Ninety-eight:
Lin Anlan unconsciously wrapped his coat tightly, but suddenly felt as if he had touched something. He looked down and found that he was still wearing the ring that Cheng Yu gave him.
The ring is not big, but a small one. The tulips on it are exquisitely carved, low-key and luxurious, just like Cheng Yu, who is affectionate and forbearing.
Lin Anlan watched quietly for a long time, put her hand in her pocket, and did not take off the ring.
Cheng Yu was right, he could fall in love with him.
Their beginning was a mistake, it was Cheng Yu's mistake of deliberately deceiving him, but in this mistake, his feelings for Cheng Yu were real.
He likes him.
But just because I like it, it makes it even more uncomfortable.
Lin Anlan clenched her ring-wearing hand, looking at the dark night outside the window with mixed feelings.
When the taxi stopped again, it was very late.
Lin Anlan stood in her house, both strange and familiar.
For half a year, he almost lived in Cheng Yu's house. The house he used to live in had become a familiar but unfamiliar place.
Like, some people in the address book.
Lin Anlan rolled up his sleeves and cleaned the room for a long time, until he was tired, and then he changed the bed sheet and quilt and lay in.
He had several dreams, and the dreams were messy and complicated. He dreamed that Cheng Yu asked him if you don't love me? I also dreamed that my former self told my present self that you didn’t love him in the first place.
Lin Anlan didn't sleep well, and woke up at 7:00 in the morning.
He sat on the bed for a while, got out of bed, and resumed cleaning from last night's work.
When the windows in the house were clear and there was nothing to clean, he sat down on the sofa again and ordered a takeaway for himself.
Jiang Xu's text message came at this time.
He received a call like Lin Anlan yesterday, how could he not care, after hesitating for a night, he still chose to send a text message to Lin Anlan.
Jiang Xu: [How are you, Xiaolan? Are you still at Cheng Yu's house? I'll go see you okay? 】
Lin Anlan thought for a while, then replied to him: [I'm in my house, come here. 】
He wanted to ask Jiang Xu something, and he wanted to confirm with Jiang Xu about some things.
Jiang Xu arrived quickly, and was obviously familiar with this address.
Lin Anlan had just finished eating and was sitting on the sofa eating fruit.
Jiang Xu didn't expect happiness to come so quickly, it was only a few days before the New Year, and Cheng Yu's true face was seen through by Lin Anlan, which was gratifying.
"Xiaolan." He sat in front of Lin Anlan, full of righteous indignation, "I just said that Cheng Yu is not a good thing, he is a liar, he has been lying to you all the time."
Lin Anlan took a sip of tea and looked at him, "Have you forgotten what you said before?"
Jiang Xu was a little startled, "Huh?"
"You said that you will never speak ill of him in front of me again. You admit that you were wrong, and you should be ashamed of him."
Jiang Xu: …
"He lied to you, why are you helping him?" Jiang Xu complained dissatisfiedly.
Lin Anlan was very calm, "One code is another code, he may be sorry for me, but he has nothing to regret you, you are not qualified to say anything about him."
"Why didn't he feel sorry for me? If he hadn't said that I was wrong in front of you, how could you be angry with me."
"Am I angry with you because of him?" Lin Anlan looked directly at Jiang Xu, "Say it again, why am I angry with you?"
Jiang Xu: …
"Say it." Lin Anlan asked him, "You kept saying that you knew you were wrong before, but now you tell me what was wrong with you?"
Jiang Xu was silent for a moment before lowering his head and admitting, "It was because of me. I went to see Cheng Feng behind your back. I have no guilt towards Cheng Yu, Cheng Yu is not wrong, it is me who is at fault."
"What else?" Lin Anlan looked at him.
"Also?" Jiang Xu wondered.
"As you said before, I went to Cheng Yu's side for you, and you wanted me and him to go home to see the parents. Isn't that what makes me angry?"
Jiang Xu was stunned when he heard the words.
Lin Anlan already remembered what he said yesterday. He didn't quite understand why he lost his memory, and he didn't quite understand why he went to Cheng Yu and mistook Cheng Yu for his boyfriend, but if this sentence If the words are true, then, he has a less common but plausible explanation.
He stared at Jiang Xu and asked him word by word, "Did you really say something like this to me? Do you really want me to do such a thing?"
