Mu Hanfeng's hand on Tong Che's back froze slightly, he withdrew slightly, looked down into Tong Che's eyes, and asked in a low voice, "Is it alright?"
Tong Che's eyes were still wet, and instinctively he didn't want Mu Hanfeng to see it. He lowered his eyelashes and blinked quickly. He was about to nod his head and said, "Of course," but before he could open his mouth, he heard Mu Hanfeng speak again. Said, "If you don't want to talk now, you can not talk. Your boyfriend is not in a hurry. Whenever the kitten is willing to talk, the boyfriend will always listen."
Tong Che's heart was poked softer and softer, he nodded, shook his head again, and whispered, "I'm willing to talk now."
Mu Hanfeng was stunned for a moment, and soon his eyes became softer. He gently touched the scar on Tong Che's wrist, and replied earnestly, "Okay, listen to my boyfriend."
"Actually, my family...isn't complicated," Tong Che organized the language and started a conversation, "In one sentence, it's me...that is, their ideology of valuing A over O is still deeply ingrained."
He probably meant to say "my parents," but then changed it to "them."
After all, in Tong Che's heart, he has long since denied these parents.
"The two of them are also the most common AO combination," Tong Che said in a very light tone, and said slowly, "They work in the same company, both of them are ordinary employees, but they still have some so-called ambitions in their hearts. "
"It's just," Tong Che's words turned, his eyes flashed for a moment with mockery, and his tone became cold, "it's just that their ambitions are not for themselves, but want to impose on their children."
Tong Che's father, Tong Ning, wanted to pursue a career and become an official all his life.
Tong Che's mother, Sun Yi, felt that if she could start a business and become a big boss, money was king.
Tong Ning attributed her failure to become an official due to bad luck, while Sun Yi felt that she was an Omega, so she couldn't be a big boss.
Neither of them looked for the reason from themselves at all, and never thought about whether it was fundamentally because they were not capable enough.
After they were unable to realize their so-called ambitions, the two of them, in addition to blaming the external conditions, transferred their "hope" to their children.
Whether it is Tong Ning or Sun Yi, they all want to have an Alpha.
Because in today's society, although ABOs have been equalizing rights for many years, after all, each has its own strengths. In the political and business world, there are still Alphas. On the contrary, in the art world, Omegas are the majority.
For people like Tong Ning and Sun Yi, even if there are many talents in the art world, they will still not be seen by them.
Tong Che was born when two people were full of "expectations".
Now that medicine is very developed, it is not necessary to wait until differentiation to determine the gender, but when the child is full moon, it can be predicted, and the error is extremely small.
Originally, the emergence of this technology was to allow parents to understand their children earlier, so as to give them a more suitable education as they grow up.
But being used by people like Tong Ning and Sun Yi, it gave them the opportunity to have a second child as soon as possible.
Why do you want to have a second child as soon as possible
Of course, it was because of the first child, Tong Che, that in the future, he would differentiate into a "useless" Omega.
"It's really ridiculous!" Hearing Tong Che's speech, Mu Han was so angry that the veins on his forehead were throbbing, he hugged Tong Che tightly and said seriously, "Tong Tong, you must not listen to their nonsense, you It's amazing, better than many people."
His Tong Xiaomao, who writes lyrics and music by himself, is good at singing and dancing, and can act and draw. Such a great all-around player is even called "useless"!
As for not being an official and doing business? That can only mean that Tong Xiaoxiao Zhi is not here.
In Mu Hanfeng's opinion, his little boyfriend is definitely the best in the universe, and he doesn't accept refutation!
Tong Che showed a small dimple, probably because Mu Hanfeng was there. He used to think that he would never be able to talk about the past in his life, but now he has said it so easily.
Not only did he speak out, but it seemed that his emotions were no longer affected.
He was even able to make Mu Hanfeng happy in turn. With red ears, he whispered, "I... I also think I'm very good. I can find and find a boyfriend like Teacher Mu."
