"This big face," Yuan Wu snorted at the screen, threw the phone aside, and put down the camera, "Did you just say it's a late night snack?"
"You know Jiang Chengyu and Guo Xiaoshuai," Lin Chengbu sat next to him, face to face with him, "Be active, even if you pass by, you can't escape."
Yuan Wu frowned.
"Tell me if you know them both," Lin Chengbu said, "you said, I'll cook something delicious for you."
"When I'm the big head?" Yuan Wu glanced at him.
"Big head is more capable than you," Lin Chengbu sighed, "If you are big head, everything will be solved, big head is smart and sensible."
Yuan Wu clicked his tongue: "What do you mean?"
"It means you're annoying," Lin Chengbu stood up and went to the kitchen, "The supper is gone, so be hungry."
"I remember it all," Yuan Wu leaned his head back on the sofa, half-squinting his eyes, "I remember it all, I don't know it later, I remember it now."
"Remember what?" Lin Chengbu quickly walked back to him.
"I sometimes remember a lot of things," Yuan Wu closed his eyes, "A lot..."
"Remember what?" Lin Chengbu asked.
"I don't know," Yuan Wu suddenly got a little irritable, opened his eyes and looked at him, "I don't know! I can't tell what it is when I mix it up! Don't keep saying that I'm not active or not! I don't even know what I want to do actively!"
Lin Chengbu didn't speak.
"I don't want to run away! What to face positively!" Yuan Wu stood up and walked back and forth in the room, "It's annoying! It's a mess! It's a mess!"
"Don't worry..." Lin Chengbu stopped him and put a cup of yogurt in his hand.
"But you are in a hurry!" Yuan Wu glared at him, "You are in a hurry!"
"...Yes." Lin Chengbu nodded.
Yuan Wu didn't say anything else, and sat back on the sofa, holding his head with his arms on his knees.
Lin Chengbu moved very lightly in the kitchen and didn't know what to do, was it a late night snack
He answered his question by himself, probably making a late night snack.
remember.
Yes, I remember Jiang Chengyu and Guo Xiaoshuai.
But he couldn't remember what those names had to do with him, what they were supposed to look like in his memory.
His mind is not blank, not nothing, he has memories and memories, but they are all mixed up, confused and clueless.
Many times he couldn't even tell if it was real or just his imagination.
I'm so tired... I've always been tired... You say, there will be many people in this world who shouldn't exist... For example, me...
You are unhappy because of me... A lot of things are because of me... Why don't you laugh, I told you a joke, I think it's funny, why don't you laugh... Am I superfluous, the extra is actually my right Bar…
You said, would we be one person originally, if only one person, it would be fine, right
There is one that should not exist.
it's me.
Yuan Wu dipped his fingers into his hair and scratched fiercely a few times.
The same voice, the same words.
He didn't want to run away, but he felt scared in the confusion, afraid that his thoughts would become clear, and he was afraid that he would suddenly see some kind of truth that seemed to make him despair.
Yes, the truth.
He knew that something was waiting for him in Chaos.
Getting closer.
After a long time of repression and avoidance, he still couldn't escape, and got closer little by little.
It was like he never knew who was talking and what he was talking about.
Now I have to tell myself.
understood.
It's Yuan Shen.
Once he remembered this name, it was like breaking a certain balance, throwing him into confusion and fear, followed by uncontrollable restlessness and more and more frequent headaches.
And drowsiness wrapped in vertigo.
Is this an escape
If you didn't know anything, it wouldn't be so hard.
Is it an escape
When Lin Chengbu poured the boiled eggs out of the pot, he saw Yuan Wu, who had been sitting on the sofa holding his head, and began to tremble.
He threw the pot into the sink and ran to Yuan Wu.
"What's wrong?" He hugged Yuan Wu, and found that he was shaking violently, and his whole body was covered in sweat. In this weather, he would have to run for more than ten minutes if he wanted to sweat like this.
Yuan Wu didn't answer him, just frowned, his expression wasn't painful, but it wasn't uncomfortable either.
"What's wrong?" Lin Chengbu hugged him tightly, "Tell me what's wrong?"
"It's very sleepy." Yuan Wu said in a low voice.
"Drowsy?" Lin Chengbu glanced at the time, it was almost 12 o'clock, and if you were to say sleepy... it didn't seem to be abnormal, "Are you going to sleep?"
