Qi Yuyang walked in from the door, Chi Zhao put down the document in his hand, and stood up slowly.
Passing through the bedroom door, Qi Yuyang's eyes fell on the document all of a sudden, his footsteps froze, he didn't dare to take a step forward, his feet were firmly nailed to the ground, and the whole person was like a sculpture.
He is awaiting his final verdict.
Chi Zhao was silent for a while, and then walked over. Now it can be confirmed that the plot has completely collapsed, and the eight horses cannot be pulled back. Since there will never be a chance for recovery, Chi Zhao does not need to continue to maintain People set up.
In this way, Chi Zhao's whole temperament has become different from usual. At this time, he looks not only indifferent, but also has the meaning of opening the skylight to speak brightly.
"When did you find out about this?"
Hearing Chi Zhao's question, Qi Yuyang opened his mouth, but before he could say anything, Chi Zhao answered himself, "Is that when you were drunk."
About three seconds later, Qi Yuyang lowered his eyes and nodded.
Chi Zhao's expression didn't change. Soon, he asked again, "Is your illness cured?"
It was two months ago that Qi Yuyang was drunk. Since he already knew the truth of Xia Lan's death two months ago, then Xue Xingfan was the one who kidnapped him. He must have known it long ago, and he needed one or two more. The treatment that can only be completely completed in a week is estimated to have been completed.
It's so deep...
Sure enough, after hesitating for a while, Qi Yuyang nodded again.
Chi Zhao's expression looked very cold, as if he had completely torn off the fig leaf used to cover up. He looked too frank, which made Qi Yuyang's already restless heart beat faster.
"Do you have anything else to say to me?"
Qi Yuyang has a thousand words, but looking at Chi Zhao's ruthless and indifferent eyes, he can't say anything, because all language is pale, every word, every note, in front of him now, has lost its meaning. original function.
It's not the language and words' fault, it's his fault.
After waiting for more than ten seconds, he never saw Qi Yuyang speak. Chi Zhao pursed his lips and walked forward. He walked very fast and passed over Qi Yuyang's shoulder in an instant. The sound of opening and closing the door followed, cold and cold. When the heavy security door slammed shut, Qi Yuyang suddenly had an illusion, as if he was locked in a dark and cramped room again, there was no one, no sound, no color or air, only endless suffocation and pain.
The only difference from the last time was that this time, no one would let him out again.
A few seconds before Chi Zhao left, Qi Yuyang stood there in a daze, and after the first few seconds, he seemed to have suddenly come back to his senses, and wanted to chase after him, but he just took a step and he was alive stopped.
Slowly, his expression became distorted, and his eyes closed as if stimulated. He grabbed his hair hard, and bowed his waist overwhelmed, looking like he was in great pain.
His hair was almost pulled off by his scalp, but the pain in the body could not relieve the pain in the brain. This time the headache was more severe than the previous one. It seemed that in the next second, Qi Yuyang was going to die.
There is no problem with Cheng Ran's medical skills, and the hypnosis in Qi Yuyang's brain has indeed been lifted. However, the imprint of Chi Zhao on his soul and the spell he carved in his spirit still exist, which cannot be cured by any psychiatrist. , to accompany him the shackles of life.
The severe pain tore at his nerves, Qi Yuyang sat on his knees on the ground, after a while, he opened his eyes with difficulty, looking at the empty surroundings, suddenly, he laughed.
At first, the laughter was very light, and then it became heavier and heavier, and then it was almost bursting out laughing, but this laughter was more poignant and moving than crying, and the sound was scratching on the eardrums. There is no greater sorrow than death, and that's about it.
He originally thought that the day he knew the cause of Xia Lan's death was the most desperate day in his life, but he did not expect that behind the despair, there would be a darker and lonely future.
…
After Chi Zhao went out, he didn't leave too far. He covered his entire face, and then came to the children's playground in the adjacent square. This children's playground was open-air, but it was raining heavily today, and there was no small child at all. The child came over, and Chi Zhao climbed into the highest plastic pipe. Finally, the surroundings were quiet, except for the sound of crackling raindrops.
As a star, the most inconvenient thing is that if he wants to leave his home and find a place to think about the future, there is nowhere to go, and he can only drill the pipes of the children's paradise like a homeless man.
