I made breakfast, but I don't have any appetite at all.
"Xiaoyu is going to the hospital tomorrow. He won't take Ziyin with him. Will you accompany him?" My mother's words sounded in my ears again yesterday, and my heart suddenly became flustered.
Should i go
But doing so, if Wan Tengfeng knew he would be sad.
But Ye Yuli...
Thinking of my mother saying that he might die, I feel breathless.
I hesitated for a long time at home alone, and after thinking about it, I set off for the hospital.
I just want to see him. I just want to accompany him when he is sick. That's good. Besides, let’s forget about the things we used to love each other, he is also my brother. Is it wrong to go to see his brother?
As soon as I parked the car in the parking lot, I saw Ye Yuli's car coming in.
After the car door opened, he walked down alone, and I was very sad looking at his gray face.
He closed the car door and walked to the hospital door alone.
I opened the door, got out of the car, and summoned the courage to call out his name: "Xiao Yu!"
He froze for a moment, then turned around, looking at me with a complicated expression: "Why are you... why are you here?"
I walked up to him and watched the winter sun shining on his black hair, a pair of amber eyes condensed with deep sadness.
I held back my distressed tears and looked at him bravely: "Why don't you cherish yourself? Although I'm not by your side, you have to cherish yourself! You will make me sad."
He looked at me in disbelief, not sure what I meant.
"Mom has already told me about you, how can you hide it from me like this? It hurts my heart to death by doing so!" I looked at him reproachfully, but my heart felt unspeakable pain.
He is doing everything for me, but what can I do for him
"Yiting, you should go back! We are now on two lines. Don't make the person around us sad. Isn't that what you said?" He said, still showing a bitter smile deliberately , But I know he must be in pain now.
He once told me that physical injuries will always heal, but heart injuries will never heal. Now, not only can I not change his physical injury, but I can't heal the injury in his heart.
"Xiaoyu, you are the most loved person in my life, how can I look at you and ignore you like this?" I stretched out my hand and held his hand, desperately trying to give him some warmth.
He gently broke free of my hand and said softly, "I don't know what my mother said to you, but don't worry, I will be fine, you can go back! If Wan Teng Feng sees him, he will be unhappy. "
I tightly grasped his hand, and no longer allowed him to break free: "I don't care about Manteng Kaede now, I only want you to have a good life! I only want you to have a good life! I know now, how can I not worry?"
"Yiting, I..." He looked at me helplessly, not knowing what to say.
He wanted to say something, but his body seemed to be suffering from great pain, and the sweat slid down his bloodless cheeks.
"What's the matter with you?" I looked at his pained expression nervously, almost frightened to death.
He raised his head, resisted the pain, and tried to give me a smile: "I'm fine, you can go back! I will see the doctor myself!"
"Xiao Yu! You don't want to be like this, OK? I'll take you to the hospital, and we will go to the hospital together..." I said, trying to support his weak body, and helped him into the hospital.
He finally walked to the hospital, his expression still looked painful despite the forbearance, and the doctor nervously sent him to the emergency room.
I was standing in the corridor of the hospital, watching the lights in the emergency room flashing, and couldn't help but remember the look of Wan Tengfeng waiting here anxiously. At this moment, I felt that I was so sorry to him.
I promised him, but why didn’t I do it
But Xiaoyu... Am I really doing something wrong
Maybe we shouldn’t let Xiaoyu and Ziyin go together from the beginning, maybe we shouldn’t take Wan Tengfeng as her backer from the beginning, maybe we shouldn’t get used to his warmth from the beginning, if you don’t love him, do all this Is it too cruel
I couldn’t help but think of his painful expression at the beach. He said: I finally understand Yingqian’s despair at the time: The person I like, obviously doesn’t like me, but always pulls me again and again when I make up my mind to leave. Into the painful abyss she constructed for me. Because of love, how much courage I need to make up my mind, but your little gentleness makes me unable to resist, I can't help but follow you again into the abyss of pain.
Wan Tengfeng, sorry...
Although I know that this will not make up for the harm done to you, but I am really sorry for you.
"Xiaoyu, are you really not hospitalized?" I helped Ye Yuli walk down the corridor, looking worriedly at him who insisted not to be hospitalized, "How can you do this?"
"It's okay, I don't want everyone to worry about it, and it's really okay!" He still had a pretentiously strong expression.
I let go of his hand angrily and looked at him dissatisfied.
"What's the matter?" He looked at me, who had suddenly become indifferent, confused.
"How do you know how to cherish yourself a little? Even for me, can't you treat yourself well? Why don't you think about my feelings? Sometimes, love doesn't have to be together, I know you hated me at the beginning I didn’t give you a chance before you got engaged, but Xiao Yu, you know, even if you’re not by my side, the person I love the most is you, I just can’t, can’t hurt Manteng Kaede, he almost died in the car for me, It’s also because of me, he has been blind, he has done so much for me, how can I hurt him again and again? But, I don’t want to see you not cherishing yourself like this! If you do this, the most painful person is me And, Ziyin knows, she won't let you not cherish yourself like this!"
"Yiting, I'm sorry... I promise you that I will come to the hospital in two days. I will be fine for you. Don't worry!" He stretched out his hand and gently stroked my face.
Feeling this long-lost warmth, my tears couldn't help but slip from my eye sockets. He looked at me and couldn't help but hug me, "Yiting, don't cry, okay? We've grown up. strong."
"I'm sorry Xiaoyu, I'm really sorry, you should understand my intentions, just like when you chose to leave with Ziyin, in fact, I can't bear you, but..."
"I know, it's okay, I said, I will respect your choice. You don't need to be sad, we are doing well now, aren't we?"
Very good... Is it really good