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Every scene he saw was true, and every love he felt was also true, so he had doubts, but he overturned his doubts.
Cheng Yu explained a lie with his true feelings. He followed his own heart and did what he wanted to do for a long time, and seriously liked Lin Anlan as his lover, so Lin Anlan really regarded him as his lover.
His desperate bet, after all, was pushed to the junction of victory by the person he liked.
Lin Anlan knew this was inappropriate, it was too irrational.
However, he really couldn't hate him.
Reason told him that he should stay away from Cheng Yu and the man who deceived him.
But in his heart, he couldn't help but think of him all the time, and felt that there was nothing wrong with him.
All his mistakes stem from liking himself, liking himself too much.
He had already planted him in his heart, how could he be willing to hate him and blame him.
When reason could not restrain emotions, and the reluctance to break through the barriers of reason, Lin Anlan knew very well that Cheng Yu had become his special existence.
An existence that he could not deal with rationally.
An existence that he knew that the other party had made a mistake and was unwilling to pursue it.
Cheng Yu was desperate and went to a dead end. He already knew that this was a dead end, so when he left, he said "you won't come back".
He is so smart and knows himself so well, how can he not know how dangerous and paranoid what he is doing.
But Lin Anlan couldn't bear it, so he changed his direction and gave him a new way out of the dead end.
He is the only referee in his gamble, and only he can decide Cheng Yu's life and death. When he is willing to give Cheng Yu a way out, Cheng Yu's death will be solved.
Lin Anlan sighed, and he said, "So you don't have to be too sad, and don't be afraid that I hate you, I didn't come back because I didn't think about it, I didn't pick you up because I was already asleep that day, and I saw the message on WeChat. It's the next morning. You're fine, even if I don't end up with you, you're fine, and I'll remember my first love as you."
Cheng Yu listened quietly. He didn't expect Lin Anlan to tell him this. He said it open-mindedly, transparently, gently and generously. He thought that Lin Anlan would blame him and hate him, but Lin Anlan wanted to comfort him.
It was obvious that he was the one who was deceived by himself, but he was comforting him.
His An An has always been the most gentle and kind person in the world.
How could he give up on him like this.
"Then if you don't hate me and think I'm fine, why can't you be with me?"
"We're finally together, isn't it good?"
Lin Anlan blinked, but did not speak.
After a long time, he whispered, "Let's eat."
He lowered his head and drank the porridge, and said nothing.
Cheng Yu looked at him and didn't ask any further questions.
After a meal, the two of them ate fairly harmoniously. After Lin Anlan finished eating, washed the dishes, and then left Cheng Yu's house.
Cheng Yu wanted to send him, but Lin Anlan refused, "You can rest well, don't bother, I'll go back by myself."
Cheng Yu had no choice but to take him into the elevator reluctantly, "Will you come tomorrow?"
Lin Anlan didn't know that, in fact, he was not in his plan when he came here today.
If it weren't for Xie Hui's sudden appearance and saying that Cheng Yu was ill, if it weren't for him really worried about Cheng Yu's sudden illness, he would not be here at this time.
He didn't answer.
Cheng Yu looked at him stupidly, "Aren't you coming?"
"Let's talk about it." Lin Anlan said helplessly.
Cheng Yu nodded and smiled, "Then I'll wait for you."
His eyes shone brightly under the lighting of the corridor, and he stared at Lin Anlan with his eyes fixed.
When he saw Lin Anlan, he only felt that his mind had nothing to hide. He pressed the 1st floor and the elevator door slowly closed. Lin Anlan lowered his head and let out a sigh of relief unconsciously.
Cheng Yu watched the elevator start to go down, and then turned around silently and went back to the room.
He was sitting on the sofa, thinking about everything that had just happened, it just felt like a dream.
When Lin Anlan came back, he said he didn't hate him or hate him. He also said that he was fine and he was his first love.
Cheng Yu couldn't believe it, he wasn't hated
He did such an outrageous thing, so he wasn't disgusted by Lin Anlan
Therefore, Lin Anlan also likes him.
The five months they spent together affected not only him, but also Lin Anlan. Jiang Xu lied to him, and he was disappointed that he didn't want to see him again.