Holding his face, Chi Zhao asked, "What should I do next?"
Hearing this question, the system came to the spirit.
[It seems that we should stop the loss in time. In this way, you go to a place to die, and I will shield you from the pain. After you die, I will find you a very simple and absolutely guaranteed victory. World, this time, we must make a big vote!]
Chi Zhao: "..." To be honest, he doesn't believe what the system says now.
"This time you also said that you won by lying down. What's the result?"
[…I don’t know that there is such a secret in this world. In the next world, I promise to find someone who can’t be cleaned up, okay?]
No matter how the system guarantees, Chi Zhao just didn't hear it, he held his face and sighed lowly.
"He actually let me go."
Chi Zhao's tone sounded a bit strange, and the system was puzzled.
[Do you want him to let you go, or do you want him not to let you go?]
"I hope he will let me go, and I hope he won't let me go."
What Chi Zhao hopes is that Qi Yuyang can be like a normal person. Although it is difficult to make a choice, in the end, he will let him go with respect for him and himself; however, he also hopes that Qi Yuyang's feelings for him will not change. I still can't leave him, and I will find him again, take him home, and never let him go, just like every time before.
The former is the hope of reason, the latter is the hope of selfishness.
[You humans are so complicated, where are there so many things, I will ask you, do you want to stay?]
Chi Zhao tilted his eyes and answered happily, "I think."
[That’s okay, if you want to, you can go back. Anyway, the plot has completely collapsed, and it doesn’t matter whether I go or not. As for you, ah, it will affect a little, that is, the degree of corruption of the body may be a little more, but that is your body, this is the person you like, how to choose, I will listen to you.]
The children's playground here is quite wide, allowing two children to stand side by side. However, as an adult Chi Zhao, there is not enough space to sit here. He put his hands on his knees and put his chin on his knees.
"Look. If he still comes looking for me, then I'll go back. If he doesn't come... I'll just die."
Whether it is the original owner or Chi Zhao, in fact, neither of them has the initiative in this relationship. The original owner knew very clearly at the end that Qi Yuyang just didn't like him, and he would be nice to the original owner just because he was his medicine. Now this question is also put in front of Chi Zhao, and no one knows what kind of answer Chi Zhao will get.
Chi Zhao stayed in this pipe for the whole afternoon and did not go out. In the recent autumn rainy season, it rained and it was cold. When Chi Zhao came out, he didn't wear a coat. Now he was wearing a thin long-sleeved t-shirt. The later, the rain became heavier and heavier. Hungry and cold, Chi Zhao rubbed his arms. Suddenly, a white light flashed in front of his eyes. Chi Zhao raised his head subconsciously, but hit the pipe.
[…Look at this broken place you are looking for, how good it is for you to go to the hotel to open a room, to have food and accommodation, and to wait for others.]
Chi Zhao didn't speak, just shrank his shoulders. It was inconvenient for him to go to the hotel, and... The hotel is too far from here, and the square is right in front of the house. It would be more convenient for Qi Yuyang to find him.
Chi Zhao told the system that the deadline was today. Although there was no set time, it was almost six o'clock in the evening, but it was seven o'clock now, and it was completely dark.
Seeing Chi Zhao still not wanting to move, the system sighed.
[Or... you can go back by yourself.]
"No." Chi Zhao insisted.
For others, love is love, but for Chi Zhao, he fell in love, but even his life was involved. If he was not sure that the other party really liked him, he would not be able to abandon everything and stay. here.
Because this is a relationship that can't even be judged between reality and fantasy, and all he can rely on is the other's feelings.
The system had no choice but to nest in his mind and wait with him.
After eight o'clock in the evening, the thunder and lightning ended, and even the rain stopped, and people's voices gradually began to sound around, but because it was relatively late, there were still not many people coming out. The sound of raindrops slowly disappeared, and Chi Zhao finally gave up. , he moved silently, wanting to crawl out.
Leaping out of the pipe mouth, Chi Zhao looked around and found no one, so he relaxed his vigilance. He walked out slowly, and asked the system in his heart: "Why is it faster to die, can you jump off a building? But I think that will do It's better to jump into the river to cause a sensation, but it seems that you can only block the pain, but not the suffocation..."
The system is silent, don't ask, you won't die anyway.
