I Want to be Alone, Beautifully

Chapter 31: Green plum green plum (23)

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"She's just deceiving you as an expedient measure, you take it seriously, do you really think she's going to fall in love with you? Wake up, she just doesn't want to continue such a relationship, but you're the only one here to deceive yourself. "

"You still want her to knead clay against you. How could she have such patience?"

"She rescued you on a whim back then, but just to help you casually, didn't you see it?"

elective courses.

The old professor with high literary literacy wrote beautiful blackboard script on the blackboard, no matter oracle bone script, golden script, small seal script or official script, they all look better than those printed in the pictures on the book, and his vast knowledge made him stand there at an age. , still has a very strong appearance, even when explaining the famous scholars of the Wei and Jin Dynasties, there is a romantic tone in his tone.

Shen Yelan took notes along with his voice, looking like a serious and rigorous student outside of class, but even the classmates sitting next to her didn't know how noisy her world was at the moment.

Since that night-

Her symptoms got worse.

The hallucinations that had not appeared for a long time before, not only reappeared, but also intensified, not only the previous one, but even two or three at the same time, some were encouraging her to imprison Xu Jiao, and some just Like just now, she was dissecting Xu Jiao who she didn't want to read, mocking, instigating, tempting, everything.

But the most extreme part of this is that some hallucinations always imitate Xu Jiao's usual words and deeds, including her extremely contrasting performance on the bed, so that whenever she loses her mind, she thinks she is seeing Xu Jiao myself.

To her, the experience of that night was as if the believers who had always seen only the light were suddenly deceived by the dark walkers, allowing her to touch the robe of God in her heart and taste the forbidden taste, so From now on…

Self-deprecating.

She knew that this was wrong and tried her best to resist, but she knew in her heart that the embankment of a thousand miles was destroyed in the ant's nest, and some things just couldn't open that head, otherwise... the cracks would only get bigger and bigger.

Shen Yelan could no longer hear the teacher's voice on the podium, and the pen in his hand had been pointing on the notebook for a long time, leaving a lot of ink dots. After a while, the content of the previous note was still a sentence of Cao Cao's "Xinglu Xing". , after a pause for a while, what followed was a "Shut up."

"Shut up, shut up, she's not like that."

There was a phantom sitting on her lap, the clothes on her shoulders were baggy and could not fall off. This was the clothes she had seen Xu Jiao wearing at home one time, and now this phantom is also wearing exactly the same clothes. Holding her neck, leaned over and said to her:

"Why isn't that kind of person? You are very clear in your heart, aren't we talking about what you have in mind?"

She knew it was fake, but when the voice spoke, Shen Yelan felt the other person's breath falling down, it was cold and hot, and even the hand around her neck seemed to be relying on her. to support herself so as not to slip off her legs.

Shen Yelan's eyes moved slightly, and suddenly she saw the large bite marks on the back of the neck of the person sitting on her—

It was when she and Xu Jiao were messing around in the hotel before, she bit it unconsciously to show possession, and only noticed the trace when she was done cleaning up for the other party.

So Shen Yelan remembered it clearly.

Her throat moved, and the pen in her hand didn't move for a long time, until the movement of the person next to her accidentally knocked over the water glass when she got up, which shocked Shen Yelan.

"Ah, sorry, I didn't mean to."

The girl sitting next to her, who also came to study, pinned the long hair beside her ear with one hand apologetically, and half squatted down to touch the thermos cup that rolled down to Shen Yelan's feet with the other hand.

Shen Yelan was silent for two seconds, then leaned down to help her pick up the red cup, raised her hand and handed it over, the other party thanked him in succession, but she was indifferent.

Looking down at the traces on his notebook, Shen Yelan realized that the neat handwriting on it was only the upper half, and all that was left was messy, like the last struggle of a person on the verge of collapse.

She exhaled slowly, stuffed the book into her schoolbag calmly, got up very lightly and walked outside the classroom.

"What did I say?"

"This little bastard looks Svensman on the surface, but in fact there are many tricks - pinch a clay figure, I have never learned this craft, I just don't know how long it will take to make a cup that can be seen, How many years will it take to get to the point where it can be lifelike and pinch people, this kid is very good at abacus."

"She wants me to think about her for many years from now on, killing people and punishing them, but that's all."

During the entire professional English class, Xu Jiao listened to the English teacher spit out coherent and natural content in fluent American pronunciation, holding her cheek in one hand and holding the pen in the other, pretending to be listening intently, but thinking about the system in her heart. Talked boringly.

System: "Isn't that the way to kill people?"

Xu Jiao sighed slightly: "It doesn't matter, my client is regretting it now, very regretful. If it wasn't for the wrong move at that time, there would not be so many broken things now, hey."