But he also lied to him, but he took the initiative to visit him.
He actually cares about himself.
For the first time, Cheng Yu felt that he might be favored by fate.
He lived towards death, a journey of death that knew his mistakes and made mistakes, but at the end, when the train arrived at the station, he accidentally drove to the distance he wanted to reach.
Lin Anlan, who has always favored Jiang Xu, for the first time, with a complete memory, chose to favor herself, giving herself and Jiang Xu completely different results.
He gave him a way of life, a way of life that Cheng Yu never dared to hope for, but has been looking forward to every day for more than five months.
At this moment, he regained his courage and faith and decided to take the initiative.
With Lin Anlan, he was never discouraged, never complained, persistent and firm.
Lin Anlan didn't give him anything, and he could rely on his own love to walk alone on this lonely road for eight years. Now, Lin Anlan gave him a way to survive. With an obvious favoritism, Cheng Yu instantly seemed to have himself. The armor and shield, got the ticket to this love, no more scruples.
In this world, the only person who can stop his love is Lin Anlan. Once Lin Anlan stops blocking his steps, he will no longer have any other concerns and reluctance.
Cheng Yu laughed slowly, the more he laughed, the happier he became.
He stood up and walked towards his bedroom. He didn't take medicine, but stared at Lin Anlan's oil painting quietly.
He kissed his index finger and middle finger, and then pressed his index finger and middle finger to the face of the boy in the painting, "Good night, good night."
"If you don't come to see me, I'll see you." He said softly, "I want to be with you."
Lin Anlan took the night to go home. He got into the elevator. When he got out of the elevator, he saw Jiang Xu waiting for him at the door of the house.
"Why are you here?" He was slightly surprised.
"I'll see you." Jiang Xu said, "We haven't seen each other for a long time, I miss you."
Lin Anlan looked at him and smiled. He opened the door and walked in.
Jiang Xu followed him and asked him, "Why did you come back so late?"
"Go out."
"Work?"
"Well, I took care of some personal matters along the way."
"What personal matter?" Jiang Xu was curious.
Lin Anlan picked up the glass and took a glass of water, walked to the sofa and sat down, "This has nothing to do with you."
Jiang Xu was a little unhappy when he heard the words, "Isn't your business my business?"
"Really?" Lin Anlan asked him back, "I thought my affairs and yours were long separated."
"Xiaolan, what do you mean?" Jiang Xu panicked, "You, haven't you forgiven me yet?"
"Forgive what?" Lin Anlan took a sip of water, "Forgive you for meeting Cheng Feng so many times behind my back, or do you want me to deceive Cheng Yu? Forgive you for betraying my trust, or forgive you You don't think about me at all?"
"I already knew I was wrong." Jiang Xu approached him, "Xiaolan, after so long, you should be relieved, right?"
"Do you think that no matter what you do, I will forgive you? I will be relieved?" Lin Anlan asked him, "So you dare to say anything and do everything. You can't do what you promised me, but you didn't promise. Mine can do random things. After all these years, is the relationship between us just to make you think so?"
Jiang Xu was stunned for a moment, he looked at Lin Anlan, the Lin Anlan he was familiar with, the most familiar.
This is not like the previous Lin Anlan, this is more like the Lin Anlan before his amnesia in his memory.
He was stunned suddenly, "You... have your memory restored?"
"Yes." Lin Anlan said frankly, "I have regained my memory."
He looked at Jiang Xu, "Do you want me to restore my memory?"
Jiang Xu nodded, of course he hoped that Lin Anlan could restore his memory. Only when Lin Anlan regained his memory would he leave Cheng Yu and ignore him again, only treating him as a liar who deceived him.
"Of course I want you to regain your memory."
"Why? Because I will leave Cheng Yu after I regain my memory? Will I remember the relationship with you for more than ten years? Will it favor you?"
"No." Jiang Xu said quickly, "I just don't want you to be deceived by Cheng Yu all the time. He is a liar, and he is too good at pretending."
Lin Anlan sneered, "Be modest, Jiang Xu, when it comes to pretending, you don't want to let it go? How good are you at pretending? You've kept it from me for so many years. If it wasn't for my memory loss, I wouldn't even know you went to see Cheng Feng. , you really have a close relationship with him, even if he hasn't raised you for a day, you still miss him."
