The straight light is evenly spread in this area of the morgue. The cold ironwork forms a strong contrast with the gorgeous roses, creating an eerie sense of order.
Xu Shiyue just sat next to the empty sliding room. Although she was leaning to look inside, she still gave the illusion that her back was still straight.
The confusion churned through the body and seeped to the surface.
Xu Shiyue was in a state of confusion as she knew Lu Shizhen had left, but at the same time, Lu Shizhen had not really left.
She had experienced death last summer.
At that time, she was not as healthy as she is now. She lost her eyesight and her whole body was in terrible condition.
But even so, she had never felt as miserable as she did now.
The development of reality was reflected in Xu Shiyue's eyes, and the flames from the incinerator were still burning in her eyes.
She shed tears when she had to face Lu Shizhen's death, but deep down in her heart she seemed to have developed a rebellion against death that she refused to let go of. She grabbed the cremated and smashed ashes and threw them away.
Xu Shiyue knew that her behavior was caused by that power manipulating her.
It was also because of this that she was sure that Lu Shizhen could not really be dead.
But this feeling was illusory and had no substance. Xu Shiyue wanted to feel it again, but he couldn't feel it at all.
Sometimes she felt like she was going crazy, wondering if she was hallucinating. But she also felt that being crazy was not a big deal, as long as Lu Shizhen was still in "her world".
It’s not that Lu Shizhen can’t leave her.
She can't live without Lu Shizhen.
"Shiyue, let auntie see your hands."
Cheng Meiyan's voice was slightly trembling and nervous, and she pulled Xu Shiyue's hand that was reaching into the flower petals, and also brought Xu Shiyue's vague thoughts back.
Xu Shiyue's fingers were burned red by the heat that had not yet dissipated, and the bloodshot color was particularly glaring on her fair skin.
The resentment in Cheng Meiyan's heart was aroused by the red, and she was left with only heartache: "Don't you feel pain, kid?"
"I'm fine, Auntie." Having said that, Xu Shiyue took her hand back.
Her voice was very calm and her expression was also unusually calm.
Those dark and empty eyes slowly raised up and looked at the people around.
Cheng Meiyan, Aunt Sun, Shen Yanxing, and even Lu Shien were there.
Xu Shiyue was a little surprised by Lu Shien's arrival, so she stood up and bowed to them, being a little too polite: "I'm sorry to make you worry about me. Next time I come out, I will notify Aunt Sun in advance."
"You'd better not do it again." Lu Shien was anxious and angry, and his words to Xu Shiyue were also thorny, "It's so scary to run to a place like this!"
Seeing this, Cheng Meiyan hurriedly pulled Lu Shien and said, "Xiaoen."
Xu Shiyue was even more sincere and said again: "I'm sorry, I won't make you worry next time."
She was still stubborn and even paranoid and did not erase the word "next time".
As long as there is a place with the smell of Lu Shizhen, she wants to go there even if it is the abyss.
"Well, now that Shiyue has been found, everyone can rest assured." Shen Yanxing keenly noticed the meaning behind Xu Shiyue's words and hurriedly interrupted her, "Auntie, Xiaoen didn't eat well at noon, why don't you take her to eat first, I'll be here with Shiyue."
Everything seems to be going according to the script of fate, and the system is still trying hard to bring Shen Yanxing and Xu Shiyue together.
Although Cheng Meiyan still felt a little worried, she nodded: "Okay, thank you, Xiao Shen."
"No, it's my duty." Shen Yanxing shook his head and turned his gaze to look at Lu Shien, "Go back and have a good rest. Don't you have a game tomorrow?"
Lu Shien was still angry about Xu Shiyue's sudden disappearance, and his tone towards Shen Yanxing was not very good: "I know, you don't need to remind me."
Shen Yanxing knew Lu Shien's temper and didn't get angry. He arranged for everyone to leave the morgue.
Coming out of the morgue, the sunlight fell directly into the hospital porch.
The smell of spring slowly revived with the gradually warming sunlight, and instantly dispelled the cold air brought in from the morgue when it shone on the body.
