I Want to be Alone, Beautifully

Chapter 29: Ome Ome (21)

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What does it feel like to see a person who is extremely cold in nature, domineering, presumptuous, and inaccessible in the eyes of others, showing a pitiful cry in front of him

Shen Yelan had imagined it countless times.

However, when the day really came, she realized that the pictures she had imagined were less than one ten thousandth of the reality.

The person who was covered in sweat leaned against her weakly and weakly pressed her forehead against her shoulder, causing those messy, hot and cold breaths to pour out on her neck, and the gradually unbearable breath. live sound.

have to say-

In fact, Xu Jiao's physical strength is very good. At the beginning, even if she was disturbed by the changing rhythm of the ice and fire, she did not say anything too rude, but just silently, forbearly, and covered it like a business. Staring into Shen Yelan's eyes, in order to pass this time as quickly as possible.

However, Shen Yelan didn't do what she wished. When Xu Jiao was too focused, she suddenly raised her hand and slowly walked towards the other party's touchable, untouchable, and taboo places.

Once the rhythm is disrupted, this initiative...

There is no way to come back.

The light outside the window gradually declined from its peak state, and after it faded, it was nibbled away by the cold and silent night until it was completely engulfed.

The original movement of the breeze blowing and the rustling of branches and leaves was also replaced by those little things that dared to jump out and jump in the skin of the night.

It was completely dark inside.

No matter how good Xu Jiao's physical strength was, it gradually softened at this moment. Even the part of the sheet that was pressed by her calf, after it sank, the color of the surface also darkened into small lumps.

Darkness can always magnify some of the disgusting emotions in people's hearts—

So Xu Jiao finally couldn't hold back, her eyes became hazy, and Qingming was completely lost. Because she couldn't see clearly, she said softly in a tired, pitiful voice:

"Please."

The first plea to exit is like the first person on the battlefield to raise his hand to surrender, and then it is a complete rout, vulnerable to a single blow.

No matter what request Shen Yelan made, there was only one thought left in her mind:

Let's end it quickly.

As long as it ends quickly, let her do whatever she wants.

In such a vivid picture, the system naturally cannot appear, that is to say, there is not even a voice to wake her up, as if she fell into the game but was cruelly shut down and returned to the exit of reality—

At the moment of surrender, Xu Jiao's emotions and desires were handed over to Shen Yelan's control, and she was in charge of life and death. She had to do whatever the other party wanted her to do. There was no other way but to be obedient.

At first, only physical tears flowed from her eyes, but later, even Xu Jiao could no longer control the sound in her throat. She was like a broken rag doll, pleading and pleading for that. name:

"Shen Yelan."

"Shen Yelan..."

In a hoarse, sobbing voice, all those unspeakable requests were exhausted.

How does she now look like the high god from before

This was pulled from the altar by the pagans and lost the divine personality... Ordinary people can only be slaughtered, weakly and overwhelmed, praying for the gentleness and forgiveness of the enemy.

Shen Yelan was finally touched, and changed her movements like a charity, letting Xu Jiao lie down. Then, she put her ear to the man's ear and smiled happily:

"continue."

"Sister Xu Jiao keeps calling me, and I will always help you."

"If you stop, then I won't continue."

In this way, she wants to imprint her name as deeply in Xu Jiao's heart as possible.

The next day the light came longer than ever.

When Xu Jiao woke up, she was as exhausted as if she had been run over by a wheel, her eyelids were extremely heavy, her arms, arms and legs were full of soreness from excessive exercise, as if she had no strength to turn over.

All because yesterday was too crazy.

From noon to sunset, and from evening to late night, and in most cases, she was being tricked into sweating, this consumption is naturally not small.

"Are you awake?" The system's voice sounded. The long-lost mechanical sound represented absolute rationality, and opened a path to sobriety in Xu Jiao's chaotic mind.

Xu Jiao slowed down, buried her head in the quilt, and only replied after a long time, "Yeah."

The system asked: "Do you still think she doesn't like you?"

Xu Jiao: "…"

Her sigh was swallowed by the cotton, and there was no movement in the air.

