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"Xiaolan, I don't want it anymore, don't go, just be by my side."
He said, hugging Lin Anlan.
Lin Anlan resisted and pushed him, "What are you doing, how can you regret it? Now that you regret it, your previous efforts are not in vain."
"I do not care."
"I care." Lin Anlan finally pushed him away, "I've worked so hard, I can't let my previous efforts become sunk costs, so this drama has to continue."
"Are you testing me?" Jiang Xu looked at him with disappointed eyes, "I gave up, I really gave up, I don't want it anymore, I've had enough!"
"I've had enough of these days, I don't want you to be like this, and I don't want us to be like this. It's clear that you care about me the most, and it's only you that Cheng Yu will never get, I don't want him to be complacent. Now, I don't want you to leave me again, Xiaolan... "
He grabbed Lin Anlan's shoulder again, "I gave up, I really gave up, you're right, I'm wrong, I'm so wrong. I'll listen to you in the future, please don't take care of me. Yu, you go and tell him that everything is fake, you just lied to him to go to his side, and you come back to me, okay?"
Lin Anlan looked at the pain and hope in his eyes, and for a moment, he almost believed that what he said was true.
But only for a moment.
He calmly and indifferently stared at the person in front of him, and after a long while, he said solemnly, "Not good."
"Jiang Xu, is the show over? Then I won't accompany you anymore. I won't tell Cheng Yu about this. I like him and I won't leave him."
Jiang Xu's eyes widened instantly, as if he was stimulated.
"You like him? How could you possibly like him?! How could you like him?!"
"He's my boyfriend, why can't I like him!"
"He is not!"
"Enough, I know it myself, my boyfriend is not your boyfriend, I don't need you to deny it!"
Jiang Xu shook his head, "You can't do this, you promised me, you won't have anything to do with him, you promised me!"
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"That's all in the past."
"It's the same now."
"Impossible." Lin Anlan said coldly.
Hearing the coldness in his words, Jiang Xu's hands trembled uncontrollably.
"No, it's impossible, you wouldn't talk to me like that."
"Did Cheng Yu say something about me? So you misunderstood me? I knew that he must have provoked our relationship."
He said, let go of his hand and prepared to leave.
Lin Anlan grabbed him, "What are you doing?"
"I'm going to find him, but I want to see what he said! What did he do to you behind my back!"
"You're crazy." Lin Anlan dragged him back helplessly, "Let's toss less. Who can stand it like this every day."
"You think I'm annoying?" Jiang Xu looked at him blankly, "You also hate me?"
Lin Anlan sighed, "Go back."
"You think I'm annoying." Jiang Xu repeated.
His voice was light, and he asked, "You don't want to care about me, and you don't want to care about me anymore?"
Lin Anlan lowered her head, "No one can take care of you for the rest of your life. You can only be responsible for yourself in one's life."
"So, you don't want to worry about me anymore?"
Lin Anlan looked up at him, and saw that his eyes were full of sadness.
"I can't take care of you forever." He said truthfully.
Jiang Xu shook his head, he looked at Lin Anlan madly, but he couldn't see the warmth and tenderness he used to be.
He said, "You've changed."
"People change."
"But you were not like this before. You used to care about me very much. You said that you will be with me, always with me, and you will not want me."
Lin Anlan felt that she started to have a headache again, but this time, it was not only irritability, but also a physiological headache.
"Is it just because of Cheng Yu? Is it because you have been in everything for a few months?! It's only a few months, so you have to favor him and leave me?"
Lin Anlan pressed his temple, "You hate him too much."
"How could I not hate him!" Jiang Xu said angrily, "He was born with everything, but what about me? What do I have?! Since he was born, why would you give birth to me! I would rather never come to this world, I never knew of his existence, and I don't want to be like this, living with nothing!"
He looked at Lin Anlan with bleak eyes, "I only have you, I only have you, and that's all, is he going to take it away? There are so many people in this world, and so many people like him, why is he just staring at him? Don't let you go!"
