-who is she
Jiang Zhenyue asked this question with such swiftness and accuracy that it was like inserting an icy knife between the two of them.
The corners of Ruan Yihan's lips curled up in a sarcastic arc, and her eyes fell on Qin Haiyao, as if waiting for her answer.
Qin Haiyao stood in the rain, her eyebrows and eyes were picturesque, her lips were red without any makeup, but her face was as pale as paper.
who is she
hehe.
plaything
Ruan Yihan said that she was not even worthy of being a plaything.
Gun buddy
They had never been truly intimate in their life.
At this moment, Ruan Yihan and Jiang Zhenyue were standing there. They were so close. Before she entered, Ruan Yihan even had a happy smile on her face. That was what she longed to see but could only glimpse in her dreams.
I still remember.
That year, she and Ruan Yihan went on vacation to a sparsely populated mountain resort.
As they walked hand in hand, they saw a sea of purple lavender flowers.
Ruan Yihan doesn't like flowers, but Qin Haiyao does. Ruan Yihan smiled dotingly, allowed her to pull her hand and hurried forward.
There are very few people in this area, except for the farmers and local villagers.
Ruan Yihan really liked this kind of tranquility. She looked at Qin Haiyao who couldn't wait to let go of her hand and walked over to bend down to smell the flowers and smiled, "If you like it, I'll buy this place."
Qin Haiyao glared at her: "Do you want to be the king of the mountain? You are so domineering."
Although she said she was disgusted, she was smiling like a child and continued to walk inside.
"ah!"
Qin Haiyao screamed, Ruan Yihan's face changed, and she rushed to her side.
"Who is it? Who is so uncultured as to disturb my nap?"
In the middle of the lavender, there was a slim woman lying, her head resting on a drawing board, her face covered with a hat, her facial features could not be seen, only her raised eyebrows indicated her impatience and irritability.
Qin Haiyao pursed her lips and before she could say anything, Ruan Yihan behind her suddenly grabbed Qin Haiyao's arm and opened her eyes wide with excitement: "Yueyue!"
Yueyue
Qin Haiyao was stunned.
The woman on the ground reacted and muttered something. Jiang Zhenyue sat up suddenly and threw her hat on the drawing board to cover it. Qin Haiyao saw it and her eyes changed.
Ruan Yihan was surprised: "It's really you, Yueyue? What are you doing here? Just sleeping like this? Aren't you afraid of being attacked?"
Jiang Zhenyue looked at Ruan Yihan, then looked at Qin Haiyao beside her and asked, "Who is she?"
who is she
Ruan Yihan finally reacted. She smiled proudly and hugged Qin Haiyao into her arms: "Your sister-in-law!"
Jiang Zhenyue was stunned. Her usually beautiful and charming eyes were actually misty. Qin Haiyao stared at her. Ruan Yihan laughed: "You didn't expect that my woman is so beautiful."
Her focus was on showing off Qin Haiyao, and she didn't notice Jiang Zhenyue's loneliness and sadness at all. Qin Haiyao, on the other hand, saw everything. She even saw what was being drawn on the drawing board that was blocked by her hat.
There were two girls holding hands and lying in the lavender garden. One was herself, with her long skirt fluttering in the wind, and the other one was holding a grass in her mouth with an innocent look on her face... It was Ruan Yihan.
…
Time goes backwards.
One sentence - who is she
It was as if I had returned to the scene of the past.
But she would never come forward again, hug her proudly, and announce it in a tone that she wanted to tell everyone in the world.
—My woman.
Ruan Yihan looked at her coldly. Seeing Qin Haiyao's embarrassment, she didn't even move.
The air froze for a moment.
"Do you want to come in? It's raining heavily outside." Jiang Zhenyue moved aside and looked at Ruan Yihan in confusion. In her memory, Ruan Yihan was the most soft-hearted person. This girl was obviously here to find her, but in such heavy rain, she just let her stand there without saying a word.
Qin Haiyao shook her head, her eyes melting into the rainy night, filled with water light: "No need, I just came here to say thank you."
Her voice was so soft that it seemed like it could be blown away by the wind. "Thank you, Mr. Ruan, for saving my sister."
I was afraid that Ruan Yihan would say something like "she is a plaything" again.
It's too embarrassing to bear.
Qin Haiyao was afraid that she would collapse in the next second, so she turned around and ran away quickly, disappearing in the rainy night in panic.
