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When Lin Anlan woke up the next morning, Jiang Xu had already left, the rain had not stopped, it was a little cold in the house, and the weather was very suitable for eating hot pot.
He remembered that when he was with Cheng Yu before, he would eat a hot pot every time it rained.
It's a pity that he is the only one now, and he can only eat by himself.
Lin Anlan got out of bed, washed the vegetables, took out the pot and cooked a spicy bottom for herself.
He slowly put the dishes in, and suddenly remembered that when they ate hot pot for the first time, Cheng Yu gave him the green bamboo shoots, and he asked him in surprise, "I never told you about me before. Do you eat hot pot without green bamboo shoots?"
The green bamboo shoots in Cheng Yu's chopsticks fell on the table instantly, but he quickly hid his surprise and said in a relaxed tone that they had never eaten hot pot before, this was the first time.
He looks so calm, but he must be worried.
"It's really a master liar." Lin Anlan said softly.
When he lost his memory, he always thought that Cheng Yu was a small white flower, but now it looks more like a two-color flower with black inside.
Still, it's pretty cute.
He was eating hot pot, looking at the rain curtain outside the window, hesitating whether he wanted to see Cheng Yu today.
In fact, he shouldn't have gone to see him. When he saw him, he couldn't help but feel sorry for him. Many things that he thought were still important didn't seem to be that important anymore.
But if he doesn't see him, Cheng Yu will definitely feel sad again.
Lin Anlan felt that all the hesitations and hesitations in his life seemed to be used on Cheng Yu, and all the confusion seemed to be brought out by Cheng Yu.
If he just wanted to enjoy short-term pleasure and have some fun, then he should go to see Cheng Yu and be with him.
But if he wants to take this relationship seriously, he will inevitably think a lot more.
He is standing at the starting point of love, but looking at the end of love, all the things he has to experience in it - the gap between himself and Cheng Yu, his character, Cheng Yu's character, the relationship between them, and the Cheng family, Cheng Yu Feng, Jiang Xu, he all went through it in his mind.
He didn't like trouble the most in his life, but he knew very well that once he was with Cheng Yu, his troubles would never go away.
Jiang Xu is right in one sentence. The Cheng family cannot allow them to have no successor in their identity. Cheng Yu is the only son that Cheng Feng recognizes, and Cheng Feng is bound to ask him to have a child.
But if they were together, how could Cheng Yu have a biological child
Cheng Feng won't do anything to his son, he will only trouble himself and use himself.
And Jiang Xu would not want him and Cheng Yu to be together, and at that time, it would be entangled and troubled again and again.
But these are not the point. Although he is bored with external troubles, he can also solve them. In the final analysis, the problem is still with him.
What Cheng Yu fell in love with day after day, year after year, was the perfect him in his memory.
Having experienced love with Cheng Yu, the one who stayed by his side was himself in his best state without experiencing any setbacks and sufferings.
But he is not as perfect as Cheng Yu thought, nor is he the ideal self in the best state.
He is just the most ordinary person.
He was afraid that Cheng Yu would be disappointed when he approached, and he would prefer his appearance in his memory, and his optimistic and interesting appearance when he lost his memory.
He was also afraid that they would eventually break up.
Of course, when you are in love, you will break up. If you are in love together, you will separate when you are tired of it. It is normal to fall in love, break up, and fall in love again.
But Lin Anlan wasn't sure she could accept this kind of normality.
He has experienced the abandonment of his biological mother, the injury of his best friend, and the four people he once trusted in this world, two people stabbed him in the backhand.
The wound he was pierced by his biological mother finally healed, and before the scar disappeared, Jiang Xu made another cut.
Lin Anlan didn't understand why this happened
Of course he knew he wasn't wrong, but where did he go wrong? When he was a child, he obediently listened to his mother's words, and when he grew up, he did his best to Jiang Xu.
But they still hurt him. He couldn't understand that even though he knew he was right, he couldn't help but ask himself, is he not doing enough
Is he not good enough
So they all chose to give up on themselves, regardless of whether they were close relatives or not, whether they were friends who grew up together, they didn't care.
