"Drip-drip-drip-"
The ups and downs of the mechanical monitoring sound echoed regularly in the room, and continuously drew zigzag lines on the electronic screen.
The sound came from far away and became continuous, gradually clearing up Lu Shizhen's chaotic dream.
The thick eyelashes trembled in the darkness, as if it took a lot of effort to finally open them.
The smell of disinfectant was as strong as ever, and its slightly cool temperature pressed against Lu Shizhen's collarbone.
Before she started to think about what was happening to her, Lu Shizhen smelled a scent that was particularly familiar to her.
The hair rubbed against the pillow, making a slight rustling sound.
Lu Shizhen looked down and saw a small figure lying beside her bed in the dim light. Her soft face was resting on her arm. In the windowless room, she could only see her closed eyes through the flickering light of the equipment above her head.
It’s Xu Shiyue.
She fell asleep.
It was as if he had been waiting for me here for a long time, and finally fell asleep because he was too sleepy to hold on.
Lu Shizhen just looked at her, and suddenly his blank heart understood something.
She wondered if this was the same situation when Xu Shiyue woke up after the operation and saw her, which is why she told her that she was very happy.
After all, she felt happy to see Xu Shiyue guarding her bedside. She was very happy.
On countless previous nights when he woke up, all that greeted Lu Shizhen was endless darkness.
At first she was scared, because the feeling was too lonely, as if the whole world had forgotten her. But later she gradually got used to it, got used to the loneliness and the darkness.
The faint light from the instrument was like the tail of a firefly, falling sporadically on Xu Shiyue's face.
Lu Shizhen felt that the depression that he had deliberately hidden all these years was finally filled up.
Lu Shizhen wanted to raise his hand and touch Xu Shiyue's face while she was sleeping.
But she felt a heaviness in her arms, and not just her arms, her whole body felt heavy, as if she couldn't bear it.
After being awake for five or six minutes, Lu Shizhen regained consciousness.
As her peripheral vision dropped, she noticed the oxygen tube inserted in front of her nose.
The quilt could not press on the detection line connected to the precision instruments, and the slightly cool feeling when she just woke up came from her half-naked body.
She was closely monitored by the instruments assembled above her head; she was not simply sleeping.
She was... unconscious for a while.
The memory flashed back in Lu Shizhen's mind, freezing at the second before he woke up.
At that time, she was returning to her own ward from Xu Shiyue's ward. After crossing the corridor, she suddenly felt uncomfortable in her chest.
Perhaps it was the suppression from another world that caused her body to not react until she returned to her world.
A mouthful of bright red blood surged out of her throat, spurting out warm and bloody.
The wheelchair fell forward as the little girl fainted and lost control, and fell to the ground together with her body.
The wheels on one side were suspended in the air, rolling helplessly in the room.
"This is a genetic disease and it's difficult to cure."
"So far, there have been no cases of patients who have survived into adulthood. Many patients' conditions take a turn for the worse at the age of six or seven."
"I think while we are doing our best, parents still need to be mentally prepared."
As I just recalled, this is not the first time Lu Shizhen has fallen ill.
Although the doctor deliberately avoided letting her know these cruel things, she still pieced together her future destiny through the fragmentary information over the years.
The little girl's eyes suddenly darkened. She was now at that stage of about six or seven years old.
And she indeed felt that her attack this time was more severe than all the previous times. She even had to rely on the tube outside to breathe to make herself feel better.
A long sigh came out of Lu Shizhen's mouth, heavily ruffling the long hair on the side of Xu Shiyue's face.
Feeling something was wrong, Xu Shiyue woke up almost immediately.
The moment she opened her eyes, she noticed Lu Shizhen waking up, and her vigilance immediately turned into surprise: "You're awake?!"
Upon hearing this, Lu Shizhen silently hid his emotions and nodded to Xu Shiyue with a smile.
She wanted to show Xu Shiyue that she was doing well, but her current condition was not very good.
The light from above shone on her face, and her originally bright eyes became a little sunken, and her eye sockets seemed a little dark.
Xu Shiyue looked at him with a frown on her face. "You don't look well. Do you want me to press the button to call a doctor? I can hide in the corridor."
Lu Shizhen was in a coma for days, and Xu Shiyue also stayed by her bedside for days.
Sometimes, before I even walked in, I would bump into the doctor who came to observe Lu Shizhen. She was hiding in the corridor.
When Lu Shizhen heard this, he immediately shook his head and reached out to hold Xu Shiyue's hand.
A lot of bad emotions piled up in her mind, making her suddenly want to stay with Xu Shiyue for a while longer.
Xu Shiyue also noticed that Lu Shizhen was in a bad mood, and asked softly, "What's wrong?"
It is said that children cannot hide their thoughts, but Lu Shizhen is not someone who likes to tell adults about his thoughts.
Her parents were trying their best to keep her alive, and if she continued to cry and say she was scared, it would seem immature.
She's already a burden, she needs to be smart.
But Xu Shiyue is different.
She never considered herself a disabled person, nor did she think of herself as a burden.
So Lu Shizhen was willing to share her concerns with her: "I'm almost seven years old, and they said that my disease has a high mortality rate at this age..."
The little girl's voice was already weak, and it became lower and lower as she spoke further on.
She was afraid and a little discouraged, Xu Shiyue heard it clearly.
The hand that was held by Lu Shizhen gently held hers again. Xu Shiyue said in a gentle voice: "But if you think you will leave, then why did God let us meet?"
When Lu Shizhen heard this question, he was speechless.
Yes, since she can't live long, why should she know October
Why should she feel nostalgic and reluctant to leave this world
As Lu Shizhen was thinking this, something thick and heavy was stuffed into his hand.
This is the poetry collection that Xu Shiyue reads most often.
