The phone vibrated, and new news came in.
Xiao Nanzai: Brother Zhan, you have to study hard when you go home today!
Xiao Nanzai: Are you studying hard
Xiao Nanzai: Why didn't you come back for a long time
Little Nanzai: Are you being lazy? ! I'm done with a paper!
Zhan Ming felt that the turbid air in his chest was a little less, he put down the phone and looked at the small room.
Not even a desk.
He took out the book from his bag and wanted to put it on the bed, so he squatted on the ground and wrote. However, he was so big that the space between the bed and the wall was too narrow to squeeze in.
Zhan Ming sighed and read the book first.
Shake and shake: reciting the text
Xiao Nanzai: Brother Zhan is the best! Brother Zhan, come on!
Shake Shake: Don't make noise
Little Nanzai: Shut Up.gif
In fact, Xiao Nanzai is not noisy at all, and Zhan Ming likes to listen to him. He speaks neither in a hurry nor in a hurry. It's always soft, and I don't use shouting when I'm excited. At most, my voice is a little louder.
Zhan Ming hopes that his uncle's family can learn to speak with Xiao Nanzai.
The walls couldn't stop Auntie's shrill voice.
"Did you hear that? He said about the tuition fee, he will solve it himself. University tuition plus accommodation costs at least seven or eight thousand a year, right? Plus living expenses? People say that he will solve it by himself, where does he get so much money? How much did your mother keep for him?"
Zhan Guoqiang threw his chair: "Didn't you find it all? If you don't have it, that's the card! The house is also given to us! What more do you want to ask? The practice is gone, what else do you want!"
My aunt was furious: "What do I want? I've been in bad luck for eight lifetimes, marrying a useless man like you! For more than ten years, I've been worrying about money every day! Just think about your son's grades, if you take another three exams, two more exams. Personal tuition adds up to 50,000 yuan a year, I see how you can get this money!"
"Let them go to work to make money! Ah Ming can make money by himself, why can't the two of them?! Every day you know how to reach for money, every day you know how to play! I don't need to let him go to make up the class, it's a waste of money! After making up for half a year, how many extra points did you take? There's no fart!"
My aunt began to cry: "You're going to die, and you want to save your son's supplementary tuition? It's not that your family's genetics are not good! My brother's two children are both admitted to undergraduates, one is the first and the other is the second. How is it like you? Home, do you have a student in your family who can read? The one who did the exam was even worse! You didn't let him go to make-up classes, do you want him to fail the undergraduate entrance examination? If he fails the undergraduate entrance examination, I will be laughed to death when I go out. My brother's wife's face, her child's entrance exam is amazing? What about the future work?"
"I'll tell you, don't rush to change the house, wait until the children have finished college. You have to change! You have to change!"
"What if we don't change?! We have two children and one more from your brother. How can five people squeeze two rooms? Go to the living room! How can Arui concentrate on reading!"
"It's so noisy! Don't let me read!" Zhan Rui shouted.
Zhan Guo became very angry: "Read reading, you read like a bird! Why don't you know why you are locked in the room every day?!"
Zhan Ming doesn't want to hear it either, this broken wall is just so thin.
However, today's situation seems to be different from usual. It has been quarreling for half an hour, and my uncle and aunt are still arguing. Zhan Rui also ran out of the room and shouted after a while, but no one paid him any attention.
Zhan Ming listened to it all night, and determined that his uncle and aunt really had no money, and that he really couldn't pay his cousin's tuition, so he was so upset.
He looked at the account balance in his mobile phone and hesitated.
In fact, he really didn't want to give this money.
If he did, his aunt would not thank him, but would even doubt how much grandma had left him.
And such a small amount of money, which he has saved since he worked in high school until now, is his only sense of security.
"Go and borrow it from other relatives, don't shout, it's annoying." Zhan Guoqiang said.
"Who are you borrowing from?" Auntie asked, her voice hoarse. "It's a shame to marry you. You have to borrow money from others when you are old!"
