Shen Jiayi slowly raised her head, and she saw a hint of self-mockery in Xiao Mosheng's eyes.
"Jiayi, when I was a child, I grew up in a slum on an alien planet. Do you know slums? There are all kinds of crimes happening around you every day, but no one cares. You may survive today, but you won't survive tomorrow. . Growing up in that environment, I have many shortcomings that you can’t imagine.”
Xiao Mosheng gave a bitter laugh, then looked at Shen Jiayi indifferently, "I couldn't help myself last night. If I hadn't drank so much wine, I wouldn't have indulged myself..."
"I don't regret what happened last night." Shen Jiayi's voice was muffled. She looked at her toes and said softly, "Whether you are good or not is your business. I like you and it is my own business. I won’t hold you responsible, and you don’t have to feel bad about it.”
Xiao Mosheng was stunned, "Jiayi, this... don't you think it's unfair to you?"
"What does it mean to be fair? Mosheng, I know there is always someone in your heart, so if you come to me and say something responsible in this situation, when you still love other people, then It's not fair to me, it's cruel to me." Shen Jiayi felt her heart aching, but she persisted and said, "That's it, I'm going to practice singing, there will be a performance at the center soon."
After saying that, Shen Jiayi smiled weakly, picked up the dinner brought by Xiao Mosheng, and turned around to leave.
Xiao Mosheng looked at Shen Jiayi's back with some discomfort. He was a sensitive person, so he naturally knew Shen Jiayi's thoughts about him, but what Shen Jiayi said today made him a little confused about Shen Jiayi.
"Is it true that I can't understand anyone?"
Xiao Mosheng smiled bitterly.
Song Yaqin was like this before, and Shen Jiayi is like this now.
Xiao Mosheng decided that he should go back to the piano room and play the piano without thinking about anything, because he found that he couldn't understand anything!
Shen Jiayi returned to the singing room, took out rice and vegetables, and shed tears silently while eating.
She found that she was still very cowardly, and even love was so inconsistent and messy.
Shen Jiayi has always had low self-esteem, even though she has gotten much better, but at this moment, all the low self-esteem and depression swept over her instantly.
Just like this, Shen Jiayi finished the meal with tears in her eyes. Shen Jiayi couldn't remember what other flavors these dishes had, because they all tasted bitter to her.
However, she really has no regrets.
Love is love.
Shen Jiayi finished her dinner, put it aside, wiped her tears with a handkerchief, and then picked up the songbook next to her.
This is a very popular song recently, and the singer is also Shen Jiayi's idol.
If I hadn't met you, where would I be
How are you living? Should you cherish life
Maybe you know someone who lives an ordinary life
I don’t know if there is love as sweet as honey
As time goes by, I only care about you...
Shen Jiayi was singing in the singing practice room. Xiao Mosheng, who had originally planned to practice the piano, stood quietly outside the door, leaning against the wall, listening to Shen Jiayi's singing and looking at the sky outside with misty eyes. No one knew what he was thinking. What are you wearing
Just when these two people didn't know what they were thinking, Gu Yan, who was far away in the logistics team, suddenly sat up while lying on the bed.
Zhang Cuihua happened to be passing by Gu Yan's bed, and she jumped up in fright when she made such a sudden fuss.
Her head hit the bed next to her, and Zhang Cuihua said resentfully, "Gu Yan, are you scary?"
Although it was resentful, it was also cautious, and the voice was extremely small and soft.
Mainly because he was worried that Gu Yan would be angry.
Gu Yan was actually not angry. She curled her lips and said, "I'm never scary, really."
(End of chapter)