I’m Not An Immortal

Chapter 5: The pain of losing a child

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The sound of sorrow was blown by the night wind at night, just like the leaves hanging on the treetops in late autumn, drifting and trembling.

Having seen the joys and sorrows of the world, and the intrigues and deceptions among the monks, Fudao Shanren suddenly felt a little bit reluctant to see such a sorrow.

He was certainly not one of those barefoot doctors who needed to take a person's pulse to judge his condition.

These eyes know everything with just one glance.

"Mountain man?"

Jianchou asked again, full of hope.

Perhaps she was afraid that she was not a qualified mother, because she had no idea when she first learned that she was pregnant. It was only now that she was reminded of the fact that she was about to become a mother!

Counting on my fingers, it's only a few hours.

Fudao Shanren slowly put his hands down, laughed awkwardly, and said with a nonchalant expression: "Taking the pulse? How can a Shanren be able to do such a thing that only ordinary people can do? Hey, girl, you asked the wrong person."

"… "

Jianchou suddenly became dejected, and his hand, which was holding on to the door frame, slid down.

Her clear eyes fell on Fudaoshanren, as if she was measuring the truthfulness of his words.

"The mountain man has great magical powers. Even if he can't diagnose a pulse, he can always find other ways to..."

"How can I do that?"

Fudao Shanren hurriedly shook his head, his eyes rolling around. He looked at the green tiles on the eaves, then at the dark night outside the yard, and then looked up at the stars in the sky.

"Oh, I, a hermit, observed the sky at night and saw the stars and the moon coming out together. This means that a person with great fortune is going to appear in this world! Girl, maybe it's you!"

"… Mountain Man, is the baby in my belly gone?"

When Jianchou suddenly asked this question, Fudaoshanren suddenly froze.

He slowly turned his head and looked at Jianchou.

There was a lot of sadness in Jianchou's expression. After seeing Fudaoshanren's reaction, what could she not understand

When he came out of the coffin, the pool of blood suddenly appeared in Jianchou's mind.

Even though Fudao Shanren possessed magical powers, it seemed that he couldn't save her child

A baby who was less than two months old left her just like that

Indeed, it was only a few hours.

She didn't even have the awareness of being a mother...

As short as a dream.

Jianchou suddenly felt weak all over, as if there were thousands of sharp blades stuck in his throat.

She turned away stiffly, muttering, "I know..."

He walked back to the table step by step and Jianchou sat down again.

The pair of scissors in the sewing basket were so sharp that they seemed like they could pierce her eyes, not to mention the silver lock that was gleaming in the light underneath.

She sat there in a daze, as if she would sit there until the end of time.

Seeing this, Fudaoshanren in the yard sighed deeply, turned around and turned his gaze back to the big white goose.

Just as he turned around, a suppressed and restrained sobbing sound suddenly came from the room behind him.

The owner of the crying voice seemed to be trying hard to control the grief in his heart, but he couldn't control it in the end.

The flood broke through the dam in an instant, sweeping away everything.

Her originally secret sobs suddenly turned into grief-stricken tears, as if she wanted to vent all her grievances and helplessness.

She had experienced the betrayal of her husband and the pain of losing her son. She couldn't recover in such a short time...

The mountain man didn't look back in the end. He just climbed over the fence and hugged the big white goose running around. Regardless of the big white goose's desperate struggle, he said faintly: "Goose, goose, I'm not in a good mood right now, you must not flutter... Otherwise, I will have to eat you alive."

The big white goose shuddered all over, and its long neck drooped down immediately, as if it understood what Fudaoshan said, and dared not move anymore.

Only then did Fudao Shanren touch the big white goose's feathers with satisfaction.

"Good goose, good goose. How good it is to be born as an animal. You don't understand the joys and sorrows of these people..."

Every time he touched it, the big white goose trembled and almost went crazy.

I don’t know how long it took, but the stars and the moon in the sky slowly moved.

