Although Shen Yang quickly realized that Su Hanying was inviting him to join the KK team, he always felt that there was an inexplicable ambiguity hidden in those four words, and he was suddenly surprised that the two of them had been interlocking their fingers.
...is it a bit too gay
Taking a peek at the folded hands, Shen Yang's face gradually warmed up—maybe it was because of the fact that he had just taken a shower, the temperature in Su Hanying's palm was slightly warmer than usual, and the skin was dry and soft...
Hurry up! !
What I should think about now is how to withdraw my hand so that it looks natural and unremarkable
Thoughts were turning rapidly, Shen Yang didn't know that Su Hanying had noticed his stiffness, so he let go of his hand slowly, but did not give up asking, "Where's your answer?"
Shen Yang lowered his head, and murmured: "Thank you for your affirmation, but I have been retired for a long time..."
Su Hanying: "Has your heart retired?"
Shen Yang was stunned, and found a lot of reasons to prevaricate the other party's question, "I'm old, I've passed my peak period, and I haven't trained systematically in these years, I'm not familiar with the new heroes, I'm not familiar with it anymore. Suitable for re-professional…”
Su Hanying didn't refute after listening, just asked: "Don't say whether it's suitable or not, just say whether you want it or not?"
Shen Yang really didn't think about returning to the professional arena, but the word "I don't want to" got stuck in his throat, and he couldn't say it.
Su Hanying waited quietly for a while, then smiled softly: "Don't rush to answer me, think about it again?"
Shen Yang looked up at him and nodded slightly.
"Although I like you very much and hope you can join the KK team, I don't want to put pressure on you." Su Hanying stared at Shen Yang and continued: "I hope you can make a respectful decision after careful consideration." decision. I will, as always, respect and support you."
Shen Yang, who was still awkward about the words "like you", was moved and grateful after hearing the following words, but didn't know how to express his feelings at this moment.
"Shall we go with the flow?"
Su Hanying coaxed gently, he had been waiting for a long time, and he didn't mind waiting a little longer.
It's like fishing theory - if you want to catch a big fish, you must not be impatient. Once the fish takes the bait, you must follow it, but not let it escape your control. Over time, the big fish will inevitably fall into the net.
And he believed that one day, Shen Yang would also fall into his net.
That night, Shen Yang had rare insomnia.
The facts that happened today are too impactful, whether it is seeing Wei Fengmian again, or Su Hanying's secret...
Of course, Shen Yang also inevitably thought of the past.
When did it all start
If we really want to trace it back, it should be when he was seventeen...
Memories drift away, back to a sunny afternoon seven years ago, back to an old Internet cafe near the high school...
"Xiao Yang, do you want to play professionally?" Wei Fengmian was a boy in a school uniform and wearing black-rimmed glasses. He looked like a good kid with good character and learning, and he didn't fit in with the environment he was in at this time.
Shen Yang was in a solo row, and casually said, "What profession do you play?"
Wei Fengmian: "A WTK professional team from City B contacted me and said they wanted to invite us to participate in youth training."
Shen Yang was stunned: "No one is looking for me..."
Wei Fengmian teased: "God bee's friend invitation has been closed for a long time, how can others find you?"
Shen Yang scratched his head embarrassingly, "Some people are too enthusiastic..."
Wei Fengmian's peach blossom eyes slightly bent down, "I'm passionate about you only if I like you. How about it, are you interested?"
Shen Yang shook his head, "You have to drop out of school if you want to play a job? I'll be in my third year of high school next semester, and my grandparents won't agree."
Wei Fengmian suddenly pressed Shen Yang's right hand controlling the mouse, attracting the other party's attention, "I'll ask you, do you want to fight? Yes, or not?"
Shen Yang was stunned for a moment, then nodded lightly after thinking for a long time, "...I think."
Of course he would.
Every time watching the Chinese team come back from the world arena, Shen Yang can't wait to take part in the battle to get back the honor and justify the name of Chinese e-sports in front of the whole world.
He knew that his face was big, but who doesn't dream
"Since you want to, then you can think about it carefully." Wei Fengmian patiently analyzed for Shen Yang: "Your academic performance has always been in the middle, and you are lucky enough to pass the ordinary one. But there are so many universities in China. After you graduate, you will face For dozens or even millions of competitors on the same starting line, do the math, how many years will it take you to accumulate enough capital to allow your grandparents to spend their old age in peace?"
Shen Yang frowned, Wei Fengmian hit his mind.
Grandpa and grandma are getting old, and he is the only relative, so they will definitely need him to take care of them in the future...
