"I didn't hear it." Yuan Wu said.

Lin Chengbu took a breath and added fuel to himself in his heart. See, this person is choking on you again. He doesn't miss any opportunity, no matter if he is him or who he is, he is choking on you. It's all standard...

"Did you want to commit suicide this morning?" Lin Chengbu asked again in his clear native language.

"Yes." Yuan Wu threw down the towel, scratched his messy hair, bent over, took his wallet and walked out of the cabin.

"Why?" Lin Chengbu asked.

"I don't know," Yuan Wu replied succinctly, "I don't know, I just... think."

"Aren't you afraid of death?" Lin Chengbu continued to ask, how proficient in his native language.

"Yes." Yuan Wu said.

"Then why do you want to die again?" Lin Chengbu stared at him.

"Because that's how it should be." Yuan Wu turned around and walked over to the pier.

Lin Chengbu didn't ask any further questions, feeling that Yuan Wu himself couldn't explain why.

He followed Yuan Wu, and suddenly felt that if he had studied hard before, he could go to a university, study psychology or something, and maybe he could infer Yuan Wu's thoughts.

Now his cultural accomplishment is enough to see the state of rumors on WeChat. Even if he wants to study by himself, it is probably not enough. Before he went to a psychiatrist, they said that he needed to talk to himself to judge, but he also told him something, don't say anything. Understand, he can't even remember what the doctor said now.

The sorrow of an illiterate brother.

When he got into the car, Lin Chengbu found that the wheels of the car were full of grass and wild flowers, and even a lot of them were inserted into the front of the car. His artistic accomplishment was really getting higher and higher.

Yuan Wu was still the same after he got into the car, leaned on the seat, turned his head and looked out the window in a trance.

Lin Chengbu lowered the car window. He liked the cool wind blowing outside while driving. Of course, it was limited to the countryside. In the city, the car window had to be installed. When he got home, he felt that his face was frosted.

Yuan Wu put on the hat in his hand and took out the mask from his pocket.

"Is it too windy? Do you want to close the window?" Lin Chengbu asked.

"No," Yuan Wu put on a mask, "I'm used to it."

got used to.

whose habit.

Yuan Wu did not have this habit.

Yuan Wu has a distance and indifference towards people, but he never avoids any gaze, and can face any inquiry with indifference and arrogance without caring at all.

There is an enchantment around him, but he never blocks himself.

The car drove out of the Shenqiao. Today is not the weekend, and the weather is no longer as hot as before. There are very few people coming to the Shenqiao. Only a few agricultural vehicles and shuttle buses were seen on the road.

The shuttles drove wildly. When passing from the side, Lin Chengbu had the illusion that his car was going to be taken off course. All shuttle drivers had the heart of a pilot who wanted to get rid of gravity and rush to the sky.

"Get some music and listen." Yuan Wu said.

"Oh," Lin Chengbu glanced at him, "what do you want to hear?"

"You're not my man..." Yuan Wu half-squinted and looked out the window.

"It's your boyfriend to me," Lin Chengbu reached out and pressed the CD player, "All the CDs in my car are your favorites."

"I haven't listened to music for a long time." Yuan Wu said.

"I haven't heard it for a long time." Lin Chengbu said.

There were discs in the CD player. Lin Chengbu couldn't remember how long ago they put them in. He hadn't listened to these discs since Yuan Wu became like this.

Although he has no experience of listening to music with Yuan Wu, as long as he thinks that these are the songs that Yuan Wu usually listens to, he dare not listen to it again.

After so long, he was a little surprised that the plate could still make a sound.

The music sounded, and after the prelude, Yuan Wu sang along with the music: "feel... I can feel you... the bliss, your kiss... "

Lin Chengbu's eyes suddenly became a little sore, and his fingers tapped on the steering wheel a few times.

"You haven't returned my clothes to me." Yuan Wu said.

"No," Lin Chengbu said, "I want it."

Yuan Wu turned to look at him.

"Would you like to change my clothes with you?" Lin Chengbu said again.

"Forget it." Yuan Wu closed his eyes.

The car drove to the outskirts of the city to go to the abandoned factory in the northern suburbs that I don't know where it was. Lin Chengbu glanced at Yuan Wu and said, "Seat belt."

"Huh?" Yuan Wu, who had been closing his eyes and resting, opened one eye.

"Points will be deducted if the passenger doesn't wear a seat belt." Lin Chengbu said.

