After a period of treatment, the teenager's condition has been greatly improved and he is gradually recovering to health. During this period, his life has also undergone great changes.
The parents of the teenagers used to be busy with work and had no time to care about their children. The relationship between the parents and children was very indifferent. However, after the teenager was in danger, they realized what a serious mistake they had made, and began to unload their busy affairs and try their best to be free. Spend time with teenagers.
Qiao Yue also realized that some of his previous behaviors had caused great harm to the young man. After struggling for a while, he finally brought a cane to the hospital to plead guilty, and aggressively let him go. The teenager beat him out, but it frightened the teenager. This incident has become an interesting talk among nurses for a long time.
Everything is going in a good direction.
But the young man doesn't like to laugh as much as before, and sometimes even shows a very lonely look.
He felt as if his heart had been cut open, and when he was inadvertently, he would often experience pain and gurgling blood.
…
"Have you seen anything unusual recently?"
During the re-examination, Dr. Luo asked the boy like this.
"there is none left."
The teenager shook his head, his fingers trembled slightly, and he lowered his eyes and said, "Sometimes... I still hear someone calling my name."
He heard a voice calling him "Xiao Chu" all the time. The voice seemed to be coming from far, far away, but when he turned around, it was empty and nothing.
He is very timid, especially the ghost stories told by the nurses and sisters. It has been a long time, but until now, he still feels fear occasionally.
The ghost stories were all fake—he always told himself when he was scared.
But only for the voice calling him, he didn't have the slightest fear, and even had a faint hope in his heart, if it was real.
Because it was very similar to the voice of Brother Yuanhuai, or the voice of "Brother Yuanhuai" as he imagined, because he had never seen Xie Yuanhuai in reality, nor had he heard his voice.
"The sounds you hear are just auditory hallucinations because you have hallucinations."
Dr. Luo told him so, and the nurses, sisters and parents also told him so, so that later, the teenager himself thought so too.
Sometimes he can't tell the difference between reality and fantasy, so he believes what people close to him tell him.
It was his hallucination.
The real reality is that Xie Yuanhuai has been dead for several years. As for why the person he imagined happened to be called "Xie Yuanhuai", he guessed that maybe at some time before, he happened to hear Xie Yuanhuai's name, that's all.
He heard that Xie Yuanhuai's body was still sealed in the morgue underground in the hospital. His family could not accept the fact that his only son died, refused to take back the body, but did not let anyone handle it on his behalf. Every year, he donated huge donations to the hospital. as the cost of preserving the remains.
Perhaps they still believe that one day their children will open their eyes again.
Occasionally, a thought flashes in the mind of the young man: he wants to go to the mortuary to see what the real Xie Yuanhuai looks like, and whether there is any similarity with the cold and gentle man he imagined.
But even if he suffers from delusional disorder, the teenager knows that his idea is too absurd and impossible to realize.
"...Well, it's impossible to go to the morgue, but there are ways to let you see Xie Yuanhuai's appearance."
Occasionally in a chat with the nurse, the teenager accidentally missed the idea. The little nurse heard his wish, thought about it, and leaned over and whispered to him.
"I can find his photo for you. There must be a registration in the hospital's previous files. I'll look for it when I'm free recently. I should be able to find it, but you may have to wait a while longer."
"Won't you trouble my sister?"
The teenager's heart beat faster, and he couldn't help but start to look forward to it, but he was still very obedient and didn't want to cause trouble to the little nurse.
"No, I secretly."
The little nurse stuck out her tongue, with an expression of "who are we with whom".
In fact, she did this for the good of the young man. After all, how could the "Xie Yuanhuai" he imagined looked the same as the real Xie Yuanhuai? Showing him pictures and breaking his fantasy would definitely help his recovery.
…
"Will you still hear the sound?"
Dr. Luo's tone was still gentle: "You didn't respond, did you?"
"No, I never responded once."
The young man shook his head. Dr. Luo had told him before that ignoring those voices would help him recover better, so he held back every time, only pretending that the voice never existed.
…
"Okay, Director Luo, Zhichu, I'm going to take pictures of you. Three, two—"
Beneath the azure blue sky, the courtyard of the hospital is lush and full of vitality, filled with a faint fragrance of flowers.
The little nurse raised her mobile phone and took a photo with Dr. Luo and the teenager. The teenager was about to be discharged from the hospital. Taking advantage of the fine weather today, she took a photo in the courtyard as a souvenir. The teenager in the shot was holding Dr. Luo's arm. happy.
The handsome and cold man stood under the shadow of the tree, watching from a distance.
