Chen Yang stared at the person in front of him without blinking. I wonder if I am hallucinating again...
"Bang"
The sound of the key falling on the shoe cabinet made Chen Yang's entire back numb instantly. It was not an illusion, no, not an illusion. He felt dizzy and his limbs were shaking.
Chao Jian took off his baseball cap and closed the door. He put the cake on the cabinet and picked up the motionless Chen Yang with both hands: "Why don't you say anything?"
Chen Yang was stunned and said: "Captain Jin Xiao said that you have become a fool."
"It's fake, he lied to you." She bent her waist slightly towards Jian and buried her cold face in his heart.
Chen Yang subconsciously hung his legs around Chao Jian's waist: "He doesn't like me and doesn't like me." Like a little kid who was complaining.
Chao Jian: "Don't worry about him."
"Yeah." Chen Yang looked at the chestnut head buried in front of him and still felt like he was dreaming.
Chao Jian crawled back home stumblingly like a traveler who had gone through hardships. He took a deep sniff of the scent on Chen Yang's body, his expression satisfied and dazed. I'm back.
The entrance was quiet for a while, Chao Jian raised his head to look at Chen Yang, his eyes red: "Do you miss me?"
Chen Yang looked at him with red eyes: "Yes, I do."
"Then why haven't you kissed me yet when I've been back for two and a half minutes?" Chao Jian asked in a hoarse voice.
Chen Yang was about to lean over to kiss him, but the action got stuck two-thirds of the way through, feeling a little unnatural: "Put me down, this position is a little difficult, my waist is not good."
Chao Jian: "..." He held Chen Yang against the door with ease, his eyes burning, "Brother, your waist is very good, you try it."
Chen Yang tried subconsciously and kissed Chao Jian easily. His waist was indeed... um... he didn’t even know his body was so soft...
Before, Chen Yang and Chao Jian either had a pure, light kiss, or Chen Yang was asleep and Chao Jian was restrained yet madly kissing him. This was the first time that Chen Yang was kissed wetly by Chao Jian while he was awake, and it was both intense and gentle.
Chen Yang didn't know how he got from the entrance to the room, and how he appeared on the bed. When he regained consciousness, he was already pressed under Chao Jian...
Then, Chao Jian fell asleep holding him.
“…” Chen Yang pursed his lips which felt numb and hot. Chao Jian was too good at kissing. He was completely led by her and had no power to resist.
How can you kiss so well? Chen Yang's heart was beating fast, and his hands and feet seemed to be swept by electricity, and he couldn't do anything now.
It was horrible. A passionate kiss almost killed him. What if it went to the last step...
Chen Yang couldn't help but think, so why didn't you do it
The next second he noticed a detail. After kissing Jian, he didn't ask him to calm down or wash his face with cold water. Does this mean that he doesn't need to worry about the change in threshold now
Chen Yang's breathing was a little irregular. The person pressing on him was quite heavy. His breathing was heavy and disordered, and he looked very tired, as if he had not slept well for a long time.
"Just sleep for ten minutes," Chao Jian closed his eyes and pulled Chen Yang into his arms, then leaned over to whisper in his ear, "I'll celebrate your birthday when I wake up."
Chen Yang placed his hand on Chao Jian’s head, and his fingertips ran through his hair, stroking it again and again.
The room was filled with a reassuring tranquility. Chen Yang's mouth smelled of milk, which Chao Jian fed him. It was very strong.
I don’t know how many milk tablets he ate on the way back to Chao Jian.
Chen Yang hugged Chao Jian's back and tightened his arms uncontrollably. It's good that you're back, it's good that you're back...
Regarding the people and things that have troubled me for more than half a year, and regarding the secrets of this world, I am not in a hurry to uncover them. If you want to take it slow, then take it slow. When you think the time is right and it is okay, I will adjust myself to the best condition.
All up to you.
