It's really not surprising that Tan Yan would have such thoughts. Liang Xian's behavior during this period was just like a little kid asking for candy. He was very well behaved when he slept on the bed, climbing up with the quilt by himself, and never sneaking into the bed. They said they slept in the same bed, but in reality there was not even much physical contact.
The kiss just now was also more like a light touch than a kiss. The purpose was not to take advantage, but to let Tan Yan know that Liang Xian's feelings were not a joke, but real love. In that situation, if there was no shocking action, Tan Yan would not know what to do.
Even so, it was just skin-to-skin contact, without even an exchange of breath, so how could it be called a kiss
"Are you the one who..." Tan Yan thought about it carefully, and finally remembered that the psychology teacher in the police training class once talked about a phenomenon, "the suspension bridge effect."
It's hard for Tan Yan to recall this word, as he learned it more than ten years ago.
"I'm sure it's not." After hitting the wall, Liang Xian turned back firmly and continued to confess, "I'm not the kind of young man who can't tell the difference between gratitude and love. I know my feelings very well. After knowing your real age, I searched for your deeds on the Internet and found many of your award-winning photos. Seeing your 58-year-old face, my heart would be moved. At that time, I knew that age didn't matter to me. I just simply liked you as a person."
Tan Yan was silent for a while and then sighed: "You are still too young."
Seeing that Liang Xian was anxious to explain again, he made a downward pressing gesture to stop Liang Xian from continuing.
"You may think that I don't know anything about love because I haven't been married for so many years. It's true that I haven't really been with anyone day and night, and I don't know the feeling of dependence on each other after many years of marriage. But when it comes to young people's love, I have seen a lot."
Tan Yan recalled: "Middle and high school students wanted to date, but their families didn't agree, so they skipped school and eloped. I have caught many of them over the years. They were all very much in love, but when they grew up, which one of them really stayed together? There were more who tasted the forbidden fruit at a young age, and when they got pregnant, the parents of both sides fought at the police station, and neither side wanted to have the child. There were also those who were sweet at the time of marriage, but after marriage, their feelings were worn out by the daily necessities of life, and the former love was exhausted, and a pair of lovers became resentful couples.
On the contrary, there are some people who have never met each other, but get married through blind dates because they have suitable conditions, and live the rest of their lives in harmony.
Love is never everything in life. Young people have strong hormones and think that love is the best feeling in the world. In fact, it is just a youthful impulse. Love without learning to take responsibility is always nonsense. "
Tan Yan denied all of Liang Xian's feelings so lightly, but it was actually difficult to refute.
Liang Xian was puzzled and asked, "How can you be sure that I haven't thought it through? How do you know that I haven't learned to take responsibility? I am an adult, different from those people you have met."
"Of course I know that everyone is different, but have you ever considered my age? Even if I take a step back and say that I am 39 years older than you, I just look younger now. Maybe in two years, my hair will be gray, my face will be full of wrinkles, my teeth will fall out, my lower limbs will be paralyzed, and I will be lying in bed unable to take care of myself. How are you going to solve this problem? Will you take care of me like a lover? Just now I asked you if you were going to take care of me in my old age and see me to the end. I was not joking, but asking seriously, if you find a lover who is so much older than you, is there any other ending besides this?"
Tan Yan's series of questions confused Liang Xian. He thought for a while before saying, "How do you know I don't want to? Maybe at that time, I will be willing to take care of you until the end of my life?"
"I have never doubted this," Tan Yan said, "You are a good child. Even if he is an elderly widower, as long as it is a task assigned to you by the organization, you will take care of him until the end."
"That… "
"But I don't want to." Tan Yan interrupted Liang Xian bluntly, "I can hire strangers to take care of me in the future, and I can accept adoptive children, but I can't accept that my lover is in the prime of life, but is dragged down by an old man like me who is about to die. If I really like you and love you, then I don't want the person I like to see me with gray hair and chicken skin."
This was the first time Liang Xian had seen Tan Yan speak so eloquently and with such reason. Tan Yan had always been silent and frugal with words. Every word he said was extremely important to the special ability team and the research group. But today, he was able to say so many words to dispel his own thoughts. Should he be thankful? He had received special treatment from Tan Yan.
"Perhaps my appearance deceived you and made you think that we are of the same generation." Tan Yan continued, "But I am 58 years old after all. We grew up differently and have different values. It will be difficult for us to talk to each other in the future. It doesn't matter if you like boys or girls, but even if you are in a relationship, you should find someone you can talk to, right?"
Liang Xian's emotions went from nervousness to depression, and finally turned into a helpless sigh.