His figure was pale and pale at first, but at the moment it looked thin and thin, as if a gust of wind would blow away his shadow, and he would no longer exist in this world.
In these days, he has almost never left the boy's side, calling him again and again, wanting to touch him and make him feel his existence, but they seem to have completely cut off all connections, and the boy will never again Haven't seen him.
He knew that from the moment the teenager realized that he was a ghost, his cognition had undergone a huge change, and he no longer thought of him as a "human", so after that, the teenager really couldn't perceive him at all, even if He tried countless times, but in vain.
He could only watch the boy crying and calling his name, begging him to appear, until his voice was hoarse and he passed out with tears on his face.
Later, the teenager gradually thought that "Xie Yuanhuai" was just his own hallucination, and became a little silent, and hardly mentioned the name.
Now he is about to say goodbye to this time and to embrace a brighter future.
But Xie Yuanhuai's time will only stay here, forever pale and illusory, buried in the young man's memories and turned into fine dust.
His body slept in the cold, trapping his soul in this courtyard, unable to take any more steps, so until the day he died, he would never see the boy again.
He will eventually be forgotten.
But he couldn't forget it.
Even if his body turns into dust and his soul returns to nothingness, as long as he still exists, he will always remember his youth and his early childhood.
He will keep him in his heart.
"… "
Tears silently poured out of Xie Yuanhuai's eyes, slid down his cheeks, and disappeared in the air.
… But he still wanted to beg his little boy not to leave.
Please.
do not go.
do not go…
don't go don't go don't go -
"Wow..."
A sudden gust of wind blew across the courtyard, rustling the canopy.
The boy's hair was disheveled by the wind, so he had to stretch out his hand to stroke his hair and continue to take pictures with the nurses.
"strangeness."
Dr. Luo, who was taking pictures of them with his mobile phone, raised his head, looked around strangely, and said to himself, "How can there be such a strong wind in such good weather?"
…
Xie Yuanhuai turned around slowly, and finally left the courtyard.
He knew very well that Xiaochu, unlike him, could not stay in the hospital all his life.
What's more, he didn't want it.
His junior should live better than anyone else.
…
Today is the day when the boy recovered and was discharged from the hospital.
His parents drove over to pick him up, and Qiao Yue also skipped class and helped carry the luggage without saying a word, behaving like a rabbit in front of the elders.
The nurses were very reluctant to let this cute and cute boy leave the hospital. Before he left, they hugged him one after another. The boy was a little shy and said goodbye to them one by one. The last little nurse avoided everyone and was mysterious. pulled him to a corner.
"Sorry, I only got Xie Yuanhuai's photo now, do you still want to see it?"
The little nurse took out her mobile phone and asked the boy like this. Although the teenager has recovered, there is no need to show him the photo, but this is what she promised, and she doesn't want to break her word.
This time, she opened her eyes. She didn't expect Xie Yuanhuai to be so handsome. Even the registered photos were so good-looking that their legs were weak. The first time she saw it, she was stunned.
Alas... It's a pity that God doesn't have eyes, he passed away at such a young age, no wonder his family couldn't accept it...
The little nurse sighed in her heart and handed the phone out. The boy was stunned and was about to reach for it, but stopped when his fingertips were about to touch the phone, and then silently retreated.
"What's wrong?" The little nurse was a little surprised.
"I... I still don't watch it." The young man smiled reluctantly, "I'm sorry, elder sister, for making you work so hard."
"It doesn't matter, but why didn't you read it?"
The nurse became more and more confused. She clearly remembered that the teenager seemed to be eager for pictures before, and often watched her stop talking.
"… I can not see."
The boy lowered his head and said softly.
He was afraid that Xie Yuanhuai in the photo was nothing like his brother Yuanhuai.
But what he was more afraid of would be something very similar... Even if it was just a little bit, he wouldn't know what to do with himself.
So he can't watch.
Brother Yuanhuai is his dream.
But he should wake up from this dream.
…
Xie Yuanhuai came to the ward where the boy once lived. The door was open and not locked, so he walked in and stood there for a long time, watching it silently.
The items that the teenager once placed in the ward have been taken away. In order to use the ward for the next patient, the place has also been thoroughly cleaned. The windows are wide open, and the fresh air from the outside is pouring in, and the original breath has been removed. Completely dissipated, leaving only the warm smell of the sun.
It's no different from other wards...
He thought in a daze, but the boy's shadow kept appearing in his mind, as if he was still staying here, nothing had changed, he just went to the doctor for an examination temporarily.
Just wait a little longer and the boy will come back. Without anyone else present, he could still embrace that warm and soft body in his arms, kiss his delicate lips, and whisper his name under the shy gaze.
Primary school.
