I Really Want to Be With You

Chapter 3: into your world

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Qi Nian took the school bus to the Institute of Biochemistry early in the morning.

To Qi Nian's surprise, this time the speaker was not Ji Yanxin, but one of his friends.

Liu Xia couldn't help but muttered: "Actually, I would like to hear Teacher Ji presiding, but I knew from the beginning of the lecture that he was only in charge..." After a pause, she lowered her voice to provide information, "Mr. Ji recently taught a class. There are more, and the voice is not very good."

Qi Nian was shopping for breakfast. After picking out the key points on the memo, he took out his wallet to pay, "Then, will Teacher Ji be at the venue today?"

Liu Xia gave a "hmm" and swallowed a mouthful of shaomai, "Mr. Ji is not only rigorous in teaching, but also on weekdays. He asked Li Yue and I to come earlier, he will definitely not be late, you..."

Before he could finish speaking, the phone was hung up.

Liu Xia stared at the phone and said angrily, "How dare you hang up on me!"

Qi Nian hung up the phone with a guilty conscience, silently took the purse that fell on the ground from Ji Yanxin's hand, and was stared at by him, so stiff that he didn't even know where to put his hands and feet, "Ji...Mr. Ji. "

"Yeah." Ji Yanxin squinted slightly, his eyes shifted from her somewhat flustered face to the small memo in her hand.

The writing was not large, and he only saw his own name in one line.

Qi Nian followed his gaze and hurriedly stuffed the memo into his pocket.

"Written what?" he asked.

Qi Nian shook his head and said, "It's nothing."

When the words fell, Qi Nian immediately "returned his confession": "Bookkeeping! Details of the accounts."

Ji Yanxin didn't ask any further, just turned around and asked the boss for two baskets of small steamed buns.

Qi Nian stood at the window and waited for the soup dumplings that were still in the steamer, watching the boss swiftly handing the dumplings to him, "Why didn't Qibao come?"

"It's inconvenient when it's raining." Ji Yanxin took it and pressed the corner of his lips slightly, "So I'll pack it up and take it back."

The boss laughed loudly, "Then go back quickly, or Qibao will be in a hurry."

Ji Yanxin didn't answer. When he picked up his umbrella and was about to leave, he seemed to remember her existence, glanced at her lightly, nodded lightly, and turned away without saying a word.

Qi Nian wanted to talk to Ji Yanxin since she heard the name "Qibao" just now, but he always seemed to keep away from strangers, which made her need to muster up her courage to even speak.

He hesitated a few times until a voice came from behind: "Your soup is ready."

All Qi Nian's courage was shattered in an instant. She turned around to take the soup bag, and when she hurriedly looked back, Ji Yanxin's figure had already disappeared from the door.

Qi Nian looked back in frustration, staring at the soup bag in his hand.

When Qi Nian arrived at the venue, Li Yue and Liu Xia had already come first.

Liu Xia was preparing the form, and she didn't care about finding Qi Nian to hang up the phone first. She shoved the pen into her hand, "I'll help you count the number of people later, I'll help Brother Yue."

Qi Nian was given a heavy responsibility by surprise, and before he could resist in a small way, people started to enter the arena one after another.

Qi Nian turned his pen to record the number of people, while paying attention to whether Ji Yanxin was coming.

But until the lecture started, the small venue was overcrowded, and Ji Yanxin was not seen.

Rigorous... what rigor!

She murmured and muttered, and her pen poked and poked dots on the form.

Liu Xia came over to deliver water to Qi Nian, and when she saw her absent-mindedness, she lightly bumped her arm, "Isn't it because my information was wrong, so I'm so depressed?"

Qi Nian took the mineral water that she handed over, unscrewed the bottle cap and took a sip. Before he swallowed the water, he said vaguely, "I met Teacher Ji this morning."

Only then did Liu Xia remember the matter of being hung up, and gouged her out, "So you hung up on me?"

Qi Nian nodded, sighed and said, "I always feel... Teacher Ji doesn't have a good impression of me."

Liu Xia immediately remembered the word she used to describe herself - the prodigal son.

Just as he was about to laugh, seeing her annoyed look, he finally held it back and comforted: "Our teacher Ji has never been sympathetic to girls, so don't take it too seriously."

Qi Nian glanced at her resentfully, and wanted to say something, when she suddenly heard pleasant and depressed conversations around her.