"Yeah." Yuan Wu responded, and slowly stopped shaking.
"Then..." Lin Chengbu was about to say that you should go back to the bedroom to sleep, but Yuan Wu suddenly leaned on him. He had been struggling a bit with him, but now he loosened up suddenly, and he was a little shocked to support Yuan Wu's body. Shoulder, "I fell asleep on you?"
Yuan Wu didn't answer, closed his eyes, and even slowed his breathing.
Lin Chengbu stared at his face, and when he tilted his head back, he quickly stretched out his hand to support him: "Aren't you, do you have other problems? Are you asleep or faint!"
Yuan Wu's eyes suddenly opened a slit: "Shut up."
After speaking, he closed his eyes again and fell asleep as if he had passed out.
"...Oh," Lin Chengbu replied after a long time: "Then you go to bed, do you want me to help you sit and sleep?"
Yuan Wu did not respond.
Lin Chengbu hesitated for a moment, dragged Yuan Wu into the bedroom, and threw it on the bed.
He originally wanted to carry Yuan Wu in, but in that position he was afraid that Yuan Wu's stomach would be uncomfortable, so he wanted to carry him in. Yuan Wu was not too small, he was afraid that he would slip half of his hand and throw Yuan Wu on the ground, so he probably couldn't run away. Just beating, in case I fall into a brain again...
Yuan Wu quickly turned over after being thrown onto the bed, and pulled the pillow to make himself sleep more comfortable.
"Damn it," Lin Chengbu looked at him suspiciously, "Are you pretending or falling asleep or faint?"
"It's just sleepy." Yuan Wu said in a nasal voice.
"No," Lin Chengbu was speechless, "Aren't you asleep?"
"What's the matter," Yuan Wu said in a lower voice, as if he was about to fall asleep, "You're exhausted."
"... Forget it, go to sleep." Lin Chengbu sighed.
After standing by the bed for a few more minutes, after confirming that Yuan Wu was indeed asleep, he turned around and left the bedroom and went to the kitchen to eat the bowl of wine-stuffed eggs.
That night, Yuan had a fairly stable nap, and there was no abnormality. Lin Chengbu didn't take ice cubes to water his crotch, and slept directly next to him.
Because the information provided by Guo Xiaoshuai was too surprising, he had no other thoughts at all. He fell asleep and dreamed of two Yuanwu all night.
He also recited a tight-knit spell like a fool for a while trying to distinguish the true and false Yuanwu.
And he read it like that, the elders, and he looked at himself several times in his dreams.
But when I woke up I had forgotten.
It's a bit of a pity.
When he opened his eyes, his first action was to turn his head to look at Yuan Wu. After realizing that Yuan Wu was not on the bed, he rushed to the living room within a second.
"Very agile." Yuan Wu stood in the kitchen.
"Hungry?" Lin Chengbu breathed a sigh of relief, "I'll make it, I don't have your only specialty here."
"What?" Yuan Wu asked.
"Instant noodles," Lin Chengbu opened the refrigerator, "Have a sandwich? Or go out to eat? I have nothing to take you out to eat today."
"I'll do it," Yuan Wu said. "You seem to have all these things in the kitchen."
"What are you going to do?" Lin Chengbu sat down at the table.
"Sandwich," Yuan Wu smiled at him, "You can guide me to make it."
Lin Chengbu didn't speak, staring at Yuan Wu's face, the chill seeping up from his back little by little.
"Is it okay?" Yuan Wu asked again.
"Okay." Lin Chengbu nodded.
Yuan Wu took out the eggs from the refrigerator, took a bowl and started to beat: "Actually, I'm quite skilled at beating eggs or something."
"Yeah." Lin Chengbu responded.
Yuan Wu's smile just now made him feel scared.
He had seen that smile before, but he didn't know at the time that such a sunny smile belonged to Yuan Shen.
"Yuan Wu." He tried to call out.
"Huh?" Yuan Wu looked up at him.
"You never told me about your brother," he said.
"Brother?" Yuan Wu's eyes emptied for a moment, but he soon lowered his eyelids and continued to beat eggs without speaking.
"Your brother's name is Yuan Shen," Lin Chengbu continued, "you mentioned it once before, when Xiao Nier came to you to get something, you said that it was Yuan Shen's ex-girlfriend."
The movement in Yuan Wu's hand stopped.
"Do you remember?" Lin Chengbu paid attention to his reaction and tried to say, "Remember Xiao Ni?"