Jiang Zhenyue closed the door, turned around and looked at Ruan Yihan: "Ah Han, what's wrong with you? I have a question for you!"
-What’s wrong with you
This is the question that Ruan Yihan is most often asked by people close to her during this period.
The wonderful atmosphere before was gone. Ruan Yihan was silent for a moment. She looked at Jiang Zhenyue and said, "Let's eat. It's getting cold."
Jiang Zhenyue stared at her with her beautiful eyes, feeling vaguely that something was wrong, but the tacit understanding they had since childhood made her know that Ruan Yihan did not want to communicate at this time.
Jiang Zhenyue was silent for a while, then said softly, "Ah Han, I'm not going to leave now that I'm here."
Ruan Yihan took a sip of Coke and said, "Just get used to it first."
She was feeling a little complicated and hesitant. On the one hand, she needed Yueyue's help, but on the other hand, she didn't want to get involved.
She didn't know what the future would be like, but she witnessed Qin Qin's iron fist time and time again.
To be honest, she would be afraid that Yueyue would be implicated.
My former grandmother and Ali are both lessons for us.
But she was already in it and couldn't extricate herself. Even though she knew the road ahead was difficult, she had to go on.
Jiang Zhenyue looked into her eyes and knew that she didn't understand what she meant. She took a deep breath and said, "I said I'm not leaving, and I don't need anyone's permission. Remember that."
Ruan Yihan's mind was not on this. She knew that Yueyue had a strong personality since she was a child. She did not take it to heart and just thought that she was throwing a tantrum again. She looked up and saw that the rain outside the window was not stopping at all, and her eyes were misty.
The heavy rain is just like my mood at this moment.
Qin Haiyao was walking alone on the street without an umbrella. Pedestrians were hurrying along the roadside and no one noticed her.
She walked under a locust tree, held the tree with her hand, looked at it for a while, and slowly squatted down.
Once, a long time ago, she and Ruan Yihan had a quarrel.
That was the first time Ruan Yihan yelled at her and slammed the door and left. Qin Haiyao was anxious and helpless, so she searched everywhere frantically for the entire afternoon.
Finally, she was found under this locust tree.
Ruan Yihan squatted there, her eyes red like a bullied little rabbit. Qin Haiyao walked over, squatted down, and hugged her all of a sudden: "You bad guy, why are you running?"
The Ruan family has many competitors. There are only a few people who are eyeing her openly, and no one knows how many are secretly eyeing her.
Qin Haiyao was so anxious that she almost died. Ruan Yihan tilted her head and looked at her while sniffing: "I'm here, waiting for you to find me and coax me home."
Qin Haiyao was angry and distressed, so she pulled her up and said, "Is that all you can do? Don't run away again. Do you know how frustrating it is?"
Ruan Yihan was still stubborn: "Anyway, I knew you would come to see me. I don't know who was so fierce and angry at me just now."
Qin Haiyao twisted her ears and said, "If you do that again, I will ignore you! I will run away some other day and let you feel how anxious I am."
Ruan Yihan was still not obedient after being pulled, so she leaned forward and kissed her on the cheek: "Didn't I run far? At worst, I promise you that if you really run away, I won't lose my temper and will definitely come here to find you."
Here
Qin Haiyao squatted there. She waited for a long time but Ruan Yihan never showed up.
The sound of the master counting the Buddhist beads suddenly appeared in my mind.
—Xiao Hai, when a person dies, it is like a light going out, or like soup poured on snow. You are so persistent and go against the will of heaven, which will only hurt others and yourself in the end.
Let her go, and leave yourself a way out.
lay down…
Qin Haiyao stretched out her hand and caught a ray of cold rain. Watching her fall in love with someone else, watching her smile in someone else's arms, watching them grow old together in love? That would be more painful than killing her.
The rain and tears merged together, and just when Qin Haiyao felt heartbroken, a leaf floated down from the sky and fell into her palm.
Qin Haiyao looked at the leaf and held it tightly.
don't want.
Master also said that love and affection end in three lifetimes.
This is her last chance.
The first two times, she never lived for herself. She had no choice. She tried her best to be considerate, but in the end, she hurt others and herself, and failed to save herself.
Since it's the last time.
She might as well just follow her heart this time and be unrestrained. No matter what the outcome is, even if she is shattered to pieces or falls into the abyss, she will be willing.
She can be humiliated.