There is a problem with Chi Zhao. The more upset he is, the more he likes to think about it. The system has long known this. Now Chi Zhao is thinking about it, but it is because Qi Yuyang has never appeared, so he is a little sad, and he doesn't want to show it. I was very sad, so I became a little talkative.
When thinking about this, Chi Zhao lowered his head and turned around a bush. Chi Zhao looked up at the road, but inadvertently saw a tall figure.
Qi Yuyang stood under the plane tree, holding a black windbreaker in his hand, and when he saw Chi Zhao swaying out, his expression changed slightly, and Chi Zhao couldn't describe what kind of change it was. , When Chi Zhao reacted, Qi Yuyang had already walked in front of him.
He unfolded his trench coat, put it on Chi Zhao, then raised his arm and let him put his sleeves in. After he was all dressed, he lowered his eyes and buttoned the row of buttons in front of him gently and carefully.
When doing all this, his movements were so natural that he couldn't see it at all. At noon, he once painfully wanted to end his life.
"… when did you come?"
Hearing Xue Qing's question, Qi Yuyang replied in a low voice, "I don't remember either."
Anyway, when it was still raining, he followed the location to find it. There was nothing in this area except the children's playground. Xue Qing's mobile phone had a heat-sensing function. If the phone was lost, the location would be displayed. Since the green light of the heat-sensing is still there. When it is on, it means that Xue Qing is indeed carrying his mobile phone close to him, and he himself is in this children's paradise.
Qi Yuyang didn't know why Xue Qing came here. After thinking about it, he thought that Xue Qing was greatly stimulated by his mother's affairs, so subconsciously, he came to the place closest to his childhood.
... I have to say that a long illness has become a good doctor, and Qi Yuyang has almost learned the way of Freud.
He didn't dare to bother, so he stood far away on the main road next to the exit of the children's playground. Although the children's playground was open-air, there were barbed wire around it. If you wanted to get out, you had to pass here.
He just stood here and waited, waiting for the moment when Xue Qing took the initiative to come out.
The buttons were all buttoned up, Qi Yuyang raised his head, his eyes lingered on Chi Zhao's face, and after watching for a while, he stretched out his hand again to tidy up the slightly messy collar for Chi Zhao.
His movements... so gentle.
One tear slipped down the corner of his eye to his chin, and another was still brewing in the eye socket, about to fall out, the tears blurred Chi Zhao's vision, making him unable to see what was in front of him, but he could feel that someone was slowly Wipe away your tears.
Chi Zhao blinked his eyes gently, and soon, the tears that interfered with his vision were all gone. He raised his eyes slightly, Qi Yuyang was looking at him, he didn't speak, his facial nerves moved, as if he wanted to provoke A smile, but this action seems to be difficult, it took a lot of effort for him to finally hook the corner of his lips awkwardly and ugly.
"Don't cry, it doesn't look good when you cry."
This is a lie. In fact, he looks good even when he's crying, even better than usual, but no matter how good-looking, Qi Yuyang doesn't want to see him cry, and it's uncomfortable when his heart hurts. He never wants to see Chi Zhao Cry, he just wants to see his smiling face.
No one wants to let the person they like see their unsightly side, and Chi Zhao is the same, so he quickly raised his hand, wiped the excess tears from his eyes, and then sniffed again, making a look like I didn't The sanctimonious appearance of crying.
When he saw Qi Yuyang like this, he wanted to laugh and felt heartbroken. He opened his mouth, and after a long time, he asked the words that he had been thinking about all afternoon, "Come home with me... okay?"
Originally, Chi Zhao had resisted the urge to cry, but after hearing this, he couldn't take it any longer. He waited for a whole day, from disappointment to despair, to renewed hope, and finally, Still waiting.
Chi Zhao didn't answer, he chose to hug Qi Yuyang directly, buried his head in his shoulder pocket, and let the tears flow, seep into his clothes, and stick to his skin.
Qi Yuyang was stunned for a moment. From the moment he came out, his heart was raised high. He didn't know whether the future outcome would be smashed to pieces or what. At this moment, his heart fell back to the ground. Qi Yuyang was stunned for a long time before he grew up. Take a long breath.
He lowered his head, kissed Chi Zhao's hair lightly, and closed his bloodshot eyes as if he were redeemed.