Yuan Wu didn't speak, put down the bowl in his hand, propped up the table and stared at the bowl in silence.
"Where is Yuan Shen?" Lin Chengbu bit his lip and asked. He felt that he was asking a little risky, "Guo Xiaoshuai said that he hasn't heard from him for a long time."
"What do you want to know?" Yuan Wu's voice suddenly became cold, and when he looked up, his eyes were sharp like a knife.
Lin Chengbu could almost feel a pain in his face.
He regretted it a little bit, he should wait until Yuan Wu finished making sandwiches and ask, at least he could eat the breakfast that Yuan Wu made for him...
But the plot has developed here, and it is impossible to rewind, and it turns out that if you continue to slow down and move forward, it will leave Yuan Wu too many opportunities for "self-regulation", and take a step back.
"I want to know," Lin Chengbu took out the photo from his pocket, put it in front of Yuan Wu, and pointed at Yuan Shen, "Where is Yuan Shen."
Yuan Wu looked down at the photo.
When his eyes landed in front of his fingertips, his breathing suddenly became rapid, and he couldn't tell whether it was fear, anxiety, or sadness.
Maybe both.
Before Lin Chengbu could think about what to say next, Yuan Wu grabbed the photo and ripped it into pieces.
Lin Chengbu didn't go to grab the photo. It doesn't matter whether the photo is complete or not, what matters is that Yuan Wu saw it.
saw two people.
The fragments of the photo were taken to the toilet by Yuan Wu and thrown into the toilet, and they were flushed twice in a row.
Lin Chengbu waited for a while, but did not see Yuan Wu come out. Although he felt that the possibility of suicide by using the water in the toilet was too low, he got up and went into the toilet.
Yuan Wu sat against the wall, holding his head as he saw it on the boat for the first time, and wept bitterly.
The painful roar-like cry that was forcibly pressed into his throat made Lin Chengbu's heart twitch for a while, and the pain spread from his chest to his arms, causing a burst of numbness.
He didn't know what Yuan Wu was crying.
I didn't know last time.
But this kind of sadness can be conveyed and can be clearly felt.
Whatever the reason, Yuan Wu was very painful.
Lin Chengbu didn't speak, and sat down against the wall opposite him, looking at him face to face.
This is a kind of torment. He sat opposite Yuan Wu, watching him cry like a struggle, and clearly felt the pain emanating from Yuan Wu's body.
But nothing can be done.
No comfort, no words to say.
Time passed little by little, Lin Chengbu didn't look at his watch, and he didn't know how long it was, but he felt that his whole body was starting to ache and his head was swollen. He only knew that Yuan Wu had not made a sound for a long time.
Just sit there quietly with your head in your hands.
Lin Chengbu thought he was asleep, but he could still see that his interlaced fingers would rub gently.
"He's dead." Yuan Wu said suddenly.
This sentence was said too suddenly, with a little resonance in the small space, causing Lin Chengbu to bounce on the ground as if frightened, and sat up straight.
Yuan Wu still didn't move in his previous posture, just like he didn't say that sentence.
"Who died?" Lin Chengbu asked softly.
"Yuan Shen." Yuan Wu's voice was hoarse and low, but the words Yuan Shen spoke clearly.
Won Shin is dead.
Lin Chengbu looked at Yuan Wu, feeling that he didn't know what to say or what else to say. Yuan Wu was silent, and he could only keep silent.
Yuan Wu always held his head like that from silence to speech and then to silence, as if he wanted to isolate himself from the things around him.
Lin Chengbu wanted to touch him, pinched his arms, and hugged his shoulders, but he didn't dare to move.
Yuan Wu's body language clearly and clearly refuses any contact.
Just like for a long time before, he didn't allow anyone to touch him, and Lin Chengbu grabbed his arm and was slapped at random.
Only in this way, accompanied by silence.
Until the early morning sun slowly changed from the window to the bright noon sun, Yuan Wu did not speak again, he was not even sure if Yuan Wu knew that he was still here.
The sunlight slowly slanted over again, and a small square of light poured in from the small window climbed up the wall little by little, and finally disappeared.
Lin Chengbu felt that he had probably reached his deadline.
The soreness in the whole body has disappeared, replaced by numbness. He has moved his legs a few times, but his buttocks are not very movable, and now his ass is not his.
I don't know how long it will take to get my butt back.