She looked up.

Outside the glass door, there is a shadowy figure, tall and tall, with his back to the classroom and talking in a low voice with the person at the door, bending politely, about the height of the other person.

Soon, everyone in the venue who didn't want to drink alcohol discovered his arrival.

Deliberately low-pitched whispers, uncontrollable excitement and excitement, the whole quiet venue, there was a messy little commotion at the beginning of the lecture, and at the end, even the lecturer couldn't help but turn his head to look over.

He didn't know when he came in and sat down in the corner of the podium. He was wearing a calm white shirt in an inconspicuous position, but he was more eye-catching than anyone sitting on the stage.

As if he didn't hear the sudden exclamation because of his arrival, he didn't even look at the manuscript, he quietly looked at the manuscript on his desktop.

No words, no expressions, not even many movements.

The originally silent atmosphere in the venue, after his arrival, quietly warmed up.

Liu Xia laughed inexplicably and bumped into Qi Nian's arm, "How about it, do you feel the threat of your love rival Sanqian?"

Qi Nian bit his pen and nodded his head, his eyes lingering on the podium, reluctant to look away, "More than three thousand..."

Liu Xia shook his head, thought for a moment, and held her back, "Well, the water hasn't been delivered yet, help Brother Yue to give the lecturer and the host a bottle."

Qi Nian's eyes lit up, looking at Liu Xia, the words "God assists" almost appeared on his face...

Ji Yanxin noticed that someone was walking on the podium, and turned his head to look.

Qi Nian holds several bottles of water in his arms and is distributing them one by one.

His eyes fell, and he continued to look at the manuscript with nothing to do with himself.

When Qi Nian handed the mineral water to Ji Yanxin, the latter just said "um" and raised his chin slightly to signal her to put the water on the podium.

As soon as he approached him... and approached him in front of the "three thousand rivals in love", Qi Nian felt inexplicably warm in his ears.

The voice of the lecturer in her ear seemed to be far away at this moment. She lowered her head and held the water bottle on his left hand. When she leaned over, her sleeves inevitably touched his fingers on the armrest.

Ji Yanxin retracted his hand, turned the manuscript to the second page, and held the manuscript in that hand, never letting go.

When Qi Nian came down, he realized that his whole face was a little hot.

She quietly covered her face with the back of her cold hand, knowing that it must be as red as a monkey's butt.

Liu Xia watched her come back, and raised his eyebrows playfully, "Why don't you just hand me some water, why are you blushing?"

Qi Nian glared at her, "I'm thin-skinned!"

"Okay, you are thin." Liu Xia turned around, pulled a chair and sat down, "Come here, sit and listen for a while."

Qi Nian sat down with her, but what was she listening to... She didn't pay attention at all.

The only thing she cared about was when he drank the water—well, the water she handed her.

But until her eyes were sore, the bottle of water on his left was still there, motionless.

"Xiao Ji." Professor Shen next to Ji Yanxin leaned over, "Where did you invite the lecturer?"

"Not a professional lecturer." Ji Yanxin glanced sideways at the speaker's seat, "It's my university alumni."

"No wonder." Professor Shen sighed, and then asked again, "Can you set up a dinner after the end and introduce it to me."

This Professor Shen from the Institute of Biochemistry loves to make friends with talented people as soon as he meets them, and his temperament has not changed for most of his life.

Ji Yanxin thought for a while, and nodded in response: "What's the problem with that?"

Professor Shen sat back with a smile.

Ji Yanxin also sat up straight, picked up the bottle of water on the table casually, unscrewed the cap and took a sip.

Compared with some sweet mineral water, Ji Yanxin prefers to drink tea, smelling the fragrance of tea, the sweet or bitter tea into the throat is the most refreshing.

After only one sip, he put the lid back on.

And Qi Nian, who was more than a dozen steps away, slipped her elbow on the table and slammed her chin on the hard desk. The pain made her grin and tears welled up in her eyes.

Liu Xia was taken aback by her, "What are you doing..."

"Drink it!" Qi Nian rubbed his chin, so moved that he almost burst into tears.

Liu Xia looked inexplicable, "What did you drink?"

"Mr. Ji drank the water I handed over!"

Liu Xia: "..." Neuropathy!

