Jiang Yuebai looked at the pill in his hand and sighed suddenly.
She probably knew why Anan was trapped in such a dream. It was just like her back then. She had too many regrets in her heart and wanted a chance to go back to the past to make up for everything.
Jiang Yuebai has realized that there is no point in making up for the past.
It is the regrets and mistakes, the pain and hardships of the past that have made me irreplaceable today.
Both she and Anan should look back and embrace their younger selves, and say to themselves, it’s not my fault, I’ve done a good job.
Anan still doesn't understand this truth and can't let go of her past.
Jiang Yuebai felt a little sad. All along, Anan had been listening to her but rarely expressed her feelings.
In Jiang Yuebai's memory, Anan is always a mature person with clear goals, determination and courage, a clear mind, and the ability to move forward courageously in everything he does.
But isn’t maturity gained through lessons learned through blood and tears
Anan has never complained about what she has experienced, but not complaining does not mean that those negative emotions do not exist. She relies on her strong willpower to suppress them deep in her heart.
Just like when she avenged her father's death, she could have waited for the Grand Elder to help, but she still chose the most extreme approach.
She was unwilling to cause trouble to anyone. She could let others owe her, but she was unwilling to owe others. She was afraid of trouble, afraid of not being able to pay it back, and even more afraid of paying a price she was unwilling to pay.
In this regard, Anan is not mature and her heart is very closed, a bit like Yunshang, another form of fear of others.
So after living for so many years, Anan had few friends in the upper realm except for his childhood friends like Tian Yanzong.
It was these suppressed emotions that eventually turned into this dream, from which Anan could not escape.
Anan thought he was saving himself, but in fact he was deeply trapped and unable to extricate himself.
The more perfect the dream is, the more difficult it is to accept reality, and it will endlessly magnify the pain of reality.
As a demon, Anan still has inner demons, and these inner demons are herself, because only she knows her own flaws and knows how to get to the bottom of her heart.
Jiang Yuebai closed her eyes slightly and felt it. At the end of the dream, Anan achieved her wish of becoming the champion of swordsmanship. In this dream, she probably did not realize the oath she made that year.
I will never become a demon until I reach the pinnacle of swordsmanship.
In the previous dreams, Youmeng tried her best to interrupt them, so that Anan did not make it to the end. Even Youmeng knew that once Anan fulfilled her oath in the dream, that would be the time when she was completely possessed by the devil.
Anan will not be possessed by a demon, Jiang Yuebai is certain of this. When that moment comes, Anan will definitely sacrifice his foundation and kill the illusion.
It is better to unblock than to block!
Jiang Yuebai looked at the steps to immortality, took the pill, and decided to be a bad guy in Anan's dream!
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On the Immortal Stairs, after the illusion faded, Lu Nanzhi immediately turned around to look for Jiang Yuebai. She remembered that in the previous few times, as long as she reminded him, Jiang Yuebai would appear at the ninety-ninth step, enter the inner gate with her, and live together.
Lu Nanzhi's eyes looked over the people behind her one after another, and when she saw Jiang Yuebai, her pupils shocked and she couldn't believe it.
Eighty-first step, why is she still on the eighty-first step
Wasn't this her dream? Why didn't it go as she wished
Thinking of what happened to Jiang Yuebai later, Lu Nanzhi suddenly panicked and tried to forcibly change the dream. Everything around him began to become unreal.
Xie Jingshan and Shen Huaixi behind her flashed around the stairs, and the same went for the others, allowing them to change according to her will.
Only Jiang Yuebai stood motionless on the 81st step. She tried her best but could not move an inch.
What happened to this dream
Lu Nanzhi's heart was trembling violently, and she didn't realize that her loss of control over her emotions had made her different from before.
At this moment, everyone's eyes blurred, and when they looked again, they had appeared in the square inside the mountain gate. Hong Tao began to explain the rules of Tianyan Sect and started distributing tokens.
Lu Nanzhi was the first to receive the token. Before she could do anything, Lu Yinghuai, the Yuanying Zhenjun of their Lu family in Tianyan Sect, appeared in front of her and forcibly took her away.