Primary school.
"Yes... it's this ward, come here."
Suddenly, there was a loud noise at the door, and a young nurse appeared at the door, followed by patients in hospital gowns and family members with luggage.
Xie Yuanhuai watched them come in, and his eyes suddenly trembled.
"The family members will come and register with me in a while, and take the new card back and insert it here."
The nurse told the family members a few words, then leaned over and took off the original card in the card slot at the head of the bed.
The words "Cheng Zhichu" were written on it.
Do not…
Xie Yuanhuai's face was pale, and she wanted to grab the nurse's hand and keep the card, but her fingers passed through her wrist, watching the nurse put the card into her pocket.
"The bed was quite comfortable."
The patient sat on the hospital bed, tried the feeling, and said something to his family with a smile.
That should have belonged to the primary hospital bed.
Xie Yuanhuai's body trembled slightly, his pupils shrank slightly, watching them take out the items from the suitcases and arrange them in a hurry, occupying the remaining space little by little, turning this place into a completely unfamiliar appearance.
Mingming had already died, but at this moment, he felt the icy cold and pain to the bone, and the scar on his heart was torn apart instantly and became fragmented.
The black hole of nothingness opened in his chest.
The dark, twisted, and complex desires roared out and spread slowly.
"Why did you let him go?"
"Obviously he belongs to you."
"His eyes, his smile, his breath, everything should be yours only."
"Can you endure him throwing himself into the arms of others in the future, completely forgetting you, and spending a lifetime with others?"
Do not…
no…
He didn't want Xiaochu to forget him, and he didn't want to see Xiaochu again before he died. The rest of his life could only be spent in endless thoughts.
He regretted it.
"You should get him back."
"Call his name and let him perceive your presence."
But how should he find it? He couldn't get out of the hospital, let alone where Xiaochu was.
"Then go ask someone else."
"And ask Dr. Luo."
"Ask him why he told Xiaochu that he couldn't respond to you."
"He ruined your relationship and took Xiaochu away from you."
"If he can't tell..."
"You just killed him."
…
An accident occurred on the escalator of the hospital, resulting in the death of a girl on the spot. Dr. Luo, who was also riding the elevator at the time, was also slightly injured, but fortunately there was no serious injury.
Seeing the girl's blood splattered on the escalator, Xie Yuanhuai's eyes trembled, showing pain, but he was immediately bewitched by the painful and dark desire.
"I failed to kill Dr. Luo this time, but there is still a chance later."
"Actually, it's a good thing that the little girl died."
"Death strengthens you, and if you kill enough people, your little boy will be able to see you again."
"Then go and kill the person occupying his ward. How can you allow others to take your memories."
…
Two months later, a fire broke out on the eighth floor of the inpatient department. One person died and two were seriously injured. The deceased was a patient admitted to the juvenile ward.
"Have you felt the power that death brings to you?"
"Now because of your influence, monsters that didn't exist will be born in the hospital."
"The ogre in the sewers, the red-clothed female corpse in the mortuary, the non-existent ninth floor... These monsters have faintly formed shadows in the hospital."
"Xiaochu once thought that they also really existed because you were a ghost. When the disease occurred, he saw their hallucinations in the middle of the night, escaped from the ward, and unfortunately fell down the stairs."
"That's why you hate them, but they're your helpers, and if they kill people, they'll increase your power as well."
"Leave them."
"As long as your strength is strong enough, your little boy will come back to you."
…
Half a month later, six elevators in the inpatient department crashed at the same time, and more than 50 people died. Doctor Luo Jie and other medical staff were also on the death list.
The Guang'ai Hospital was closed, and it became a forbidden place for no one to approach.
Before the hospital closed, Xie Yuanhuai's family wanted to retrieve his body, but were stunned to find that his body was missing.
It was he who took the body away and placed it somewhere in the hospital.
He can't let his family take his body back, because once the body moves, he will leave the hospital with him, then he will lose all his strength and really never see Xiaochu again.
During these long five years, Xie Yuanhuai could feel that his body was gradually rotting, his flesh and blood disintegrating, leaving only a white bone.
Without his body and his heart sinking into the abyss, Xie Yuanhuai has gradually become a real ghost.
From time to time, explorers enter the hospital and are devoured by ogres and red-clothed female corpses, becoming his power. Xie Yuanhuai just stood not far away and watched silently, his face calm, and he no longer possessed any human beings. Compassion.
He's completely broken.
…
This is his dark paradise.
Here he waits, calling his boy day after day—
"Xiaochu, come here."
…
"Cheng Zhichu... Cheng Zhichu!"