Is he not good enough
In his short life, there were very few people who had really given his feelings to him. He held his feelings carefully, for fear that he would be hurt by his feelings again, but he still suffered.
He doesn't want to be hurt anymore, he doesn't want to be terminated prematurely.
Every time, he stood there and sent his feelings away.
He sent away his family and his friendship. He watched his love approach, but he was afraid that he would also watch him leave.
If Cheng Yu prefers him who has amnesia, if Cheng Yu finds out that he is not what he remembers after being in contact for a while, if Cheng Yu breaks up with him one day.
What should he do
Of course he will agree, but he will probably completely lose the ability to accept love.
However, why did he kidnap the other party and demand that once the other party loves him, he must love him forever.
Breaking up is the right of every couple. The pain of breaking up is that as long as a person does not love, they can leave this relationship.
Falling in love requires the consent of two people, but breaking up only requires one person to have this idea.
Lin Anlan trusts Cheng Yu, but he doesn't trust himself.
He believed that Cheng Yu really liked him, he also believed that Cheng Yu really wanted to be with him, and he believed that Cheng Yu must have truly loved him for the past eight years.
But he didn't believe in himself, he didn't believe the real him could make Cheng Yu like him all the time.
Jiang Xu has been with him for more than ten years, thousands of days, and half a lifetime. They have experienced so much together. They have seen each other in the most frustrated and sad state. They have accompanied each other through the trough, but he still gave up. took him.
It is also true that they grew up together for more than ten years. It is also true that Jiang Xu studied at night before the college entrance examination, and wanted to be admitted to the same university as him after a few nights without sleep. Even when his father passed away last year, Jiang Xu pushed his job, and it was true that he was worried about being by his side.
He used to think that time is reliable, and only the feelings accumulated by time are trustworthy.
But later he discovered that time is the most unreliable. He will not only turn dislike into love, but also change love into dislike. He will not only promote you, but also separate you.
He doesn't want to be hurt by the people he trusts anymore, his wounds haven't healed, his mentality hasn't been adjusted yet, he shouldn't accept Cheng Yu's love at this time, it's unfair to Cheng Yu and irresponsible to himself.
Lin Anlan unconsciously sighed and ate the hot pot silently.
He ate and slept, and continued to hesitate whether to go to Cheng Yu's house.
Lin Anlan was awakened by a knock on the door. The knock on the door was not obvious at first, but then it became louder and louder. Lin Anlan sat up for unknown reasons, rubbed her eyes, and got out of bed.
He thought it was Jiang Xu, but at this time, it could only be Jiang Xu who came uninvited.
He didn't really want to open the door, but the other party kept knocking.
On rainy days, it always gets dark very early. It was only about 6 o'clock, and the sky was dark as if it was about to fall into the night.
Lin Anlan felt that maybe she should go see Cheng Yu and tell him that it's not that he doesn't like him, but that he doesn't want to start a new relationship now.
He wanted to adjust his mentality first, and stop doubting himself, so that he wouldn't accumulate too many feelings on Cheng Yu at that time, put pressure on him, and make him have no right to fall in love normally.
As he was thinking, the knock on the door rang again.
The other party seemed to insist, he walked over helplessly, trying to persuade Jiang Xu to leave.
However, when the door was opened, Lin Anlan was stunned. The person standing outside was not Jiang Xu, but Cheng Yu.
Cheng Yu was obviously wet, his clothes were a little wet, and his face was pale.
Lin Anlan was stunned involuntarily.
Cheng Yu looked at him, his eyebrows and eyes were moist, and his hair was wet. Because of the rain, his hair was black, which made his face even more white, and he seemed to be a little sick and weak.
"My boyfriend is gone," he looked at Lin Anlan and said softly, "I'm here to find him, may I ask, are you my boyfriend?"
Lin Anlan was stunned for a moment, and suddenly remembered the rainy night when he appeared at the door of Cheng Yu's house and saw him.