Jiang Xu wanted to deny it, but was unable to say anything.
He didn't deceive Lin Anlan verbally, he concealed that he went to see Cheng Feng, but he just concealed that Lin Anlan didn't ask him if you met Cheng Feng behind my back, so he didn't answer this kind of question, so naturally he didn't lie over him.
He looked at Lin Anlan, and everything was written in his eyes.
Lin Anlan sighed and asked, "Jiang Xu, what do you think of me?"
He felt that he really couldn't understand Jiang Xu. He thought that Jiang Xu didn't care about him before, so he secretly went to see Cheng Feng behind his back.
But when he told Jiang Xu that he would not see him again, Jiang Xu cut off the contact with Cheng Feng without hesitation, pestered him constantly, and even waited at his door on New Year's Eve, hoping that they could celebrate the New Year together.
He felt that Jiang Xu should also care about him. After all, they have been friends for so many years, they have known each other for so many years, and they have been with each other for so many years, so they should have feelings.
But Jiang Xu could think of letting him be Cheng Yu's fake boyfriend, in order to anger Cheng Feng and seek his own benefit.
Lin Anlan felt that he couldn't understand Jiang Xu, and he didn't know whether Jiang Xu cared or didn't care about him.
He seems to care, but he doesn't seem to care at all.
"You won't stop me from contacting Cheng Yu at this time? You were the one who didn't let me and Cheng Yu make friends, but now it's you who pushed me to his side and let me be his boyfriend. Who are you? Do you want me to contact Cheng Yu or not?"
Lin Anlan was very puzzled, "If it was according to your hope, in the past few days and months, I didn't perfectly achieve what you wanted, except that I didn't meet his parents, but in terms of his boyfriend, I did it. Isn't it? Even if it was very successful, why do you put on a posture that I hurt you, and ask why I don't want you?"
"Isn't that what you hoped for? Shouldn't you be content and then rejoice?"
"It's my fault Xiaolan, I'm sorry for you, I was confused for a while, so I said this kind of bastard. I already know it's wrong, you've scolded me, and I know it's wrong, really."
Lin Anlan felt that what he heard the most recently was "I'm sorry" and "It's my fault". Jiang Xu said that to him, and Cheng Yu also said that to him. Everyone said sorry to him, but he clearly never felt sorry. them.
Is he not good enough for Jiang Xu? He has been working very hard to hope that Jiang Xu can get rid of the predicament of his identity and grow up healthy.
Is he not good enough for Cheng Yu? Although he didn't fall in love with Cheng Yu before he lost his memory, he didn't give Cheng Yu any hope either. He kept a distance from him all the time, and he never had any ambiguity, one time he was disconnected.
Then why do they have to turn around and apologize to him
Lin Anlan felt tired, he picked up the teacup and took a sip of tea, and said to Jiang Xu, "Let's go."
"Xiao Lan..."
"You said that I scolded you before, then I am still the same now. Although I don't know what happened at the time, I still want to scold you as long as I think of you saying this to me. So let's go, I don't want to see you now, and I'm not in the mood to perfunctory you."
"Xiaolan..." Jiang Xu looked at him begging.
"Let's go." Lin Anlan calmly said, "Let me calm down for a while, I'll be alone."
"Will you forgive me?" Jiang Xu asked him weakly, "Will you be willing to give me a chance to correct?"
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Lin Anlan didn't answer him, he didn't know, how could he possibly know? He didn't even know what the specific situation was at the time, how serious the situation was, how could he know whether he would forgive Jiang Xu
Those memories that he forgot must make him painful and irritable, so he will forget, so he will not panic after forgetting.
That in itself is not a pleasant memory, in itself, maybe he doesn't want to remember.
Jiang Xu left, and Lin Anlan walked on the sofa, drinking tea quietly and looking at the post.
The room was warm, his heart was quiet, and he was tired from watching, so he lay on the sofa and slept for a while.
At night, Lin Anlan woke up in a daze.
He didn't want to move very much, so he shouted "Xiaohua" habitually, wanting Cheng Yu to carry him back to his room.
His voice was very soft, with unconscious dependence and nostalgia. After he shouted, he opened his eyes to see the furnishings in front of him. He vaguely realized that he was not at Cheng Yu's house, he went back to his own.