If his butt is necrotic, can he seek Yuanwu for compensation.
What about Yuan Wu's ass
Is there any necrosis... Do you want to force it to check...
"Do you know?" Yuan Wu, who had settled down in general, suddenly opened his mouth.
Lin Chengbu was still startled, but because of his butt, he couldn't jump on the spot and could only raise his head suddenly.
Yuan Wu also raised his head, perhaps because he had been bowing his head for too long, when he raised his head, he seemed to be leaning back because of dizziness.
"What?" Lin Chengbu asked. After speaking, he realized that his throat was on fire.
"If a person sincerely wants to die," Yuan Wu said, "how powerful is it."
Lin Chengbu didn't answer, and didn't know how to answer.
"Is there really someone who shouldn't exist?" Yuan Wu looked at him.
"No." Lin Chengbu said.
"Yeah... No..." Yuan Wu sighed softly, "I'm hungry."
"Want to eat?" Lin Chengbu asked.
"Yeah." Yuan Wu nodded.
"I'm going to cook," Lin Chengbu wanted to stand up, but as soon as his legs moved, he was so numb that he almost shouted out. He gritted his teeth and pinched his legs, "Damn it."
"Hungry." Yuan Wu said.
"I know, you wait..."
"very hungry."
"Ah..." Lin Chengbu groaned, not only his legs were very sore and numb, but he had no energy at all. He gave up the idea of standing up and propped himself on the ground, "wait for me..."
"I starved to death." Yuan Wu looked at him.
"I see," Lin Chengbu slowly crawled towards the door, "Do you know how I feel now?"
"I know," Yuan Wu said, "I'm so numb that I can't move."
"I thought you didn't know," Lin Chengbu climbed to the door and turned to look at him, "If you know, don't rush me."
"I didn't urge you," Yuan Wu said, "I just expressed my inner desire."
"I have already received your desire." Lin Chengbu sighed.
"Xiaobubu," Yuan Wu said in a low voice, "You think I'm Yuan Wu, right?"
Lin Chengbu, who had already stood up halfway holding the door, knelt back to the ground after he said these words, and turned to look at him: "Yes."
"What if I really aren't," Yuan Wu said, "Have you thought about it?"
"I thought about it," Lin Chengbu's voice trembled, "but you must be."
"Do you know Yuan Shen?" Yuan Wu looked at him and asked, "Why are you so sure?"
"Because," Lin Chengbu approached him, "from the day I met you, you've been like that, just like your high school photo, when I met you, you didn't look like this bird, I just saw following you..."
"It turned into a bird." Yuan Wu took his words.
"...Yes." Lin Chengbu nodded.
Yuan Wu smiled.
This smile gave Lin Chengbu the strength to stand up. This was Yuan Wu's smile, the kind of smile that didn't make him happy.
"What time is it?" Yuan Wu asked.
"It's more than six o'clock," Lin Chengbu looked at his watch, "Just after six o'clock, today is a day trip to the toilet."
"Are you free at night?" Yuan Wu looked up at him, "I wanted to go out for a walk, but I was suffocated."
"Okay," Lin Chengbu replied immediately, "Where do you want to go?"
"I don't know, I didn't think about it," Yuan Wu rubbed his forehead, "I just wanted to walk around."
"Then go out after dinner?" Lin Chengbu asked, "Or go out to eat?"
"Go out after eating," Yuan Wu slowly stood up against the wall, "I'm too hungry to walk."
"You're not hungry, it's a cat." Lin Chengbu helped him.
"It's not easy for you," Yuan Wu walked out slowly, "Take the time to see a psychiatrist, do you have a tendency to be abused?"
"It's you who should see." Lin Chengbu said.
"Me?" Yuan Wu turned around, frowned after thinking about it, "I won't go, I can't let others tear it apart."
"Will you tear it up?" Lin Chengbu chased after him.
"Sometimes," Yuan Wu replied nonchalantly, "there will be some complete small fragments, like other people's stories, the feeling of what happened to others, but... but it has my name."
Lin Cheng walked up to him: "Which name?"
"Want to hear a story?" Yuan Wu looked at him.
"I think." Lin Chengbu replied succinctly.
"I suddenly remembered something," Yuan Wu said, walking slowly to the living room and stretching, "I will tell you all of a sudden."
"Whose story?" Lin Chengbu asked while moving his arms and legs.
"Yuan Shen and Yuan Wu."