Yuan Wu clicked his tongue impatiently, pulled the seat belt, and when he was about to buckle it, he paused, took the buckle to his eyes and looked at it: "Is there no girl in your car?"

"...It's just my mother and my sister," Lin Chengbu glanced at the buckle and smiled a little embarrassedly, "and sit less."

"Get a dick and buckle here, why didn't your mother smoke you?" Yuan Wu fastened his seat belt.

"Dorafeng." Lin Chengbu said.

Yuan Wu ignored him and closed the car window. As soon as the car entered the city, the air began to turn gray.

Lin Chengbu turned on the air conditioner.

"Why don't I remember this thing?" Er Yuan Wu asked after a while.

"What?" Lin Chengbu was stunned.

"This cock, I should have an impression of my boyfriend's stuff." Yuan Wu glanced at him.

Lin Chengbu felt a little nervous in his heart, and his heart beat a little faster. It really takes a strong heart to tell such a big lie. He cleared his throat: "You don't even remember me."

Yuan Wu was silent for a while: "Yes."

Lin Chengbu breathed a sigh of relief, and almost missed the intersection when he was nervous.

When the car stopped at the intersection and waited for the left turn signal to turn on, Yuan Wu turned his head and asked, "Have we ever gone to bed?"

Did we go to bed

Did we go to bed

Have you ever gone to bed

go to bed

Go to bed!

Lin Chengbu was taken aback and stepped on the accelerator. Fortunately, he was in neutral. After the engine squeaked, he lowered his head and coughed violently, partly because he was frightened and choked, partly because he concealed his guilty conscience.

fuck!

Forget the most important part!

Boyfriend!

Have you ever gone to bed

Been there

Of course Lin Chengbu hopes so, and wants to say so, but he is still a serious fanboy with a bottom line. He has already used Yuan Wu's brain damage... No, Yuan Wu's insanity has taken advantage of it, and he really can't do it any more. It's shameless to take such a big advantage.

Although I want to take it.

But... haven't been there

Boyfriend who never slept... Sounds a little suspicious again.

Lin Chengbu's cough could no longer be contained. He himself felt that it sounded very fake, and he kept coughing... When the green light came on, he had to stop coughing and put the car in gear to drive out.

"What," he glanced at Yuan Wu, the mask on Yuan Wu's face perfectly concealed his expression, and he didn't get any information, "Why ask this?"

"You don't have to answer." Yuan Wu said.

"Then what else are you asking!" Lin Chengbu felt a little helpless.

"Look at your reaction," Yuan Wu turned to look out the window, "I want to drink some water."

"There's a milk tea shop in front... Let's drink milk tea? Gong tea? I haven't had one for a long time," Lin Chengbu looked at the roadside, and when he mentioned something he liked and hadn't had for a long time, he couldn't help but take care of himself He continued, "Hey, that's right, this is the road. There's a shop in front of you, and you can park your car... Do you like black tea, green tea, or Longjing?"

"Is boiled water okay?" Yuan Wu said, "I just want to drink a bottle of mineral water, water, Shiwuhei water, white water."

"...Understood." Lin Chengbu felt a little embarrassed.

Whether it is Gongcha or Shiwuaishui, the car can only be parked in front of Gongcha's house, and there are only a few parking spaces there.

After Lin Chengbu parked the car, he saw Yuan Wu was staring at the sign of Gong Cha outside, and he quickly explained: "There is a supermarket next to you where you can buy water... There is no other place to park."

Yuan Wu made no sound.

"Really." Lin Chengbu added again.

"Go buy it." Yuan Wu sat in the car without moving.

"Huh? What's wrong?" Lin Chengbu asked.

"I... I'm afraid." Yuan Wu replied in a low voice.

"Afraid?" Lin Chengbu immediately remembered his previous excuse when he asked Yuan Wu to accompany him to get snacks, "Aren't you, you have to take revenge for this kind of thing?"

"I'm really afraid," Yuan Wu leaned his head against the glass and looked outside, "There are too many people."

Lin Chengbu looked at him and didn't speak for a long time.

Yes, there are too many people.

Yuan Wu has been on that boat for too long. Even if he can go shopping in the town, the liveliness of the small town cannot be compared to a commercial street in a city with high-rise buildings, even on a busy day. Compare.

He was suddenly distressed.

Yuan Wu, who used to be full of flickering lights and music every night, surrounded by crowds and screams, once faced this kind of Yuan Wu, who was still indifferent to feasting and feasting, would say he was afraid.