Mu Hanfeng was stunned for a moment, and most of his anger dissipated in an instant. He only felt that the top of his heart was sour and soft. He gently touched the scar on Tong Che's wrist, and he couldn't help but feel a little bit of fear in his heart.
Fortunately, fortunately, Tong Che persevered, and fortunately, Tong Che did not give up so early.
Otherwise, he would have no chance to meet such a good child cat.
Tong Che leaned into Mu Hanfeng's arms again, and continued, "My brother is two years younger than me, as they wished, he was born with a much stronger physique than me, and after the test, it was 99.9 percent. , he will grow up to differentiate into Alpha."
He was too young before the age of two, and Tong Che didn't have much memory, even when his younger brother was born, he didn't really remember it.
The childhood that Tong Che can recall can probably be traced back to the age of four.
And from the moment he has memories, all the pictures related to the family are not happy at all.
There were too many unhappy ones, and Tong Che had no intention of recalling them one by one, let alone telling Mu Hanfeng all of them, which made him feel distressed, so he just picked one or two at random to talk about.
"I seemed to have just turned six years old at the time," Tong Che recalled. "I was about to enter the first grade of elementary school. At that time, the two of them were going on a business trip to the suburbs of Yangcheng City for a week. I didn't want to take me with me, but after all, I was too young. I was afraid that people would starve to death in a week, so I took me with me."
There is another sentence, Tong Che didn't say it—
It was the first time his family of four went out as a family, and of course the only time.
Before that, since his younger brother was only half a year old, every year when Tong Ning and Sun Yi were on vacation, they were taken out to travel around, and of course it was the same after that.
And he was simply thrown into the custody of a neighbor.
When I was only six years old, it happened to be the summer vacation, and the neighbors also went on a trip, and no one was at home.
Tong Che, who is only six years old, still has a very simple idea, and is happy because he is rarely brought by his parents.
Even that week, looking back now, there is nothing to be happy about.
Tong Che skipped this paragraph and didn't talk about it, he just said, "On the road that day, I passed a big billboard, I can't remember now, who was the senior in the advertisement at that time, I just remembered that I saw it and got along with it. They said that they want to be like that person in the future, to be a big star, and to put their photos on big brands."
Anticipating the reactions of Tong Ning and Sun Yi, Mu Hanfeng held Tong Che's hand tightly subconsciously.
Sure enough, I heard Tong Che sneered and smiled, and then said, "Their reaction at that time was ridiculous, they didn't get angry and punish me, they just used a kind of eyes that I didn't understand at the time, but I felt very uncomfortable. I, said, "Sure enough, it will be an Omega."
Tong Che couldn't understand that look at the time, but when I think about it now, it's clear.
That is outright mockery, contempt, and even contempt.
Mu Hanfeng's anger jumped to the top of his head when he heard it. He closed his eyes, tried his best to suppress it, and took up a light topic, "It turns out that Tongtong wanted to be a big star so early."
Tong Che nodded and pursed his lips a little embarrassedly. After a while, he laughed at himself and said softly, "Actually, think about it now, when they left and left me, it was a coincidence that made me have Opportunity to realize his dream.”
Tong Che thought, if they really raised him until he was eighteen years old, and grew up in such an environment, Tong Che could not guarantee that he would still have the determination to go all out.
Ever since he came to this orphanage, the thought that had been hovering in Mu Hanfeng's heart was finally confirmed at this moment.
He only felt a sigh of suffocation stuck in his throat, so he could hardly breathe. He clenched his hands tightly and slowly released them. Finally, Mu Hanfeng asked in a hoarse voice, "When did they... yours?"
Tong Che paused and replied softly, "When I was 13 years old."
To be precise, it was the third day after his 13-year-old split.
He was not at home at the time, and he fell into a coma when something went wrong. Later, he was rescued by a kind person. When he woke up, he was in the hospital ward, and there was no one in the ward.