The separation lasted from summer to late autumn. It was too long, so long that it made Chen Yang fragile and sad. He couldn't be separated from Chao Jian for such a long time.
Moreover, this separation also made Chen Yang understand one thing more deeply: being alive is not the most important thing.
—The most important thing is to live with Chao Jian.
Ten minutes later, Chao Jian opened his eyes. It seemed as if there was a clock inside his body that would ring when the time was up.
Chen Yang lowered his eyes and looked at Chao Jian.
"Have you had dinner?" Chao Jian held Chen Yang's moist eyes.
"I ate it." When Chen Yang said these two words, his stomach dubbed him, making a rumbling sound.
Chen Yang: “…”
Chao Jian and Chen Yang looked at each other, sighed, and went to the kitchen.
Ten seconds later, Chen Yang reacted. He jumped off the bed and ran to the kitchen. When he passed the living room, he heard the phone vibrating on the sofa.
Chen Yang walked over and picked up his phone. The corners of his mouth twitched a few times. Now he realized that the voice message he sent to Xiangdong was not a private message, but was sent directly to the group they created yesterday.
The group exploded.
The group was in an uproar as long as Chao Jian had been back.
The most invincible and handsome man in the world: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
One Yuan: Are you ready for the green onions
Pineapple Cake: I know, I know. I heard Brother Dong calling Brother Yang. He said that if Chao Jian could come back today, he would live stream himself stuffing green onions in his nose.
Pineapple Cake: Brother Dong chased me all over the street, and now I’m hiding in a corner shivering, my life is in danger, my friends come and support me!
One Yuan: Don’t worry, Susu, my blessings are with you.
Pineapple Cake:…
The painter sent a red envelope to Fengli, and said: When will the live broadcast start? I'll take a look here. If you don't have time, then...
Pineapple Cake: So forget it if you don’t have time
Painter: If you don’t have time, let the housekeeper record the video.
Pineapple Cake:…
Pineapple Cake: The most handsome man in the world The most handsome man in the world
Then a string of message prompts appeared in the group.
The world's number one invincible handsome guy has left the group chat
The world's number one invincible handsome guy joined the group chat
The world's number one invincible handsome guy has left the group chat
…
One Yuan: Oh, smiling face
Pineapple Cake: Latest news everyone, I just called Dong Ge, he said his phone was broken, so he would join the group, leave the group, and then join the group again.
One Yuan: Professor Bai, what do you think about this matter
Professor Bai: I can’t bear to watch it.
There were too many chat records. Chen Yang glanced through them, then exited with a speechless look and clicked on the chats that had privately chatted with him one by one.
Pineapple Cake: Brother Yang! Great! Chao Jian is back! You guys should go to bed early!
Chen Yang clicked on the “Coin” avatar in the list.
One Yuan: Ayang, Ayang, I can’t go back until next month, but it doesn’t matter, I sent you a gift.
One Yuan: Happy reunion with the pen refill.
Chen Yang didn’t dare to think about what gift Wen Qing sent him, so he opened Bai Tang’s chat box.
Professor Bai sent a good night expression.
Chen Yang glanced at the “帅” (handsome) avatar below him and nodded, unable to bear looking at it.
The most invincible and handsome man in the world: Lao Chen, I won’t say anything else. I will just say this: leave some room for others so that we can meet again in the future.
Chen Yang closed the chat box and clicked on the last friend. The painter sent him ten red envelopes. He rubbed the tip of his nose with the back of his hand. He had already received a huge red envelope today, so he felt embarrassed to click on it again.
The painter suddenly sent a message: This is a blessing red envelope, perfect and symbolizing blessing.
Painter: Give my regards to your boyfriend. I wish you two happy reunions in advance. I will visit you some other day.
As Chen Yang pointed at the red envelopes, he thought, what the Chinese teacher said was right, poetry can really influence people, just look at the painters, they are all influenced by the literary spirit.
