I Love You, It's Not About You

Chapter 82: Play together

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In the courtyard behind the orphanage building, there is a tall camphor tree, underneath the tree is a swing tied up with a rubber rope. I was left out of the cold by the children, so I had to sit here and wait for Wan Teng Feng, hoping that he would play with those little ghosts. After enough, you can take me home immediately.

I was swinging on the swing, and suddenly remembered the memories of swinging when I was a child:

At that time, there was also a swing in our yard, and my mother was always with me. Every time the swing was swayed, it seemed to take me to the sky. I closed my eyes and imagined that I would grow wings and fly." Giggle" and laughed. That is the most beautiful memory in life. There is no such inexplicable worries today, that kind of carefree feeling, but today, I feel so... So far away, so illusory, so illusory that it never existed.

"What are you thinking about?" Wan Tengfeng appeared suddenly, patted my shoulder, and frightened me.

"What are you doing? It's terrifying!" I raised my head and looked at this pesky guy with my lips. "If you don't accompany you those little ghosts, why take care of me?"

He smiled, squatted down, supported his cheeks with his hands, and looked at me with his charming eyes, "I told you not to be so fierce, even the kids said so, you have to admit it! It's really shameful to me, It’s a shame that I have tried so hard to train for so long, so why is it useless at all?"

I stuck out my tongue at him, and said disdainfully: "Can this be blamed on me? It's all those little ghosts who don't know each other! I came all the way to wait for them and said I was fierce! I won't come here with you when I die! "

"Do you know why I brought you here?" Wan Tengfeng sat on the stone slab under the camphor tree, looked at me thoughtfully, and said softly.

I looked at him puzzled, wondering what tricks he was playing again.

He took a breath, looked at the clouds in the sky, and said faintly: "Here... is the most beautiful place in the world. What you get is far more than what you pay. They are also abandoned by fate, but they are right. Fate never compromises. You can see how strong and brave they are. The children here never say they are afraid of the dark, nor do they think they want their mothers, but in their hearts, like other children, they also long for warmth. They also need care. Everyone who has given them care will remember them and will be grateful for their whole lives. What fate makes them lose is warmth, but it is not innocence, nor is it a dream. They will never dream of the future. No less than any child living in a greenhouse. These are what Yiting you lack. It is not fate that really makes you lose all of this, but more people who love you, such as your mother, such as … Qiao Jun, it’s them… They give you more time and conditions to immerse yourself in grief. If you are not living in such a rich family, maybe what I see today is a strong, brave, gentle and lovely girl. ."

Why does this guy Wan Tengfeng say these embarrassing words every time

Yes, I am not gentle and cute enough, nor strong and brave enough, but he said: Those who love me made me lose everything!

He glanced at me with a sad look and continued: "You are not the only poor person in this world, but if you wish, you can also be the poorest person. Because you will always live in the past. In the world, you can’t see what you have. Some people as old as you can stand alone in the face of cruel reality. But what about you? Have you worried about your own life over the years? Yilai Reach out and open your mouth. In this kind of life, what you need to do is to find the meaning of living in this world. What can you do for this world? You have walked in this world and can leave some What? Have you thought about this?"

What can I do for this world? I stared at Wan Tengfeng in a daze. I didn't expect that he would suddenly tell me this.

The swing that had been dangling suddenly came to a standstill.

The sunlight dappled by the shadow of the tree reflected into my eyes, making me unable to see the emotions in his eyes.

But what I can feel is the unceremonious accusation in his words.

Blame my cowardice, my incompetence...

"Brother Feng..." I turned my head and looked at Crescent Moon, who was running towards this side.

She was holding the cake and ran to this side excitedly, and suddenly fell on the grass, "Oh, it hurts!" The cake in her hand was totally different.

Wan Tengfeng ran over and gently helped her up, "Is it all right?"

"It's okay!" She got up from the ground, looked at the cake on the ground reluctantly, and suddenly rubbed the cream of her hand on Wan Tengfeng's flowery face.

"Hahaha... My brother looks so funny!" It was a smile that was brighter than the sun in the sky.

Wan Tengfeng squeezed her cheek in a cowardly manner, and pretended to blame: "Little devil, the courage is getting bigger and bigger!"

"Ha ha… "

Looking at the backs of one big and one small disappearing in the sun, I suddenly felt very sad.

The happiness and happiness of others seems to have nothing to do with me.

Why do I always stand outside the world of others

I was sitting on the swing, looking thoughtfully at the blue sky.

"Ahahahaha..." Suddenly, all the children swarmed out, chirping and clamoring to play with the eagle and catch the chicks.

A child is a child, and he still plays such a naive game.

"But who do you want to be an eagle?" Everyone looked at each other bitterly.

Ah! It's best if you can't play, it's so noisy!

But when will Wan Tengfeng take me home

"Hey, girl, you can be an eagle!" It was Crescent Moon's voice again, wondering which poor girl she was treating with the arrogance she learned from Wan Tengfeng

Uh... wait... Seeing everyone staring at me, I looked at this group of boring guys in confusion.

Am I here for them to visit

It’s not fun to play their naive game of eagle-catching chicks. Why are they all staring at me now

It's rude to look at others like this!

Crescent Moon, who has been looking at me unpleasantly, pointed at me arrogantly and said in a commanding tone: "Girl, let you be an eagle, didn't you hear?"

what! This girl, when I'm a bully, isn't it? Who did I think she was talking to? I didn't expect that "poor little girl" was actually me!

Wan Tengfeng, look at you, this fellow teaches the kid!

I stared at her helplessly, walked up to her, looked at her fiercely, "Boy, how do you talk to my sister? I'm angry!"

She opened her eyes wide and looked at me. I was really afraid that she would cry like she did at the beginning, but in order to prevent this girl from crawling on my head in the future, I still insisted on my self-destructive image.

This time she seemed to be much more brave. She didn't have the frightened legs as she did at the beginning, and she didn't even have the consciousness to escape. She ran behind Wan Tengfeng at a thundering speed and hid him, staring at my reaction in horror. .

"Run! Do you think I can't catch you if I run?" I said, I wanted to run behind Wan Tengfeng to catch her.

Haha... Don’t you want me to be an eagle? I will sacrifice to satisfy your girl's wish!

"Ah! The eagle is here, Brother Feng, save me!"

"No one can save you!" If I pretend to be ruthless, I'm just acting in my true colors. Who made you girl have to dig on the head of "Tiger"

When the other children saw me being fierce, they all united to deal with me, the most "gentle and lovely" "eagle" in the universe.

"Haha! Caught it?" I looked at the little boy proudly in my hand.

"Sister, forgive me..." I kept tickling him, and he begged for mercy, and smiled "sullenly".