She opened her eyes and looked at it, only then did Xu Jiao realize that there was no sign of Shen Yelan on the bed. She stretched out her hand and poked around under the covers. Except for the place where she slept, the surroundings were cold, which proved that the other party had been away for a long time. .

Xu Jiao wanted to raise her hand to rub her head, moved her fingers, and gave up lazily. She kept her sleeping position unchanged, and asked the system aloud, "Is Shen Yelan still at my house?"

The system can still detect this distance, and immediately replied: "No."

Xu Jiao immediately scolded: "This little bastard who doesn't even pay the bill when he's full—"

She laughed angrily, causing the muscles on her body to be in pain, and desperately changed the posture of turning over, looking up at the ceiling, staring at the wall lamp for a while, and then slowly closed her eyes.

"I admit, it was my misjudgment this time."

Xu Jiao said slowly to the system in her heart: "I thought she was just new to this matter, or that she was taking advantage of me, so she wanted to double... um... humiliate me, and let me really feel what she was at that time. situation.”

but.

But in fact, it's not.

Yesterday, Xu Jiao met Shen Yelan's eyes while sweating like rain. Her eyes were full of concentration, persistence, and an amazing desire for control, as if she wished she could smash herself into pieces.

Loving someone's eyes doesn't lie—

When people look at the object they like, there will be temperature in their eyes, either warm, or scorching hot, as long as the person who has seen this look will never forget it.

Hearing her answer, the system's icy voice continued to sound: "I found that your behavior was in conflict with the previous one. When you found out that Shen Yelan had a tendency to like you, you simply chose to stay away and avoid her as much as possible. touch."

"But yesterday, when she asked you to make amends in this way, according to your behavior pattern, you were very likely to refuse, but you agreed uncharacteristically. Why?"

"I don't see that you feel so much guilt about your previous offense that it affects your emotional choices, and you're not someone who gets carried away by lust, based on your previous behavior pattern, I think you I would rather find a random person from the street to solve my needs, and I would never touch Shen Yelan."

"What changed your mind?"

Xu Jiao: "…"

So she really hates this system.

She raised her hand and touched the bed. After a while, she could only touch the empty space. Xu Jiao didn't have the energy to direct her arms to work, and asked the system directly, "Where's my phone?"

System: "Yesterday you put the dishes next to the sink and didn't bring it over, please don't change the subject, let me get to know you better, and I will be able to work out tasks as much as possible to help you achieve your ultimate goal, I believe you too. I don’t want to go through this local time.”

After a pause, it said: "After all, there are more than thirty of your novels that have been completed, not to mention some of the early serialized deep pit masterpieces..."

"Stop." Xu Jiao warned threateningly, "If we talk about black history again, our topic will be over."

The system did not mention Xu Jiao's earlier works as she intended.

Xu Jiao was not in a hurry to talk about this, but said to the system: "Help me order a takeaway first? I want to eat maocai, just a little spicy, just order the street in front of our No. 18 Middle School, which is the best one. Eat, I think about what ingredients to add in it, kelp, beef, chicken wing tips…”

The system was silent for two seconds. Seeing her ordering posture, she couldn't help but say, "I'm not your smart housekeeper!"

Xu Jiao softened her voice: "Hey, you don't want to see me become the first host in history to starve to death without completing the mission, right?"

"And you, a super artificial intelligence that surpasses existing technology, can't even do something as simple as ordering takeout?"

System: "The dreaded law has no effect on me."

But after being quiet for two seconds, it continued: "Apart from these, do you want anything else? Rice?"

Xu Jiao hurriedly replied, "One bowl of rice is enough! Well, I also need to add duck intestines, ham, baby vegetables..."

Hungry stomach finally found a place.

Xu Jiao originally planned to save her energy to take a shower, but she found that she was fresh and clean, and had already been cleaned up, so while waiting for the takeaway to arrive, she lay on the bed and put a pillow for herself. Until you adjust comfortably—

"It's my own problem."

She said slowly in her heart.

The system has a posture of asking the bottom line: "What's the problem?"

Xu Jiao's eyes were half-closed, her long eyelashes fell, as if to block her own three-thirds of an acre of land, even light did not want to let it in, her eyes were full of calm.