The lecture has an interactive part, as the name implies - asking questions, preset for 20 minutes.

Such a rigorous and solemn lecture, although there will be no girls asking Ji Yanxin's personal questions openly, but more or less will point the finger at him, waiting for him to answer.

Ji Yanxin's response has always been: "Today is not my home game, leave this question to the lecturer to answer."

Hearing this, Qi Nian couldn't help but wonder: "On the first day Mr. Ji was airborne to the Biochemical Institute, were there any girls who molested him?"

Liu Xia expressed panic at the word "molesting", "How dare you! Originally I had the same thoughts, but you don't know, Teacher Ji calmly rectified the internal affairs of our class during class..."

Qi Nian seemed to understand, but subconsciously, he felt that Ji Yanxin was very powerful.

After all, she had seen Qibao when he was calmly cooking Qibao... It was just a look. He originally took away the bag of dog food in her bag, and happily turned to look for Qibao, who was asking for credit, and instantly dropped his head and obediently put the dog food away. Handed it over, while aggrieved, he pushed the dog food in front of her with his paws.

Uh... This reference doesn't seem right.

At the end of the lecture, people walked one after another.

It was lunchtime. Rao was a secluded biochemical institute, and it was very noisy at this time.

Ji Yanxin introduced Shao Zui to Professor Shen, listened to the two of them being polite to each other, and turned to look at the side door.

Li Yue, Liu Xia and Qi Nian were cleaning up the venue, moving tables and chairs.

Professor Shen turned his head, followed his gaze, and patted Ji Yanxin on the shoulder, "It's noon, call your students to have dinner together, it's really hard work."

"Um."

So Qi Nian was so confused and ate at the same table with Teacher Ji again.

Liu Xia deliberately stopped Li Yue from sitting next to Shao Zui, leaving the seat beside Ji Yanxin to Qi Nian.

Qi Nian held it back all morning, and when he returned to the box after using the toilet, he was a little dumbfounded.

Just... so blatantly giving her convenience

She was hesitating whether to sit over or not, when Professor Shen suddenly asked, "Xiao Ji, is this your student?"

Ji Yanxin picked up the goblet and took a sip of coconut milk. Hearing the words, he turned his head to the side, his eyes stopped on Qi Nian's face for a while, and replied, "Not my student."

Professor Shen touched his chin and smiled meaningfully, "No wonder, I've never seen it before."

Qi Nian's wish to eat and pretend to be dead was suddenly shattered, and under the watchful eyes of everyone, he could only bite the bullet and sit in the only vacant seat. After pouring coconut juice in the goblet, he stood up again to pay respects to Professor Shen... Coconut juice, "Professor Shen, I am a first-year graduate student majoring in ancient literature. My name is Qi Nian."

Professor Shen gave an "oh" and clinked glasses with Qi Nian unexpectedly, "Ancient literature major?"

Qi Nian nodded embarrassedly. It's amazing that an ancient literature major can sneak into the dining table of the Biochemical Institute...

Afraid of Qi Nian's embarrassment, Liu Xia hurriedly said, "Professor Shen, Qi Nian is my friend. She is very interested in the Institute of Biochemistry, so she came to visit."

Professor Shen was instantly rejoicing, his eyes wandered around Qi Nian, whose ears were slightly red, and Ji Yanxin, who was cold and estranged, and asked, "Have you visited any famous halls?"

Everyone heard this joke, but Qi Nian really thought about it seriously, "The Biochemical Institute is much better than ours..."

"It's just been renovated." Professor Shen laughed twice and left a comment, "I didn't visit carefully enough, you have to visit the pillars of our courtyard."

The words fell, and his eyes fell on Ji Yanxin's body pointedly, only for a moment, and then happily moved away, without the slightest sense of guilt for making fun of the junior.

Professor Shen and Ji Yanxin's father were colleagues for a long time. Even if Professor Ji went to the sea to do business for various reasons, the contacts between the two have never been broken.

Over the decades, the friendship has become even stronger and more stable.

Ji Yanxin has been teased by Professor Shen since he was a child, and he has long been used to it. Hearing this, he just narrowed his eyebrows and said nothing.

Qi Nian's response was slow, and he didn't even hear that Professor Shen was joking. He honestly agreed, and then sat down, thinking that he would have to ask Liu Xia "what is the pillar of the Biochemical Institute" later.

