In the hospital in the middle of the night, everything was silent. The boy's ward was dark and dim, and only the bright moonlight shone on the ground through the window, casting a faint silvery white color.
"Well… "
The boy let out a soft moan, his eyes were wet and full of water vapor. He sat on Xie Yuanhuai's lap, wrapped around the back of the other's neck, passively endured the overly eager kiss.
Xie Yuanhuai looked cold, but when he kissed the young man, he seemed to want to eat someone, and the kiss was extra heavy. He put his arms around the boy's waist, brought the man down, rolled over and pressed him on top, pressed him on the bed and kissed him for a long time, until the boy began to struggle weakly, and then slowly let him go.
"Huh, huh..."
The boy's face was blushing, his lips were kissed with water, and he lay down on the bed softly, gasping for breath.
Xie Yuanhuai's eyes dimmed, and he leaned over and kissed him lightly, causing the young man to wince, blushing lightly pushing his shoulder, and whispering, "Please, don't... I can't take it anymore..."
"Don't you like Xiaochu?" The handsome man asked in a hoarse voice, "If you don't want to, I won't touch you like this in the future."
"Do not… "
Hearing him say this, the young man couldn't help pulling on the hem of his clothes, his voice was as soft as melting honey, and his expression was terribly shy: "It's not that I don't like it..."
"good."
Xie Yuanhuai kissed his face, raised the corners of his lips slightly, and filled with a very shallow smile.
When he laughed, it was like melting ice and snow, and it was terribly good-looking. The young man was stunned. After regaining his senses, he found that he was being kissed again. Oh, brother Yuanhuai always hooked him like this, but he I can't refuse every time...
…
"That way you won't be afraid, will you?"
Xie Yuanhuai hugged the boy who was so weak from the kiss in his arms, touched the boy's red ears with cold fingers, and dropped a soft kiss on his forehead.
"But… "
The boy muttered with a flushed face.
He clearly just wanted brother Yuanhuai to accompany him, as long as he was here, he would not be afraid... His intentions were originally very simple, but brother Yuanhuai always, always...
But he didn't continue talking, because he knew that if he wanted to refute, brother Yuan Huai would definitely ask him if he didn't like something like that.
He couldn't say that he didn't like it. In fact, he still liked kissing with brother Yuan Huai very much, but he just didn't want to be so intense all the time.
What's more, he didn't want to refuse brother Yuanhuai. He came to accompany him so hard in the middle of the night because he said that he had heard the ghost stories told by the nurse's sister during the day, and he was so afraid that he couldn't sleep at night.
But he remembered that brother Yuan Huai was hospitalized because of a heart attack. He came to accompany him at night without going to sleep. Does his health really matter...
Thinking of this, the young man couldn't help but confided his worries to Xie Yuanhuai.
"It doesn't matter." Xie Yuanhuai touched his soft hair and said, "I won't force myself, you don't have to worry."
"Really? That's fine... "
The boy blinked and asked curiously, "Brother Yuanhuai, won't you be afraid on the way from your ward to me?"
He remembered the ghost stories told by the nurses during the day, about the ogre in the sewers, the red-clothed female corpse in the morgue, and he couldn't help but cringe when he looked at the door, as if in the next second, there would be something behind the dark door. Something came over, stretched out a pair of bloody hands, and gently pushed the door open...
He couldn't help shrinking into Xie Yuanhuai's arms again.
"No." Xie Yuanhuai said coldly, "These things don't exist in the hospital."
"It would be great if that was the case." The boy muttered, "Brother Yuanhuai, do you really think there are ghosts in this world?"
"… "
Xie Yuanhuai's movements were slightly stagnant.
"What do you think of Xiaochu?"
"I don't know... I hope the best is not, I'm scared."
Xie Yuanhuai was silent for a moment and said, "You can't accept the existence of ghosts?"
"It doesn't seem to be able to." The boy thought for a while and added, "But not necessarily. After all, I have never seen ghosts, and I don't know how I would react to them."