After letting out a long, light breath, Xu Jiao's voice sounded slowly in the room: "The night I drank too much, I confused her with someone..."

"I don't know if it was because of the alcohol, or if my memory was wrong at the time, but I always felt that Shen Yelan that night was very similar to the person I knew, which caused me to become distracted when I saw her when I woke up. "

"Obviously I knew that I was under the influence of drunkenness, and my memory might have gone wrong, but I... would still subconsciously find that shadow on Shen Yelan's body."

"When she asked yesterday, I said yes right away—"

"If it was that person, she wouldn't make such a request, Shen Yelan did."

So, Shen Yelan... just Shen Yelan.

Xu Jiao finally woke up from that illusory dream.

Before waiting for the system's response, after Xu Jiao finished speaking, she adjusted her mentality and continued: "I made this option, if the world still has a BE ending, it must be my responsibility to make up for this mistake. , I will be more active than before, I will try my best to eliminate Shen Yelan's blackening value."

"It's true this time," she stressed.

System: "... So your efforts in the last world are just pretending to fool me, and you are still sabotage in essence, right?"

Xu Jiao snorted: "Oh, with our relationship, how can you tell the truth? How hurtful."

system:"… "

It summed it up coldly: "I hope you live up to your word... After all, before entering this world, I remember someone promising to love this world."

Xu Jiao: "?"

She said in surprise: "Ah? Is it me?"

When the system was warmed up by her rogue core, Xu Jiao smiled again and said, "Okay, I'm teasing you, wait, when I'm full, I'll start greeting her."

Xu Jiao made a good guarantee in front of the system.

Even after eating the slightly spicy food, he turned around and asked for Shen Yelan's chat number from Su Xi, and forwarded a bunch of high-quality, carefully selected chicken soup articles to it, ensuring that people will read it. The kind that can elevate the soul.

pity…

She waited a week for a reply.

After returning to school and filling out the application, Xu Jiao finally couldn't hold back, and sent out a punctuation mark in the dialog box with Shen Yelan.

"?"

Still no reply.

Xu Jiao pursed her lips, threw her phone aside, sat on the desk boredly, flipped through the book "Walden" she used to hypnotize before going to bed, shook her feet, and noticed that Xiao Huang was under the desk. Drilling back and forth with her legs, rubbing back and forth with that big furry head.

Enjoying Xiao Huang's favor, she leaned over and touched its ears softly, and rubbed its head again, doubting the system in her heart:

"Did I guess wrong?"

"Or is this guy a sullen soul under his boring appearance? Looking serious and full of tricks in his heart?"

"If she really likes me, the news of her sweetheart should be answered in seconds, right? Or, is she playing hard-to-play with me?"

Xu Jiao was puzzled.

She didn't know that this question of hers could accompany her throughout the summer vacation of her senior year of high school.

"There is no next time."

Shen Yelan got off the plane, and in the Gobi Desert filled with loess, he raised his hand and folded the scarf around his neck, and coldly came across to pick up Holly and said.

Dong Qing raised her hand and patted her on the shoulder hard, and smiled and slapped her back and forth: "You can't be ungrateful, kid, that wasn't the attitude when you begged me to bring you money, why do I ask for it now? You, you turned your face and didn't recognize anyone?"

"The scumbag's face can't be good, apprentice." She educated earnestly.

However, Shen Yelan's face was still like ice and snow, and she was not easily melted by her attitude. After standing up straight again, she looked at the surrounding environment, and focused on Dong Qing up and down, with a bit of anger in her tone:

"That's what you said, only one breath left, bedridden and just want to see me one last time?"

"It's back to the light now?"

Dongqing touched her nose, raised her brows, and said again: "I'm not really short of people, I'm afraid you won't come? Hey, look at your stinky face, why, I was called from the bed before people could eat. down?"

Shen Yelan gritted his teeth and said nothing.

Eating is eating-

However, after receiving the news, she didn't even have time to take care of Xu Jiao, so she left her at home. She planned to get off the plane and send a message to explain, and then ordered a light takeaway. As a result, the signal all the way through is only a weak one.