She could surrender.
But, she wants to get her.
She wanted her to belong to her.
Others cannot be contaminated at all.
One thought makes you a Buddha, one thought makes you a devil.
Despair and hope always change in a moment.
Qin Haiyao walked on the road for an unknown amount of time before she took out her cell phone from her pocket. In the drizzle, her lips were pale and bloodless: "Uncle, it's me."
…
"I want to talk to you."
…
Qin Haiyao held the phone tightly, her voice was cold, as if it had melted into the rain, "I have something to show you."
…
After hanging up the phone, Qin Haiyao stayed in the rain for more than an hour. She watched the red jeep leave before she stood up and dragged her paralyzed legs towards home.
Arrived home.
Huang Lan and Qin Shan felt so distressed when they saw her covered in rain, they wanted to ask something but didn't dare.
Qin Haiyao smiled tiredly at them: "Mom and Dad, go to bed. I said you don't have to wait anymore in the future."
The two elders remained silent.
Qin Haiyao turned around and went to the bathroom. The warm water hit her body but could not bring back any warmth.
Stand in the current.
Qin Haiyao asked her heart seriously.
—Can you give up? Xiaohai, can you give up
cannot.
She said.
She had already been in hell, and everything around her was desolate and painful to her. Only Ruan Yihan was her only hope to climb out of the abyss.
She won't let go.
After taking a shower, Qin Haiyao checked her messages and put her phone aside. She played the music "Faith" and stopped crying. Instead, she sat on the bed in the bedroom, bent over and painted her toenails.
The bright red dyed the nail polish red, which was Ruan Yihan’s favorite color.
The faint perfume on her neck was Ruan Yihan's favorite scent.
—Whenever I hear the melancholy music
Bringing back the pain of memories
Whenever I see the white moonlight
…
If I kissed you then, if I hugged you then
Maybe the ending is hard to tell
I have so many regrets and so many expectations
…
The black stockings moved up little by little, and when they reached the last inch, Qin Haiyao hummed along with the music.
"Do you know? I love you for how clear and strong your faith is, how warm and brave your strength is. I don't care how hurt my heart is, how confused my love is, or what others think. Love is a faith that brings me to your side."
As she sang, her eyes became a little red. Qin Haiyao took a windbreaker and slowly stood up.
That’s right, Ruan Yihan hated her, even hated her to the core.
Maybe this relationship seems like a dead end in the eyes of outsiders, but she will not give up until the last second.
Before, she was always wavering and wanted all the support, but now it seems that she can only choose one.
When she came out of the room, Qin Haiyao went to see her sister. Qin Momo had fallen asleep holding the rag doll her sister bought for her. Under the moonlight, her face looked childish and her lips were slightly pouting. There was a note left for her sister next to her.
Qin Haiyao picked it up and looked at it, then pursed her lips and smiled slightly.
—Sister, I haven’t told you a story today.
Qin Haiyao lowered her head, her long hair falling on her snowy neck. She whispered in Qin Momo's ear, "She lied to her a lot, a lot, but she never lied to her with the words 'I love you'."
Qin Haiyao gently kissed Meimei's forehead and tucked the quilt in for her.
The most precious things are all there and have not been lost.
This gave Qin Haiyao tremendous strength. She tiptoed and walked out the door quietly.
It's almost eleven o'clock.
The city's night has just begun.
There are lights and wine everywhere.
Following her past memories, Qin Haiyao walked to the "Night Returner" bar. She received a message and knew that Ruan Yihan came to the bar.
She was determined to do whatever it took, even if she had to rely on her body to keep him.
She said that from the day her mother made up her mind, she lived to seduce Ruan Yihan.
Qin Haiyao understands all her preferences.
Even when she was eighteen years old, because Ruan Yihan was fascinated by the piano, Qin Qin would come to her house on time every night around eleven o'clock to watch Qin Haiyao play the piano.
She just sat there with a glass of red wine in her hand and watched her.
Sometimes, I practice all night long.
Qin Haiyao even suffered from tendonitis.
Qin Qin has a bad temper and has no patience with her daughter. She is very planful and will make sure Qin Haiyao reaches a certain level today, this week, or this month.
Otherwise, not only her, but also her teacher will be scolded.
Half a year later.
Qin Haiyao wore a long dress and played "Piano Piece of the Night" quietly and skillfully at the graduation party. The audience applauded loudly and everyone cheered and applauded for her.
