[I thought that love could overcome everything, but who knows that sometimes she has no strength. I thought that love could fill the regrets in life, but it is love that creates more regrets. The ups and downs of cloudy weather, repeated in a love, another person, the sky would not be always blue]—by Zhang Xiaoxian
Mai Ding's mother stopped talking to Mai Ding, she was angry that her son was so bold to contradict her. Mai Ding didn't say anything, if all the hard work before admitting his mistake was in vain, maybe he was unfilial. This time, he decided to do it for himself. The two were deadlocked like this. During the meal, even grandma could see that something was wrong between the two of them: "What's the matter with you two these days."
Mai Ding's mother forced a smile: "Mom, it's nothing, you don't need to worry about it."
Mai Ding put down the bowl: "Grandma, anyway, you will know sooner or later." Mai Ding was about to say, when Mai Ding's mother interrupted Mai Ding: "Mai Ding, give me enough time."
"Is this how I make you feel shameful? Grandma, let me tell you the truth. "
"Mai Ding!!"
"What's the matter?" Grandma watched the mother and son making such a fuss, and wanted to know what was the reason.
"I'm with a man." Mai Ding still ignored Mai Ding's mother's efforts to stop her from speaking out, Mai Ding's mother was so angry that her lips trembled, and when grandma heard this, the bowl fell to the ground with a crisp sound, and it fell apart.
"Xiao Ding, you, what did you just say?"
"Grandma, I fell in love with a man." After saying this, grandma stood up and stared at Mai Ding in disbelief. The grandma who has been in the countryside has never seen or heard of such a thing, and she can't bear it at all. This blow made me unable to utter a single word, and he passed out as soon as his eyes went dark. Mai Ding was so frightened that he supported his grandma, and Mai Ding's mother also came to help her, and helped her to lie down on the bed: "Mom, mom, have you How is it?" Then he hurriedly picked up the phone and dialed 120.
Mai Ding's mother pushed away the worried Mai Ding beside her: "You go out, are you happy now? You are satisfied with making grandma angry like this, you go, go and tell the whole world about your bad things, you Would you be satisfied if you wanted to piss off everyone you care about, so you can be with An Ziyan, right?"
"I, I didn't know it would happen, I didn't want to." Mai Ding was at a loss.
"Get out of here, our family can't tolerate a cruel person like you, go, I agree that you are together, you go and follow him, do whatever you like, don't come back, this is what you think Isn't it, besides your great love, what else do you care about?"
"Mom, I didn't mean to anger grandma, I just wanted to make it clear."
"Is it clear enough now? You have to make this family like this before you are satisfied. I don't have such a selfish son as you. Get out."
"Mom~~"
"Don't call me mom, didn't you hear? I tell you to get out! If something really happens to grandma, I will never forgive you."
Mai Ding glanced at grandma on the bed, turned around and backed out. Clenching his fist tightly, his nails sank into his flesh. He never thought that grandma would be so angry, and now he seemed to be a sinner. Mai Ding has been standing at the door watching the ambulance take away his grandmother, and Mai Ding's mother followed. The gray sky flashed for a moment, and then there was a heavy thunder. Not long after, big raindrops were like tears. , The whole world was wet with pain.
Obviously it is right, but everyone thinks you are wrong, so it will become wrong.
How should I describe my pain at the moment, neither side can give up, the more the wound is pulled, the bigger the wound, and finally torn into an abyss that cannot be repaired.
Mai Ding walked into the rain, letting the raindrops drenched himself completely, pale lips, trembling body, the road under his feet had turned into mud, he ran forward, ran to An Ziyan's car, and looked through the window Looking inside, the tired An Ziyan was sleeping on the steering wheel.
Mai Ding shouted: "An Ziyan."
An Ziyan raised his head and saw Mai Ding who was wet all over, his thin body trembling uncontrollably, Mai Ding continued to yell in the rain: "It's all my fault, it's all messed up, grandma fainted from anger , if something happens to her, what should I do, if I love you, I have to bear the loss, what should I do, An Ziyan, tell me what to do?" Mai Ding ran away after finishing speaking, his mind was racing Chaos, if something happened to grandma because of me, let alone Mai Ding's mother, even I couldn't forgive myself.