"Wait for me in the car," Lin Chengbu said, "mineral water, do you want anything else?"

"Tribute tea." Yuan Wu said.

"Huh?" Lin Chengbu was stunned.

"No more mineral water," Yuan Wu turned his face, "I want tribute tea, black tea."

"Okay." Lin Chengbu nodded, opened the door and got out of the car.

When walking towards Gong Cha, he hesitated again, and locked the car with the remote control.

Yuan Wu heard the sound of the car locking, leaned on the seat and smiled, turning up the music.

He would actually say fear to Lin Chengbu.

In fact, it can't be called fear, it's just a vague discomfort and resistance. The crowds come and go, everyone is in a hurry, and they pass by countless people and turn a blind eye.

"Xiao Wu, look."

"Look what."

"Look at me, can you see me?"

"can."

"Then what do you think, is what you see really me? Is it really me?"

"You are not you."

"No, I am the me I know, but not necessarily the me you know... Which one did you see?"

"I have no idea."

"I don't know either... I think I've been looking, I just don't know who I'm looking at... The person in the eyes, is that the person? What about the mirror? When you look in the mirror, you see, Or me?"

Yuan Wu was very irritable and slammed the back of the seat back, and turned the music in the car a little louder.

What the hell are you talking about!

What are you trying to say!

I don't understand, I don't understand all the time, it's driving me crazy!

what are these...

Lin Chengbu was still several meters away from the car when he heard the deafening music in the car.

I reeber reeber you, I reeber still close to you, No need to fear the distance here…

Yuan Wu leaned on the seat and closed his eyes, as if he was still listening.

"Fuck," Lin Cheng walked over and opened the car door, feeling his ears were about to explode, he reached out and turned down the music, "You're not afraid that the police will come over in a while."

"Can you hear me?" Yuan Wu asked.

"Those who are deaf will have to be deafened again." Lin Cheng stepped into the car and closed the door. He put the two cups of tea in his hand in front of him, "Drink it."

"I'm asking if you can hear someone talking?" Yuan Wu asked.

"Where?" Lin Chengbu looked around.

"Here." Yuan Wu opened his eyes and looked at him.

"Is someone... talking?" Lin Chengbu suddenly felt a chill down the back of his spine, "We're talking."

Yuan Wu pulled off his mask and smiled, reaching for a cup of tea and taking a sip.

"Is it delicious?" Lin Chengbu looked at him.

"Yeah," Yuan Wu nodded, "Xiao Young's favorite thing."

"...You're very old?" Lin Chengbu sighed.

"You call me Uncle." Yuan Wu said.

"Then you still call me uncle, where can I go to reason." Lin Chengbu also took a sip of the tribute tea. After the cold and refreshing tea went all the way down to his stomach, the feeling of panic in his heart slowed down. faded slowly.

"We are..." Yuan Wu took out the straw and slowly drank the cream on top, "How did you meet?"

How did you meet

For Lin Chengbu, this question was easier to answer than asking how old he was.

"At the entrance of a bar," Lin Chengbu bent one leg, sat sideways, facing Yuan Wu, "it was just autumn, the weather was very good, I like it, but it's easy to get nosebleeds..."

"Remove environmental descriptions and psychological descriptions." Yuan Wu interrupted him.

"Oh," Lin Chengbu smiled, "that's the door of the bar. I went to look for someone, and when I saw you, I thought I was fucking this guy... special... very... quite... "

"Handsome." Yuan Wu took his words.

"Yes," Lin Chengbu nodded, "I thought at the time, how can I fuck this guy so handsome, it's pretty cool."

"Then what?" Yuan Wu looked at him.

"Then I thought that I have to talk to you, no matter what I say, I can ask for directions," Lin Chengbu took a sip of tea, "I'll go over."

"Ask me for directions?" Yuan Wu raised his eyebrows.

"No, I asked you to borrow fire," Lin Chengbu looked into his eyes, "I said, uncle borrowed fire and said this."

"You called me uncle when you first met?" Yuan Wu asked.

"Well, I don't know where the short circuit is. I'm nervous and easy to talk nonsense." Lin Chengbu thought about it and laughed again, "but you were quite... like you didn't wake up that day, and you probably haven't shaved for several days. "

"Then what?" Yuan Wu then asked.

"Tell me...Tell me," Lin Chengbu said softly with a smile, "Tell me, you are talking to me, uncle, you look very drawn, and you are a little impatient."