When he went to school on Monday morning, Zhan Ming came to pick up Gu Qinan on a small electric motorcycle as always.
Gu Qinan carried his schoolbag, sat on the small electric motorcycle with a smirk, and said, "Brother Zhan, I have something to tell you today."
Zhan Ming's voice was muffled and came from the wind in front of him.
"Let's go to class now, don't say anything, you'll be late later."
"Oh." Gu Qinan felt that Brother Zhan was right.
When they got to the classroom, Lin Xiaobin and Wu Yuan came together and asked him how he was doing in the test.
"It's okay, it's pretty much what I expected." Gu Qinan said, "The results will come out in a few days."
The group of four stayed together all morning, after class and after class. The four of them walked together even for the inter-class exercises. Gu Qinan never found a chance to talk to Zhan Ming alone.
But he was like an adventurer who discovered a new world, fell in love with someone, the world suddenly became different, and Brother Zhan's words and deeds also became different.
There were many people in the classroom, but he only noticed Brother Zhan alone.
When Brother Zhan moved, he could feel it; Brother Zhan was distracted when he listened to mathematics, and he could immediately notice it. When the get out of class was over, Lin Xiaobin and the others were chatting with Brother Zhan about the latest skins in the game, and he was lying on the table looking at Brother Zhan fascinatedly, unable to control himself, he didn't hear what they said at all.
Even Lin Xiaobin asked: "Why don't you do the question?"
Gu Qinan felt that he might be crazy. From the moment he walked into the small alley in the urban village with only the two of them around, he was thinking about kissing Brother Zhan.
He walked beside Brother Zhan, the path was very narrow, and occasionally he would bump into Brother Zhan's arm.
Every time he touched it, he went numb.
He secretly raised his eyes to look at Brother Zhan, who looked bitter and hated, with a stinky face, as if someone owed him eight million.
But cool and handsome.
Gu Qinan was floating even when he walked.
Brother Zhan was silent all the way, Gu Qinan was immersed in the excitement of about to confess, and he didn't notice anything wrong.
As soon as he entered the room, Gu Qinan immediately said, "Brother Zhan, I have something to tell you!"
Zhan Ming silently changed his shoes and put away his schoolbag. After a while, he said, "You can talk about it later."
"I figured it out." Gu Qinan said, "I like you, do you like me?"
Gu Qinan waited for two minutes, but did not wait for Brother Zhan's answer.
Brother Zhan stood in front of the desk with his back to him.
Gu Qinan walked over, leaned over to look at him, and asked, "Why didn't you answer? Did you hear clearly? I'm happy—"
"Listen clearly." Brother Zhan interrupted him, "Stop making a fool of yourself."
Gu Qinan was inexplicable: "I'm not fooling around."
Zhan Ming said slowly: "Li Teng confessed to you a long time ago. You said that you are not gay and don't like boys. You have been bullied for so long in middle school because others misunderstood you as gay, and you have always insisted Saying that you are not. Human sexuality is difficult to change, and you suddenly say that you like... me, what is it?”
Gu Qinan explained: "Because I haven't liked anyone before, neither boys nor girls. But don't mainstream people think that they are heterosexual? I thought I was too, now I know, I'm not. It's not a joke, I'm sure , I'm not a fool, can I still confuse my sexuality?"
"Then can you accept Li Teng?" Zhan Ming asked.
"No! I don't like him!" Gu Qinan was a little angry, why did Brother Zhan keep talking about these things
Brother Zhan was silent again.
The sweat on Gu Qinan's back came out, only then did he realize that they had entered the room and the air conditioner had forgotten to be turned on. Gu Qinan picked up the air conditioner remote control from the desk and turned on the air conditioner.
The air-conditioning engine hummed, making the silence in the room a little less awkward.
Sweat dripped down Brother Zhan's nose, Gu Qinan stared at Brother Zhan's nose and wanted to kiss him.