"Playing professionally is another choice. Although it seems risky, your talent may not be able to make your way." Wei Fengmian said: "Last year's WTK Global Finals had a prize pool of 2.3 million U.S. dollars. In addition, there are large and small competitions, if you can really achieve results, even if you only have seven or eight years in your career, your accumulated economic strength is far superior to most of your peers."
He saw that Shen Yang was a little bit moved, and added weight: "Anyway, the summer vacation will be over in a month or so. We can ask for leave during the make-up class period. We will try to go to City B first, and if it doesn't work, we will come back and continue studying."
Shen Yang hesitated in his heart, and was quite puzzled, "Feng Mian, do you want to go too?"
Wei Fengmian: "Of course."
Shen Yang: "But your grades are so good, and your family conditions are also good..."
Wei Fengmian smiled, "But I like playing professionally, and I want to be the best."
That was the end of the conversation that day. Later, with the help of Wei Fengmian, Shen Yang managed to hide the truth from his parents and school, and became a member of the youth training camp of the GBG team.
At that time, GBG had just been promoted to the league from the Challenger League. There were only six players in the team. It was said that it was youth training, but Shen Yang was picked up by the club after only playing for three days. After half a month, Wei Fengmian also signed with the club. contract.
They didn't tell their families the truth until the dust settled.
Shen Yang didn't know how Wei Fengmian persuaded his parents, but there was some unhappiness between him and his grandparents.
Even so, Shen Yang still went his own way. When the league kicked off the next year, he relied on his absolute dominance to bring this newly promoted team to the first place in the domestic league, and won the mid-season championship and the global finals of the same year. Championship. During that year, players all over the world who had a little knowledge of the WTK professional league had heard of the name Bumblebee and were deeply crazy about it.
After returning home with all the honors, the coach proposed to celebrate, so he took them to the bar.
Shen Yang happened to be 18 years old, and it was his first time going to a bar, so he was very excited. But accidents always come suddenly. A teammate had a conflict with someone in the middle, and even fought violently. He was also involved in the battle while trying to persuade him to fight. He was accidentally pierced through his right hand by a sharp weapon, and fell from heaven to hell overnight...
The spring and autumn style of the media, the verbal criticism of netizens, the fines, the suspension...
The club didn't say a word for him other than sending out an explanation about his respect at the beginning. It's not that the club didn't want to protect him, but that the mainstream society at that time had a big prejudice against e-sports, thinking that "playing games" had a very bad influence on young people. Although there is no explicit prohibition, it has been secretly suppressed. Even GBG won the world championship, and there are only some marginal media reports in China.
Now the championship team had a brawl scandal, which made the traditionally conservative superior organization very angry, and made it clear that they would criticize Shen Yang as a model, but the players who really committed crimes were not paid much attention.
Under such circumstances, how dare the club go against it? For them, it's just a suspension anyway. When the suspension period is over, Bumblebee can still play.
Shen Yang doesn't even know how he got through it. His only belief is that GBG can't fall. He wants to lead the team to another championship. Many, many championships...
In fact, the doctor once told him that if he takes a good rest, his right hand has a chance to recover. But when Shen Yang saw GBG's declining performance, he still ignored everyone's opposition and chose to return to the team after the suspension period expired.
At first, relying on the remnants of last season's deterrence, Shen Yang won several games in a row, causing the outside public opinion to turn around, and they regarded him as the omnipotent Bee God again.
But it didn't take long for other teams to gradually realize that he couldn't do what they wanted, especially after a certain Korean foreign aid used Bumblebee's best hero to kill him eight times in a row, everyone knew that Bumblebee was useless.
GBG didn't win a game after that, but Bumblebee, the team's patron saint, has now become the enemy's breakthrough, and the team's ranking has dropped from the middle to the bottom three relegation zone...
Even if he refused to admit defeat, even if he never gave up on the field, the painful injury and his increasingly weak right hand quietly accumulated his fear and self-doubt.
It is conceivable that those waiting for Shen Yang will naturally be replaced.
Although Wei Fengmian who replaced him was also criticized before, but with Shen Yang as a comparison, the public suddenly realized that at least Wei Fengmian is stable, at least he won't be killed eight times in a row.
In the fourth season, GBG finally succeeded in relegation, but not many people were happy about it-a team that created a prosperous dynasty can only decline like this in one year, Bumblebee has committed a heinous crime!
Not long after, the GBG executives made a decision, they wanted to sell Shen Yang, because even they thought God Bee was dead and could never get up again.
That being the case, it's better to "use waste" while he can still sell the price.
For this reason, Wei Fengmian once fought hard with reason, and once had a very tense fight with the top management.