Now she feels like she was just a passerby who came to the game, but she accidentally got involved with the game characters. In order to erase the trace, she pretended that nothing happened, and had to do more matter.

The consequence is...

The involvement seems to be getting deeper and deeper

The more Xu Jiao thought about it, the weaker she became, and she secretly made up her mind that no matter if there was a way to eliminate Shen Yelan's blackening value in the end, she would not be able to make such a big sacrifice in the next world, even if she accidentally fell asleep, she should Be honest, we paid for the prostitutes and left, and we all cleared things up.

Shen Yelan's obedient, quiet and gentle manner that night was like lard, which caught Xu Jiao's heart, causing her to feel strange guilt and guilt of treating people as substitutes, so much so that she agreed to Shen Yelan again. The absurd request of Shen Yelan was fooled by the system and agreed to work hard to eliminate Shen Yelan's blackening value.

Well now, she has to knead clay again, and teach people to fall in love, that's all—there are six more times left!

Life is not easy, Jiaojiao sighed.

She recalled the technique taught by the training teacher when she kneaded the clay last time, recalled the gentle movement in her hand, and the rhythm of constantly turning the base, and after a long while, she slowly moved from the posture of holding her cheek with one hand. The salted fish lay down.

"It's very difficult."

She said, "Either I'll let Shen Yelan die every day. After a hundred, I'll be considered dead under a peony flower, and it's honorable to be a ghost."

system:"… ?"

The English teacher on the podium cast her gaze in Xu Jiao's direction intentionally or unintentionally. The originally smooth tone was much slower, and even a cadenced rhythm appeared. It was light for a while and heavy for a while, obviously to remind some classmates not to talk to her. Sleep in class.

Xu Jiao felt the teacher's earnest gaze, her back that had been bent reluctantly straightened, she put her other hand to support her head, and said to the system:

"However, don't tell me, just Shen Yelan's once a day, once a day, as long as she doesn't overeat like this, if she is a little bit average, she will be quite happy to be her bed partner."

System: "Sorry, I don't need to know this knowledge point."

Xu Jiao lengthened her voice boredly: "But I want to tell you."

The system was quiet for a while, and the ordinary mechanical sound made people feel a little helpless: "Okay, you said, although I may not be able to hear it in the shielded mode, but a harmonious society encourages everyone to be active. express yourself."

As soon as Xu Jiao heard it, it was rare for her to support herself in making colors, and her face changed instantly: "Oh? Do you want to hear it? Then I won't say it."

System: "..." It just ignores her!

"When - when - when"

The bell for the end of the get out of class rang slowly, and the English teacher stopped what he was going to say in a timely manner, and turned to say: "I will assign the homework in the group, everyone remember to hand it in before the next class, otherwise I will be at the end of the term. Appropriately deduct from your usual points."

Everyone in the room was a scholar, and no one had any objection. When the teacher on the stage packed up the lesson plans, he also lowered his head to pack up his textbooks, notes and personal belongings, and then went out one after another.

Xu Jiao received a message from Su Xi that this little girl also took her exam in the same city, but the school was a little far away, and it was estimated that there were no classes now, so she asked Xu Jiao to go shopping and buy clothes.

Xu Jiao went out while replying to her news, listening to her rant about her weird roommates and school affairs.

When she lowered her head and went downstairs, she turned her attention away and walked down the stairs. She happened to see Shen Yelan who was also taking classes in the building here. Their eyes met, but Shen Yelan was expressionless. He looked away, as if he hadn't seen her at all.

Xu Jiao: "...?"

Weird.

Didn't this person stick to him as soon as he saw him before? Even if the movement is not sticky, her eyes will stay on her body, and the scorching temperature will not change even when she reaches the bed, and it will even intensify and become much hotter.

Why do you look so ignorant and indifferent now

Doubt flashed through her mind, but Xu Jiao quickly put it aside, not caring about the best, so as not to have any more difficult requirements on her, as long as it didn't affect the blackening value she promised the system would drop, other Neither matter.

Out of the corner of her eye, she paid attention to the movement of going downstairs. She typed words in her hand and replied very quickly. She sent Su Xi a message: "Wait for me at the main entrance for five minutes, come right away. We don't have a student ID here recently, so don't let anyone in casually."

A person holding a book walked by her side. She didn't see the movements under her feet very clearly for a while. She stepped between the two stairs and had no time to adjust her posture. The book in her hand was sent to the sky, and she was shocked. With a whimper, as he fell, he instinctively wanted to grab something.

When Xu Jiao saw someone was about to fall, Xu Jiao stopped sending a message to Su Xi, but before she could react, the strap of her schoolbag was suddenly pulled. Small, she only had time to lean back to counteract the initial force of falling down. Then, because she couldn't take a step in time to lower her center of gravity in the narrow stairwell, she rushed down together.