After receiving all the red envelopes, Chen Yang thanked the painter and turned off his phone. He live-broadcasted himself stuffing green onions in his nose or something... It was impossible to let it go. He would talk about it tomorrow.
Chen Yang walked to the kitchen door and stopped. He stared at the figure beating eggs with his back to him. Something was different...
The feeling Chao Jian gave him now was like... the heaven and earth were turning back, everything was thawing, and a warm orange glow shone on the melted ice water.
The sun is rising.
Chen Yang's heart was shaken. He couldn't help but walk quickly into the kitchen and into Chao Jian's world.
Then, Chao Jian and Chen Guang both hugged him.
"The hair in front of me is poking my eyes, so I need to tie it up." Chao Jian bent down in front of Chen Yang.
Chen Yang touched his hair and said, "Where did you put the rubber band? In your backpack? I'll get it for you."
Chao Jian: "The left pocket of the pants."
Chen Yang said without hesitation: "Then why don't you tie your hair up?"
Chao Jian's brows frowned instantly.
Chen Yang quickly gave him a small chirp and coughed a few times: "I feel like I'm not very romantic."
Chao Jian: "'Feel', 'I seem', 'too', these words..."
Chen Yang: “What?”
"Remove it." Chao Jian blurted out.
The object was very cold and stern. Chen Yang accepted it humbly. He said carefully: "Then I will try to change it."
Chao Jian said: "You can't change."
Chen Yang: “…”
The water in the pot boiled, Chao Jian opened the lid, picked up most of the tube of noodles, took out some and put them into the pot: "If you don't understand, then you don't understand."
Chen Yang looked at Chao Jian picking noodles with chopsticks: "So you don't care, right?"
Unexpectedly, Chao Jian said indifferently: "I care."
Chen Yang was defeated again.
"Just remember to coax me." Chao Jian said.
Chen Yang's ears felt a little hot: "Then will you still leave?"
He shook his head at Jane.
Chen Yang's eyes stopped at Chao Jian's hand holding the chopsticks, and his thoughts drifted away little by little. When Jin Xiaochang said that the new drug had serious side effects and Chao Jian's emotions were too controlled by the drug, and he would become stupid, Chen Yang didn't really believe it. He felt that Chao Jian would return to the beginning, that is, the stage before the drug lost its effect, hiding all his joys, sorrows, anger, and happiness, without any emotional ups and downs, like a monster lurking in the deepest part of the ocean, ready to jump out at any time to bite and crush the same or different species that tried to approach him. He refused sunlight and temperature, and sank alone to the bottom of the sea.
Chao Jian might be even more lifeless than at that stage, without any breath of life.
However, Chen Yang did not expect that the situation was exactly the opposite of what he imagined. Chao Jian became more youthful and worldly.
Chao Jian tried very hard to return to his side.
To be precise, Chao Jian once again climbed out of the abyss, stepped through countless struggles and stood in front of him.
Chen Yang wiped his face, his throat was hoarse: "When you cook noodles, I'm watching you like this, do you think I'm clingy?"
Chao Jian suddenly stopped putting the green vegetables into the pot. He lowered his eyes without saying a word, and no one knew what he was thinking.
Chen Yang sensed Chao Jian's mood change, and he was a little panicked: "What's wrong?"
"You used to cook noodles for me, and I was like you now, and you said I was clingy." Chao Jian tilted his head towards Chen Yang, his eyes paranoid and aggrieved.
Chen Yang said after a while: "I forgot."
"Yeah, I know." As Jian continued to put the green vegetables in, he stretched out a hand.
Chen Yang understood and held her hand. He wanted to ask, "Was I good to you before?" But when the words came to his lips, he dared not ask. He should wait for Chao Jian to tell him.
"Oh, right!" Chen Yang grabbed Chao Jian's hand and said, "Director Jin Xiao showed me the video of your treatment. I saw you..."
A sinister look quickly flashed across Chao Jian's face: "That was all in the past. I wasn't injured this time."