Xie Yuanhuai nodded slightly and said nothing. With his company, the young man was very at ease, and gradually fell into sleepiness and fell asleep.
Half-dreaming and half-awake, he faintly felt a hand pat him lightly, and that gentle and low voice whispered in his ear.
"Go to sleep."
The next day, the boy slowly woke up and opened his eyes in a daze.
The sun inside the house was just right, clean and bright, and the air was warm, but Xie Yuanhuai was nowhere to be seen.
…
Holding a pile of snacks, the teenager looked excited and excited, and took the elevator from the eighth floor to the fourth floor. This is the floor where the patients of the cardiology department live.
It has always been Brother Yuanhuai who went to his ward to find him, or they met directly at the old place in the courtyard. Until now, he has never visited Brother Yuanhuai's ward.
Today the nurse sister gave him some snacks. He thought it was very delicious. He couldn't wait to take them out and share them with brother Yuanhuai. Well, I just don't know if heart disease patients have any taboos. He should inquire about it first...
The teenager got off the elevator and went straight to the nurse's station on the fourth floor. He didn't know Xie Yuanhuai's ward number. Even if he asked many times, Xie Yuanhuai never told him whether he was hospitalized because of a heart attack or was a teenager. I asked later.
"Hello, sister nurse."
The boy's eyes were bright and he said with a bright smile, "I want to inquire about a patient. His name is Xie Yuanhuai. May I ask which ward he lives in?"
"Xie Yuanhuai? I'll check it for you." The nurse's attitude was very kind, "How do you write his name?"
"Thank you, sister." The young man smiled, "Thank you, thank you, far and near, Huai River's Huai."
The nurse opened the registration form on the computer, searched for it, showed a surprised look, shook her head and said to the boy, "Did you remember the wrong name or floor? We don't have a patient named Xie Yuanhuai here."
"How could..." The boy blinked his eyes and said in disbelief, "But his name is Xie Yuanhuai..."
"I just searched for the surname 'Xie', but there is no patient with the surname Xie." The nurse said, "Maybe you can go to another floor and ask."
"it is good… "
The young man nodded in disappointment, and asked about all floors 1 to 7 of the inpatient department, and even asked about the eighth floor where he lived, but there was indeed no patient named "Xie Yuanhuai", not even a name with a similar pronunciation. .
"Could it be that Brother Yuanhuai said a pseudonym?"
He was very confused and couldn't understand no matter how he thought about it: "But why did Brother Yuanhuai lie to me, it doesn't make sense..."
"What does he look like?"
The nurse on the eighth floor was familiar with him and became more enthusiastic. Hearing the words, he asked with concern, "Tell me about it, and I'll help you find out later."
"He's good-looking, tall and thin, with fair skin, and he must be the best looking person in the hospital."
The young man said firmly, and suddenly thought of something, patted his head and said.
"By the way, the hospital gown that brother Yuanhuai wears is very special. His gown is white." He looked down at his light blue gown, "The style is also different. The hospital logo on his gown is On the right, not on the left."
"Huh...?" The nurse was very surprised, "The hospital gowns you mentioned are from several years ago and have been discontinued long ago. Now all the patients wear clothes like yours, how could anyone wear them? What about planting clothes?"
She thought it was very strange. At this time, an older nurse happened to pass by. She stopped him, told the story again, and then asked.
"… So are there still patients in old-fashioned hospital gowns?"
The older nurse changed slightly and asked the boy, "You said the person you're looking for is Xie Yuanhuai?"
"Yes..." The boy's mood was a little low, "but it may be a pseudonym."
"...I don't know who the person you're looking for is, but the hospital did once have a patient named 'Xie Yuanhuai' who had congenital heart disease."
The older nurse looked complicated.
"I used to take care of him, but that was years ago."
"He is long dead now."
"… "
The boy's face turned pale.
He looked past the nurse and saw a pure white figure appearing at the entrance of the corridor.
The young and handsome man was watching him with complicated eyes.