Without good-hearted people who saved him, there would be no family.
He got out of bed and left the ward by himself, was discovered by the doctor, and checked again according to the order. He was reluctant to do it because he had no money to pay, but was told by the doctor that someone had already paid for all the medical treatment including the examination for him.
In the past ten years, Tong Che has of course also thought about finding that person, but the world is too big, even the city of Yangcheng has a population of tens of millions, and he doesn't know anything except remember the two words the person said. , and where to find it
Probably the only thing that can be done is to pass on the goodwill that has been harvested.
At that time, the doctor checked that his body had basically recovered to health, but the only problem was that he suffered from a pheromone disorder.
The doctor told him that the disease was inseparable from the inhibitor. Fortunately, the good-hearted person at that time charged a lot of money in his hospital card, and the doctor prescribed the remaining money to him as an inhibitor, which was probably enough for a whole year.
Tong Che, a young boy who had just split up at the time, went home with a large bag of inhibitors. He learned that two full days had passed since he ran away from home before splitting up. On the way, he couldn't help but wonder what he would face when he returned home. a scene.
He wondered if Tong Ning and Ye Yi would be in a hurry, if they would see him cry and laugh, or if they would scold him badly.
But after thinking about it, I thought that it was most likely to be scolded, and the first two were probably the treatment that his brother would only receive after two days of disappearance.
It's just that Tong Che didn't expect that when he really returned home, he didn't even scold him.
Tong Ning, Yeyi, and his "good" brother, all three were shocked when they saw him coming back from outside.
For two days and two nights, they didn't even know that Tong Che had ever gone out.
They have long been accustomed to a family of three, and that Tong Che is a superfluous existence like air.
At that time, the home was very messy, and there were large and small suitcases spread out on the ground. With a single word from Ye Yi, he decided his future ownership.
Ye Yi and Tong Ning were going to transfer to Haicheng to live and live due to changes in their jobs. They notified Tong Che's younger brother a month ago that they contacted the school in Haicheng for transfer-related matters.
Of course, as early as that time, they decided to give up Tong Che completely and send him to an orphanage.
Until now, Tong Che still remembers the last words Ye Yi said to him at the gate of the orphanage.
She said: "Mom and dad have a hard time making money, and they have to save for useful children."
Tong Che wanted to question her at the time, "Why do you decide that I'm useless?!"
But in the end, he still didn't say a word, turned around and ran into the building.
From his differentiation to being sent to the orphanage, it was only three days before and after. When Tong Che recalled this experience now, he felt that it was more dramatic than the script, and it was really sad.
He was so sad that he couldn't bear to tell Mu Hanfeng.
This is just like when Mu Hanfeng told him about his past at that time, he also brought a lot of words.
It's not that I don't want to open my heart, it's just that the past is over, and speaking out is just to add sadness to the other party.
Therefore, Tong Che passed his own differentiation and was rescued, and when he went home, he found that they were ready to leave, and only told Mu Hanfeng about the result, "They have gone to Haicheng with their family, take me delivered..."
Tong Che paused, and finally said the last five words, "Sent here."
Mu Hanfeng noticed his words, "the whole family".
Obviously, Tong Che had already marked himself out of that "home".
Mu Hanfeng took a deep breath, exhaled the suffocating suffocation that was pressing in his heart, and hugged Tong Che tighter, "Good boy, there will be a boyfriend in the future."
Tong Che buried himself in Mu Hanfeng's neck, breathing in the faint oceanic breath on his body, feeling that his mind, which was affected by the past, was relieved little by little.
very nice.
He got better when he met Teacher Mu.
Having said that, there is more to say later.
At that time, Tong Ning and Ye Yi left without leaving a penny for Tong Che.
Luckily, there is no way to get ahead. At that time, someone had sponsored a lot of money for the welfare institute. In the next two years, he was a sixteen-year-old inhibitor, so he barely managed to find a place.