He picked up the bouquet of roses and said, "Ninety-nine roses represent eternity, forever. In fact, there is no such thing as eternity. All feelings will eventually return to dust. I actually... never thought you would agree to me. I just wanted to tell you my feelings."
The young boy looked at Tan Yan, with eyes that were not filled with unfulfilled desire, but rather an expression that could not be expressed.
"You can reject me according to your heart, or even ignore me from now on and become strangers to me." Liang Xian crushed a rose, leaving a trace of red on his palm. "I will be very uncomfortable, but I respect your idea. If you want me to pursue you, I will work hard to become stronger and perform well. One day I will be your helper and be able to fight side by side with you. If you don't allow it, then I will hide my feelings and not bother you anymore.
Anything is fine, but please, don't deny my feelings."
The young face was full of stubbornness. "Don't use the suspension bridge effect or the fact that you are too young and irresponsible to deny me. You can reject me, but please look me in the face. And don't persuade me to find a young man or woman. You just need to be responsible for rejecting me. The rest is my business."
He sat back in his seat quietly, picked up the rose-shaped chopsticks used by Tan Yan, and ate the half plate of food that Tan Yan had left for him bite by bite.
After some debate, the food had already cooled down a bit. Liang Xian simply poured a cup of hot water and ate it.
He hadn't been to such places many times. Why did he come here to eat a bunch of French food that he wasn't used to? He wasn't a sophisticated upper-class person, just a country bumpkin student. He had a big appetite that could bankrupt a buffet, but he had to go to a high-end restaurant to be tortured. It would be better to go to the Northeastern cuisine near the school, at least he could eat big mouthfuls of steamed buns, and if the food got cold, he could ask the boss to heat it up again.
Tan Yan did not just leave. He sat opposite Liang Xian and watched him wolf down his food. Just as he was about to speak, he heard Liang Xian say, "Don't say anything. You are still young. When you grow up, you will just laugh it off when you think of this matter."
Tan Yan was about to say something similar, but after Liang Xian said this, he could only remain silent.
"When I came here today, I knew that there was a 99.9999% chance that you would reject me. But as long as you didn't say anything, I still have a glimmer of hope. I have to try as long as there is a glimmer of hope. At least after today, you will no longer treat me like a child." Liang Xian said while eating.
Tan Yan didn't know how to answer him. The two of them had two parallel ideas that could never agree on one point.
"Old people always think about what will happen in the future, while young people only think about the present. This is the essential difference between you and me." Liang Xian is indeed very intelligent. He can still summarize things after such a heartbreak. "What I want is to be with you, to learn and progress together, to solve problems together when encountering difficulties, and to go to the end together. Although the process may be difficult, at least we have tried hard for it. But you don't even have the idea of trying hard. You directly think that the difficulties cannot be solved. Which couple has considered the issue of who will take care of whom in the future after being paralyzed before getting married? Are they going to never get married just because one of them will die sooner or later
Who says you will leave before me? Our missions are getting harder and harder, and you are better than me. Maybe next time, or the next time, I will…”
Before Liang Xian could continue speaking, his mouth was covered by Tan Yan.
"I won't let you die before me." Tan Yan said seriously, "This is my mission."
All of Liang Xian's surging emotions were blocked by this sentence.
He just likes this kind of Tan Yan who devotes his whole heart to the country and the people. But as long as Tan Yan is like this, there will never be any personal love in his heart and he will never be able to accept him.
No matter what he said, it was useless. Tan Yan had no intention of doing so and would not agree.
This incident won't even leave a trace in his mind. After they carry out another mission and cooperate once, Tan Yan will think that Liang Xian has moved on from this abnormal relationship and will no longer miss him.
In the guide he got, there was no option for them to be together from the beginning. Both were impossible.
The answer had been revealed long ago. The fifty coin draws last night had already given him a hint, but Liang Xian refused to give up and insisted on trying it once.
In fact, it’s the same whether he tries or not, his feelings can never be conveyed to Tan Yan’s heart.
After finishing all the dishes, Liang Xian raised his head and said to Tan Yan, "Let's go. We still have some lessons to do when we get home."
Tan Yan looked at him worriedly, still with the look of an elder to a child. He didn't even say that we should keep our relationship and let each other calm down. Adults would not say that to children.
Just like when a little girl was little she would say in a childish voice “I want to marry daddy when I grow up”, and her dad would just smile and say “OK”.
This is the relationship between him and Tan Yan.
A relationship that was destined to have no ending, because when he wrote love on the test paper, Tan Yan wrote family affection.
The two walked back to school in silence. Liang Xian sat quietly in the dormitory for a while, and then he had to take his books and go to Professor Qiao's class with everyone.
He didn't even have time to calm down before he had to sit with Tan Yan in class.