Zhan Guoqiang raised his voice: "You are enough!"
"It's so noisy! Are you finished!" Zhan Rui suddenly shouted like crazy.
Zhan Guoqiang was probably taken aback. At first, there was no sound. After Zhan Rui shouted for a while, he became furious and chased after him to beat him.
It was a mess outside.
Suddenly, Zhan Ming's door was kicked, making a loud noise.
Zhan Ming put the book back in his bag.
Zhan Rui went crazy outside.
"It's all his fault! Why does he want to live in our house? Can't he go to the school to live?!"
Zhan Rui has been eccentric for a long time, but this is the first time he has driven people in person.
Ever since Zhan Ming moved into his uncle's house, Zhan Rui had rejected him. Or it should be said that the relationship between the two of them has been bad since childhood, and his relationship with his cousin and cousin has always been normal.
Probably because his grandmother only took him alone, and didn't care about his cousins at all.
Every time we get together, grandma is always eccentric. Grandma is distressed that he has no father or mother, so she is partial to him. During the Chinese New Year and festivals, when her uncle's family came, she always hid the delicious and fun food at home first, for fear that her cousin would break it for him. She prepared delicious food in the kitchen, and the marinated chicken legs were ready, and she must be the first to bring it to him.
Even when he left, he only secretly kept money for one of his grandsons.
"He's not from our family, and he doesn't kiss us anyway, so why does he still live?! Who owes him a stinky face every day? He won't go to his mother? Why stay in our house?! Since he came, the two of you have been arguing all the time! This is my home, not his home. He is so old, so why do you want to live here?! Go to the school to live! It is because of him that classmates are coming Our family, I dare not let them come!"
"Who is he? A hooligan! A gangster! A fight severely injured someone and was hospitalized. That person is my classmate's brother! I still dare not let people know that he and I are relatives, otherwise the whole class will isolate me!"
Zhan Rui was still shouting and screaming outside, and Zhan Guoqiang roared: "Stop arguing! Go back to your room! Go read your book, there are so many things at home! How did you get in the final exam last time? You My brother is almost as good as you when he doesn't study. What the hell are you doing to make up for your classes every day? What's wrong with beating people? Anyway, your brother didn't beat you, so hurry back to your room!"
Zhan Rui was scolded and returned to the room, and the outside also stopped.
In Nanzhou in September, the weather is still very hot. Zhan Ming's small room was remodeled from the balcony of the west sun, and it was still unbearably hot after eight o'clock in the evening.
The uncle was watching TV, and the aunt was washing dishes in the kitchen. The quarrel finally stopped. Zhan Ming opened the door to let the air-conditioning in the living room blow in.
Just after it got cool for a while, the air conditioner in the living room was turned off by my aunt.
"I don't need electricity bills for air-conditioning?"
The words were addressed to my uncle, but they sounded yin and yang, obviously speaking to Zhan Ming.
Uncle didn't argue, he took off his shirt and watched TV shirtless.
After watching for a while, he saw that the door of Zhan Ming's room was open, so he stood up and walked over to take a look. Seeing Zhanming reciting the text in it, he had nothing to say and said, "Ah Ming, I'm reading."
Zhan Ming responded, "Yes."
Uncle is like this. After the conflict, he always feels a little guilty in his heart, so he will come to take care of Zhan Ming and see what he is doing. But the next time his aunt said something, he did as his aunt said, either to test whether Zhan Ming still had any money left by his grandmother, or to try to figure out the little money Zhan Ming had saved.
The uncle read again: "Oh, you don't even have a desk, how do you do your homework? I'll find a desk for you."
After he finished speaking, he went into Rui's room.
After a while, Zhan Rui's shouting was heard.
"What are you doing with my desk? Didn't you see that I still have something on it?!"
His uncle scolded: "I have given you a new desk. Your old one is useless. Do your homework for your brother!"
Zhan Rui didn't know what to put on the table, but his father emptied it all anyway.
Zhan Guoqiang moved the table to the living room and wiped it clean from head to toe with a rag before moving it into Zhanming's room.