Brother Zhan opened his mouth slowly, looked at him and asked, "Then how are you sure that you are gay? Homosexuality is lust for men, you know? You like me, maybe just because I'm your friend, maybe because of transfer. Afterwards, I was the first person to help you, probably because—"
Brother Zhan's voice stopped because Gu Qinan interrupted him.
with a kiss.
Gu Qinan stepped forward quickly, stood on tiptoe, and recklessly kissed Brother Zhan's lips. He was so nervous and in a hurry that his teeth hit Brother Zhan's chin.
Did not come.
When Brother Zhan didn't react, he grabbed Brother Zhan's arm with both hands, stood on tiptoe, and kissed again.
This time I got it.
soft.
Gu Qinan blushed and whispered, "I want to kiss you."
He stared at Zhan Ming, the light in his eyes almost made people escape.
The soft touch still remained on Zhan Ming's lips, but he gritted his teeth and said calmly, "Sexual orientation is a major event that affects life. It's not something you can change at a moment's notice. You have to think clearly."
Gu Qinan opened the schoolbag, carefully took out a flat red rose from the schoolbag, handed it to Brother Zhan, raised a smiling face and said, "I figured it out! I've never liked anyone before. , I don't know, now I like you, I'm very clear, very sure. Do you like me? You don't discriminate against homosexuals, I know. You are still so kind to me, I think you like me, anyway, I want to chase you!"
Zhan Ming looked at the rose, a little helpless, and asked, "When did you get the flowers?"
Gu Qinan just shoved the flower into his hand and said, "I bought it at the flower shop when I went out in the morning. From now on, I will buy you one every day until you agree to be my boyfriend."
"Don't." Zhan Ming said, "There are no vases here, where should the flowers be placed? Also, from tomorrow onwards, you are not allowed to take a lunch break here at noon."
"What?!" Gu Qinan thundered, "I'll share a rent with you!"
"Who said you rented with me? I didn't promise you." Zhan Ming put the roses on the desk and started to sit down to do his homework.
Gu Qinan had no chair to sit on, so he had to stand aside and said pitifully, "You clearly promised me."
Zhan Ming turned over the biology practice book, and said without looking up, "I promised you to come for a lunch break, but I didn't promise to share a rent with you. Now I don't agree with you to come for a lunch break, and you are not allowed to come tomorrow."
"You're wrong." Gu Qinan couldn't help pointing to the multiple-choice question that Zhi Zhanming had just written the answer to.
Zhan Ming was silent for a while, then crossed out the wrong answer.
Seeing him ignoring him, Gu Qinan changed his pajamas first, took out the exercise book, sat cross-legged on the bed, and asked, "I've moved all my things, how can you disagree with me taking a lunch break? Wu Yuan and Lin Xiaobin both know about me. I'm coming here for your lunch break, and now you don't let me come, I'm so embarrassed."
Zhan Ming didn't stop writing: "Then Wu Yuan and Lin Xiaobin know that you want to... chase me?"
Gu Qinan shook his head: "I don't know yet, I can tell them now!"
Zhan Ming stopped writing, turned his head to look at Gu Qinan seriously, and said word by word, "Being a homosexual is not so easy, and it is not like saying that you are not yesterday, but today you feel that you are, understand?"
Gu Qinan shook his head.
"Have you not thought about it? Because you were misunderstood as gay, you suffered so much bullying, this is what happens to gays in reality. The reality is that in our society, same-sex cannot legally marry and can't be open and honest in the street. Holding hands and hugging, most people still have a different view on the same sex. Bao, being a homosexual is not so easy, you don’t decide your future casually.”
After Zhan Ming finished speaking, he turned back to continue his homework.
Gu Qinan was left stunned.
After a while, Gu Qinan stood up from the bed excitedly, waved his hands, and shouted: "No! I was bullied, not because it was wrong to like the same sex! It was because they were not tolerant, they were narrow-minded! How do I decide myself What about your sexuality? It's innate, it's doomed. I just like you, it's natural and uncontrollable! It's not my decision, it's not my plan!"
