On a sunny morning, Xiao Cheng and I chatted a lot about the past.
We chatted about high school life, and I told classmate Xiao Cheng that I took the T major test, and I really struggled for my life, so I almost lost my head. I finally got into my dream university - just to meet him.
He told me that when he was in high school, he was young and growing, and he was always very sleepy. He went to bed at eight o'clock every night and woke up at seven in the morning, and often supplemented his sleep during class. If he had known that he would meet me at T University, he must have studied hard and entered a military academy.
I glared at him angrily: "What's wrong with meeting me?"
He said: "I have a hunch that my young and promising national pillar will be destroyed in your hands in this life."
"I also have a hunch that I will save you, a lost and fallen boy, and I will be the woman who made you!"
"I only know that you have become my woman now."
"..." After talking about high school, we talked about college life again. I can finally ask many questions that have puzzled me for many years.
Q1
I asked, "Did you hook up with me all day long when you were in Apartment Z because you liked me?"
He said, "You're inaccurate in your words. I call it cultivating feelings."
I despised: "Do you have such a relationship with you? You don't give gifts, you don't invite me to dinner, and you don't invite me to watch movies."
When I met his strange gaze, I remembered that he seemed to have done all the things mentioned above. But, classmate Xiaocheng, don't you think you are doing it too naturally
I continued to despise him: "Can't you make it obvious?"
"No. You can't be too direct in chasing a girl like you. If we finished watching "Titanic" that day, I would say to you: 'I like you, will you be my girlfriend?' You may turn around and leave, see you next time I must stay far away."
I nodded, that's for sure.
"I don't say anything to you. If you are close to the ground, if you are ambiguous, and make my existence a habit, you will gradually develop feelings for me..."
I looked at him in surprise: "Yo! I can't tell, you know girls very well! You have a lot of experience!"
He looked at his watch: "It's almost noon, are you hungry? Let me take you to eat boiled fish. I remember you said you like it very much."
Immediately, I was elated: "If you love to eat, go to 'Lao Chuanwei'."
He said, "Okay."
Where did we just chat
Q2
Another important question came to my mind: "Did you really say that my IQ hasn't developed since elementary school?"
He said, "Don't you have a bad memory?"
"There are not many things I can remember, but as long as I remember, I will never forget it for the rest of my life, so... don't blame me for not giving you a chance to explain!"
Xiao Cheng reluctantly recalled the past.
That's what happened that day.
Men talk in bed, and the topic everyone talks about is the difference in aesthetics between the north and the south. Xiao Cheng is from the north. He said that he likes tall girls, preferably with long hair and sweet smiles.
His roommate, Brother Ma, immediately brought it into reality: "Huh? That Xinxin girl from Class 3 quite fits your aesthetic standards. She looks like a good character, and she's the kind of girl who is suitable for marrying home as a wife."
Xiao Cheng was silent for a while: "She has a good personality, but unfortunately her IQ has not developed since elementary school... However, women are cute when they are stupid."
Before he could finish his words, whistles were all over the place.
After listening to the cause and effect of the whole thing, I suddenly realized that he also said the most crucial second half of the sentence? But why are the rumors so irresponsible and the most crucial part omitted? !
Feeling instantly happy, I asked him with a smile, "When did you start liking me?"
"I can't tell. My feelings for you are accumulated over time, and I can't tell which moment has changed qualitatively."
He also told me that at first he thought I was funny and had a good personality and wanted to know more about me. Later, when our chat records were too numerous to read, he often thought that it must be more interesting to have a relationship with me.
At that time, he was really too young, and he didn't want to think too much about the future. He just wanted to fall in love. It would be good if two people were destined to join hands for a lifetime. If not, they could retain a memory of youth.
Based on this emotion, he approached me step by step, and just when he thought everything was done, I suddenly expressed to him a postmodern view of love.
Our completely different views on love made him think carefully, and a few days later decided that instead of maturing in each other's hurt, he would rather choose to grow up in regret.
Q3
I asked again: "Did you like Zhuo Zhuo before, so you were so attentive to her, and then you couldn't catch up with her, so you chose to be with me?"
Xiao Cheng looked surprised: "Who said I like her?"
"So obvious, do you think I can't see it?"
"... You can use your brain, can you be exhausted?"
I picked up the pillow and smashed him in the head, wishing I could smash his brain so that I wouldn't be overwhelmed by his IQ all the time.
After some torture, he finally confessed completely: "She and I are just classmates. If I liked her, I would have chased her long ago."
Seeing that I was still suspicious, he asked again: "I am ambiguous with you and have a crush on her at the same time. Do you think this is the thinking logic of a normal person?"
I don't know if it is a normal person's thinking logic, but I am sure that this is not his thinking logic.
I still couldn't believe it, so I continued to torture him: "I heard that there was a time in the third year of your junior year, when you and Zhuo Zhuo were chatting outside, chatting passionately, you even put clothes on her, you don't like it Why is she being so nice to her?"
Xiao Cheng was surprised: "How did you know?"
"What Gigi said, she saw it."