She was sullen and said to Dongqing, "Stop talking nonsense and take me to a place with a signal quickly."

Holly smiled and didn't move.

Shen Yelan inexplicably had a bad premonition: "What?"

Holly looked at the sky pretending to be brisk: "You know, this area, the forces are chaotic, and there are always inexplicable stray bullets flying everywhere."

"So?" Shen Yelan asked patiently.

Dongqing: "So just one second before you came, our signal base station was mistakenly bombed, and the people of the base station company stationed here from abroad were just kidnapped and kidnapped again. After two months, it will probably be restored. No signal."

Shen Yelan: "..."

Shen Yelan: "???"

She looked back and forth in amazement, and asked again, "What if you didn't pick me up today?"

Dong Qing let out a haha, and patted Shen Yelan's arm vigorously again: "How could it be! Disciple, you are so lucky, how could you not find me? For the sake of our long-term relationship, I will be here. I'll wait for you here until twelve o'clock in the evening! How is it, are you loyal enough?"

Hearing her words, Shen Yelan suddenly had the urge to kill a teacher.

That is to say, if he is unable to meet with Holly today due to some accident, then he can only resign himself to fate in this unfamiliar corner, relying on his sparse ability before.

Seeing that the killing intent in her eyes was about to condense, Dong Qing knew that she was wrong, gave her position to Shen Yelan in a low voice, and said:

"Don't be angry, apprentice, you come here to stay with me for three months. Our boss is very generous with this order. When you go back to school, what kind of girlfriend do you want, right?"

Shen Yelan was unmoved, got into the car and closed his eyes, calmly said:

"I just want that one."

Dong Qing recalled the appearance of Xu Jiao she had seen in the clubhouse at that time, she held Shen Yelan's seat with one hand in the back row, leaned over and looked at her with her head tilted: "I didn't expect that I would actually teach a kind of love. ?"

Shen Yelan didn't say a word.

After driving off-road, and bumping on the bumpy road, Dongqing had nothing to do, continued to gossip, and asked Shen Yelan, "How long have you liked her?"

"She likes you too?"

Suddenly, the vehicle passed through a deep pit, almost knocking everyone in the vehicle off the seat, Shen Yelan raised his hand in time to grab the handle on the top, stabilized his body, opened his eyes, and looked at it calmly. the front view.

Although Dong Qing has never talked about unforgettable love, she is also someone who has seen the world in Fengyue Field. Seeing her calm appearance, how can she not guess the answer, and after she sits firmly again, she sighs.

A heartfelt sentence of education came from the back row:

"Good apprentice, listen to Master's advice—"

"Passionate since ancient times spared hatred."

Shen Yelan turned her head to look at her lightly, and took the next sentence with a blank face: "The origin of a good dream is the easiest to wake up from, from Wei Zian's "Flower and Moon Mark" in the Qing Dynasty, being able to compose such a poem will tire you out. Brain?"

Holly: "… "

The student scum, who was exposed by the Xueba, slapped his seat and said murderously: "Today as a teacher, I will clear the door! Don't stop me!"

Shen Yelan squatted in that crooked place for more than two months.

If she hadn't decided to fill in the voluntary report earlier, it is estimated that her future would have to follow Dongqing. She was late for the school report, missed the guidance of the senior and sister, and went to the college office obediently.

Therefore, the counselor also educated her earnestly: "We will regard it as giving up the degree automatically within a week of the start of the semester. If there is something, you can call the college to ask for leave, but it can't be like this anymore."

The dusty Shen Yelan bowed his head and apologized: "I'm sorry, teacher, I'll be there early next time."

Before getting to know all the freshmen's personalities, the counselor didn't mind leaving a good impression on the new students. After exhorting them in an official manner, they exposed the matter and gave Shen Yelan all the information about the previous freshmen. There is also a general map of the school.

After Shen Yelan finished the process, she found her dormitory building on the big campus. After cleaning up the dormitory and saying hello to her roommates, she finally figured out her own, because there was no signal, and there was no electricity behind her. If you are too lazy to charge your phone, plug it in again and turn it on.