He was also soaked in the rain, stood outside the door, and asked him, "Excuse me, are you my boyfriend?"
Lin Anlan was speechless for a moment, he stretched out his hand to pull Cheng Yu, "Come in."
Cheng Yu didn't move, "I can't go into other people's houses casually. Are you my boyfriend? If you're not, my boyfriend will be angry if I go in."
Lin Anlan:…
Lin Anlan looked at him with an innocent face, her eyes full of clarity.
His right hand suddenly increased the strength and pulled Cheng Yu into the room.
"It's raining before you get better, don't you want to get better?" He said, and brought him a pair of slippers, "Go and take a hot bath."
Cheng Yu didn't dare to refuse, so he obediently changed his shoes and was taken into the bathroom by him.
Lin Anlan put bath water for him and let him stay in the bathroom of the bathroom by himself, while he went to find a pajamas for Cheng Yu.
He pushed open the bathroom door, Cheng Yu turned around, Lin Anlan was inexplicably embarrassed, hurriedly lowered his head, and put his clothes on the hanger in the bathroom.
"I got you pajamas, you'll change them later."
"Okay." Cheng Yu smiled, "Thank you, An An."
Lin Anlan didn't speak. The temperature in the bathroom was a little high, and his face was a little hot. He turned around and went out, found the cold medicine at home, and made him a bowl of ginger tea.
Now he doesn't have to worry about it anymore, Lin Anlan thought, since Cheng Yu has come to his house, he naturally doesn't need to go to Cheng Yu's house.
He took the ginger tea out, and after a while, Cheng Yu came out too.
"This pajamas are quite suitable." Cheng Yu looked at him and said.
Lin Anlan helped him get a hairdryer and handed it to him, "Blow your hair."
Cheng Yu sat on the sofa, blowing his hair meekly.
His hair was almost blown, and the ginger tea wasn't so hot anymore.
Lin Anlan pushed both the ginger tea and the medicine in front of him. Cheng Yu drank the ginger tea in one breath, then took the medicine again, and asked him with a bitter face, "Is there any sugar? This medicine is so bitter."
Lin Anlan smiled, feeling that he was rather squeamish.
He walked into his bedroom, took out a few candies from his coat pocket, walked out and handed them to Cheng Yu.
It was only when Cheng Yu quit smoking that he found out that he liked sugar. After quitting smoking, he fell in love with sugar, so he would often put a few sugars in his pocket and bag to prevent Cheng Yu from craving it again. I just didn't bring it myself.
Cheng Yu took it, tore off the candy wrapper and ate one, and said to him, "It's quite sweet."
"As long as you like it," Lin Anlan said.
Cheng Yu looked up at him, "I really like it, okay?"
Lin Anlan was stopped by what he said. He looked at Cheng Yu's burning eyes, was silent for a while, then changed the subject and asked, "Have you eaten yet?"
Cheng Yu shook his head.
"Then what do you want to eat?" Lin Anlan asked him.
"What do you want to eat?"
Lin Anlan looked at the rain curtain outside the window and said to him, "Is it okay to eat hot pot?"
"Okay." Cheng Yu had no opinion.
Lin Anlan re-cooked a pack of hot pot base and washed the dishes.
Cheng Yu wanted to help him, but Lin Anlan didn't let him move because he was sick, and only poured him a cup of hot water and persuaded him, "Drink more hot water."
Cheng Yu had to obediently hold a cup and drink water, watching him busy.
He actually felt that his illness was not serious. Originally, a cold was not a serious illness, especially since he was with Lin Anlan now, he felt that he was not sick at all, and he could even go downstairs for two laps at any time.
"Ah." Cheng Yu sneezed, and Lin Anlan looked back at him.
Cheng Yuchong smiled at him, well, he is still a little sick, but, being able to be by Lin Anlan's side and enjoying his care and care, this disease is also very happy.
Lin Anlan washed the vegetables and took them out, turned on the fire, and waited for the pot to open.
Cheng Yu looked at him and felt as if they had returned to the days when they were together before. On a rainy day, they stayed at home, sitting opposite each other, eating hot pot face to face.
