"I see." The space traveler, or Tan Yan, opened his eyes and what came into view was Liang Xian's concerned face.
He lay on the young boy's knees. The man's hard thighs did not make him feel very comfortable, but he felt very safe.
"Tan Yan, how are you?" Liang Xian saw a hint of strangeness in his eyes and asked fearfully, "Do you still recognize me?"
Liang Xian was really afraid that Tan Yan would be possessed by evil consciousness. If that really happened, he would have to kill Tan Yan with his own hands.
Until that time, Liang Xian had no idea whether he could do it.
"I know him." After recovering his memory, Tan Yan didn't know how to deal with the two memories. He could only simply answer Liang Xian with a somewhat cold voice.
The young man Tan Yan's desire to survive was too strong, and the space traveler did not have a persistent pursuit of life, so he allowed this strong consciousness to cover his own consciousness, lost his past memories, and completely became a Ping County policeman, dedicating his life to his post down to earth.
This dream that lasted for forty-one years ended today.
He didn't know how to respond to Liang Xian, and there were more important things to deal with now.
"Get out of my mind." Tan Yan rubbed his eyebrows and shouted coldly.
As soon as he finished speaking, the energy image of evil consciousness appeared again on the display screen of Tianshen No. 1.
The external device was very sturdy. Although it was dropped by the evil consciousness and scratched Tan Yan's cheek, it was still working tenaciously.
External audio: "Impossible, how can your consciousness be so powerful? And... are you crazy? You actually let the consciousness of an outsider devour your consciousness. No wonder you lost your memory and degenerated into an ordinary human."
Tan Yan slowed down and said to the evil consciousness calmly: "I don't think being an ordinary human is degenerate, nor do I think space travelers are such noble beings."
"Impossible, impossible! Why, why? You actually trapped yourself in this ordinary body, using most of your energy to repair the body, awaken its vitality, and completely integrate another consciousness and use his memory, instead of choosing to destroy it, why?" The evil consciousness could not understand Tan Yan's actions at all.
"I didn't understand why at first, I just wanted to do it in my heart." Tan Yan looked at the evil consciousness with some pity, "After forty-one years, I understand now, but even if I tell you, you probably won't understand."
In just a few decades, I have experienced a different life. Compared with the boredom of traveling back and forth between countless worlds in the past, the ordinary years are more impressive.
In protection and trust, he understood what it meant to be alive.
Live every day seriously, complete every task down to earth, strive for a goal that may not be achieved in a lifetime, and never regret it. In the gap between black and white, I firmly implement my beliefs and never do anything against my heart.
Tan Yan smiled slightly. This feeling was very good.
He placed his hand in the energy ball of the evil consciousness. He didn't know how Tan Yan used his consciousness, but the evil consciousness found that its consciousness body began to condense uncontrollably.
"What are you going to do?" the evil consciousness shouted in panic.
"I won't absorb your consciousness," Tan Yan said, "I've learned a lesson over the years. People shouldn't live forever. It's good to have a beginning and an end."
Absorbing the consciousness of the young Tan Yan, being influenced by his beliefs, becoming a completely new person, and having a different perspective on the world, this experience is enough.
He didn't want to integrate another memory or experience another life. This would only gradually make him lose himself, just like the pathetic evil consciousness in front of him.
"I don't remember my original name anymore, but I know that my name is Tan Yan now. It didn't belong to me before, but everyone called me that. As it was called so many times and more people expected it, it took on new meaning. What about you? Have you ever had any profound name? Apart from constantly devouring and living in a daze, do you have any greater goals?" asked Tan Yan.
"What are you talking about?" The evil consciousness was compressed smaller and smaller, he was unable to resist, and gradually condensed in Tan Yan's palm.
"You are very strong, but your will to survive is not as strong as Tan Yan's back then." Tan Yan thought of the figure in his memory who was dragging his broken body but still wanted to live because he was unable to repay the country, and his heart was filled with emotion.
"What are you talking about? I don't understand..." The evil consciousness didn't finish its words before it condensed into a clear crystal core in Tan Yan's palm.
Liang Xian walked up to Tan Yan and looked at him intently.
As smart as Liang Xian is, he has already guessed most of the truth from the conversation between the evil consciousness and Tan Yan.
"After persisting for half a lifetime, I found out that I am actually just an outsider. Are you sad?" Liang Xian asked.
He thought of Tan Yan's past experience and his persistence in fighting for the safety of Ping County for half his life. All of his persistence was because he was a child raised by the people of Ping County. Without this premise, would he feel uncomfortable when thinking back on the past
The world that Tan Yan fought for all his life is not his own world.
Liang Xian wanted to hug Tan Yan, but was afraid of hurting him and making Tan Yan think that he was sympathizing with him, so he just trembled his fingers slightly and did not dare to stretch out his arms.
"It's not worth it," Tan Yan said calmly, "It's an experience once you've experienced it."
Liang Xian's heart finally settled down. This was really Tan Yan.
Tan Yan is not a person who will be depressed by the slightest gain or loss, nor is he a person who will die for personal feelings. He has a broad mind and always looks to the farther goal.
What attracted Liang Xian was not only Tan Yan's strength, but everything about this person.
It seems that all the words of praise to describe him would not be excessive, he is just that outstanding.
"You are the goal of my efforts, both in career and love." Liang Xian hugged Tan Yan and gently rested his head on his shoulder.
