"I want to talk to you." A familiar female voice suddenly sounded behind him.
I turned around and looked at Ziyin who appeared in front of me in surprise, "You..."
She looked at me seriously, her eyes full of helplessness and sadness.
Her red eyes make me uncomfortable.
Ziyin and I were sitting in the cafe opposite the hospital, and I was a little bewildered fiddling with my fingers, not daring to face her. I don't know why she thought about coming here. She felt very different in front of her, and I don't know why.
It's not like the innocent eyes she used to, but she just releases her emotions without scruple.
"Are you looking for me?" I asked indifferently.
In the past few years, she has made me feel even more unfamiliar.
Absent-mindedly, she stirred the coffee in the cup. After pondering for a long time, she finally said, "Yiting, I'm leaving!"
"Go?" I looked at her in astonishment, and she couldn't help but say something like this.
"Don't be surprised, I'm really tired these years!" She raised her head and looked at me, her eyes full of tiredness and helplessness.
"..." I stared at her in a daze, as if seeing the Ziyin back then, instead of the Ziyin who didn't know the world that I had been seeing all this time, it was just the Ziyin who entangled Ye Yuli in everything.
"I know that in the past few years, whether it is you, me or Xiaoyu, we are all suffering. I always thought that I would be happy if this continues, but I found that this is not the case. Every time I look at Xiaoyu and hide my thoughts of you, I'll be very sad too." Her eyes slowly condensed with fine light, and she looked at me unbearably.
"..."
"I thought time could change all this, but I forgot, what a stubborn person I like, he has stubbornly liked you for so many years, how can he forget you? Although he has been by my side, he But his heart is always on you."
"..."
"Actually, I didn't have memory loss. I just selfishly chose to keep him by this method. Once, when I watched you with him, I was so painful that I was about to die. Later, I saved you. , Just use that opportunity to keep Xiao Yu selfishly by my side."
I was surprised to watch Ziyin narrate all this indifferently. I didn't expect it to be like this. She remembered everything she was acting in.
But these are all I owe her, I have no way to blame her.
She raised her head and smiled bitterly: "I thought I would be great. I thought I could fulfill your happiness, but I didn't. Watching you with him would make me jealous and heartache. So, this In the past few years, I used my selfishness to ruin the happiness of Xiaoyu. He had a painful life, and I also had a painful life."
"Zi Yin, in fact, you are not to blame for these. I just think that fate is too unfair to us." Looking at Zi Yin's self-blaming eyes, I also felt very heartbroken.
Ziyin wiped away the rustling tears, and then said: "Do you know when you left Jinhai for the first time? When Xiaoyu knew the news, he looked for you all over the street and looked at his desperate expression. I can't wait I died, but in the end, I still pretended to be by his side as if nothing had happened, ignoring his pain."
It turns out that Xiaoyu...
Every time he saw me, behind the seemingly calm, what kind of pain he was trying to hide
"Actually, I also know that he flew back from New York to see you on your birthday, and that rainy night, I also watched all this not far away. Xiaoyu didn't know that he was lying to me that he was going to a friend's house. Later, I followed him back on the same plane, and then went back with him. I can see everything clearly, but Yiting, I also love him very much, I really love him. I’m sorry. In the past few years, I have caused the three of us to suffer."
I looked at Ziyin in disbelief. I didn't expect she would know so many things.
"But now, when I look at him lying on the hospital bed, I am trying to smile at me while thinking about you. I really can't continue to selfishly possess him like this. So, I'm leaving now, I don't want to look at you. With him, no matter what happens in the future, I will give him back to you. If he really leaves this world unfortunately, I hope you can leave him a last good time. If you are really lucky, please You treat him well for the rest of your life, I think I will never set foot on this land again, and I will bless you from afar."
"But Ziyin..." Looking at her beautiful eyes, I really don't know what to say.
Thinking of that night full of fear, my eyes were once again buried in large swaths of fog.
Why can't I find anything other than sorry now
"Yiting, you don't have to feel guilty for me. If you really feel that you owe me something in the past, Xiaoyu has paid it back for you in the past few years. From now on, you will never suffer from that incident again. Moreover, saving you was my voluntary choice. If you were replaced by you, I think you would save me without hesitation. This is destiny, and none of us can change it. Mind, calmly comforted.
"But Ziyin, do you really want to leave here? If you leave, I will never see you again."
She retracted her tears and tried to show a strong smile: "I only need you to treat Xiaoyu well! Please remember that I also love him very much. Forgive me for not having the courage to send him away, and selfishly leave the last pain to you to face I have already booked the ticket and will be leaving in two hours. I hope you will be happy!"
Seeing her resolute appearance, I didn't say anything.
At the big airport, watching Ziyin leave with a smile, I suddenly heard what Mia had said to me at the beginning: Only after experiencing thousands of mountains and rivers can life be called life, and only then will I grow up, and I will discover that it is actually ordinary and not simple. !
Maybe life can only be ordinary after leaving, but who can find the courage to leave everything behind