It was raining outside the window. Although it was cold, he felt very warm. It seemed that as long as he was with Lin Anlan, he would not feel cold.
The pot opened, and Lin Anlan washed the beef rolls and vegetables in.
Cheng Yu also put some of his favorite dishes into the pot.
The two ate hot pot quietly, neither of them said much, nor asked each other anything.
After a meal, it was already past eight o'clock. Cheng Yu was afraid that Lin Anlan would drive him away. After he washed the pot, he immediately said, "I'm sleepy, can I sleep in your bedroom?"
"You're not going back?" Lin Anlan was surprised, "I'll take you home."
"My house has a power outage." Cheng Yu said without hesitation.
Lin Anlan:…
Lin Anlan really wanted to ask him, do you think I believe it
It wasn't very powerful to tell lies before, but now, it's so clumsy.
Lin Anlan did not expose him, but said helplessly, "Then you can stay."
He took Cheng Yu to the guest bedroom in his house, turned on the light, and said to him, "This is the room."
"Thank you." Cheng Yu said warmly.
"You rest, I'm going back to my room too." Lin Anlan didn't stop there, and went back to her bedroom.
He closed the door and sat on his bed with a headache, why did he leave Cheng Yu behind? !
He held his head, no matter how he thought about it, he felt that he shouldn't keep Cheng Yu. Didn't he think it all over, he made it clear to Cheng Yu and told him that he wanted to adjust his mentality before interacting with him
But why leave people behind
Lin Anlan sighed, and he said that he couldn't see Cheng Yu, and he could think clearly without seeing Cheng Yu. When he saw Cheng Yu, Cheng Yu showed a little bit of misery, and he couldn't be ruthless.
He lay on the bed, thinking about what Cheng Yu looked like when he just opened the door, thinking about his words, "My boyfriend is gone, I'm here to find him. Excuse me, are you my boyfriend?"
How could he do this, and he knows how to play scenario reproduction, but... Indeed, it's very useful.
Lin Anlan closed her eyes depressed, but the past days slowly appeared in her mind.
Except for Cheng Yu's words to lie to him, at other times, they were really happy.
So, how could he be willing to really ruthlessly drive him away
Lin Anlan wrapped the quilt tightly and lay helplessly on the bed.
He lay on the bed for a while before finally sitting up again, taking a shower, and then returning to the bed to prepare for sleep.
Cheng Yu saw that the light under the crack of his bedroom door was off, and guessed that he was going to sleep.
When he came this time, he was ready to be kicked out by him. He thought that if he was lucky, he should be able to see him and have a meal with him, but he did not expect that he would be lucky enough to be able to stay at his house.
Being able to stay means that Lin Anlan has softened his heart towards him.
And soft-hearted, it is the beginning of many feelings.
Cheng Yu was very happy, he looked at Lin Anlan's bedroom door, stood leaning against the door, walked out for a long time, and stood by his door, thinking that he was behind this door, and his heart was full of joy.
He did not disturb Lin Anlan, but stood quietly against the wall, then sat down against the wall and stayed at the place closest to him.
He felt that he was very lucky. When he lied to Lin Anlan, he prepared that Lin Anlan would never see him again in this life and hate him.
But now, he still has the opportunity to see him, eat with him, and live in his house.
He had the determination to die, but he survived the catastrophe, and there was still a chance to truly realize his wish.
He was so lucky, he was much luckier than he thought.
Cheng Yu lowered his head and smiled slightly.
Lin Anlan didn't fall asleep, he was a little thirsty, got out of bed to get a glass of water, but just opened the door, but saw Cheng Yu sitting by the door.
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Cheng Yu didn't seem to expect him to come out, surprise flashed in his eyes, and Lin Anlan looked at him puzzled.
Cheng Yu said honestly, "I want to be closer to you."
On the first day Lin Anlan lived in his house after losing his memory, he couldn't believe it and was overjoyed. He looked at Lin Anlan's bedroom door and stayed at the door of his bedroom all night.