A bunch of spam jumped out, along with weird group messages.

Before being contacted by Su Xi, she hadn't downloaded the chat software at all, so she didn't set up a filter for adding friends. At this moment, there were everyone in it, and all group messages were jumping around.

In this pile of news, there is a person's avatar that makes her look familiar.

It's a giggling big yellow dog.

Shen Yelan had met several times.

At the same time, there are also a series of shared articles, and at the end, a question mark is sent over, as if to test whether he is there or not.

This person's name is...

"My dog is super cute"

Shen Yelan: "..."

She opened the shared articles one by one. Although there were no beginnings or endings, she patiently read them, and sent the editorial message:

"Is that Sister Xu Jiao?"

"Sorry, something happened to my friend before. I was in a hurry, so I didn't have time to contact you. Where are you now?"

"What kind of friend can keep her offline for three months?"

"System, do you believe this reason? I don't believe it anyway."

Xu Jiao and her friends were studying in the old teaching building. Hearing the movement of the mobile phone, she picked it up and looked at it for a long time. In her heart, she told the system to criticize Shen Yelan's lame reason.

The system was silent for two seconds, "But she never lies, at least to you, doesn't she?"

Xu Jiao flattened her mouth, "Wait, I'll finish the sixth level, and I'll take care of her."

Then Xu Jiao became addicted to the question sea, and accidentally stayed in the classroom until almost eleven o'clock in the evening. She was the only one left in the whole classroom. The door is locked.

Xu Jiao nodded nonchalantly, thinking about the answer to the reading question she had just read.

Just then, the classroom door was pushed open again—

Xu Jiao thought it was the security guard, so she looked up casually, but saw a person with a darker complexion than before, some familiar, some unfamiliar.

It was Shen Yelan.

The reason why I say unfamiliar is because the feeling on this person has changed. In the past, the black eyes that people dared not look directly at are now like a tempered blade, exuding a sharp cold light, darkening outside the corridor. In the light, it still shines brightly.

Now that it is already autumn in the north, and the temperature drops at night, Shen Yelan wears a very light gray windbreaker, the coat grows to the calf, and as she walks, it drives the arc of the sky.

She closed the door of the classroom with her backhand, and silenced the room again, and walked in Xu Jiao's direction step by step.

Xu Jiao raised her brows and said the same words as when they reunited last time: "Long time no see."

Shen Yelan stopped in front of her, looked down at the papers on her table, and asked in a hoarse voice:

"I sent you a message back, didn't Sister Xu Jiao see it?"

Xu Jiao let out an "ah", and then said, "I forgot to go back—how did you know I was here?"

"If I remember correctly, we don't seem to be a professional."

Shen Yelan stared at her for two seconds, and in her understatement of "forgetting", she was quiet for a long time before answering: "I am from the cafeteria, your college classroom, your department's dormitory, and from your major. , The teaching building near the dormitory, I found it one by one."

Xu Jiao was speechless.

She knew how big the school was, and just hearing about this project of finding someone made people feel hopeless.

Shen Yelan is really...

Before she could think of how to describe this person, she suddenly saw Shen Yelan walking to her side, raising her hand to hug her, bowing her head and smelling the smell of the new shampoo in her hair, there was an uncontrollable emotion in her voice, deep. Deeply said:

"I miss you."

Xu Jiao: "…"

Did she take the initiative to send it to her door before she had any probation

The problem is that they don't seem to be lovers, so what should I pick up

Xu Jiao hesitated for two seconds, and was about to politely answer "Me too" when she saw Shen Yelan let go of her hand, lowered her eyes and said firmly, "I want you."

Xu Jiao: "...?"

She pointed her pen on the topic and replied calmly, "Just think about it." She didn't even look at where it was.

Hearing her rejection, Shen Yelan didn't know what to do, her eyes were full of emotions, she suddenly raised her hand to hold the back of her hand holding the pen, and said word by word:

"I want you."

"Right now."

"This is the second time."

Xu Jiao was shocked by her declaration, the pen fell out of her hand, and she asked the system in her heart, "Am I going the wrong way? I can't influence her with love, I can only..."

"Melting with your body?"