But Tong Che didn't dare to beat him once a week. He would usually judge based on his own physical condition and endure it as long as he could.
But this process of perseverance is bound to be extremely painful.
Tong Che looked down at his scarred wrist again, passed the deepest one without mentioning it, pointed to the other shallow wounds and said, "These were basically left at that time. down."
In order to endure the pain caused by estrus, another more acute and extreme pain is used to cover and distract.
Mu Hanfeng rubbed his fingertips on the scars, his heart seemed to be twitching.
When Tong Che was in false heat, he saw it with his own eyes and knew how uncomfortable it would be if he didn't take the inhibitor.
But he didn't expect that on top of this pain, there could be more pain.
I imagined a small group of children and kittens, curled up in the corner of the balcony alone, feeling hot and weak because of the estrus, but still holding a knife, cutting his own skin, and forcing him in such a cruel way wake yourself up...
Mu Hanfeng felt that the throat was thick and astringent again, and he was about to vomit blood.
But in the end, he just suppressed his blood and asked, "Is it cured?"
"It's not easy," Tong Che explained with a smile, "mainly because it dragged on for too long and missed the best time for nerve repair."
When I was a child, I was beaten by Tong Ning, and the root of the disease fell.
Later, he self-mutilated again and again, and the cuts were deep and nerves were injured.
Later, when I was 16 years old, I started to go out to work, but I never took it seriously.
It was not until I started to be a trainee at the age of 19 and my life was a little better that I remembered to seek treatment, but it was already too late.
Seeing that Mu Hanfeng had been silent and his expression was dark and unclear, Tong Che relaxed and coaxed him, "Actually, it's not a problem now, it's just that I can't eat enough, I can't lift my shoulders, I'm a lot squeamish. But aren't you there?"
Mu Hanfeng knew that he intended to relax his heart, so he restrained his expression, sighed helplessly, and responded, "Well, squeamishness is squeamishness, and my boyfriend spoils me."
That being said, Mu Hanfeng still remembered to ask Yunsu to contact the best neurologist tonight, by the way...
Mu Hanfeng lowered his eyelashes, and by the way, he also wanted to inquire about how Tong Che's so-called parents and younger brother are doing now.
Hearing Mu Hanfeng say this, Tong Che was obviously relieved a lot, and he burrowed into his arms again. Thinking of something, he suddenly turned his head, bent down and carefully peeked at the wall next to him.
Mu Hanfeng noticed and asked him, "What's wrong? What are you looking for?"
Tong Che was a little embarrassed, looked at it twice before straightening up again, and explained, "I used to carve here before, but I just remembered that I had repainted here a few years ago, and I can't see it anymore. ."
Mu Hanfeng thought for a while, and suddenly said, "Do you still want to carve it now?"
Tong Che was stunned for a moment, his ears turned red, but he nodded honestly.
At that time, he did not know which book to coax people to read, saying that if you carve your wish on the wall, your wish will come true.
Tong Che was in his youth at the time, and he just read that poem not long ago, so what he engraved was—
I want to see the sea, I want to see my sweetheart.
Now that it has been realized, maybe there will be a chance in the future to see the sea with my sweetheart.
Knowing that this thing is just to coax people to play, but Tong Che is still a little stubborn and wants to engrave his wish again.
So, he took out the pocket knife he had collected earlier, bent sideways, and carved a new wish in the corner of the wall—
I want to have a home with Mr. Mu.
After carving, Tong Che felt a little embarrassed, he turned to look at Mu Hanfeng, his lips moved, but he didn't know what to say for a while.
Mu Hanfeng didn't say a word, just reached out and took the knife in his hand, under the line of small characters, he looked attentive and serious, and engraved four words—
Most definitely.
It is a wish and a promise.
The author has something to say: it will get better, Tong Xiaomao and Mu Laogou will have a home.
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Thank you for throwing mine nutrient solution~
bow and love you.