He wanted to be closer to him, but he was afraid that it would be too far. As soon as he opened his eyes, Lin Anlan disappeared.
Lin Anlan listened to his words, bent down and supported his arm, "Get up, it's cold on the ground, your illness is not healed yet."
Cheng Yu stood up, Lin Anlan pulled him into his room, turned on the light, let him sit down on the bed, and said to him, "Let's talk, Cheng Yu."
Cheng Yu could only nod and ask him, "What do you want to talk about?"
Lin Anlan wanted to talk a lot, but very little. He was silent for a long time before he said, "Cheng Yu, you are fine, as I said before, but my current state is not suitable to be with you. ."
"Why?" Cheng Yu was puzzled.
"Do you like me when I lost my memory?" Lin Anlan asked him.
Cheng Yu nodded, "Of course."
Lin Anlan smiled, his smile was very light, and he said, "I like it too, but that's not the real me, my real character, and it's not that good."
Cheng Yu didn't think so, "You are very good, no matter what time it is."
"That's the illusion in your memory." Lin Anlan said, "You haven't approached me at all, and have had in-depth contact with me. I only live in your memory, and I'm naturally good."
"But I've known you for so many years, so many years, I think I know you somewhat."
"You said it too, how much is it," Lin Anlan said, "You know little."
Cheng Yu felt that something was wrong, but he didn't know how to justify it.
Lin Anlan lowered her head, her eyebrows were gentle, and he said, "My current state of mind is not very good. If we fall in love, it will be unfair to you, and you will suffer a lot for no reason. So, I think we..."
"I can." Cheng Yu interrupted him, "I'm willing to bear it, and I don't think it's unfair. Your mentality is not good. I can accompany you to adjust slowly. It doesn't mean that your mentality is not good. We're going to separate."
Cheng Yu was really fed up with the days of being apart from him. He didn't spend the time together. He was willing to be unrequited or unrequited love. He had gone through eight years alone, and he was happy but painful.
But now, he has experienced the time he spent with Lin Anlan, gained and lost, he is unwilling to bear it, and he does not want to bear it either.
"People can't always have a good mentality. The worse they are, the more they need someone to accompany me, right? If you don't like me, then I can change my shortcomings and try to make you like me, but if you don't like me If you like me, then I can bear everything, and I am willing to bear it. The last thing I don’t want to bear is your departure. Compared with your departure, I can accept everything else.”
What he said was sincere and sincere, instantly disturbing Lin Anlan's mood.
"What's wrong with you?" Cheng Yu asked him, "Is it because I lied to you?"
Lin Anlan shook her head.
Cheng Yu was puzzled, "Why, tell me, can I help you?"
Lin Anlan looked up at him and looked at him quietly for a long time before asking him, "Cheng Yu, what do you like about me?"
He had asked this question many times, and every time, Cheng Yu couldn't give him a specific answer, he could only say, "I like you as a person, no matter when, I like you as a person."
"Then what do you like about me? There are always specific conditions for a person's liking, character, thinking, appearance. Which one do you like?"
"I like them all." Cheng Yu didn't hesitate.
Lin Anlan sighed, he felt that Cheng Yu was really powerful, he could always express his love with confidence, and would never flinch, he was much stronger than himself.
"When did you know that I was in an orphanage when I was a child? Did you know that I was adopted by my father, not his biological child, or the child of his relatives?" he asked.
Cheng Yu didn't expect that he would suddenly ask this, he was stunned for a moment, and replied, "When you went to the orphanage after graduation, you went with Xiao Qiao, it was the first time you acted alone with a girl, so I am very I was curious, so I asked people to check your relationship, and they knew your background."
"But I didn't tell others, and I didn't check other people. I found out that you are friends from the orphanage, so I stopped checking."
Lin Anlan nodded, "That's it."
Cheng Yu looked at him, not understanding what he meant.
"Since you know that I was adopted, you should also know that I entered the orphanage because my mother threw it at the door of the orphanage."