What else do you care about besides your great love
Mai Ding's mother's words kept turning in Mai Ding's mind. Is it true that he was too selfish, that he hurt so many people just to fulfill his love, and that he had to bear all the heavy sins when he was together? Will it be nice? An Ziyan chased after him, grabbed Mai Ding, and pulled him into his arms. Even though he was soaked, he could still feel the warmth of each other. Mai Ding gasped heavily in An Ziyan's arms.
Mai Ding raised his head, looked into An Ziyan's eyes, and burst into tears: "I really tried my best, but it turns out that everything can't be solved with my best efforts. Now grandma, I love you, An Ziyan, but not on the premise of losing my family."
An Ziyan looked at the wounded Mai Ding, it turned out that he had caused him to suffer so much all this time, he was not himself, he was just the kind and obedient Mai Ding, yet he had to bear what he shouldn't have to bear.
"So, you want to break up with me?"
"I'm sorry, An Ziyan, I'm really sorry, love can't conquer everything."
An Ziyan smiled, his smile was full of sadness, he doesn't blame Mai Ding, he likes him, doesn't he, he always thinks about others, let alone his family, if he continues to be selfish, he won't will be happy.
"I will give you what you want, including letting me leave you. You are right, love cannot conquer everything."
Rainwater flowed into Mai Ding's eyes and turned into tears, An Ziyan leaned over and kissed Mai Ding's eyes: "Why are you crying, you can't die." After speaking, An Ziyan took off his coat and covered Mai Ding's head, turned around and walked towards Walking in the direction of the car, An Ziyan's back in the rain makes people feel so distressed, this is the first time, An Ziyan obeys Mai Ding's words so much, just so that Mai Ding will not be tortured by it in his heart.
You're not that strong, I know.
An Ziyan passed by Mai Ding in his car, and Mai Ding watched the farther and farther headlights of the car getting blurred in the rain. It was ridiculous. We didn't have a quarrel, we didn't have a third party to destroy it. , But God always has a way to destroy love, and in the end it still can't withstand the pressure of the world, and it falls apart.
Mai Ding sat on the ground, tightly grasping An Ziyan's coat: "An Ziyan, before I forget you, please don't fall in love with other people."
An Ziyan drove the car very fast, not knowing where he was going or how long he was going to drive. In the end, he suddenly slammed on the brakes and hammered heavily on the steering wheel.
After you left, my world was blank, only endless tears and wounds.
When Mai Ding came to the hospital in the town outside, he was relieved to see that his grandmother had stabilized, and Mai Ding's mother looked at the soaked Mai Ding coldly: "Why are you here, didn't you tell you to go find An Ziyan? "
Mai Ding didn't speak, just stood in front of grandma's hospital bed, grandma slowly opened her eyes, and when she saw Mai Ding, she stretched out her hand and grabbed Mai Ding's hand: "Son, you can't be confused, how can you be with a man?" , that is unreasonable."
Mai Ding forced a smile: "Grandma, you don't need to persuade me, I already know, there will be no next time, you can't be so selfish, can't you? I still have to live for this, I have to live for that, until the end Find out what love is." Mai Ding mocked himself.
When Mai Ding's mother heard Mai Ding say this, her tone softened a little: "You will understand why you have to make trouble to this point, but it's good to know now, I'll take care of grandma, you go back and take a bath in hot water Take a bath and have a good rest, if you stay here for a while, you will catch a cold."
Mai Ding nodded, he didn't even know how he got back to his grandmother's house, he took a shower and changed into clean clothes, then squatted there and began to wash An Ziyan's coat, over and over again, his hands turned red from rubbing, but don't want to stop.
Maybe time is just so overwhelmed. The development of many things is beyond our control. We all hold good expectations, but we can only get cruel answers. Even if you keep telling yourself to work harder and harder, one day there will be rewards, and when this day does not come, all that is left is despair and anger, just want to say shutdown to the noisy world, it can't make us quiet Do you want to enjoy love, even for a second, although I don't care what you think of me, but I also hope to get your blessings.
Insignificant wish, but exhausted all to beg.