Chen Yang remembered that in the video, Chao Jian slammed his head against the wall, causing his head to be broken and his face to be bleeding. As he recalled the scene with a pale face, he looked at Chao Jian's forehead and saw no scar.
Chao Jian, who was standing in front of him, had sunken eye sockets and a much thinner face.
Chen Yang looked at Chao Jian carefully, but he was still worried so he pulled at his sports jacket and put his hand inside.
After putting it in, Chen Yang paused. When he wanted to take it out, his fingers had already rubbed against Chao Jian's abdominal muscles.
Chao Jian's breath suddenly became heavier: "I'm really not injured."
"I searched online and found that manic personality disorder is accompanied by violent tendencies and habitual violence, and one cannot control oneself," Chen Yang said. "When you are treating the disease..."
"I restrained myself." Chao Jian grabbed his hand.
Chen Yang didn't believe it. Whether it was the video of Chao Jian's painful treatment, Jin Xiaochang's description, or the patient's self-report on the Internet, he could draw a conclusion that when the disease occurs, it is irrational. How can an irrational person restrain himself? Can he do it
"I want to take a shower before going to bed. Come with me and I'll let you check me." Chao Jian pinched his palm.
Chen Yang's mind was buzzing with excitement: "Then... OK."
Chao Jian's Adam's apple rolled: "Yeah."
When the longevity noodles were taken out of the pot, they were almost mushy.
Chen Yang took the chopsticks handed to him by Chao Jian and asked him in a daze: "Have you eaten anything?"
"I don't remember." Chao Jian sat next to him, "You eat first, I'll eat the rest."
"Okay." Chen Yang took the chopsticks and stirred some noodles. He remembered that it was not the first time he had longevity noodles, but he could not remember when exactly. It was probably part of the content he had forgotten.
Chen Yang picked up a chopstick of noodles and brought it to his mouth. He blew on it and ate it. The strange yet familiar taste made his eyes wet: "Ding Huichun said that you used to be cheerful and loved to laugh."
Chao Jian's long legs hooked around his feet: "That was when I first started the mission, and I wasn't mature enough yet."
Chen Yang was stunned.
"Eat noodles." Chao Jian put one hand on the back of his chair and twisted the back of his neck with his fingertips.
Chen Yang took two mouthfuls of noodles and continued to look at him.
"You really want to know what I looked like when I was doing missions before?" Chao Jian looked into his eyes.
Chen Yang nodded.
"No matter how many times I say it, it's not as good as you seeing it with your own eyes," Chao Jian said.
Chen Yang's nose felt sour: "I can't see it anymore. Time can't go back."
Chao Jian fixed Chen Yang with a meaningful gaze: "If you really want to see it, maybe you can."
Chen Yang looked puzzled.
Chao Jian held the back of his head and motioned for him to eat longevity noodles.
Chen Yang absentmindedly ate half of the noodles and gave the remaining half to Jian.
I had noodles and cake.
Chen Yang actually doesn’t celebrate his birthday. This year his friends gave him red envelopes and blessings, and his girlfriend also flew back from abroad. He felt like he was hit by Easter eggs.
The cake was in the shape of a... large milk slice with a sun carved on it.
Chen Yang looked at it dazed.
Chao Jian put a bunch of candles, exactly twenty-six in total, and he lit them one by one. The candlelight illuminated his stunning face, like a painting with soft brushstrokes.
The master painter just changed his style and I am not very familiar with it yet. There are still some traces of his previous coldness in a few places, but it does not affect the overall feeling.
The puppy woke up and ran over from the balcony, wagging its tail and jumping up and down.
Chao Jian didn't take the puppy away, nor did he care. He put a rainbow birthday hat on Chen Yang's head and said, "Make a wish."
Chen Yang asked suspiciously, "Is there a missing link?"
Chao Jian: “Not less.”
Chen Yang insisted: "It's less."