The table is not big, just right at the end of the bed.
Zhan Guoqiang looked at it himself and said, "It's good, it's good."
Zhan Ming finally had a desk to write his homework, so he took out the practice book and put it on the desk to write.
It's almost nine o'clock, and it's too hot.
Although the windows were open and the door was open, Zhan Ming was still sweating from the heat, so he had to take a shower.
He was taking a shower when Zhan Rui rushed out of the room, saw the bathroom door closed, and scolded him with a foul language. When Zhan Guoqiang, who was watching TV, heard it, he scolded him: "Who is it? Little bastard."
Zhan Rui retorted: "Every time someone is in a hurry to use the toilet, I only take a shower in it, fuck."
Zhan Guoqiang tried to beat him, Zhan Rui shouted: "I can't hold back, can you hurry up! I'm so annoying!"
After washing the dishes, my aunt was mopping the floor, complaining without raising her head: "I just said to buy the one with two toilets, you must not listen!"
Zhan Guoqiang threw the remote control: "Don't you think you can afford it! I haven't paid off the mortgage since I changed this set, and I have to buy a bigger set. You are daydreaming!"
Seeing that there was going to be a quarrel outside, Zhan Ming rushed forward casually, and came out after putting on his clothes.
When passing by Zhan Rui, Zhan Rui scolded in a low voice: "Fuck your pervert, take up other people's things every day."
Zhan Ming was stunned for a moment, then subconsciously asked: "What did you say?"
Zhan Rui sneered, lowered his voice and said, "I don't understand? I said you were a pervert."
Zhan Ming said in a deep voice, "What do you mean?"
"It literally means." Zhan Rui provoked, "Pretend you don't understand? The QQ confession wall has been posted with such a large photo. You are at the same table as you, that scholar, wow, what are you not perverts?"
Zhan Ming instantly stretched out his hand to hold Zhan Rui, his strength was so great that Zhan Rui was in pain, and said coldly, "I advise you not to talk nonsense."
The annoyance and anger accumulated this night had probably reached a peak. Zhan Rui threw off Zhang Ming's hand and sneered: "Speak nonsense? You know in your heart whether what I said is true or false. Zhan Ming, what are you pretending to be? I know the perverted things secretly with my computer, I don't want to talk about it."
Zhan Ming was stunned.
He did use Zhan Rui's computer to check things. In his first year of high school, when he just realized that he was different from others. He was a little frightened, a little panicked, a little uneasy, and there was no one around him to talk to. He checked the information on the computer, and then cleared the traces.
Or did he forget
He can't remember.
During that time, he was in a very bad mood because he found out that his sexual orientation was different and his bank card was taken away by his uncle.
Fighting and causing trouble, emotions are out of self-control.
It is also possible that he forgot to clear the historical traces after a certain investigation.
Zhan Rui probably saw that he finally stimulated Zhan Ming, so excited that even the urge to urinate disappeared, and he kept talking in a low voice.
"I've been disgusting with you for a long time, and this secret has been kept for you long enough. If you didn't tell anyone about it, you should be grateful. If you go and punch you, the people of the Seventh Middle School are too scared to say anything. It's your business, but I'm not afraid. Zhan Ming, if you annoy me like this and take my things, maybe one day I will stab your secrets out. Let you and your good friends stay in No. 7 Middle School. Good luck. First of all, you'll return my desk—"
Zhan Ming's mind flashed a lot in an instant, including whether Zhan Rui was addicted to his mouth or was he really threatening him. But before he had time to think, his body had already rushed forward, punching Zhan Rui. Zhan Rui screamed and fell to the ground.
When the uncle and aunt in the living room heard the movement, they turned their heads and looked stunned, and the aunt began to scream.
Zhan Ming was blamed and complained many times by them, but he never resisted.
This was the first time they had seen Zhan Ming beat someone, and they suddenly realized that Zhan Ming was no longer a child, he was a 1.9-meter, strong boy who soon became an adult.