Cheng Yu nodded, "Xiao Qiao told me."
"She wants me to take good care of you," he said.
Lin Anlan smiled, very gentle, he turned to look at Cheng Yu, his eyes were candid, "If today, I was born in the most ordinary family, without this experience, and grew up at home as healthy as all ordinary people. Big, then I will stay with you without hesitation, because you are very good, and I am very happy with you."
"But, I have such an experience."
However, Jiang Xu opened the scar and showed it to him again.
"I am the one who lost my memory, the one who didn't have this experience, the one I hope to grow up like an ordinary person, so I live a very relaxed and optimistic life, I dare to accept your liking, and I dare to like you, but Now, my memory is restored, and I remember a lot, so I dare not be with you."
"I'm afraid that I will pile up too many feelings on you, that I will make your relationship less beautiful, that it will be embarrassing when we break up, that you think the person you have liked for eight years is not worthy of your liking at all. So long."
"I know that many of my thoughts are not very right, very negative, and redundant, but I can't control it, so I think I should adjust my mentality, and when I adjust it, I can be with you, that way, you don't There will be burdens, and you will not be under pressure. We can talk about the simplest relationship like ordinary lovers. Is that okay?"
Cheng Yu shook his head, he looked at Lin Anlan, unexpectedly rejected him and said, "No."
Lin Anlan was shocked and looked at him suspiciously. He felt that this was the best solution. He agreed to Cheng Yu and gave himself time to adjust his mentality.
Best of both worlds, isn't it great
"You don't need to adjust your mentality." Cheng Yu said to him, "I don't know what you are afraid of, but An An, if you feel abandoned because your mother didn't want you back then, you want to protect yourself , then, we can get married when you see fit and build a new home, right?"
"In this life, there will be two homes. One is the home where you were born. As a child, you have no way to choose your own parents. You can only bear the love or pain that your parents give you. But there is another one, it's you. The future home with your lover, you can choose your lover, and then build the home you want."
He held Lin Anlan's hand and said to him seriously and patiently, "You can choose me, we can be together forever, I don't want to break up with you, and I won't break up with you either. Is it unfair for me to have so many feelings on me? I have liked you for so long, all my love is on you, even if you put all your feelings on me, I will not feel oppressed and Stress, I just feel like my feelings are responding and I'm just happy about it."
"My relationship was not perfect until August last year, because I was the only one in this relationship, and you won't come, no matter how I wait for you, you won't come, until August you come, I love is perfect."
"If you think that you who amnesia is the best you should be, then let's work together to make you look like that? When we get married and we have a new home, you will be the same. It is equivalent to returning to the beginning, when you were born in a family. You treat it as a new beginning, do what you like in the way you like, and grow in the direction you want. This time, Your family is your choice, and you can be exactly who you want to be."
He approached Lin Anlan and looked at him tenderly, "You don't need to adjust your mentality, just follow your current mentality and do what you want to do. You have the right to make mistakes, I allow it. All your mistakes, so, you don't need to carefully self-judgment and self-correction, you can do what you think, right or wrong, positive or negative, just do it boldly, I I like you, I like you no matter what kind of personality you have at any time, as long as it is you, I will like you."
"We can talk about a relationship that presupposes marriage, not breaking up, just getting married."
Lin Anlan listened to him, and the emotion in his eyes slowly leaked out, his eyes were sore and hot, he looked at Cheng Yu, his eyes were fragile like glass that would shatter at the slightest touch.
Cheng Yu approached him, almost touching his lips.
"Can you?" he asked. "Would you like to be my boyfriend? On the premise of marrying me one day."
Lin Anlan wanted to say something, but his throat was sore and he couldn't open his mouth. He unconsciously lowered his eyelashes, and his eyes were full of water vapor.
Cheng Yu pressed his forehead and gently coaxed him, "Can't you? Don't you mean I'm fine? I'm so good, can't I?"
Lin Anlan shook his head.
Cheng Yu said with a smile, "Then just give me a kiss, if you give me a kiss, I'll know you're willing."