The young man suddenly remembered the cold temperature on the man's body, the people around him turned a blind eye to him, appeared silently in the middle of the night, and all kinds of strange expressions—
His pupils shrank suddenly.
… is a ghost.
His elder brother Yuanhuai is a ghost.
"Xiaochu..."
Xie Yuanhuai muttered the boy's name in a low voice, as if he wanted to pass, but the boy took a few steps back with a pale face, suddenly turned around, and ran away in a hurry.
"… "
Xie Yuanhuai lowered his eyes and stood quietly on the spot, without moving for a long time.
…
It was quiet in the dead of night, and the ward was quiet. The boy lay on the bed staring at the ceiling, without the slightest drowsiness.
Brother Yuanhuai didn't come to him today.
He is gone.
The boy's eyes gradually became sour, and tears dripped down his cheeks into the pillow.
A few days ago, when he suddenly realized that brother Yuan Huai was a ghost, he was so frightened that he couldn't help but run away, but after that, he immediately regretted it. Although brother Yuan Huai was a ghost, he never hurt him. His actions, on the contrary, treat him very carefully, so gentle brother Yuan Huai, what does it matter if he is a ghost
But his actions must have hurt Brother Yuanhuai, and he hasn't appeared since that day.
What should I do... How should he get Brother Yuanhuai back...
The young man buried his face in the pillow, his shoulders trembled slightly, and there was a light choking sound.
"Cuck, chuckle... chuckle..."
At this moment, he suddenly heard a very strange sound coming from the bathroom of the ward.
What was that sound? Could it be Brother Yuanhuai coming? But nothing like...
The teenager was apprehensive, put on slippers, turned on the bedside lamp, and walked quietly to the door of the bathroom, lying on the door panel listening to the movement inside.
"Ah, huh..."
The strange movement continued to sound, and suddenly the switch of the toilet was pressed, and there was a "beep" inside, and there was the sound of flushing.
This can't be Brother Yuanhuai!
The boy's face turned white, and he suddenly remembered the ghost story of "The Ogre of the Sewer". He couldn't stay in the house any longer, and immediately opened the door and rushed into the corridor.
So scary... Ghosts are real, and the ogre is very likely to exist too!
He stood shaking in the corridor, his hands and feet were cold, and he didn't know what to do. The little nurse on duty at the nurse station saw him walk out of the room, with a puzzled face, and asked softly, "Zhichu, why did you come out? Is there something wrong?"
"I… "
The teenager opened his mouth, not knowing how he could convince her that he had seen a ghost just now, but at this moment, he suddenly saw a bright red figure appearing at the end of the corridor.
It was a young woman with disheveled hair, pale complexion, slightly rotted, wearing a blood-red dress, slowly raising her head, and looking at him stiffly.
It's the corpse of the woman in red... there's a ghost! There are really ghosts in the hospital, and those legends are true!
"Sister, there is a ghost, run!"
The boy was so scared that his face was pale, he grabbed the little nurse's hand and was about to run away. At this time, the elevator in the hospital was out of service and could not be used, so he pulled the little nurse and ran to the stairwell in a panic.
"Knowing the beginning? Huh?"
The little nurse looked back, it was obviously empty and there was nothing. She thought of the juvenile delusional disorder, and her heart skipped a beat, thinking that it was his illness, so she grabbed him and said as softly as possible.
"Don't be afraid, there are no ghosts in the hospital. You can see that I've been on night shifts for several years, and I'm fine. So there are really no ghosts. Just take some medicine and go to sleep."
"not real… "
The boy's tone was extremely flustered. Seeing that she didn't listen, he had to pull her sleeves and walked down the stairs, but he didn't notice his feet.
The nurse screamed, "Knowing the beginning!"
"Boom—"
…
"Fortunately, Zhichu's injury is not serious."
Dr. Luo gently supported the boy's head, looked at it carefully, took the CT image of the brain and watched it for a long time, then shook his head and said.
"However, because of the impact on the head, in a short period of time, his consciousness will be slightly confused, and he will be even more unable to distinguish the difference between reality and fantasy. This requires us to slowly guide him and help him recover."