But Shen Yanxing felt so.
She turned around and wanted to talk to the silent Xu Shiyue, but saw the sunlight falling on her face. Her cold white skin was reflected so that it was a little blurry, like a pool of softened cream, but the sunlight could not penetrate her, and her face was still expressionless and cold.
Shen Yanxing paused and asked, "Do you want me to take you there?"
Xu Shiyue lowered his eyes and looked towards Shen Yanxing in the light.
The sense of control that seemed like an illusion pulled at her nerves, forcing her to nod in agreement.
But she refused to do so and insisted on going against this trend.
The tightly pursed lips dried up together, as if blocking something.
Xu Shiyue was merciless and tore them apart. He said directly, "Are you sure you want to give it to me? Don't you have company matters to deal with?"
Shen Yanxing was silent for a moment when he heard this question.
Indeed, she had wasted a lot of time in the morning and should rush back to the company now instead of sending Xu Shiyue back and then turning back, wasting time.
The program seemed to have a calculation bug and froze for a moment.
Just at this time, Aunt Sun arrived in the nanny's car. The cold black car body broke the warm light of the spring day.
The condition of the two being alone was broken. Shen Yanxing spoke up and reminded Xu Shiyue of what she said in the morgue: "Okay, send me a message when you get home. Don't run around anymore, otherwise I won't be able to contact you and many things in the company will be delayed."
"Okay." Xu Shiyue nodded, as if he had heard it.
There was no time for the atmosphere to become ambiguous, and the spring breeze became the barrier that separated them.
Shen Yanxing watched Xu Shiyue get into the family car with a calm look, and even a sigh of relief.
After all, spring is approaching, and the afternoon sunlight has not lost its warmth as its brightness decreases.
An orange-pink flower bloomed on the rose vine in the green belt, swaying in the whistling wind, but it could not be broken or drooped.
The red light stopped the car from moving forward, and Xu Shiyue's gaze also stopped at the window.
She still had that expressionless look on her face, but her tightly pursed lips revealed a hint of paleness that was barely discernible. The pain between her lips was still tearing at her, as sharp as a knife.
But Xu Shiyue laughed about this.
So the power is real, she's not crazy.
This wasn't some imaginary thing, and she wasn't refusing to accept what was happening.
There is a difference between escaping reality and questioning reality.
She had evidence, that was the difference.
Since Lu Shizhen gave me hope of life in the first place, he taught me to fight for what belongs to me.
Then she would get her back, even if she had to steal or cheat.
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The white mist rushed towards the center of the picture, blurring and engulfing the entire picture.
The node of the system's memory was reached, and the scene in Lu Shizhen's sight came to an abrupt end.
In an instant, the entire deity was silenced.
Qiuqiu opened her mouth and said after a long while: "Host, this is all I can show you."
"Don't be sad, it's all in the past, you have to look forward."
"Yeah, I know." Lu Shizhen nodded after listening to Qiuqiu's comfort.
But then she said to Qiuqiu: "But some things need to be looked back. Only by looking back can you know what you have missed in the time you have walked. People need to feel guilty."
Lu Shizhen said this unhurriedly, but Qiuqiu still didn't follow.
It didn't quite understand what these words meant, but it could clearly feel that it was not in a very good mood.
Lu Shizhen also realized belatedly that what he said was beyond the knowledge scope of this little ball that had just been promoted to the main system. He raised his hand and gently rubbed the little ball: "Okay, these things are still a little difficult for you now, take your time, little system."
"I am the main system!" Qiuqiu resisted and pinched her waist with her wings, trying to prevent Lu Shizhen from looking down on her.
But this action is no less than a red panda raising its arms during a fight, trying to intimidate its opponent with its "huge" size.
Lu Shizhen's mouth curled up, but he didn't want to expose Qiuqiu, so he went along with it and said, "Okay, my master system."
After rubbing Qiuqiu twice more, Lu Shizhen noticed the time on his watch and said to Qiuqiu, "Oh, it's getting late. I came here on the pretext of taking a lunch break, and I have to go back quickly."