"An An, I know it's wrong, I haven't seen him anymore."
"That's a pity, you want to be reunited with him so much, even if you want me to deceive Cheng Yu's feelings, you have to recognize him, so it's a pity not to see him like this?"
Jiang Xu said anxiously, "I was just talking nonsense for a while, I didn't do it on purpose, I didn't really want you to go."
"You are!" Lin Anlan said word by word, "You may be talking nonsense for a while, but you did it on purpose, you really wanted me to go, otherwise I would appear beside Cheng Yu and you would see me and Cheng Yu When we were together, why didn't you come to me, why didn't you persuade me to come back?!"
"You think I'm here for you, and you think I support you, that's why you let me stay by Cheng Yu's side, don't you?"
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Jiang Xu wanted to argue, but couldn't say it, he was right, he really thought so.
Lin Anlan looked at him disappointedly, "You really don't know me at all."
"I know you." Jiang Xu said, "How could I not know you?"
"What do you know about me?" Lin Anlan asked him back, "If you know me a little bit and care a little bit about me, you wouldn't say such things! You wouldn't think I would be willing to do such a thing for you!"
"Jiang Xu, in my life, what I hate most is deception, and what I hate more than deception is emotional deception! I thought you were the same as me, because you were emotionally hurt, and your mother didn't say a word when she left you. , did not leave anything, left you and ran away with others, because of her leaving, because of her leaving without saying goodbye, you are depressed, dejected, unhappy, you know this feeling, how dare you let me deceive others? Let others suffer the pain of such feelings?!"
Jiang Xu was stunned and did not speak.
"Cheng Yu didn't feel sorry for you, why did he suffer this kind of pain? It's not a gain and a loss, but it was fake from the beginning, never gained, always lost! Don't you think about yourself at this time? Your mother, but in the end, you are just like her, you only use your feelings to hurt people, but your mother hurts you, and you hurt a completely innocent person who has no mistakes and no one who is sorry for you! "
"You want to hurt people, and you want me to be your knife, and then you say that you know me? Am I just such a person in your heart who can use myself as a tool and hurt others at will?"
"You don't know me." Lin Anlan said solemnly, "You not only don't know me, you don't care about me, let alone love me."
"How can I not care about you?" Jiang Xu sat beside him, holding his arm and said, "Of course I care about you, the one I care about the most is you, you are my best friend, the one I trust the most. Man, how could I not care about you, I care about you, and I like you too."
Lin Anlan shook her head, "You don't care about me, and you don't like me either. Maybe I'm really important to you, but you care more about yourself, and you love yourself more."
"I do not."
"You have." Lin Anlan calmly said, "There are many people in this world who love me, my parents love me very much, Cheng Yu loves me very much, and some of my fans love me very much, but you are not, only you, you I don't love me as much as you say, you only love yourself, to you, everything about you is far more important than my joys, sorrows and sorrows, so you can say it, you don't care if I'm sad, so you think I Will do it because you want me to do it."
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Lin Anlan took his hand down, "That's it."
He sighed, stood up, and sat on the other side, "Jiang Xu, we have known each other for so many years, I was with you when your mother left, and you were with me when my parents left. , we have witnessed each other's growth and accompany each other through the troughs again and again."
"I once thought that we would be friends for life, that we could trust each other and support each other forever, but in the end, you wanted me to do a wounding knife for a father who never looked at you in the eye, maybe this is the The charm of time, time will turn the precious into the invaluable, and the precious into the insignificant. I am no longer the person you think is worth caring about, so you are unscrupulous towards me, and you don’t care about mine at all. feel."
"You do this kind of thing, do you still expect me to pretend that nothing happened, and continue to be good brothers and friends with you? How is that possible?" He smiled, "I don't trust you anymore, so we In between, it can only end here.”
Jiang Xu stared at him blankly, unbelievable.
"But don't worry, I'll release your WeChat account from the blacklist in the end, and we can get along as ordinary friends or colleagues when we meet, but I can't talk to you like I used to. Constrain you, remind you, just treat me as a normal friend, we can still meet to say hello and say hello to each other."