As a result, she didn't see Ji Yanxin's hand scooping the soup for a while, and the wind glanced at her.

Only Li Yue, an insider, almost got hurt internally...

When Qi Nian sat back, Professor Shen had already talked with Shao Zui about today's lecture.

Don't say that she can't get in the way, Liu Xia and Li Yue are both immersed in their meals.

As soon as you concentrate, the person sitting next to you has a particularly strong sense of presence.

He squeezed the tin can and added half a cup of coconut milk to the cup...

He picked up the beef that the waiter had just brought up and dipped it in the black pepper sauce beside the plate...

He gave Professor Shen a chopstick of vegetables and reminded him not to eat too much meat...

Qi Nian bit the corn, the crispy corn kernels were broken down between her teeth, the juice was fragrant and sweet.

She quietly tilted her head to look at him, and tried her best to search for a topic in her mind that she could talk to him a few words—

right! By the way, Seven Treasures!

Qi Nian cleared his throat, lowered his voice and asked in a low voice, "Mr. Ji, this morning..."

Ji Yanxin didn't speak, just turned his head and looked at her.

Just looking at it, Qi Nian felt a little nervous, didn't dare to look at him at all, tried to pretend that nothing had happened, lowered his eyes, and focused on the coconut milk in the cup, "Do you often go to that breakfast shop to buy breakfast? "

"It's relatively close." Ji Yanxin put down his chopsticks and wiped his hands with a damp towel, "I usually make breakfast myself."

He was willing to answer, which made Qi Nian feel like a reassurance pill, and his confidence increased a lot, and he was no longer as restrained as before, "That Qibao...do you like to eat Xiaolong Baozi?"

When it comes to Qibao, Ji Yanxin's expressionless face is a little loose, and he curls his lips, "It all likes it."

When the words fell, he pushed away the chair and stood up, nodded, and turned to go out.

The little balloon that had just inflated in Qi Nian's heart suddenly huffed, and it all leaked.

Still, I haven't said the last three words yet...

Ji Yanxin went out this time to settle the bill, and when he came back, everyone had almost eaten.

Ji Yanxin sent Professor Shen back, and Shao Zui was picked up, not to mention Li Yue and Liu Xia, the hotel was so close to the school, it was only a short walk away.

The rest of Qi Nian will go home in the afternoon and wait for the bus at the bus stop not far from the hotel.

Ji Yanxin drove out of the hotel's underground parking lot with Professor Shen in his car. As soon as he merged into the traffic, he encountered a red light at the intersection.

Professor Shen wiped his glasses with a mirror cloth. He was highly short-sighted, making it difficult for him to see as soon as he took off his glasses.

Ji Yanxin watched for a while, then put the lens cloth back into the glasses case for him, "Have you been to optometry this year?"

"Not yet." Professor Shen put the glasses back on. "It's okay to have optometry or not. I'm so old, and the degree is stable, but my eyesight is getting worse and worse..."

As soon as he finished speaking, he said "hey" and pointed to the bus stop not far away, "Is that Qi Nian?"

Ji Yanxin looked in the direction of his fingers, raised his eyebrows and said, "You just said that your eyesight is getting worse and worse?"

Professor Shen didn't hold back his laugh and was amused for a long time, "I'll go over and ask later, and if you drop by, I'll take someone for a ride."

At the green light, Ji Yanxin released the brakes without saying a word and slowly followed the vehicle in front.

Ji Yanxin has been taciturn since he was a child, and he is lukewarm to anyone. Professor Shen is used to it. At the bus stop, Professor Shen lowered the window, "Qi, where are you going?"

Qi Nian was suddenly named, watching the black Audi in front of him lowered the window, and quickly stepped forward and said, "Professor Shen."

Professor Shen responded, "Where are you going, if you drop by, let Teacher Ji take you there."

Qi Nian hesitated for a while before answering: "I'm going to Yimeng Community, it's a bit far..."

"By the way, come up quickly."

Qi Nian looked at Ji Yanxin hesitantly.

Ji Yanxin slowly turned his hand holding the steering wheel, and said concisely, "Come up."

After eating at the same table in confusion, Qi Nian got into Ji Yanxin's car in confusion...

The air conditioner is turned on in the car for ventilation, because it is autumn, the temperature is not very low.