The crying in the room gradually stopped.

Fudaoshanren raised his head and looked towards the door of the house.

Jianchou slowly walked out, stood under the eaves, looked up at the night sky, and after a long while, he asked, "Hermit, you just said you wanted to take me as your apprentice, are you serious?"

Fudao Shanren guessed that she should be much better now, but he couldn't be so rash when it came to accepting her as a disciple.

He said, "Just now I asked you a question, but you didn't answer at all, which shows that you don't want to be my disciple at all. But now you have changed your mind, so the hermit asked you: What do you want to do by being my disciple?"

"Qiu Xian asked."

Jianchou answered firmly.

Fu Dao Shanren smiled, not believing it at all: "Are you seeking immortality or seeking revenge?"

Jianchou stopped talking.

After crying, her eyes were red. The frosty white light of the moon shone into her sparkling eyes, which for a moment had an indescribable beauty.

"It's not that I don't want to accept you as my disciple. It's just that if you join my sect and practice my way just for revenge, not only will you not make any progress on the path of cultivation, but even if you do make some achievements, you will have a mental barrier in the future because of what happened today. With a mental barrier, it's just a joke to seek immortals and ask for the way."

Fudaoshanren's words were unusually serious and solemn.

The path of a monk is often filled with hardships and dangers.

There are tens of millions of people in the world, and most of them are ordinary people. There are only two or three who can have great wisdom and great achievements. Among ten thousand cultivators in the Qi Refining stage, there may be ten in the Foundation Establishment stage. But among ten cultivators in the Foundation Establishment stage, not necessarily one can cultivate to the Golden Core stage.

Cultivation is a one in a million thing, and there can be no mistakes. The requirements for talent and character are ridiculously high.

Given Jianchou's current state of mind, this path is really not suitable for him.

Before this, Fudaoshanren asked about Jianchou only because he was touched by his sincerity and had some affinity with Jianchou, so he wanted to accept him as a disciple.

Mentality can determine a person's success or failure.

Even when Jianchou encountered great changes, he could still smile occasionally and even said things like "I will be the second one". Fudaoshanren was not a person who had understood the will of heaven and was completely heartless. Naturally, he could feel what Jianchou was feeling.

As for the sentence "If so, I will kill him", it has a kind of toughness and indifference unique to people who practice cultivation, which is close to the way of heaven.

If he had no mental block, he might be able to achieve great things if he accepted her as his disciple.

What a pity…

Fudaoshanren was about to give up the idea of accepting Jianchou as his disciple completely.

But the next moment...

"The big white goose will go with you, and you will accept me as your apprentice."

Jianchou walked out from under the eaves and stood in front of Fudaoshanren, his voice calm and cool.

If it weren't for the fact that they were in a small village in the valley, if it weren't for the fact that everything around them was so dilapidated, if it weren't for the fact that Jianchou standing in front of him was only wearing a straw hat and a cloth skirt!

Fudao Shanren actually thought that what she said was "I will give you the sword tomb of the Eternal Immortal Emperor if you accept me as your disciple"!

Are you kidding

Just a big white goose!

Fudaoshanren looked down at the big white goose still in his arms, his face full of resentment.

"Are mountain people so vulgar in your eyes? Do I look like someone who is so greedy? Cultivating Taoism is a big deal! I, a mountain person, traveled all over the six realms and nineteen continents with just a bamboo pole. Everyone who saw me would kowtow and call me grandpa. I am such a powerful person, but you only give me a big white goose when you become my disciple?! This is really too much!"

It seemed as if gas was about to spew out of both nostrils, and Fudaoshanren stared at Jianchou with eyes that were almost red.

"Do you think I would be bribed by a big white goose so easily?!"

After saying this, his anger seemed to have reached its peak, and he threw the big white goose in his arms to the ground.

"At least two, right?!"

"… "

Jianchou stared at Fudaoshanren, his eyes filled with an indescribable contempt.

This guy is really...