Chao Jian was more insistent than him: "No."
Chen Yang was a little shaken: "No?"
"Well, no." Chao Jian said one second ago, and the next second he heard Chen Yang say, "The birthday song is missing!"
Chao Jian had a blank expression on his face.
"Forget it, I'll start the video call. Pineapple Cake will sing for me. He sings very well." Chen Yang said as he was about to get his phone. He had just taken two steps when he heard the boy's deliberately lowered singing voice in his ears. It was very awkward and childish.
Chao Jian sang it all in one breath.
There was silence at the table, and Chen Yang and the dog were looking at him.
Chao Jian turned around and was about to leave, but Chen Yang stopped him and said, "It sounds good. Really, you sing very well. If you don't believe me, ask 03."
Puppy: "Woof woof!"
"Did you hear it? It said yes." Chen Yang said seriously, paused, and whispered Chao Jian's name, "Brother is going to make a wish."
Chao Jian turned and looked at him.
Chen Yang then closed his eyes and made a wish.
—I hope everyone can reach the end safely and return home.
Chen Yang cut all the sun on the cake and gave it to Chao Jian. If it could make him happy, Chen Yang was willing to give away everything.
Chao Jian looked at the golden sun in the small plate for a long time without moving.
Chen Yang came closer: "Chao Jian?"
Chao Jian said "hmm" vaguely, picked up the spoon, scooped out a piece of sun and put it into his mouth without looking up.
"Do you want to tell me something?" Chen Yang saw that Chao Jian was already wrapped in layers of memories. He couldn't go in, so he could only wait outside for the other party to reach out to him, "Now or tomorrow?"
"Talk a little tonight." Chao Jian swallowed the cream.
"Is the time really here?" Chen Yang was as nervous as he was excited. "Wen Qing said that Jin Xiaochang's mission on campus was to supervise me and evaluate my abilities. Did he tell you after he got out... cough!"
Chen Yang choked on his own saliva. He took a few sips of water from the cup that Jian handed over, then said slowly, "Do you want to confirm again? Make sure it's not suitable for me to listen to it."
Chao Jian: "Go to the balcony and bring in that pot of flowers."
"Have you seen all the photos I sent you?" Chen Yang ran to the balcony quickly. He came back with a flower pot and said, "Look, the pictures I sent you were not photoshopped, right? The flowers are really going to bloom soon."
Although the bud has not changed much in the past few days, it is obvious that it will bloom at any time.
Chao Jian looked at the flower bud. He didn't say anything, but his expression was happy.
"The time has come." Chao Jian said.
Chen Yang was confused. Was the flower bud also related to the time when he heard the truth? He felt a strange feeling in his heart, as if the flower bud was not Chao Jian's life, but the life of both of them.
Chao Jian ate the sun on the plate: "Are you ready?"
Chen Yang took a deep breath: "I'm ready."
Chao Jian said, "Then take your phone to the room and close the door, and we'll talk on the phone."
Chen Yang: “…”
"To be honest, your threshold will increase too fast." Chao Jian took a lot of medicine before coming back, making sure that his emotions would be in a relatively stable state for the next ten days and a half. During this period, the only thing Chao Jian had to do was to uncover the cloth covering the world for Chen Yang, and he would be in pain.
It was so painful that I would rather the cloth was still covering it.
"It's okay. Let's just put it this way. All kinds of weird and incongruous things have been laid out for a long time. I am mentally prepared and can bear it." Chen Yang said calmly.
Chao Jian held his head and pressed it against him, their foreheads touching: "The city of Qingcheng is fake."
Chen Yang blinked slowly.
"The whole world is fake." Chao Jian kissed his eyelids which were beginning to spasm.
Chen Yang stood up by holding onto the table: "Let's talk on the phone. I'm going to the bathroom, you can call me from outside."
He walked a few steps and stopped, looking around in confusion. Where was the bathroom in his house