Lin Anlan vaguely felt that there was something in his words, but he didn't react for a while.
He just retorted, "I am an independent individual, I don't belong to anyone, let alone you, there is no such thing as taking it away."
"Besides, why do you want to compare with him? He was born with everything, that's because his life is good, why do you have to compare with him? There are so many people in this world that are worse than you, why can't you compare with those people, Instead of holding onto Cheng Yu and not letting go?"
"What are you talking about, Xiaolan?" Jiang Xu looked at him suspiciously, "Why should I compare with those people, who are they, do they know me? Why should I compare with them?"
"Why can't I compare with Cheng Yu? Just because I have nothing, am I not even qualified to compare with him? Obviously, half of what he has should belong to me!"
Lin Anlan looked at him in surprise.
His temples hurt badly, but his mind seemed to clear up.
He seemed to think of something, seemed to think of the younger Jiang Xu.
"Is it him?" The young Jiang Xu in his memory looked at his teenage self in panic and anticipation, "He looks exactly the same as in the photo, Cheng Yu's surname is Cheng, so he must be Cheng. It's him, right? Xiaolan, he is my father, right?"
He was overjoyed and looked at himself in his memory with hope.
"No." He heard himself reply, "That's Cheng Yu's father, not your father, go home."
"But... he looks exactly like the picture."
"Really? You read it wrong."
Lin Anlan was horrified and looked at the person in front of her in disbelief.
He looked seriously at Jiang Xu's eyebrows, at his high nose bridge, at his lips and chin.
He remembered the first time he saw Jiang Xu after he lost his memory, and jokingly told Cheng Yu that they were somewhat similar in a certain angle.
I also remembered that night, Cheng Yu hugged him and told him that his father had many lovers, some lovers became mistresses after being with him for a long time, and some mistresses were unlucky and had children. They thought that if they had children, they could marry his father, but his father was the kind of person who cared about children.
Therefore, those mistresses who insisted on having children for him were abandoned by him.
Lin Anlan understood, he understood everything.
"You and Cheng Yu are..." He didn't go on, as if he couldn't speak.
Jiang Xu did not speak.
But Lin Anlan already has the answer.
Everything is clear at this moment, why does Jiang Xu hate Cheng Yu so much, why does he say that unless he is reborn once, they can reconcile, why does he always want to compare with Cheng Yu, why, why, he will not let go For your friend's self, contact Cheng Yu.
Because he and Cheng Yu are half-brothers, his mother was abandoned by Cheng Yu's father together with him, so he is jealous of Cheng Yu who has his father, so he hates Cheng Yu.
Lin Anlan took a step back and leaned against the wall.
This was something he didn't expect, and he never expected that Jiang Xu and Cheng Yu would have such a relationship.
He never thought that his life would be so bloody.
However, Cheng Yu was innocent.
"You shouldn't hate him, you should hate your father, it's not Cheng Yu who told him not to want you, it's your father who doesn't want you."
"Cheng Yu is also a victim."
"He's a victim, am I not?" Jiang Xu pointed to himself and asked him, "He is at least the eldest young master of the Cheng family, and Cheng Feng's son, but what about me? Whose son am I? Who am I? 's child?! He is injured, he can go to Cheng Feng, and Cheng Feng will solve it for him, but what about me? Who can I go to? I have no one but you!"
"You... Where's your mother?" Lin Anlan asked unconsciously.
Jiang Xu was stunned for a moment, he seemed to have heard something shocking and unbelievable, "What are you asking me, Xiaolan?"
Lin Anlan didn't speak.
Jiang Xu approached him, looked at him seriously, stared at him closely, and asked him word by word, "What did you just ask me?"
Lin Anlan didn't dare to ask again, he vaguely realized that the sentence he couldn't help just now seemed to be the last sentence he should have asked.
There was a moment of silence in the air.