The good-looking woman nodded, looked at the boy sitting on the bed, and a trace of worry flashed in her eyes: "My child... Will he get better?"
"Don't worry about this." Dr. Luo nodded, "We will do our best to cure him."
After a few words with the boy's mother, Dr. Luo sat on the hospital bed, pressed the boy's shoulder, and said in a serious tone, "Zhichu, do you believe me and your mother?"
"… certainly."
The boy's reaction was slow for a while, then nodded, his eyes were very clear: "Of course I believe in you and mother."
"Well, let's tell you, there are no ghosts in this world, you don't have to be afraid at all."
Dr. Luo said: "Those ghosts are all imaginary by you, including Xie Yuanhuai, who passed away a long time ago and is not a real person."
"No..." The boy opened his mouth and defended anxiously, "Brother Yuanhuai is true..."
"Xiao Chu!"
The woman suddenly stepped forward, with tears in her eyes, she held him in her arms with a pale face, and said in an almost pleading tone.
"I beg you to get better soon, okay? Do you know how much mom is worried about you when you heard that you fell down the stairs... I'm begging you..."
"... Mom?" The boy who was hugged by her was stunned.
In his memory, his mother was always busy with work and almost never cared about him. Because of his sexuality, he rarely even smiled at him. He always thought she must dislike him very much.
"You are mother's precious son, how could mother not like you."
As if she knew what he was thinking, the woman whispered something, but she was cold by nature, and being able to say such words was the limit, so she stopped talking and gently stroked the boy's hair.
"In the future, my mother will change... I will definitely care more about you, as does my father. He also loves you very much. He will come back from abroad to see you soon. So for us, you must get better, okay?"
"… Um!"
The boy's eyes were red, he nodded heavily, and hugged her tightly. The woman's body trembled, her heart was filled with joy and sorrow, and she couldn't help shedding tears. Dr. Luo, who was on the side, also smiled when she saw this, and there was heartfelt relief in her expression.
…
It's just that in the deepest part of the young man's heart, he still doesn't want to believe that what Xie Yuanhuai he sees is just an illusion.
Obviously that feeling is so real. The man he has hugged, kissed, and relied on wholeheartedly will accompany him to sleep at night, and will show him a very shallow but beautiful smile...
How could such a big brother Yuanhuai be just someone he imagined...
"Brother Yuanhuai..."
Staying alone in the ward, the teenager curled up on the bed, looking thin and slender, with half of his face buried in his arms, revealing only a pair of faintly red eyes.
"Dr. Luo said that I can't tell the difference between fantasy and reality, so now I really don't know if you really exist..."
"Please, if you really exist, can you come out to see me? I... I remember that I seemed to make you sad that day, I didn't mean to, in fact, even if you are a ghost, I like you too, please come out Look at me, okay?"
No one answered him.
He sat in the ward for a whole day, until late at night, and never saw that cold figure again.
Maybe brother Yuanhuai hasn't forgiven him yet.
But it's more likely that "Brother Yuanhuai" is really just someone he imagined unknowingly.
The boy's eyes were a little swollen from crying, and he felt extremely uncomfortable, but no matter how sad he was, he realized that he couldn't let himself be immersed in fantasy anymore. His parents were still waiting for him at home, waiting for him to return. to their side.
"You still didn't show up..."
He spoke softly, his voice a little hoarse.
"Then... bye."
"Brother Yuanhuai."
The teenager closed his eyes, buried his face, and shrank into a small ball, only to feel a little cold on his body.
He couldn't see it, right next to him, Xie Yuanhuai stretched out his hand, wanting to touch him, but was stunned to see his hand pass through the boy's body.
He was always by his side.
But Xiaochu couldn't see him anymore, and couldn't be touched by him anymore.
…
He lost his little primary school.
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Bai Yi's Diary Part 29
Bai Yi, who had not been by Cheng Zhichu's side for a long time, finally refused to write a diary.