Since he usually helped Tan Yan with his studies, the two of them sat next to each other by default. When Qiu Qizhen and others took up seats, they left an empty seat for the two of them. Tan Yan sat down there with confidence, and what else could Liang Xian say but to sit together.
He spread out his hands, the rose juice was still in his palms, red like his bleeding heart. Liang Xian thought in a slightly immature way.
Liang Xian thought that Tan Yan was very calm, but in fact, Tan Yan beside him was also in a very complicated mood.
The evidence is that there are a few wrong words in today's notes, and a few black dots are left on the neat notebook, which looks particularly abrupt.
The young people's fiery emotions made Tan Yan a little confused. He had always positioned himself as an elder, a teacher, and a life mentor who should help children grow up. Now he led his students astray. It was his fault. Otherwise, he should apply to Minister Yu to make his face older in the future, drop out of school, and concentrate on being a mentor. After a long time, no matter how persistent the emotions are, they will slowly dissipate.
Tan Yan thought about it and didn't write much. Fortunately, he realized that he was not in good condition today, so he used his mobile phone to record the content of Professor Qiao's lecture, and he would slowly organize the notes after returning.
The class was spent with the two of them in a state of confusion. After class, the members of the superpower team stayed as usual, but this time Feng Wu and Hai Liren were not there.
"Why didn't they stay?" Tu Zishi asked curiously.
"The two of them have not awakened their abilities yet, and have been temporarily classified as the type that cannot awaken." Qiao Zhixue said, "In fact, we have been prepared from the beginning that not everyone can awaken. Now the probability is quite high. There will be new people joining next time, and one of them is very special. I hope everyone can protect him."
"One of the twins?" Cui Heyu guessed after thinking about it.
Qiao Zhixue: "That's right. After entering the other world several times, everyone's strength has improved, and they have learned to cooperate. With Xiaolu as a powerful assistant, we should be able to ensure the safety of the twins. And we didn't just pick them randomly. They all have good physical fitness and have received professional training. They should be able to handle this task."
"What's going on with the twins?" Tu Zishi was not in the team before and was not aware of the situation.
Qiao Zhixue explained: "Naturally occurring quantum entanglement basically means that the two particles are originally one. For example, a proton is split into two, one with positive charge and one with negative charge, and the two particles are naturally entangled. We need quantum entanglement for teleportation to another world. Currently, the world generally uses nonlinear processes in crystals to produce multi-photon entanglement, but currently the laboratory can only produce fourteen entangled particles at most, which is impossible to achieve teleportation to another world. So we can only focus on naturally occurring quantum entanglement, and finally we chose twins."
Liang Xian should have taken the initiative to help the new student explain, but he didn't say anything. Cui Heyu glanced at Liang Xian and said to Tu Zishi, "The twins were originally from the same fertilized egg. We have reason to suspect that the twins are born with quantum entanglement, and this entanglement must be quite huge. This time we brought one of the twins over in the hope that someone other than Tan Yan can return to the real world, so that they can be divided into groups in the future."
“But in the real world, even if twins have telepathy, it’s impossible to transmit telepathy over long distances, right?” Tu Zishi asked puzzledly.
Cui Heyu looked at Liang Xian again. Liang Xian, who was usually a nosy guy, still didn't explain at this time. Cui Heyu could only continue: "So we can only hope for the supernatural powers after crossing the 'void'. Since there are people with predictive abilities, why can't there be people with space transmission abilities? Of course, we can't just sit there and wait for death. We can only try with the twins one by one. And we can't bring them all in at once. We must leave one in the real world and bring one at a time to stimulate the generation of supernatural powers through the sense of distance between different worlds."
"How many times do we have to try?" Yan Yongfeng asked with a frown.
"I don't know." Cui Heyu shook his head, "But this is the only way at this stage, unless we are lucky enough that the next new team member we bring can immediately awaken the spatial ability."
"Don't let your dreams run wild," Qiao Zhixue looked at his watch, "It's already nine o'clock. We will train for an hour and a half and then go to rest..."
Before he finished speaking, the phone at his hand rang. Qiao Zhixue answered the call and his expression became more solemn than ever before.
"Gather immediately," Qiao Zhixue said as he put down the phone, "This time the 'hole' happened to appear on the subway track. A subway train full of passengers drove directly into the 'hole'!"
The author has something to say: This is 9,000 words a day... It's really tiring. My fingers cramped in the late stage today. For the first time, I feel like I can't type. There must be a lot of bugs in this chapter, because my fingers have difficulty moving in the late stage...
Oh, I don’t know how long I can hold on... If one day I suddenly don’t update for a certain period of time, my fingers will be scrapped.
I don't have any drafts saved. I saw someone who has saved up to chapter 122. That means JJ has quit.