Lin Anlan lowered her head, not daring to look at him.
Cheng Yu took him into his arms, he thought, he had probably read it wrong before.
He always thought that Lin Anlan was very confident, and what he showed was always confident and proud. His grades were excellent, he was popular at school, he had a successful career, and he didn't seem to care even if he lost his memory.
He feels that he is very confident and strong, has nothing to fear, and only lives according to his own heart.
However, he has shadows in the end.
He already had a memory when he was abandoned, so after he lost his memory, even if he dreamed of this memory in a dream, he would be awakened by the memory, hug him and ask him why
He has always been excellent, he was always at the top of the class during his school days, he made few mistakes, and he lived rationally and soberly.
But how can people not make mistakes? How can one be always sane
It's not that he won't, but he doesn't dare.
He stayed in the orphanage for a year, and he had a rare new family. He carefully maintained his appearance as a good child. He worked hard to keep his grades in the forefront forever. He wanted to stay in his new home forever. So he tries to be the best at everything.
Over time, it has become a habit. When he finds out that his adoptive parents are good people and won't abandon him, then he will have become accustomed to living wisely and soberly without making mistakes.
How many times has he been like this time, judging his own mentality and behavior in his heart, and then finding that he is not good enough, not correct enough, so he silently corrects it, doesn't tell anyone, doesn't say anything, and then meet again , he is still the excellent Lin Anlan without any problems.
His An An is far more insecure than he imagined.
He tries hard to take care of others and gives them the strongest sense of security, but he is the one who needs security the most.
Especially after his adoptive parents left.
Cheng Yu hugged him distressedly, and he said, "It's okay, I'm very patient, I can come and ask you every day, one day you're willing, just kiss me and I'll know."
Lin Anlan leaned on his shoulder and did not speak.
He didn't dare to speak, he was afraid that as soon as he opened his mouth, tears would come out, and he was even more afraid that as soon as he opened his mouth, he would directly agree to him.
He thought that Cheng Yu would say a lot, but he didn't think that Cheng Yu would say this.
No one ever said this to him, no one ever told him that you can make mistakes, you don't need to self-judgment and self-correction, you just have to be bold and do what you want to do.
This half of Lin Anlan's life has been an extremely excellent half of his life. In school, he was a student with a scholarship. In the entertainment industry, he was a popular actor with both popularity and acting skills.
Everyone thinks that he is very powerful, but behind his greatness is the carefulness and prudence of his every step.
He has lived as a child of someone else's family since he was a child. He is calm and rational, and can analyze his own problems and correct them.
Ten-year-old Jiang Xu would cry because Jiang Liying didn't buy him toys, but ten-year-old Lin Anlan would seriously reflect on whether his parents were away and whether it was bad for him to watch cartoons for half an hour.
The year in the orphanage made him grow rapidly. When children of the same age were still making trouble for no reason and felt that he was the little master of the world, Lin Anlan had already learned to self-examine and correct himself in order to stay in the Lin family forever. .
When he grew up later, he was used to arming himself with reason.
He has lived like this for half his life, so much that he almost forgets that he is only in his twenties, and he is still the most beautiful age, an age where mistakes can be made.
And Cheng Yu allowed all his mistakes.
Lin Anlan leaned on his shoulder, feeling for the first time that there might really be a so-called destiny in the world.
Jiang Xu, who has been with him for more than ten years, has not seen the irrationality of his rationality, but Cheng Yu has discovered it.
He had only been with him for five months, and for the past eight years, he just watched from a distance, but he saw it.
So he said, they can have a new home, a home that he can choose independently, he can choose his own family, and then be reborn in this family, and grow up freely in the way he wants most.
This is the most beautiful love story Lin Anlan has heard, a scene he has never thought of, and he yearns for it.
He finally took off all his rational armor at this moment, and kissed Cheng Yu's profile softly and impulsive and emotionally.
If he is still willing to try to trust one person in this world, then that person must be Cheng Yu.
He doesn't really believe in love, but he is willing to believe in Cheng Yu's love.