But in the past I could easily snatch it from her hand, instead of it being so heavy now, pressing down on my wrist to the point that it almost fell off.
Of course Lu Shizhen knew that Xu Shiyue liked this poem. Several times when she went to see her, she saw her reading this poem.
It’s just that she doesn’t understand poetry very well and isn’t that emotionally interested in it, so she’s never read it.
Now the black words were neatly arranged on the paper. Lu Shizhen cast his eyes on them without quite understanding them. Then he heard Xu Shiyue's voice in his ears, "Do not go gentle into that good night. Old age should burn and rave at close of day. Rage, rage against the dying of the light..."
Xu Shiyue's voice is childish, but her tone is still much more mature than that of her peers.
It is as if new life and dark death are intertwined in the same place, gloomy yet full of vitality.
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"Enthusiasts catch the fleeting sunlight, sing about it, and realize, too late, that they have always mourned the passing of time..."
The little girl's soft voice was not calm, and every word in her ups and downs seemed to be a plea to stay.
When she was almost done, Xu Shiyue looked up at Lu Shizhen, looked her in the eyes and said, “I beg you, do not go gentle into that good night. Rage, rage against the dying of the light.”
Lu Shizhen understood that Xu Shiyue didn't want her to lose confidence in fighting the disease.
She used this poem to encourage herself to live well and have faith in life.
"Live well and continue to fight against fate." Xu Shiyue said to Lu Shizhen, with Lu Shizhen's usual tone hidden under her slightly curved eyes, "Besides, if you escape from the hands of death, living one more day is a bonus, isn't it?"
yes.
Lu Shizhen was persuaded and nodded slightly on the pillow.
Xu Shiyue looked at Lu Shizhen lying on the bed and her eyes flickered slightly.
Then she raised her hand and gently stroked Lu Shizhen's forehead, saying to her: "You will fall in love, get married, and have a complete life like everyone else."
Lu Shizhen frowned slightly after listening to this.
Her voice was still weak, but she had the strength to remind Xu Shiyue: "Shiyue... It seems that you forgot to mention having children. Don't they all say get married and have children... get married and have children?"
Xu Shiyue's fingers were still gently stroking Lu Shizhen's smooth forehead, and she pursed her slightly opened lips.
The dark eyes just passed over the facial features of the person lying on the bed, wandering back and forth as if they had many words they wanted to say.
But after a long pause, she just asked softly: "Lu Shizhen, have you ever fantasized about love?"
This question sounds a bit abrupt, but it can also be connected to the question Lu Shizhen asked just now.
She paused for a moment, then shook her head: "I spend all my time dealing with death. My fantasy is just to live to adulthood. Maybe then I won't be a burden to others..."
Feeling a little bitter, Lu Shizhen pursed her lips and smiled.
Maybe she felt that her idea was not very good, so she turned her head and looked at Xu Shiyue: "Where's October?"
She imagined that a little girl like October must have many, many fantasies.
Her future will surely be full of flowers, with flowers accompanying her all the way, and it will be more beautiful than mine.
But Lu Shizhen did not get the beautiful fantasy of the little girl as she expected.
Xu Shiyue pursed her lips lightly, her eyes calm and deep.
She looked at Lu Shizhen as gently as always and said to her, "I hope to meet you as an adult."
These words are somewhat simple, yet they seem to conceal feelings that cannot be expressed in words.
Lu Shizhen was stunned for a moment, and the dim light on his face was covered by a shadow.
Xu Shiyue slowly leaned down from above her line of sight and then kissed Lu Shizhen.
The child's green and moist lips pressed against her cheek, just a little distance away from her lips.
“Buzz—”
The sound of electric current suddenly rang out in the space, and the monitoring equipment in the room seemed to pause, but also seemed not to pause.
In the empty room, the only thing left was the little girl lying alone on the bed.
For some reason, the temperature in the constant temperature ward dropped by one degree, and then returned to normal.
Lu Shizhen shuddered and suddenly felt his head go empty.
The ward was lonely and quiet at night. She just stared at the blank wall where the wheelchair was parked. She felt like she had lost something, but she had nothing to lose.
The room is this big and square, and the simple furniture makes everything look particularly orderly.
Also a glance at the end.
Lu Shizhen lay on the bed for a long time before slowly blinking his eyes.
Skilled yet a bit awkward.
Years of illness have made Lu Shizhen extremely familiar with every bone in his body, so he can also sensitively perceive every change in his body.
Lu Shizhen suddenly felt that there seemed to be something different about his body, but he didn't know how to describe this difference.
And from that night, her health inexplicably began to improve. Although she still couldn't walk, many of the conditions that were not very good when she was tested were improving dramatically, and even seemed to be under control.
It was as if someone was urging her to leave the ward as soon as possible.
So after another half a year, Lu Shizhen was judged by the expert group to be able to leave this strictly controlled sterile ward and be transferred to a general ward.
Lu Shizhen still remembers that the weather was very good that day, and she could finally leave the place she had wanted so much to leave.
But when she was about to leave, she turned back, and a feeling of reluctance from somewhere held her hands back as she held onto the wheel.
She felt as if she had left something behind and was inexplicably worried that others would not be able to find her.
But she is not allowed to enter or leave here freely, so who would come to see her
The dark corridor swallowed up the sunlight pouring in, and the forgotten memories rushed towards Lu Shizhen like waves.
The cold sea water splashed on her, hitting her hard and almost drowning her.
The bright sunlight at noon truly fell on the ordinary ward of the hospital. Lu Shizhen just held the handle formed by the sunlight. Tears had flowed out of her eyes since she didn't know when, and fell one by one on her blanket-covered legs, soaking them all.
She knew who it was.
It’s Xu Shiyue.
She forgot about Xu Shiyue.
twice.
(End of this chapter)