"Okay." Qiuqiu waved to Lu Shizhen, and reminded her: "Host, goodbye, don't forget my starch sausage and the barbecue made by Aunt Sun!"
"No." Lu Shizhen walked quickly, without even turning around, and just waved back to Qiuqiu.
Watching Lu Shizhen disappear into the passage, Qiuqiu heard a gentle question in her ear: "Going back?"
That is the voice of the Lord God.
There were also other people who appeared next to Qiuqiu.
Qiuqiu was startled and felt a little nervous and guilty: "Lord God."
The Lord God looked at the small ball in front of him, stretched out his hand to guide it to his own hand, and said with a smile, "So, sometimes having emotions is not a good thing."
The palm of the Lord God was warm and soft, with an indescribable floral fragrance.
Qiuqiu was held in the palm of her hand like this, and she suddenly felt the whole ball become warm, and the golden light flickered faintly.
The Lord God patiently helped Qiuqiu tidy up the wings that had been messed up by pinching her waist just now, and asked in a calm tone: "You and Miss Lu just looked at Miss Xu's past. What do you feel?"
This was a conversation they often had with each other. Qiuqiu quickly adjusted her state and answered seriously: "Although I know that in five years, the host will meet Miss Xu again and know and love each other, I just feel very sad."
"I don't know why I feel sad, after all the result is good."
"This is the process." The Lord God gently said to Qiuqiu, "Sometimes the ending is good, but it doesn't necessarily mean the process is always good. Conversely, the ending is not good, but it doesn't necessarily mean the process is bad. Emotions are always there, but they will not remain unchanged."
As the Lord God spoke, he lowered his head and looked at the small ball in his hand, thinking about its original appearance and the tail he had pinched for it, and then he said, "You need to slowly absorb images from different worlds to learn this feeling, but one day, you will understand it."
Qiuqiu nodded, not quite understanding.
She thought that maybe, just as the Lord God said, one day, she would understand.
After all, this was its former main system master and current main god.
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The afternoon sun is gentle, much warmer than the chilly and cold sun in my memories.
Lu Shizhen woke up from the bed, blinked his eyes slightly, and looked at the real world in front of him with hesitation and melancholy.
The slippers tapped gently on the stair steps. Looking over the stairs, Xu Shiyue was standing behind the kitchen bar, peeling apples.
She was wearing the same style of home clothes as Lu Shizhen, except that she had a short white apron wrapped around her front. The silver-white back of the knife was against her fingers, and under her control, it obediently cut across the apple.
The long hair that was usually loose in the company was casually tied behind her head, and her meticulous style became loose and casual.
The sunlight streaming in from one side of the window dyed her hair golden, and every strand exuded a relaxed homely feeling.
Xu Shiyue was carving a little rabbit slowly and leisurely when she suddenly felt someone hugging her from behind.
A pair of arms stretched out from the waist that was originally tied with an apron, and the smell of rose and soapberry was there.
Xu Shiyue turned around and saw Lu Shizhen's familiar smiling face, and smiled gently.
She just raised her hand and rubbed Lu Shizhen's face casually, and asked deliberately: "What are you doing? Why are you so clingy?"
"Because I just woke up." Lu Shizhen dragged out the words in a sticky voice and put his chin on Xu Shiyue's shoulder.
She had never wanted to hug Xu Shiyue as much as she did now.
She wished she could hold her like this forever so that she could feel her presence.
Because they were facing away from each other, Lu Shizhen's acting was rare and good. Xu Shiyue didn't notice her thoughts. She smiled and picked up a freshly peeled apple and asked naturally, "Rabbit apple?"
Lu Shizhen didn't answer, but just leaned over to eat.
The lips that had just been filled with water were moist and soft. While taking the apple, he kissed Xu Shiyue's fingertips.
The apple was being bitten, and Lu Shizhen's voice rang in Xu Shiyue's ears.
Crisp and pleasant to hear.
"Ma'am, it's delicious."
(End of this chapter)