At the edge of a silent and deserted woods, Lu Yinghuai, with a gloomy face, handed a letter to Lu Nanzhi.
Lu Nanzhi was puzzled. When he took the letter and read it, he was shocked.
Her father was beaten by Fang's people, and Lu insisted on giving her to Fang. Her mother and her brothers and sisters all blamed her in their hearts and wanted her to get engaged to Fang's people, otherwise her father would lose his position as the patriarch.
"Why?!"
Lu Yinghuai didn't explain anything, just said, "Don't worry, before you build your foundation and reach adulthood, the engagement is just an engagement, Fang family won't force you to marry. As long as you marry well at that time, as long as you are in Fang family, your father's position as the clan leader will be untouchable by anyone."
Lu Nanzhi clenched the letter tightly, his eyes reddened, but he tried hard to hold back his tears, his face full of stubbornness and unwillingness.
Why
Even in her dreams, could Heaven be so cruel to her
Later, Lu Nanzhi discovered that this dream was completely out of her control, and everything was returning to the beginning.
No matter how hard she tried, nothing could change.
Xiaobai was still doing odd jobs and was taken to Huaxi Valley. She asked Xie Jingshan to help her get the longevity pill, find the supreme elder, and the sect leader, to explain Lin Xiangtian's despicable behavior.
But all this caused everything to break out prematurely.
Tao Fengnian's longevity elixir was snatched away by Jia Xiuchun's younger brother, and a fierce battle broke out, and both died. Xiaobai was seriously injured and nearly died. Before the Law Enforcement Hall came, Lin Xiangtian took Jia Xiuchun and fled.
Xiaobai was implicated and was punished to be sent to Yinshan Mine. She was also dragged away and could not be rescued in time.
She asked Xie Jingshan for help, but only got the news that Xiaobai was missing in Yinshan Mine.
Just like every time she was frustrated or bullied as a child, Lu Nanzhi hid in a place where no one could find her, hugged her knees, and cried helplessly.
The dreams that had seemed wonderful to her a few times before suddenly became horrible.
There were no monsters or gore, no blood or horror, but the most terrifying thing was the feeling of knowing what was going to happen but being powerless to do anything about it, especially the thing that was about to happen, which she dared not tell anyone.
It was so terrifying that she wanted to escape, but she couldn't.
Everyone thinks that Lu Nanzhi is a person who is insightful, resolute and brave, even cold-blooded and ruthless.
But she also had times when she was afraid and helpless.
She can't solve everything on her own. She has no other choice but to rely on herself.
She also wanted someone to protect her, someone to plan for her, and someone to help her solve all her difficulties.
"Dad, Mom, Brother, Sister... Why don't you help me?"
Lu Nanzhi murmured, his ears filled with the cold words from his childhood.
"Azhi, you will marry into the Fang family sooner or later. What's the point of learning these ways of killing? You might as well learn from mother how to survive in the harem."
"Lu Nanzhi, your last name is Lu, but you are destined not to be a member of the Lu family. Don't think that we are afraid of you just because your father is the clan leader. Hand over your things."
"Okay, Dad got it. Dad still has a lot of things to deal with. It's not a big deal. You can go down first."
"Go away, my sister is very busy, please bear with it."
"Brother is busy, why are you crying? You are useless."
Others said that she was blessed by heaven, as she was born the daughter of the Lu clan leader, and was born with a natural water spirit body that others would love to have.
Only Lu Nanzhi knew that she was abandoned by everyone the moment she was born because of this damn water spirit body.
Maturity, strength, and perseverance were not qualities she was born with; instead, they were armor she was forced to wear with blood and tears in order to live with dignity.
"Anan..."
Lu Nanzhi, who was crying almost to the point of collapse, suddenly heard a familiar voice. She turned around in disbelief and saw Jiang Yuebai standing in the dark woods with a gentle smile on her face.
That white dress was like a beam of light, penetrating straight into her heart.
There will be another update today to conclude the Nanzhi extra chapter. It will be a little late, so please be patient.
(End of this chapter)