The surrounding classmates subconsciously stood against the wall standing against the wall, grabbed the handrail and grabbed the handrail, as well as those who could not dodge and were pulled away by friends. In short, the whole staircase echoed with the voices of the classmates:

"what!"

"be careful!"

"My God!"

Accompanied by the soles of the shoes rubbing against the ground, the body touching one another, the handrail of the stairs being hit, and so on.

Shen Yelan was standing on the floor of the next floor, and she stopped when she saw several people falling in series in her direction, and one of them was a phantom that was somehow tricked into it.

The first thought that came to mind was:

here we go again.

These hallucinations are becoming more and more excessive.

When she opened her eyes and woke up recently, she would always see those images appearing in front of her and fall asleep beside her. Some were Xu Jiao when she was sleeping normally, and some were after her tossing and exhausting all night. In a state of exhaustion, the red marks at the corners of the eyes did not fade, the eyelashes were still wet, and the lips were swollen.

And when Shen Yelan couldn't tell what was going on today and what was going on, he raised his hand and wanted to press the person into his arms, and then be gentle—

Hand touched it.

All I could touch was the cold blanket.

In addition, when she was about to get out of bed, there would suddenly appear on the ground a person sitting there, hugging her knees, with a pitiful appearance, Xu Jiao, stretched out her hand to her, and said to her:

"Shen Yelan, give me a hug."

"Shen Yelan, how do you know to bully me, can you give me a hand?"

When she felt guilt in her heart and reflected on her behavior, she just stretched out her hand, and before she touched the fingertips of that person, the illusion dissipated. In the distance, another person stood there with arms crossed and hooked her. Hooking his lips, he said in a mocking tone:

"You really should look in the mirror to see how you look now, Shen Yelan, it's just me playing with you and teasing you."

"Let the classmates down below let you go!"

Someone fell in the direction of Shen Yelan uncontrollably, and when they were about to hit her, they couldn't help but close their eyes, and there was only a tone-changing reminder sound that almost broke through the ceiling.

Shen Yelan looked up calmly, but did not choose to move away, but stepped back half a step with one foot. While stabilizing her body, she raised her hand to hold the person, and retreated a little with the opponent's inertia. But he was firmly caught.

Then, thinking that the person would not fall as hard as before, Shen Yelan put her eyes on the phantom that fell down the stairs. Although she knew that the shadow would disappear as soon as she raised her hand, she still Seriously, he raised his hand to grab the other's wrist.

However, when he raised his hand, he grasped the truth.

Shen Yelan's unwavering eyes immediately set off a shocking wave. If it wasn't for the reflexes her body had been trained by Dong Qing, she would definitely fall back to the ground along with Xu Jiao's movements.

Fortunately, the instinct came to an end. At the critical moment, after Shen Yelan took a few steps back with Xu Jiao, his back slammed into the wall next to him, but he finally stopped the man's castration perfectly.

Xu Jiao had originally planned to land on her shoulders to relieve her injuries, but she didn't expect to be dragged over by Shen Yelan. She didn't notice for a while, her right foot stepped on Shen Yelan's left, and she raised her head instinctively. But it bumped into Shen Yelan's chin.

Both were instantly in pain.

Shen Yelan paused for a moment and tasted the rust smell emanating from the tip of her tongue, her throat moved, and she called out in a low, hoarse voice: "Xu, Sister Jiao..."

Xu Jiao raised her brows, smiled at her, and withdrew from her arms: "Thanks to you, thank you."

There were classmates around the girl who first fell down the stairs and staggered along with many classmates, but no one could support them, and said with concern:

"Are you all right, classmate?"

"Did you fall somewhere? Do you want to take you to the hospital?"

The classmate shook his head, looked in Xu Jiao's direction with red eyes, and apologized carefully: "I'm sorry, classmate, I didn't mean to pull you just now."

Xu Jiao shook her head, smiled at her, and said gently, "It's okay."

Beside her, she noticed that the temperature in her arms moved away in an instant, Shen Yelan instinctively raised her hand to stop her, and grabbed the corner of Xu Jiao's clothes as soon as she pulled it.

Xu Jiao watched Shen Yelan revert to the sticky attitude she remembered, and her gaze seemed to be able to cook her, so she raised her brows, meeting Shen Yelan's gaze, and her gaze moved down again. The other party's actions silently asked:

What are you doing

Shen Yelan was quiet for a while, her voice was a little hoarse, and once it was lowered, it was as if she had been wronged, giving people a wonderful feeling of coquettishness:

"Where is Sister Xu Jiao going? I'll take you off."