Qi Nian sat in the back seat, and Ji Yanxin's back was diagonally opposite.

She glanced quietly, and felt her ears warm again.

Ji Yanxin's driving posture was very casual, with one hand resting on the edge of the window and only the right hand holding the steering wheel. Not a standard posture, but unexpectedly seductive.

Qi Nian's eyes fell on the buttons on his cuffs that were meticulously buttoned, and further down, it was his hand with sharp bones.

In the past, when Qi Nian didn't know about Ji Yanxin's existence, Liu Xia swiped the screen almost every day, "Qi Nian, our professor's fingers are so good that they can be used as hand molds, but he has become a professor at the School of Biochemistry of Z University. , what a waste...

"Qi Nian, imagine your male protagonist's white, slender, well-jointed hand holding the test tube and focusing on observation... Is the blood tank empty in an instant?"

really...

Qi Nian touched her ears, lowered her head, and couldn't help bending the corners of her lips - in the future... In the future, she will also be able to see Ji Yanxin wearing a white coat and personally demonstrating the appearance of doing experiments!

It's too quiet in the car.

Professor Shen was silent for a moment, but he couldn't help it. He turned his head to look at Ji Yanxin, who was not looking sideways, and then looked back at Qi Nian, who was quiet in the back seat, and decided to talk to Qi Nian to relieve his boredom.

Professor Shen cleared his throat and asked, "Xiao Qi, where are you from?"

Qi Nian was stunned, and then realized that the "Xiao Qi" in Professor Shen's mouth was not someone else, but her.

"I am local in City Z. Except for studying abroad in university, I have never left City Z since I was a child."

Professor Shen narrowed his eyes and asked curiously, "I heard you say that you are studying ancient literature for a lifetime?"

Qi Nian nodded and said, "Yes, I went back to Z University as a graduate student."

"Where did you go to college before?"

"J University in J province." Qi Nian scratched his head, feeling a little embarrassed, "My first choice was Z University, my father was reluctant for me to go to college, but when I was a senior in high school..."

Qi Nian paused.

The car is already on the elevated.

She stopped abruptly, causing Ji Yanxin to take a look in the rearview mirror distracted.

Qi Nian rubbed his arms, and every time he recalled the past, he always felt a chill in his heart.

She covered the depression and depression in her eyes, and continued: "When everyone was working hard to prepare for the exam in the second semester of high school, I became obsessed with drawing, and I wasted my studies, so I had to go to J University."

Ji Yanxin retracted his gaze, held the steering wheel with his hand on the edge of the window, and turned off the air conditioner with his right hand.

"Promising." Professor Shen laughed twice and comforted, "I don't regret it as a graduate student at Z University."

Qi Nian didn't know what to think, so he nodded heavily, "Well, no regrets!"

After getting off the viaduct, it didn't take long to drive to the main street, which was Professor Shen's home.

The car drove into the community and stopped in front of the unit building.

After seeing Professor Shen away, Ji Yanxin didn't rush to turn around and left, holding the steering wheel with both hands, looking back at her, "Sit here."

Qi Nian let out a "hey", doubting his ears.

Ji Yanxin paused for a few seconds before repeating, "Sit in front, I don't know the way."

Qi Nian: "...Oh."

After changing seats, Qi Nian became more cautious. Should he put his hands in front of him or on his knees? Or just casually put it on your leg...

It was the fifth time she took the trouble to smooth the skirt corners, Ji Yanxin, who had been staring intently at the road ahead, turned his head, picked up the phone on the console, swiped the screen, unlocked it, and handed it to her.

"Turn on bluetooth, connect."

Qi Nian glanced at him unexpectedly, her hand shaking when she took the phone, she held it in both hands, and turned on Bluetooth in the settings as he said.

Only one signal is found in the Bluetooth connection bar.

She clicked on the connection, and after a few seconds, a crisp prompt sounded, and the connection to the car's Bluetooth was successful.

At the red light in front, Ji Yanxin stopped slowly, staring at her seriously for the first time.

City Z is located in the humid south, and it is a little unpredictable when it comes to autumn.

Although it is not like summer, one day is sultry, and the next day there will be a thunderstorm to relieve the heat.

More often, it is sunny and sunny, and it is cloudy.

Dark clouds covered the sky and the sun came, and the golden sunlight was just so close to the clouds.