But at that time, Wei Fengmian didn't have much weight in the club, Shen Yang didn't want to implicate him, and for some obscure reasons, he chose to reach an agreement with the club in private and transferred to the hacker team.
When he received a call from Wei Fengmian, and the other party asked him why he gave up, Shen Yang said: "I didn't give up, I'm still playing professionally in Team Hacking."
Wei Fengmian: "Can the meaning be the same?"
Shen Yang was silent for a while, "What's the difference?"
Wei Fengmian was also silent for a long time, "It's different for me, I just want to be with you. Since you went to Team Hacking, I will also contact you for a transfer."
He said it sincerely, with the friendship between the two for more than ten years, how could Shen Yang not be moved? But where is the free transfer so easy? Not just money, but also future... Wei Fengmian is risking his career. So he pretended to be sharp: "GBG has no place for me anymore, you replaced me. If you want to come to the hacker team, do you want to change places and let me be your substitute?"
Wei Fengmian probably didn't expect Shen Yang, who has always been well-behaved and soft, to speak like this. He was stunned for a long time, and explained eagerly: "If you mind, I can practice other heroes again. I won't be a military advisor anymore, so I won't conflict with you—"
"You're gone, what about Yun Rong?" Shen Yang said lightly, "I know you're together, before I broke up with her."
Shen Yang did know about it a long time ago, and saw it with his own eyes.
While he was recovering from his injuries, he was disturbed by the media reports and wanted to go downstairs for a walk, but he ran into Wei Fengmian and Xu Yunrong hiding in the corner of the garden. The latter questioned: "When are you going to tell him about our relationship? I planned to break up before the finals, and you won't let it go. Now that the game has been played for so long, you still won't let it go!"
"Xiao Yang is under a lot of pressure now..."
"Aren't I under a lot of pressure? If he cheated on him as his girlfriend, what will others say about me?! If you really care about his feelings, why do you take the initiative to flirt with me?"
"Okay, don't get excited, let me think about it..."
Later, Shen Yang didn't know what the two said, and he left quietly.
When he needed comfort and support the most, he found out that his best friend was with his girlfriend. For him who was only 18 years old, it was a heavy blow.
But he didn't say anything, he didn't want to embarrass anyone, and he endured it until today, and the answer was the busy tone of the disconnected phone.
After that day, the two friends who grew up together and came to City B together never contacted each other again, and even if they met on the field, they would stay far away.
Shen Yang is not doing well in Team Hacker. Whether it is the suspicion and exclusion of his teammates, or his increasingly serious hand injury, it limits his performance on the field and makes the club very dissatisfied.
At the end of the Spring Split, the team wanted to sell him again. This time, Shen Yang took out all his savings and redeemed his free body.
It was also that day that Shen Yang knew that he was completely defeated, and he gave up his dream.
His career started with a bang and ended in a mess.
In the end, it's still difficult.
In the darkness, Shen Yang sighed quietly.
"Can't sleep?"
When the neighbor asked suddenly, Shen Yang was startled, turned around and said, "Did I disturb you?"
"No." Su Hanying turned over and turned her head to him, jokingly said, "Thinking of Bumblebee sleeping next to me, I'm so excited that I can't sleep."
"You didn't just find out today!" Shen Yang directly pointed it out: "I think you slept well before..."
Su Hanying smiled lowly, "Do you want me to tell you a bedtime story? God Bee."
Shen Yang: "...don't."
Su Hanying: "Then what if you can't sleep?"
Shen Yang said embarrassingly: "I just thought of the past..."
Su Hanying was silent for a moment, then suddenly turned over and got out of bed, walked to the side of Shen Yang's bed with her slippers on, bent slightly and stared at him without blinking.
Shen Yang was confused: "What do you see me doing?"
"What do you want to do in the past? Miss me." Su Hanying's mouth curled up slightly: "Your eyes are all about me."
Shen Yang froze for a moment, then closed his eyes in panic, but felt a warmth between his brows, like... a kiss.
He opened his eyes suddenly, and saw Su Hanying smiled slightly: "Good night, my God."
The author has something to say: There are comments that Shenmei is too weak, but Shenmei was only 18 years old when she experienced this. She has never encountered setbacks in her life, and setbacks that are enough to destroy him. With his character that was not strong enough in the first place, it would be a matter of time before his mentality collapsed.
Shen Mei is not perfect, and her shortcomings are very obvious. The reason why she wants to write a protagonist with such a personality is just like the copywriting said, hoping that a fallen star can overcome her weakness and fear and regain her light.
Sister Shen needs someone to tell him that you can do it, so Brother Su appeared.