Zhan Ming didn't lift his head, he was still flipping through the book, ignoring him.
Gu Qinan was a little discouraged: "I think you like me... If you suddenly decide whether to stay with me or not, you must be very shocked. It doesn't matter, you can think about it slowly, anyway, I won't give up, I want to chase you!"
Gu Qinan took his white tooth cup from the bathroom, filled it with some water, put the rose in it, and placed it on the corner of the desk.
Zhan Ming glanced at him, and he said pitifully, "Rose is innocent, you can't throw it away."
During the lunch break, Zhan Ming dragged out the floor mat and slept on the ground by himself.
Gu Qinan was lying on the side of the cot watching him busy, a little unwilling.
Is his feeling wrong? But he really has a very strong feeling of being liked by Brother Zhan. When Brother Zhan looks at him, when Brother Zhan calls him "Treasure", when Brother Zhan says "good" to him on WeChat.
Gu Qinan turned over, thought about it, and felt that he was really impatient.
Confession is too impatient, there is no foreshadowing.
It was too impatient to ask Brother Zhan to immediately agree to be his boyfriend, and he didn't have time to think about it.
And I immediately kissed Brother Zhan...
Gu Qinan hid under the quilt and laughed secretly.
Well, let Brother Zhan think about it, when he gets used to the fact that Gu Qinan likes him, he should accept it.
Gu Qinan thought about it, and fell asleep unconsciously.
And Zhan Ming was lying on the ground, not closing his eyes for a noon.
Brother Zhan really didn't let Gu Qinan take a lunch break in the rental house, and he didn't even go back with himself. He told Wu Yuan and Lin Xiaobin that there will be monthly exams this weekend. The exams are very important. Lao Zhang said that at noon, he and the math teacher are both in the office, and they are welcome to ask questions at any time. Ask questions at noon.
And sure enough, every noon, Zhan Ming went to the office with his textbooks and practice books.
Wu Yuan and Lin Xiaobin were very shocked. Lin Xiaobin even felt a sense of crisis, so he took out his textbook and started to read it.
Gu Qinan had to accept the fact that he could not go to the rental house.
Because he couldn't go to the rental house at noon, he was afraid that the roses would rot if they were stuffed in the schoolbag all day, so he had to change the real flowers to fake ones. He found a tutorial on the Internet, learned to origami roses, bought a bunch of red paper, and folded a paper rose every day. When everyone wasn't paying attention, he secretly put the paper rose in Brother Jin's schoolbag.
Brother Zhan watched him put it down silently, and at first he wanted to reach out and return the paper rose to him.
Gu Qinan muttered pitifully: "I have folded it for a long time, you don't want it, take it back and throw it in the trash, don't put it back in my schoolbag."
In the evening, Gu Qinan sent a message to Brother Zhan. Brother Zhan did not reply to every message like before, but chose to reply one or two sentences.
Xiao Nanzai: Have you put away the paper roses
Little Nanzai: Don't throw it away! I folded for a long time!
Xiao Nanzai: I folded a lot, and picked out the most beautiful one for you! look!
Gu Qinan sent over a dozen paper roses, but they were not folded very well. Some petals were of different sizes, some flowers were crooked, and none of them were as pretty as the one he sent.
Shake Shake: Have you finished your homework? Did you make up what you missed last week
Little Nanzai: No…
Shake Shake: Do it
Then Brother Zhan ignored him, and when Gu Qinan was going to bed at ten o'clock, he sent him twenty or thirty "brother" messages, and he finally said "good night".
Gu Qinan is so melancholy.
He thought, is this the feeling of chasing people
poor thing.
He had a little sympathy for Li Teng, and a little sympathy for the few people he had directly rejected, except for Lin Shida, of course.
He decided that if anyone else confessed to him in the future, he would reject them tactfully and tactfully without hurting their hearts.