He let out a long sigh, "Can't you keep some privacy when you girls gossip?"
"No. What's the matter with you and Zhuo Zhuo? Hurry up and recruit from the truth, be lenient when you confess, and be strict when you resist!"
"I'll tell you the truth, I don't even remember what happened that day."
"I do not believe!"
"Really. I was drunk by my classmates that night. I wanted to go outside and blow the cold wind for a while to sober up, but she also followed, handed me a bottle of mineral water, and asked me: 'Are you in a bad mood?' I said, 'It's fine!'"
He recalled slowly, as if piecing together unclear memories: "I remember... We seem to have talked about something. I can't remember the specific content. You know me well. Every time I drink too much, if you say more."
Thinking of the phone calls that kept going all night, I nodded in agreement.
He added: "Actually, she is a very smart, delicate and thoughtful girl, unlike some people..."
I gave him a stern look: "Say the point."
Xiao Cheng immediately turned back to the focus and continued to confess.
He said that the next day, when he woke up, Xiao Ma asked him if he was in a relationship with Zhuo Zhuo.
He was very confused and had no idea where this "groundless wind" came from. Brother Xiao Ma described the situation to him that night, and he vaguely remembered some fragmentary pictures, remembered that he put a coat on her, remembered that he sent her back to the dormitory.
Originally, he didn't care, thinking that this was just a normal interaction with ordinary classmates. Until a week later, Zhuo Zhuo called him and said that he would return the clothes to him, and he made an appointment with her to meet.
After meeting, he took the clothes and was about to leave. Zhuo Zhuo suddenly asked him, "Would you like to find a place to sit?"
He vaguely sensed a trace of ambiguity, and found an excuse to avoid it. Later, he never contacted Zhuo Zhuo, and Zhuo Zhuo never contacted him again, and everything was handled coldly.
I couldn't help but ask: "Don't say you don't understand what Zhuo Zhuo means, you are so cold to deal with such a rare opportunity?"
He sighed: "It is indeed a good opportunity, but who keeps me from letting go of a pig with no heart?"
I smashed my pillow and said, "Who are you calling a pig!"
"I protest domestic violence!"
"Protest is ineffective!"
Q4
I asked him again: "Did you think of me during the time when we lost contact? Want to chat with me, even if it's just a casual question: What are you doing?"
He replied, "No, never."
I said, "You really don't care, I will always think of you and want to ask what you are doing, how are you feeling."
He was silent for a while.
I read different emotions in his silence, and asked again: "You really haven't thought about me? Not once?"
His fingertips slid through my long hair, and he said slowly: "I once registered a new QQ account, sent you a friend request, and you passed the verification. The first sentence you said was 'you and my classmates' people from the same place'."
I suddenly remembered that there was a QQ account who applied to add me as a friend every day, and he still persevered despite my repeated refusals. I was moved by his spirit, glanced at his personal information at random, and found his address bar unexpectedly. Like classmate Xiao Cheng, I just passed the certification.
At the time, we only had a brief chat. I say:
he asks:
I say:
Since then, that QQ has disappeared.
I looked up at the people beside me, and my heart was slightly sour.
He told me again: "That year, during the New Year's Eve, I sent you a harassing text message with one of my dad's discarded cards. You asked me who I was, and I let you guess. You guessed it all night, but you didn't guess who I was. Who, the card will be suspended the next day in arrears."
He asked me, "Can you really guess who I am? We've talked for so long, and the way I use my language, don't you remember at all?"
I smiled: "Maybe, I know."
I clearly remember that once when I went home for the Chinese New Year, I received a text message from an unfamiliar, not a blessing, but a simple query:
I have a very strong feeling that he is the person I miss the most, especially strong!
He asked me to guess who he was, but I never dared to say the word "Cheng Ze" because I was afraid that if he said no, I would be very disappointed, very disappointed.
I've guessed a lot of messy people, and every time he replies: I'm happier because it's a little more likely to be him.
That night, we chatted with text messages until midnight, and the next day, I sent him another message and found that the phone number had been suspended due to arrears.
I regret very much, because I missed the opportunity, and I will never be able to confirm whether the person who harassed me is him or not.
…
After being silent for a while, Xiao Cheng said, "Then one day, the system message of the online game prompted me that a female player with zero level and zero experience was looking for me. I was wondering who it was, and I saw the weakest combat power and the most beautiful clothes in the game. The female character came up to me and stood dumbfounded without saying a word. I immediately guessed it was you, because only you would foolishly think... I'm a fool too!"
I leaned against his shoulder, not wanting to say a word.
Even though he never said a sweet word to me, this feeling he has for me - is love!
- Lesson 9 of "The Secret Book of Love" -
Not all true loves must go forward bravely and never give up until they reach their goals.
A good man not only wants to have you, he also wants to give you more...
When a man is chasing you, he may not really love you; if he is willing to temporarily stop his pursuit, read you carefully, and understand what you want, he is at least a good man!
I believe that a man who dares not easily promise you "a lifetime" may be more reliable and trustworthy than a man who is full of vows and eternal life!