She was lonely and sad, and the melody brought out by her slender hands completely matched her inner emotions.
Under the bright light, she was glowing and exuding endless charm.
Man and piano are one.
After she got off the stage, her piano teacher hugged her tightly with tears in her eyes.
This child has a hard time.
The teacher touched Qin Haiyao's hair and said, "Xiao Hai, I won't be able to accompany you anymore."
Qin Haiyao watched her nod and shed tears silently. She knew that it had always been like this. Qin Qin would never allow someone to stay in her life for too long.
Later, when Qin Haiyao played the piano for Ruan Yihan, she saw the amazement in her eyes. At that moment, Qin Haiyao was smiling and crying in her heart. She watched Ruan Yihan lean forward and kiss her. The sweetness washed away the darkness in her heart and made her no longer hate him. She even secretly thought that it was okay this way, at least she really liked him.
…
Following the moonlight and accompanied by memories, we arrived at the door of the bar.
When Qin Haiyao entered, she saw the proprietress, Sister Ran. Sister Ran saw her and smiled: "Xiao Hai, you are finally here."
After Cindy was imprisoned, Sister Ran gradually cut off contact with the Qin family, concentrated on running the business, and only thought about waiting for her to come out.
Qin Haiyao was wearing a black windbreaker. She put her hands in her pockets, smiled and nodded, but did not respond. She turned around, scanned the crowd with sharp eyes, and quickly locked onto the person at the end of her heart.
Loud music, crazy crowds, order a glass of strong liquor, sway to the rhythm, and all your worries will disappear.
Life, indulgence, and loss.
Although tomorrow will still be painful, it is better to indulge in debauchery than to get drunk tonight. Even if it is only a moment of pleasure, people will flock to it.
Ruan Yihan sat in the crowd with a cocktail in front of her. She leaned against the sofa in an irritable manner, feeling inexplicably depressed.
Song He twisted his body to the beat beside her and winked at her from time to time: "Hey, get excited, hey! Ah Han, sway."
Ruan Yihan really felt that her friend might have something wrong with his brain.
Once, her grandmother said that she was surrounded by bad friends, but she didn't agree.
But first there was Cindy who gave up betraying her for some benefits, and now there is Song He who obviously has insufficient IQ. She really was not careful in choosing friends.
The eldest daughter of Song is an expert at eating, drinking and having fun. She looked at Ruan Yihan and said, "I heard there's a band tonight, and there's also a mysterious guest. He's quite famous, doesn't show up often, and never specifies a time. He just comes when he feels like it. What's his name?" She closed her eyes and patted her head, "Han Yao, yes, Han Yao!"
What band.
What is Han Yao
Ruan Yihan is a big shot in the entertainment industry. Let alone the band, even if it was a popular artist, she would just say a word if she wanted to meet him. She is not interested at all.
Song He jumped again and stretched his neck to look outside: "If she's pretty later, Ah Han, sign her up. Help me, I'm single now and I'm in urgent need of love."
Ruan Yihan glanced at her and snorted coldly, "Hmm."
Now she still needs this dude disguise, and it is also necessary to help Song He do some unreliable things.
After a while.
It was just as Song He said, several singers came on stage and performed a very exciting rock and roll performance.
Everyone at the scene was having a blast, but Ruan Yihan felt like she had a headache. When she pinched her temple and wanted to leave, there was a burst of cheers at the scene, and Song He suddenly covered her mouth: "What the hell?! Sister Yao?"
Finished...
Her love was gone.
Ruan Yihan immediately turned around and looked up.
On the stage, Qin Haiyao had long hair draped over her shoulders, and wore a black long skirt and high heels. Her slender white legs were sexy and dazzling. She held a guitar in her arms and made a gesture to the audience.
Everyone shouted along.
"Sister Yao, Sister Yao, Sister Yao!!!"
"Han Yao, Han Yao!"
…
Song He opened his mouth so wide that he could fit a fist in it. Ruan Yihan was also stunned. Qin Haiyao lowered her head, and her white fingers quickly flipped through the air, producing a particularly exciting tune that instantly blew up the entire audience. She then raised her head, tossed her long hair, and sang the bohemian lyrics with her red lips.
"You want me to be cool and elegant, but you also want me to be frivolous and mean. You want me to be sunny and you also want me to be charming and not waver. You tease me to be helpless and you also tease me to have a heart like a dead tree. You give me dreams, but you also give me to wake up quickly. And I..."
