Ye Yuli was already asleep, and her face was still so bad when she slept on the bed, which made me feel distressed.
I squatted by the bed, caressing his face carefully, his black hair, time and time again, even though he has been burned in my soul, I also want to caress him so well, at least until I can’t see it. Whenever I hope, the warmth remaining in him can make me feel better.
If you love someone so much that you don’t even have self-confidence, what else can I do besides letting my heart die with him
I will stay with Wan Tengfeng because he once said that he gave me to Wan Tengfeng, so I tried hard to let him see my happiness, but today, he can only lie here, how can I Can you still get happiness
I pursue happiness, and I pursue everything because of you, but if I am destined to lose you, then how can I still have the motivation to pursue happiness
"Let's go back!" With tears in his eyes, one of the hands gently grasped my arm in the dimness. You don't need to look at me to know who the voice comes from, but at this moment, I don't even have the courage to turn around and look at him. How can I tell him that I bet my happiness on another person
But I lowered my head and followed him out of the ward.
"Yiting, where have you been? I'm so worried about you." Under the quiet lights of the corridor, his face looked a little fuzzy in my eyes.
I wiped away my tears and looked at him seriously, only to realize that panic was still written in his eyes. I suddenly seemed to see him nervously looking for me everywhere.
With all the guilt and self-blame, I did what he hated again-crying for another person in his arms.
Wan Tengfeng and I were walking on the cold street, and the night was heavy, covering the entire sky and my heart.
Wan Tengfeng stretched out his warm hand, held my cold hand, and said softly: "Yiting, I'm sorry, can you forgive me about Ni You?"
I dared not look at him, I was afraid he would read something from my eyes.
Actually, I... I don’t completely believe in those things in the newspaper. Perhaps I should say that I was not entirely angry because he appeared in the newspaper with other people. I just selfishly wanted to use it to turn his face on him at that moment. , Maybe in this way, I can be with Ye Yuli openly, at least attribute all the mistakes to him, I won't be so guilty!
But... But... He might not have thought that he fell in love with a selfish person, even after he gave all of her body and mind for her, she still wanted to get rid of him because of another person in her heart.
In fact, many times I hate myself like this. I hate myself so small that I can only accommodate one person. After I fall in love with someone, I will ignore the feelings of everyone around me. Such me may not be destined to be happy, maybe it is because of my selfishness that fate will let me face the test again and again, and insulate me from happiness.
Seeing that I didn't speak, Wan Tengfeng took me into his arms anxiously, and kept saying sorry.
In fact, the person who really should say these words should be me, but I can't say a word.
How can I say that I am angry not because you are with another woman, but because I want to take the opportunity to throw you off? Get rid of all the debt to you, get rid of your sincerity to me, get rid of the promise I once made to you.
I used to be angry because he suspected Yingqian. I thought it was shameful that he didn't believe the person he made promises. I was angry with Qiao Jun because he wanted to break up with Ye Liyang in the name of true love. , I don’t think that people who are responsible for their promises are not worthy of love, but now I realize that I am actually a hundred times shameful than their behavior.
However, even so, Wan Tengfeng stayed with me as always, not because he was stupid and couldn't see my mind, but because he really loved me to the point where he would rather give up his dignity. Love is not a mistake, it's just a foolishly adding a lock to your happiness, a lock that has lost the key, and you can only let the person you fall in love dominate your emotions.
When I got home, Wan Tengfeng kept busy in the kitchen for me. He looked at me distressedly: "Yiting, look at you, you were originally thin, but now like this, I really want to hurt me!"
I didn't look at him, just lowered my head and said indifferently: "Wantengfeng, you... hate me!"
He froze for a moment, suddenly laughed, and asked gently, "Are you sick, what are you talking about? Why should I hate you for no reason?"
I raised my head and yelled at him hysterically: "Can you not be so good to me? You fool!"
He sat on the chair and looked at me blankly. I couldn't see any emotion in his eyes.
I took off the ring from my hand and placed it in front of him, and said with excitement: "You must be crazy to put such a precious ring on my bad guy's hand. I make you sad again and again, don't you? Can't you learn? Standing in front of me every time and letting me hurt, I think it's hard not to hurt you!"
He suddenly smiled indifferently: "Yiting, are you so angry because of the newspaper matter? It doesn't matter, I am very happy to see you so angry because of that thing, at least you will still be jealous for me, which means You still care about me!"
At this moment, I am really sure that this man was poisoned by me!
I looked at his smile helplessly, and tears fell steadily. At this moment, I feel so sorry for him, but I feel that I can't give him happiness!
I slapped him madly, "Be sober! The woman standing in front of you is not worthy of your love! You hate her! It's best to want to kill her!"
After I finished speaking, I didn’t dare to look at his eyes anymore. I turned around and walked upstairs. I suddenly felt that this house was so empty, even though it had stayed in my memory for so many years, it was still in these fast fading times. Losing its initial warmth, it turns out that no matter how beautiful things are, they can't stand the loneliness of time.
The necklace on my neck also came to join in the fun at this moment, falling on the steps, and the crisp sound awakened the pain in my heart. I seemed to see Wan Teng Feng staring into my eyes, so beautiful and charming.
I still remember the first time we met. When we first met, every time we met, we started with a quarrel. After so long, we no longer quarreled, nor quarreled, and we could never find the original happiness.
If there was no Yingqian at the beginning, I think Wan Tengfeng and I might walk together, and now they will be very happy.
But because of Yingqian, he understood his feelings for me. Perhaps it was because the process of his understanding was too long, so that I had already completely handed over my never-opened heart to another person.
Wan Tengfeng didn't understand that it was him who really opened my heart! If it weren't for him, Ye Yuli and I might have stayed in the initial state, and it is precisely because of him that today he is the ultimate victim.
Maybe... This is fate!
boom-
Suddenly there was a loud noise behind me, the dishes and chopsticks fell one after another, and the table was sacrificed gloriously... I looked back and looked at his almost stiff expression. Finally, he slammed out the door...
The door that was not closed was like a huge wound between me and him.
I stared at all this in a daze, at the back of him leaving, and suddenly realized that all of this was irreversible.
I sat on the steps and looked at the messy restaurant, as if Wan Tengfeng had a flustered and helpless expression.
There was occasional wind coming from the door, hitting me, it was very cold!
I picked up the shell-shaped gemstone necklace that fell on the ground. I remembered the decision I made after returning all the things Ye Yuli gave me. I remembered what I said to Maple Manteng at the beach, and remembered that I was with him. What I said to Wan Weilun when I was unconscious...
I walked through the living room, walked into the dining room, and started to clean up the fragments on the floor. The white tiles were sharp and sharp. Suddenly, my thin fingers touched it accidentally. The bright red blood flowed out. I suddenly remembered the time. He was lying in the front of the car in the afternoon with a beautiful rainbow, and the red color flowing out of his body... I suddenly remembered the song he sang for me. I don’t know where the motivation came from, and suddenly ran out the door. There was nothing in the yard. The trace of his car, I foolishly didn't know what I wanted to do. Furiously ran out of the door and out of the community.
The cold rain struck my face. I didn't wear a jacket. It was very cold, but I knew that this cold did not come from my body, but from my heart that was already scarred and scarred like Wan Tengfeng.
I stumbled on the road, only my lost breath under the night... I couldn't believe in myself, just like that, I lost him who is full of sunshine and warmth in my life...
Suddenly, my body staggered, and my whole body fell to the ground, and there was a sharp pain in my feet, just like the familiar and long-lost pain when I was hit by Wan Teng Feng for the first time...
The rain that fell from the sky was like desperation overwhelming the sky and filled my world.