ninety-seven:
"You lied to me?" Lin Anlan whispered, "Did you lie to me?"
"I'm sorry." Cheng Yu was almost speechless, "An An, I didn't mean it, I didn't want to lie to you, but I..."
"but I… "
His mouth opened and closed, closed and opened, and he had never felt so bitter in his throat, and he said, "But I, I love you."
Lin Anlan shook her head, of course he knew that Cheng Yu liked him, but that was not the reason.
Wishful thinking is never a reason.
"Did I love you? Did I love you before I lost my memory? Did I love you?" he asked.
Cheng Yu opened his mouth, and the air rushed into his throat, cutting his throat sore, "I don't love it."
Lin Anlan's tears flowed down instantly.
Cheng Yu panicked, "I'm sorry An An, it's my fault, please don't cry."
He anxiously apologized to Lin Anlan. He reached out his hand to help Lin Anlan wipe the tears from the corner of his eyes, but Lin Anlan stood up and avoided his touch.
He wiped the tears from his eyes by himself, raised his head, and gave a grand smile, "I see, thank you for not lying to me this time, both of us were at fault in the past, and my fault was not my fault. You should come to you, you shouldn't knock on your door, you lied to me by mistake, lied to me. You are at fault, and I am at fault, in the end, neither of us did a good job, so now it's said It's clear, I should go back too."
After he finished speaking, Chong Yu smiled again, and turned to leave.
Cheng Yu followed and saw that he went back to his bedroom and started to pack his luggage.
Cheng Yu rushed up and asked him tremblingly, "Are you leaving? Are you going back?"
"I should go back."
"Why?" Cheng Yu looked at him pleadingly, "Can't you continue to live with me? What's wrong with me? Tell me, I can change it."
Lin Anlan shook her head, "You did a good job, but I shouldn't be here."
"Why shouldn't you be here, you've lived here for half a year, and you're clearly here now."
Lin Anlan didn't speak, just took the clothes and stuffed them into the suitcase.
Cheng Yu held his hand, "You don't want to be like this, An An, I beg you, you can beat me or scold me, but don't leave me, okay? You said that you will always be by my side. Yes, have you forgotten? You promised me personally, it's in this room."
Of course Lin Anlan didn't forget it, but what's the use of a promise based on false lies
The foundation is crooked, and the promise can never come true.
"An An, I like you, I really like you, don't you know?"
"I beg you, except this, I promise you everything, okay? Don't you go, okay?"
Lin Anlan looked up at him, he saw the sadness in Cheng Yu's eyes, and his heart was full of grief, "Cheng Yu, that's all fake, everything was fake at the beginning, what can be true of what you said? Woolen cloth."
"As long as you want, it can come true."
"But I don't want to." Lin Anlan said, "How can you make me want to, how can you make me accept that the lover I thought was not my lover at all! You are not my boyfriend, but I thought you were, I thought you were Always!"
Lin Anlan looked at him with red eyes, and he said, "Haven't you thought about what will happen when I know the truth? Aren't you afraid that I won't be able to bear it!"
During the time when he lost his memory, besides himself, he only believed in Cheng Yu.
He believed in Cheng Yu so much, he felt that he was the only one in the world who couldn't lie to him, but, from the beginning to the end, it was only Cheng Yu who lied to him.
Lin Anlan couldn't accept it. This was too much of a shock to him. He had been with Cheng Yu for half a year, and he already regarded Cheng Yu as his boyfriend. He even had Cheng Yu in his future plans. .
However, all this is false.
He thought he fell in love with Cheng Yu again after losing his memory, but they were not lovers at all.
He just took advantage of his amnesia to make himself his lover.
He doesn't love Cheng Yu, he never loved him before he lost his memory.
Lin Anlan's heart seemed to be twisted together. It was the first time he experienced love and learned to love someone for the first time. He was very excited and very happy, but in the end, it was all fake.
His boyfriend is a liar at all.
He stuffed his belongings into the suitcase, his mind was messed up and his mood was so messed up, he just packed a few things and wanted to close the suitcase and leave.
Cheng Yu held down the suitcase and looked at him sadly, "Don't go, okay? Don't go, An An, don't go."
Lin Anlan lifted the suitcase, Cheng Yu took his hand, "Let's talk, there must be some way to solve all this, there must be some, right?"
"How to solve it?" Lin Anlan asked him, "What can be done?"
Cheng Yu was speechless, there was no way to solve it, there was no way.
He lied to Lin Anlan, and he made a relationship that didn't exist. The best solution is to make this relationship disappear again, but Cheng Yu couldn't do it, and he couldn't say it.
"What do you want? I promise you everything, okay? Tell me, how can you not be angry or leave, I can promise you anything, really, don't go, An An, I beg you, you do not go."