The song "Flammable and Explosive" was cool, wild and sexy, with continuous screams. Qin Haiyao's hands plucked the strings skillfully and the other hand was raised high. The whole audience sang along, it was like a home concert.
Song He was so shocked that he called Sister Ran over and asked, "What's going on?"
Sister Ran smiled while holding a wine glass in her hand: "Xiao Hai comes over to play occasionally. Look, you can see how popular she is. She has quite a few fans."
ah
Song He looked around, his eyes began to light up, "Ah Han, you know—" Before he could finish the last word, when he saw Mr. Ruan's cold face, Song He lowered his head in dejection.
The people on the stage.
Dazzling and eye-catching.
Enchanting and unbridled.
It’s not the initial weakness and helplessness, nor is it the subsequent stubbornness and unyielding spirit.
She just stood there, like a gorgeous rose with thorns, beautiful and sharp, only to be admired from afar and not to be touched.
She is tall and exudes femininity. A sway, a glance, or even a small move of flipping her hair can create a wave of excitement among the audience.
Ruan Yihan narrowed her eyes. She must have known that she would come. Haha, Qin Haiyao, Teacher Qin, Doctor Qin, I didn't expect that she had so many identities. She was really like a fool, being kept in the dark and never knowing.
She used to take Qin Haiyao to the bar occasionally and treated her like a little white rabbit, carefully teaching her how to taste each type of wine.
Qin Haiyao would always smile at her gently. Sometimes, when she saw a nice wine, she would playfully point to her mouth with her hand, and then look at Ruan Yihan with shining eyes.
Ruan Yihan smiled dotingly and passed the wine through her mouth, leaving a sweet taste on her lips and teeth.
In the end, the two of them often hugged each other drunkenly, ignoring the eyes of the people around them. Qin Haiyao leaned against her and murmured as if she was drunk: "Ah Han, look at what we drank, does it look like wedding wine?" Ruan Yihan looked at her gently, and Qin Haiyao met her eyes: "We have drunk so many wedding wines. If it were ancient times, I would be your wife. Don't forget me. You can't... leave me."
How could she
At that time, her foolish and deceived look must have been very ridiculous in Qin Haiyao's eyes, right
The song is over.
Qin Haiyao waved goodbye to everyone and left the stage. There was a smile on her lips and her eyes were shining. She glanced down at the audience inadvertently and her eyes met Ruan Yihan's.
Ruan Yihan was still cold, but there was a fatal temptation in Qin Haiyao's eyes.
Come down from the stage.
Qin Haiyao put down the guitar in her arms, said a few simple words to the band, and went straight to the dressing room.
The performance just now was so enjoyable.
Her clothes were all wet and she needed to change.
Qin Haiyao walked slowly, as if she was waiting for something. When she passed by the corridor, some young men and women greeted her with a smile: "Sister Yao."
"Sister Yao!"
…
These kids are all in a band, they are young, active and colorful. Several of them have discussed with Qin Haiyao and wanted her to be the lead singer, but she refused.
It was once her dream to be in a band and become a singer.
But for someone like her, the simple life she wants is always beyond her reach, so how could she possibly become a lead singer
Since she was born, she had already dedicated her soul to the closest demon. Ruan Yihan was once her accident, the most beautiful accident in her life. From then on, she learned to rebel and fight. She wanted to have her own life. She had failed too many times and was exhausted. Now, she was no longer afraid. Except for herself, she had nothing, right? What else could there be? Come on.
Qin Haiyao smiled and nodded all the way. After she walked into the locker room, she first took off her skirt and left only her black stockings. Then she changed into a white loose shirt that just covered her legs.
Qin Haiyao is very careful about maintenance. Long-term fitness has made her legs free of fat. Wearing high heels makes her long legs sexy and seductive. She is wearing black stockings with no covering. Under the light, it looks like a layer of beeswax is applied and there is light flowing.
Everything is ready.
She unlocked the door, left it ajar, and waited against the wall.
A few minutes passed.
The sound of high heels gradually came. Qin Haiyao leaned against the wall, her heart beating like thunder. She closed her eyes and counted silently.
"three."
"two."
"one."
…
With a creaky sound, the door was pushed open. Qin Haiyao, who had been waiting for the man, smelled the familiar mint scent and turned around suddenly, pressing the man against the wall.