Cheng Yu lied to him, so he left, he returned to his home, and there was no Cheng Yu by his side.
Lin Anlan seemed to be stuck, without moving, sitting quietly on the sofa.
After a long time, he got off the sofa.
He stood up and went back to his bedroom. The window of the bedroom was not closed, and the wind was blowing in, making the room cold.
Lin Anlan walked to the window and closed the window, and she saw a vast expanse of white in the yard, shining brightly under the illumination of the street lamps.
It's snowing, he thought, and the snow must be very cold this year.
Lin Anlan closed the curtains, got into her bed, and fell asleep.
Cheng Yu was lying on the bed with his eyes closed when he received the call from Sun Meng.
He hadn't slept for a day and a night. Reason told him that he should go to bed, but he couldn't sleep. He closed his eyes, and in his mind was Lin Anlan crying.
He said, "You lied to me."
Cheng Yu opened his eyes, the room was dark, he turned over, but couldn't see the person lying beside him.
He lay silently, with no strength in his body.
The phone on the bedside table was still ringing. It wasn't the special ringtone he set for Lin Anlan, so he didn't want to answer it.
But the phone kept ringing, without any intention of hanging up, Cheng Yu couldn't, reached out his hand to reach the phone, and put it to his ear.
"Your movie will premiere tomorrow. Today I've helped you to promote it on Weibo, and I've set the ticket for you. The specific information will be sent to you on WeChat. Remember to read it."
"Okay." Cheng Yu whispered.
"Why is your voice so hoarse? Sick?"
"No."
"That's good. I know you are busy during the New Year, so I won't disturb you. You can take care of yourself."
"Ok."
After Sun Meng finished speaking, he hung up the phone.
Cheng Yu looked at his phone, clicked on WeChat, and saw the booking information Sun Meng sent him.
He is familiar with the cinema, familiar seats, familiar reserved venues.
Cheng Yu put down the phone and closed his eyes again.
He wanted to fall asleep, and when he fell asleep, he would have the energy to go to the movies tomorrow.
But he couldn't fall asleep, he could only keep opening and closing his eyes, and repeating this action again.
At eight o'clock in the morning, Cheng Yu finally felt sleepy. He fell asleep rarely. He had a dream. In the dream, the sky was wide and the sea was wide. Lin Anlan held his back to him. forward.
When Cheng Yu woke up, he didn't know whether he fell asleep or not. He looked at his watch and it was past 12 o'clock.
She must have fallen asleep for a while.
He slowly got out of bed, opened the refrigerator, and saw that Lin Anlan's favorite sandwich was still stored in the refrigerator.
Cheng Yu didn't move, he took out a bag of bread and walked to the coffee table, drinking water and eating bread.
If Lin Anlan came back and found that there were no sandwiches, he would be depressed. He still liked this flavor of sandwiches.
With that in mind, he finished his bread, put on his coat, and went out.
On the afternoon of the tenth day of the Lunar New Year, there were not many people in the cinema. Cheng Yu checked the tickets and entered the venue, sitting in the middle.
The cinema hall was empty, and he sat alone, even more lonely.
Cheng Yu watched quietly, seriously watching himself in the movie, he remembered what Lin Anlan told him before, when the movie was released, he would watch it with him.
But now that the movie was released, Lin Anlan left.
They once watched a movie together. Lin Anlan specially booked the show and asked him, "Xiaohua, do you want to date me?"
His smiling brows and eyes curved, he leaned against his arms and kissed him closely in the cinema.
They used to be in love, but now, the truth of the story is revealed, the plot ends, the prince leaves the scene, and he is the only one left.
After all, he still hasn't watched a movie starring him with him. After all, he can only sit here by himself, as always, as every time before.
At the end of the movie, the male protagonist turned around and said goodbye to the female protagonist. He knew that he was about to die, and he did not want to delay the girl he liked, so he rejected her and walked away.
The girl asked him, "Do you really not like me? Do you not like me at all?"
The boy waved his hand and said to her, "I don't like it."
He turned and walked into the distance, to a place where the other party could no longer see.
Cheng Yu watched silently, and in a blink of an eye, something fell.
He didn't like him, he thought, only this, can't be forced.
There are all kinds of things in this world, only feelings are the most helpless things.
Cheng Yu stood up and walked out of the theater the moment he heard the ending song.