Tears in Lin Anlan's eyes slowly blurred his eyes. Looking at the person in front of him, he felt that Cheng Yu was about to cry too.
He didn't even know for a while, which of them was more pitiful.
"I want to be calm," he said. "I want to be on my own for a while and think about it."
Cheng Yu shook his head, "I can be calm here, right? Can I go? I'll go somewhere else, don't go, can I leave?"
"I want to go home."
Cheng Yu didn't accept it, "This can also be your home. You stay here, don't worry, I won't disturb you, and I won't come back until you are willing to see me."
"Cheng Yu." Lin Anlan's tone was full of helplessness. He used all his strength to restrain his tears from falling, and restrained himself to explain this matter calmly and rationally.
"I shouldn't have been here in the first place, I made a mistake, so I should leave, you understand?"
"I don't understand." Cheng Yu looked at him with red eyes, "I only know that you won't come back if you leave."
He looked at Lin Anlan with a look of sadness he had never seen before, "You were the one who appeared first, you asked me if I was your boyfriend, An An, I'm a person, I'm just an ordinary person, and I'm also selfish, I It's also selfish, I can't say no in that situation, I can't let you leave you understand?"
"Why can't you just make mistakes like this? Obviously we are very happy together, obviously you can like me too, right?"
"What I said, I know it's wrong, I won't lie to you again, I can promise anything you want, and I can correct anything you don't like. Why can't you give me a chance?"
"Except the sentence that lied to you at the beginning is false, I have never lied to you. I really like you. In this world, no one will like you more than me. I love you the most in the world, I can guarantee that I must be the one who loves you the most, so why can't you look at me?"
Lin Anlan's tears fell silently.
He pulled up the suitcase and walked out, Cheng Yu took his hand, Lin Anlan didn't speak, and pulled out hard.
But when he twitched for a minute, Cheng Yu clenched it tightly, and Lin Anlan couldn't, so he had to say, "Let go."
"An An." Cheng Yu called to him softly, he looked at Lin Anlan, desperate, looking forward, eager, using his last strength, trying hard to keep him, "Don't go."
However, Lin Anlan rejected him.
"Let go." Lin Anlan looked back at him, "Cheng Yu, you hurt me."
Cheng Yu hurriedly let go of his hand and looked at his wrist worriedly.
Lin Anlan didn't stop, pulling the suitcase and walking towards the living room.
He walked to the door and changed his shoes at the entrance.
Cheng Yu chased after him, and suddenly and without warning, asked him, "An An, what did you call me?"
Lin Anlan felt sad for a moment, his bent waist was almost unable to straighten up, his back was to Cheng Yu, his eyes were full of sadness.
Cheng Yu asked lightly, like duckweed, "What do you call me?"
Lin Anlan was speechless, he knew the correct answer to this sentence, and he finally understood why Cheng Yu was always obsessed with this title.
Because he was never his boyfriend, that's why he wanted to have this identity.
His worries are not because he chased him for too long, but because he knows that once he regains his memory, then all these will disappear.
Lin Anlan didn't answer him and pressed the door handle.
Cheng Yu looked at his back and asked stubbornly, "What do you call me?"
But this time, he was destined to not wait for the answer he wanted.
Lin Anlan pressed the door handle, and there was a slight noise from the door.
Cheng Yu heard the sound of opening the door, and asked him resignedly, "Will you come back?"
Lin Anlan didn't speak.
Cheng Yu whispered, "You will not come back, you will never come back again."
Lin Anlan's hand that opened the door paused, but she didn't press it again for a while.
Cheng Yu looked at him silently, like a dead plant, lifeless.
Lin Anlan pushed open the door, released the door handle, and walked out.
The moment the door was closed, Cheng Yu seemed to lose his strength and leaned against the wall.
The day came, later than he expected, but earlier than he expected.
He slid down the wall and sat on the ground, buried his head in his knees, and was silent.
Lin Anlan got out of the elevator and looked back at the floor of Cheng Yu's house. His eyes were distant and long. He retracted his gaze and walked forward silently.
Small snowflakes began to fall from the sky, fluttered, and fell on pedestrians, and disappeared in an instant.
Lin Anlan reached out to stop the car, sat up, and reported her home address.
He looked out of the car window, the night was quiet, snowflakes danced under the street lights, he opened the car window, reached out to take one, and there were tears in his palm.
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In the past, I went, willow and willow Yiyi, now I come to think, rain and snow are falling.
Lin Anlan closed the car window. When he came, it wasn't Yang Liu Yiyi, but it was pouring rain. Now that he left, it was really rain and snow.
It seemed that it was indeed time for him to go.
He leaned back on the seat with a heavy heart.