Qi Nian watched the change of light slowly pass Ji Yanxin's face, his eyes gradually brightened and deep, as if something broke into her heart without warning.

She looked away, unable to meet his eyes.

Her heart was like a deer that was beating wildly, making her a little crazy.

"If you're bored, you can listen to music." His fingers tapped on the steering wheel lightly, and the red light in front entered the countdown.

Qi Nian watched the number gradually decrease, and said "Oh".

The hand holding his phone was still stiff, but his mind was tumbling and surging, never ending.

He's afraid of being bored...

So I gave her the phone and let her listen to the music on the car stereo.

Qi Nian bit his lower lip, so sweet that his heart was about to melt.

Liu Xia was staring at the petri dish. When the mobile phone in her pocket vibrated, she was startled because she was too focused, seeing that it was Qi Nian's text messages, two in a row.

"Liu Xia, you can't imagine whose car I'm in now..."

"Hey, the girl's heart is bursting, how to break, how to break, how to break? Cover your face and bury your chest."

At present, there is only one person who can make a girl like Qi Nian burst into the heart and be so restless - Professor Ji.

Liu Xia took off his gloves, talked to Li Yue, and went straight to the living area to text Qi Nian back to check the situation.

Qi Nian arrived home early, lying in the arms of his mother and eating cookies.

Mother Qi glanced at Liu Xia's name flashing on the phone screen, hooked Qi Nian's broken hair behind her ear, and asked, "Liu Xia hasn't been at home for a long time, when will you bring her back with Li Yue? Mom cooks a good meal for them... I always eat in the cafeteria, and everyone eats bean sprouts."

"What's wrong with bean sprouts..." Qi Nian squeezed his belly, looked at the half-eaten cookie in his hand, struggled for a long time, and put the last bite into his mouth.

Out of sight is pure!

Touching back to the room, Qi Nian opened Liu Xia's text message.

Liu Xia: "What's the situation???"

Qi Nian made a smile that covered his mouth: "That's it, I was waiting for the bus, and then Mr. Ji took Professor Shen back. It happened to be on the way, so let me grab a car... Then, Mr. Ji took me to the gate of the community. gone back."

Liu Xia: "..."

Well, this kind of progress is indeed a big breakthrough compared to when I couldn’t even speak before.

After thinking about it, Liu Xia reminded again: "Don't be happy at home and forget about the business. There is a class tomorrow morning, and Teacher Ji doesn't like to be late."

Qi Nian patted his head, it was broken... I almost forgot about it!

Yimeng Community is a little far from Z, and the safest estimate is 45 minutes by bus, not including the time to wait for the bus.

Therefore, after having dinner at home, Qi Nian didn't have time to enjoy the warmth of the harbor, so he took the last bus back to school and went back to the dormitory to sleep.

By the way... Tonight, I can put some of her drawings on Weibo for official serialization.

Qi Nian is a waste of name, which can be seen from the pseudonym "Qi Zai" that she decided on after thinking twice. Therefore, after thinking about the name for a long time, I finally had to go to Weibo to ask for help from the almighty little angels.

Because the pseudonym "Seven Cubs" is really high-end, the title of the book has gone through "The Love Tea Set Touched by Comics", "Male God Chasing Love", and "The Love Story of a Seven Cubs", until the final decision was made by Qi Nian himself. Under the "beautiful repair".

How did you get it out

When Qi Nian was flipping through the book recently, he just came across this sentence - "Beauty wants to be stunned by Yi Xiu, and Pei Wu rides on Guizhou."

Well, the beauty is Ji Yanxin... She is the man who was chasing after Guizhou...

The pit is dug.

Next is to fill in every day.

Every time Qi Nian finishes a comic, he will spend a long period of time just drawing short paragraphs, resting himself, and rarely opening a new one quickly.

After all, selling cute is much easier than digging a hole.

Therefore, the little angels were suddenly attacked by their own big brother, not only the reader group, the support group, but also the entire Weibo has exploded.

When Qi Nian went to cook instant noodles, when he came back, the Penguin had already been poked by the support group's Qixiong weak.

She held the instant noodles and bit the hot noodles, feeling her heart was hot. Then, Qi Nian posted a Weibo in the tone of a literary youth, and the readers couldn't come back to their senses for dozens of days...

"I wasn't stimulated, I just met a male god."