Tan Yan also hugged him and rubbed his head: "I don't want to change my body like the evil consciousness, but this body is really 59 years old, and it has been severely injured. I can live until now. In addition to my strength, I probably have my original willpower to support it. Once he... or my goal is achieved, I probably won't be able to hold on. Even so, will you continue to love me?"
There is obviously a better way, but he chooses to face death so calmly. Liang Xian understands it, but it hurts him even more.
"Feelings are not like a faucet that can be turned off just like that." Liang Xian buried his face in Tan Yan's shoulder, afraid that he would cry like a loser.
He was once troubled by the fact that Tan Yan could not feel his feelings, and worried about whether Tan Yan could accept him. After accepting him, he felt sad because Tan Yan did not love him enough.
But now it seems that all these are just small things, the little sweetness in love, insignificant things.
Tan Yan has a broader universe in his heart.
Tan Yan sighed: "Then I will use the rest of my time to love you. After experiencing loyalty, perseverance, and responsibility, it would be nice to finally feel what is said to be the most beautiful love in life."
He felt his shoulders were wet. Tan Yan lifted Liang Xian's head, wiped away his tears, and said with a smile: "Why are you crying? Because of you, I have no regrets in my life. Isn't this great? I have everything."
Tan Yan was very fortunate that he met the young man who was struggling to survive when he was most confused. His consciousness gave him a firm and wonderful life.
And at the end of this life, he met Liang Xian again.
Liang Xian was probably the second young man who impressed him. The first was his will to survive, and Liang Xian was his honest and pure love.
There was no utilitarianism in this relationship. It eliminated all difficulties, did not care about age or race, and burned young and passionately in front of Tan Yan. Even though it burned the fragile and tenacious heart of a young person, enduring the pain of burning, it still did not waver.
It's really beautiful, and it makes people yearn for it just by looking at it. Tan Yan thought to himself as he wiped away Liang Xian's tears.
He spread out his hands, and the crystal core of evil consciousness was quietly placed in the palm of Tan Yan.
"The consciousness of Shen Biao and other victims is in there. They should follow us back to the real world." Tan Yan said, "We'll hand it over to the country after we get back, and let the organization decide what to do."
Tan Yan can actually absorb this crystal core. Even if it cannot extend his lifespan, it can make his strength stronger.
But he didn't do that, and he didn't intend to do that.
"Okay." Liang Xian felt a little embarrassed that he couldn't help crying at such a grown-up. So he took the crystal core and wiped his face vigorously.
After rubbing it twice, he felt a warmth on his face. After a while, he realized that it was Tan Yan who took the initiative to kiss him on the face.
Maybe the legendary kiss that wipes away his tears
Liang Xian had no experience in love at all. Everything was just talk. He read a lot of books, but when it came to practice, it was nothing. After Tan Yan promised to be together, the two of them made no progress at all.
Moreover, they were comrades who had fought together. The first time they met, Liang Xian was carried in a princess hug by Tan Yan. The physical contact during the mission was normal and there was no spark at all.
But now, Liang Xian felt like he was really electrocuted and his heart was beating extremely fast.
Tan Yan kissed him and turned away, and no one knew what expression he had at that moment.
Liang Xian rushed over and hugged his waist from behind. Just as he was about to say something, Tian Shen No. 1, who had been watching romance dramas for a long time, asked, "Does love have to exist for a union? Your hormone levels just soared, your heart rate and blood pressure increased, and your IQ dropped..."
Liang Xian, who was tested by the protective suit: "… "
He didn't want to listen to an artificial intelligence analyzing his hormone secretion when he was in love.
"You're not wearing protective clothing, so I can't test it," Tianshen No. 1 said to Tan Yan, "but your face is very red, so I guess your body temperature is high."
"Tian Shen No. 1, why do you want to study love?" The voice of the veteran cadre Tan Yan was still steady, without any sign of embarrassment.
"Artificial intelligence doesn't need love, but the humans I want to protect do." God No. 1 said, "I match them with the most suitable partners based on their genes. The genes of their offspring will definitely be optimized from generation to generation. I think reproduction is a big deal and humans should be happy, but this doesn't seem to be the case. The temple often mediates family conflicts. Couples who have given birth to two children will divorce after completing their reproductive mission. I don't understand why. Isn't the family the basic unit for stabilizing a society?"
Tianshen No. 1 has been troubled by this issue. Now that he sees that Tan Yan and Liang Xian have developed feelings for each other not for the purpose of reproduction, and do not intend to pass on such excellent genes, Tianshen No. 1 is very curious.
The author has something to say: To answer those who asked me if I changed the update time, I actually didn’t plan to change the time. I wanted to update at 2 pm! But I’ve probably reached a period of fatigue and bottleneck recently. Every day at noon, I can only write a little bit like squeezing toothpaste in front of the computer. In the end, I can only keep changing the update time, and then I want to update at 14:00 the next day, but I keep squeezing toothpaste...
I will continue to work hard tomorrow at noon. The best result is that I can update at 2:00 pm. If not, please come at 8:00 pm_(:3∠)_
I really admire Japanese cartoonists, who can serialize a comic for decades without stopping, but mine only lasts for three months. People can't be compared_(:3∠)_
ps: To explain Tan Yan’s current identity, he is a space traveler. The original Xiao Tan is dead, but Xiao Tan’s memories and emotions are very strong. After Old Tan merged with Xiao Tan, he chose to use Xiao Tan’s memories, and blocked his past memories, concentrating on living for Xiao Tan, and eventually became Old Tan.