"Zhan Ming, you're crazy!" Auntie screamed.
Zhan Rui fell to the ground, the nosebleed had already flowed out, covering his nose, mad.
"Zhan Ming, you are crazy! Get out of my house!"
Auntie rushed over to pull Zhanming like crazy, but was horrified to find that she couldn't pull Zhanming at all.
"Are you dead? Come and hold Zhan Ming! He's going to beat your son to death!"
Before Zhan Guoqiang could react, Zhan Ming gave Zhan Rui another punch.
Zhan Ming stood up, stepped on Zhan Rui's hand, and crushed it hard.
Zhan Rui screamed again and again.
The aunt cried out, "Crazy! Crazy!"
Zhan Mingli ignored his uncle and aunt, stared at Zhan Rui and said, "Zhan Rui, I warn you, don't talk nonsense. Say I can, don't get involved with others. If you dare to bully others, let me know, and I promise to crush them. If you cut off your hand, you won't be able to pass the exam."
The aunt thumped Zhan Ming hard and shouted, "You're crazy! Are you speaking human words! I want to call the police! Drive you out! How dare you threaten your brother!"
Zhan Guoqiang wanted to stretch out his hand to pull Zhan Ming, but was thrown away by Zhan Ming.
Zhan Ming said coldly: "I don't owe you, grandma's money, I don't want it either."
Zhan Ming left behind the three people who were in a mess in the living room, and returned to the room to collect things.
He has very few things, and his clothes in the four seasons are no more than a luggage bag. He doesn't have any personal things. Most of the toys that his grandmother bought him were too old, and there was no place to put them in the new house, so they were thrown away by his aunt.
He only kept one.
Zhan Ming was carrying a luggage bag in one hand, a cardboard box in the other, and a schoolbag given to him by Xiao Nanzai on his shoulders.
This is all his belongings.
"A-Ming, what do you mean?" Zhan Guoqiang asked when he went out, "You don't need to be so angry when your brother said something to you, right? He also stepped on his hand, what if he was injured, what would he do? You—"
Zhan Ming slammed the door on the ground.
Zhanming has been feeling very tired since his grandmother passed away.
Tired of not resting.
But I was very tired today, I just felt that I didn't know how to talk to my uncle and the others. He had heard too many of their quarrels and kept them in his mind, but he just didn't want to say it.
He thinks he's doing his best not to cause them any trouble, but why does it seem like most fights end up on him.
If they felt he was a burden, then he would leave.
At eight o'clock at night, there were still many people walking on the road. Whether these people knew him or not, at most they just glanced at him curiously.
No one asked, Zhanming, where are you going with your luggage
No one stopped him, Zhan Ming, why don't you come home so late
There were lighted windows on both sides of the road, but none of them belonged to him.
Grandma said, "A-Ming, grandma can't take care of you anymore. You will follow your uncle in the future. You have to be obedient." Although it is your uncle, but, after all, you are not his own son, you must remember this in your heart. He and your aunt must be different from you and Zhan Rui. Don't take it to heart, you know? If you are wronged, bear with it for a while, after all, it is your uncle, otherwise where can you go? Don't be alone, suffer alone, tired alone.
He said, ok, I know, grandma.
Zhan Ming thought, how old do people have to be to not be afraid of being alone
He looked at the long road ahead and felt that the front was dark and the back was also dark.
He didn't know which way to go next.
He has nowhere to go.
The violence and anger of the freshman year of high school swept through Zhan Ming's brain again.
He fell into a manic-depression when he found out that the money in the card had been taken by his uncle and they suspected he had other cards. Feeling betrayed by everyone and abandoned by the world. During that time, he fought at every turn, venting his body's desire to destroy everything.
Now that feeling is back.
The manic feeling that the temples seemed to explode.
Suddenly, his phone began to vibrate.
Zhan Ming stood blankly for a while before he remembered to put down his luggage and take out the phone in his pocket.
The words "Xiao Nanzai" were beating on the screen.