Xu Jiao looked at her with a funny look: "I'm going to the main gate, I can walk there, no need to give it away."

Shen Yelan let go of her hand reluctantly under the hint of her gaze, but she followed her steps honestly. After walking out of the hall on the first floor with Xu Jiao, she also followed her through the outside. Green path, walking towards the main entrance.

She is sticking to her words with actions.

Xu Jiao took two steps, and seeing that she was about to reach the main entrance, she reluctantly stopped and turned to look at Shen Yelan: "If you really just send me, then just send it here, it's just two steps. , I'll just go by myself."

Shen Yelan didn't say a word, and he didn't know whether to agree or disagree.

Xu Jiao found that she didn't have much to do with such a stuffy gourd, because as long as Shen Yelan didn't speak, no one knew how much she was bored and what she was thinking about at this moment.

Suddenly, she didn't rush over, but stood still and looked Shen Yelan up and down, as if she was only ready to meet the person in front of her from today.

She didn't understand Shen Yelan, and Shen Yelan didn't understand her either, but Shen Yelan was willing to indulge her to do anything, so Xu Jiao had to see it, so it was up to her.

Until Xu Jiao couldn't hold back, she was the first to break the silence:

"Hey, I asked you-"

Xu Jiao looked left and right, and found that the people passing by were far away, so she was so, thinking of what to do next, she still took the initiative to lean in the direction of Shen Yelan, lowered her voice, and gave the impression that she and this The illusion of a strong relationship between people:

"Does sleeping with me make you happy?"

Shen Yelan: "...!"

She was stunned for a moment, as if she couldn't recognize the person in front of her for a while, her throat moved, she instinctively raised her hand and grabbed the corner of Xu Jiao's clothes, confirming that it was a real person asking this question, not a sudden one phantoms are tempting her.

After touching the fabric, Shen Yelan lowered her eyes and squeezed the content out of her throat: "Why did Sister Xu Jiao suddenly ask this?"

Of course, I want to know how to quickly and effectively reduce your blackening value!

Complete this damn system task sooner rather than later!

Xu Jiao answered loudly in her heart, but she just squinted her eyes, raised her hand to block the suddenly warm sunlight above her head, and said casually, "Just curious."

She said: "I just want to know, am I so delicious? How can it make you have this 'eating ten times as compensation' idea?"

Shen Yelan: "..."

She watched Xu Jiao speak in a very calm tone in broad daylight, saying things that would make passers-by hear absolutely amazed and startled, and couldn't help but wonder if her hallucinations had become more serious.

After all, this kind of sloppy words usually only appear in the mouths of those identical phantoms, in order to let her constantly recall the happiness of the fall, so that she will fall deeper.

now…

Shen Yelan was clutching Xu Jiao's clothes, the fabric in her hand was almost deformed by her movements, as if this was the only medium for her to distinguish between fantasy and reality, she took a deep breath, she did not answer Xu Jiao's question, Instead he asked:

"Then, would you be happy that Sister Xu Jiao was dragged by me to do such a thing?"

Xu Jiao opened her mouth and wanted to answer "Of course not" according to normal logic. When the words came to her mouth, she stopped abruptly and smiled: "Shen Yelan, I asked you first, so you have to answer first."

Shen Yelan's lips moved, and she honestly spat out the answer:

"hapiness."

“Also delicious.”

Xu Jiao raised her brows and wanted to ask you how to be happier and more satisfied. Before she could say anything, she was reminded by Shen Yelan, "It's up to Sister Xu Jiao to answer my question."

Xu Jiao smiled lightly and said, "If I'm your girlfriend and you can be less domineering in bed, of course I'll be happy."

Shen Yelan was stunned.

The voices in my ears entangled like crazy again, and whispered: "Hee hee, she means unhappy."

"Of course I'm not happy, Shen Yelan, would you be happy if you were forced like this?"

"You're not love at all, true love, it won't make the person you like feel miserable - admit it, Shen Yelan, you're just despicable possessiveness."

Su Xi waited at the door for a long time, but Xu Jiao didn't come in for a long time. In a hurry, she found a classmate who looked good and asked him to take her in, wondering if Xu Jiao was entangled in something. I stayed, and I didn't reply for a long time when I sent a message.

As a result, as soon as I walked into the campus, I saw two familiar figures on the side road.

One is Shen Yelan and the other is Xu Jiao.

She didn't think about it, she was about to go quietly and scare Xu Jiao from behind, but she slowed down, and just as she approached, she saw Shen Yelan raised her eyes and looked over, then the corners of her lips moved, and she quickly said something .

When Su Xi approached, he heard another sentence from the other party:

"Be my girlfriend, okay?"

Su Xi: "… "

Su Xi: "!!!"