Seeing Cheng Zhichu fainted on the ground, Meng Ke turned pale with anxiety, and pushed him violently, and the little bear also circled around him, screaming "Ouuuuu", but suddenly his body froze and he fell on the ground. Shivering.
Meng Ke gritted his teeth, wanted to raise Cheng Zhichu's arm and left. He only saved her life before, and now she can't do anything to leave people behind.
But at this moment, a pair of white hands suddenly stretched out, wrapped around Cheng Zhichu's body, and hugged him easily.
"woo..."
The little bear shivered and grabbed Cheng Zhichu's clothes, trying to keep him, but he was suspended in mid-air by the force. He shook the clothes for a while, and his fangs tore the fabric, causing it to fall off. on the ground.
Meng Ke was shaking violently all over. She had already felt the bloody and mottled aura of death on the person who came, as if she was facing an endless abyss, so she couldn't even think of resisting.
Even if she didn't look up, she knew that the other party must not be alive.
But Cheng Zhichu... She can't...
Although the fear had made her almost unable to breathe, Meng Ke forced herself to raise her head and finally saw the ghost in front of her.
Appearing in front of her was an extremely handsome young man, with a cold expression, indifferent eyes, and a somewhat illusory figure, like a touching moonlight, and cold and dusty like ice and snow.
He held Cheng Zhichu, glanced at her lightly, and his eyes met slightly, but Meng Ke seemed to have fallen into a bloody hell at this moment, his heart suddenly stopped beating, and he only felt as if he had already died.
The young man looked at her as if he was looking at something dead, but unexpectedly, he did nothing to Meng Ke, turned around with Cheng Zhichu in his arms, and slowly disappeared at the end of the corridor.
"… "
Meng Ke fell limply to the ground, even his breath was shaking.
Her will was completely crushed by fear, she couldn't even move, she was groggy, lying on the ground as if she had died.
After an unknown amount of time, she suddenly felt the ground shake violently, and then heard a sound like glass shattering, and the movement was so loud that her eardrums throbbed faintly.
She heard footsteps approaching her, but she could not escape. She could only open her eyes a little, and vaguely saw the appearance of the person who came, and recognized the identity of the other party.
… is Bai Yi.
Bai Yi…
- It's Bai Yi here!
Meng Ke suddenly had hope in his heart, opened his eyes, and struggled to sit up.
Bai Yi held a pale bone knife in his hand and looked at her condescendingly. There was no expression on his handsome face, only the blackness in his eyes rolled like a tide.
For a moment, Meng Ke saw the Specter just now for himself, and he was horrified. He didn't dare to look at him again, but was provoked by the tip of Bai Yi's bone knife, and was forced to look at him.
"Where is Zhichu?"
Bai Yi's voice was extremely calm, but also extremely terrifying.
"He was... taken away by a ghost..."
With the icy tip of the knife close to his throat, Meng Ke pointed with trembling fingers in the direction where the Specter disappeared just now: "Go over there..."
Bai Yi didn't say a word, took the knife and left, and the figure quickly disappeared in that direction.
Xiao Xiong wanted to follow, but was thrown off by Bai Yi, so he had to return to the place with his ears drooping.
"Xin... What about Xinxin and Xiao Xiao?"
Meng Ke regained his senses and looked around, but he didn't see Meng Xin and Ji Yunxiao. He suddenly became worried and stood up anxiously.
The little bear was lost for a while, and seeing Meng Ke's anxious appearance, he tilted his little head, thought for a while, and said in a childlike voice: "For the sake of not leaving your mother, give me chicken legs, I'll take you to find them."
"Okay, if you find them, I'll buy them from the drumstick shop for you!"
Meng Ke hurriedly agreed to the little bear, the little bear nodded in satisfaction, let her bend down so that it could climb on top of her head, and patted her hair again, said.
"Drive! Turn left!"
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Bai Yi's Diary Part 30
When Zhichu was in his first year of junior high school, because his school was open to the public on the day of the autumn sports day, students and family members could visit, so I wanted to go in and see him on that day.
For this purpose, I let my cousin transfer to the high school department of this school, so that I can see Zhichu at the sports meeting.
Zhichu at the sports meeting is really cute, and I have the only photo with him—
Zhi Chu, who did not participate in the program, sat in the 15th seat on the left side of the third row, and I sat in the third seat in the 14th row. The school’s aerial photography at the sports meeting left this scene, and their school’s official website is still available. can see this photo.
Although there are thousands of people in the photo at the same time, in my eyes, it is only me and Zhichu, and I am very satisfied.
It is a little regrettable that my cousin immediately transferred back to his original school after learning the reason why I let him transfer, which made me unable to enter again in the future.