Jiang Xuruo tentatively said, "Xiaolan, what was the name of the woman I told you when I entered the door?"
Lin Anlan:…
Just as Lin Anlan was thinking about how to fool her, she heard a knock on the door. He hurried over and opened the door at a lightning-quick speed.
It was indeed Cheng Yu outside the door.
Seeing that his face was not very good, Cheng Yu asked with concern, "What's wrong?"
Lin Anlan glanced into the house calmly, Cheng Yu followed his eyes and looked in, and saw Jiang Xu was glaring at him.
He was not surprised at all, walked into the room, closed the door, and said calmly, "Why are you here again."
"Nothing to do with you."
After Jiang Xu finished speaking, he looked directly at Lin Anlan, "Xiaolan, haven't you answered my question just now?"
"You're so annoying." Lin Anlan changed the subject, "Why don't you go, you should go."
"No hurry, I'll leave after you tell me the answer."
"Are you threatening me?" Lin Anlan asked back, "If I don't tell you, you won't leave?"
"Of course not, I just want to know an answer."
"Then what if I don't want to talk?" he said deliberately, "I hate people talking to me like this."
Although Cheng Yu didn't know what Jiang Xu asked, it was obvious that Lin Anlan didn't want to answer.
He pulled Lin Anlan to sit beside him, and said to Jiang Xu, "Go back, it's so late, do you still want to spend the night here?"
"Why not?" Jiang Xu sat down opposite him, "You can, why can't I?"
"Of course." Cheng Yu smiled, "If you insist on staying here, then I will take An An to my room."
Cheng Yu smiled, "You're not willing to go to my room too."
"Who cares about your room!"
"So you should go back."
Jiang Xu looked at him with jealousy in his eyes, but compared to this, he was more curious about Lin Anlan's current situation, why he asked such a question just now.
Jiang Xu looked directly at Lin Anlan who was not far away, and Lin Anlan turned his head, unwilling to meet him.
Jiang Xu's heart sank for a while, and he planned to think carefully about what had happened recently. He always felt that the current Lin Anlan seemed a little different from before.
only…
Jiang Xu couldn't help but look at Lin Anlan again, he didn't want to go back.
He was afraid that he could not bear it, and he was more afraid of being alone. He wanted Lin Anlan to accompany him, and wanted Lin Anlan to watch him and stop him.
But now, Lin Anlan turned a blind eye to him, let alone accompanied him.
"Xiaolan, are you really unwilling to accompany me?"
"I don't want to."
Jiang Xu smiled bitterly, "You would have been willing before."
Lin Anlan didn't say anything because she was afraid that she would say too much and make mistakes.
Cheng Yu urged, "After that, you can go now."
Jiang Xu stood up, finally glanced at Lin Anlan, and walked out disappointed.
Lin Anlan breathed a sigh of relief when he saw him leave, "He seems to be suspicious of me?"
Cheng Yu was surprised, "What's going on?"
"Before you came back, we quarreled for a while, and I didn't pay attention, and asked him 'what about your mother', I shouldn't have asked this, we grew up together, I should know his mother's situation for sure, but at that time I was so surprised that I immediately asked, and I tried to remedy it later, but there was no way."
Cheng Yu listened quietly, was silent for a moment, and persuaded him, "It's okay, the paper can't wrap the fire, he will always know, as long as you don't believe his nonsense."
Lin Anlan vowed, "Of course I won't believe it, I only believe in me and you."
Cheng Yu nodded and hugged him gently.
He hugged tightly, and behind Lin Anlan could not see, his eyes were as dark as the sea.
This day will come after all, but it doesn't matter, Cheng Yu thought, he has earned so many more days, and the next day will be a day if he can earn it.
He was already mentally prepared, and he could accept it.
The wind was blowing violently outside the window, making the leaves on the trees rustled. Cheng Yu kissed Lin Anlan and felt the tranquility before the storm.