It makes me want to roll my eyes.

Jianchou didn't know how to describe her inner feelings. She was silent for a long time before she escaped from that strange emotion and said, "Now all my geese have run away. There is no second one. But finding a goose is a simple matter. I am willing to find another one for you someday."

"That's more like it."

Fudaoshanren snorted, indicating that he was satisfied.

He saw the goose that had just fallen to the ground. The goose was now dazed, as if it had no idea why it had been so "favored" before and now was banished to the "cold palace".

He quickly bent down and helped the mountain man pick up the big white goose on the ground.

Just now, in order to show momentum, I threw a bunch of big white geese away and took some protective measures. Nothing will happen to them, but don't be scared.

Without even raising his head, he said to Jianchou, "Then we have a deal. You should pay your respects as my disciple."

"Apprenticeship gift?"

Jianchou had only seen some of his miraculous skills on the road, and knew that he was not ordinary. But he had no idea how to perform the apprenticeship ceremony, and whether there were any special etiquette.

She asked without hesitation: "Please give me some advice, hermit."

The big white goose was so frightened in the Fudaoshan man's arms that it became a stupid goose and had no reaction.

Fudao Shanren was very worried. He sighed and said to Jianchou, "The white goose in your home is more intelligent than you. What advice do you have for the apprenticeship ceremony? Just kowtow three times."

As he spoke, his expression suddenly became serious.

With his other free hand, he held the bamboo pole and knocked it on the ground.

There was a crisp "pop" sound, and then a deep blue light circle spread out from the bamboo pole and the center to the surroundings like water waves, and finally settled at a position of 13 feet 6.

After the circle of light was fixed, it only lasted for three breaths before gradually disappearing, as if hidden in the soil.

Jianchou, Fudaoshanren, uh... and a big white goose are all in this circle.

This was the first time that Jianchou had actually seen such a magical method.

At that moment, Fudaoshanren's face seemed to be covered with a halo, and he said, "Bow."

Heaven, Earth, the Emperor, Parents and Teachers. Once a teacher, always a father.

Jianchou understands the principle of respecting teachers better than anyone else.

But this feeling is also quite strange. I am going to have a master and embark on the path to immortality

Lifting the hem of her coarse cloth skirt, Jianchou knelt on the ground, raised her hands above her head, palms down, placed on her forehead, and then leaned forward to worship.

The moon is slanting and the wind is clear.

The shadows of the trees sway.

As Jianchou bowed, his palms naturally touched the moist soil in the yard.

The cold soil is like her unmoved heart.

If the extinction of all relatives is the severance of worldly ties, then at this moment, I can be considered to have cut off all worldly ties.

She had no father or mother, and didn't know where she came from, let alone where she would go. Her husband had already left her, and the unborn baby in her belly would never have the chance to call her mother.

Although the world is vast, there is no one, thing or event that can make her worry.

This feeling is empty and lonely.

Bow once and kowtow once, bow again and kowtow again, bow three times and kowtow three times.

At the moment of the apprenticeship ceremony, a wave of nausea and vomiting appeared.

The light was dim, with a gray and chaotic feeling, dark and not very clear.

But on a night like this, it is clear enough to see.

It was an octagonal shape about ten feet square, with crisscrossing lines in four directions, dividing the entire octagon into countless small grids, making it look like an octagonal chessboard.

As Jianchou stood up, the pattern of the octagonal chessboard gradually disappeared, as if it had never appeared.

"What just happened is..."

Jianchou had never seen such a wonderful sight in his life. It seemed that this pattern appeared as a result of the apprenticeship ceremony.

She looked towards Fudaoshanren, but saw that he had a dazed look on his face.

At this time, Fudaoshanren already felt like he was dreaming.

The goose finally reacted and jumped out of his arms. He didn't even look back: "One zhang... One zhang Wanxiang Dou Pan..."

Wanxiang Doupan

"What is that?" Jianchou became curious.