If life could always be like our first meeting, why would the autumn wind paint the fan with sorrow
See you again.
Qin Yi's "cousin" was standing under the gauze curtain. Although it was just a silhouette, it was enough for Ruan Yihan to recognize her.
Qin Haiyao was wearing a white dress that was fitted around her waist, the hem of her skirt fluttering gently in the wind. She wore light makeup and looked at Ruan Yihan with a smile in her eyes. After not seeing her for a long time, she had lost a lot of weight.
They looked at each other and their eyes turned red.
—Have you ever thought about telling me everything
Qin Haiyao, is there any truth in your words
If we hadn't had such a bad beginning... If I could return to where I belonged...
…
Grandma Ruan had not met Qin Haiyao many times, so she couldn't recognize her from this look, but from her granddaughter's red eyes, she roughly guessed who it was.
Qin Hailong smiled and said, "Old lady, let's go inside. I have made the tea."
He came back this time in a hurry to celebrate the old lady's birthday. Qin Hailong had a low personality and was not good at expressing himself since he was a child, but he respected and loved Grandma Ruan in his heart and regarded her as a relative. He always felt guilty about the old lady. According to Grandma Ruan's age, shouldn't she be drinking tea, walking the birds and enjoying her old age? She also had to worry about the Qin family... But Qin Qin... Qin Hailong and Qin Qin were really as close as brothers and sisters when they were young, and their family was very happy at that time. Qin Qin was still rational at the moment. When Qin Haikun complained to the two of them privately about the old lady's excessive meddling, Qin Hailong mostly kept silent, while Qin Qin gently advised: "Auntie is not that kind of person, don't be anxious, let's take it slowly, okay?"... However, after the death of the eldest brother, those complaints that Qin Qin did not believe were chewed over and over by her like a neurotic, and every word was soaked with hatred, which became stronger and stronger. She also often told Hailong about the past. Hailong knew her hatred and could not do anything, so he could only remain silent.
Grandma Ruan nodded, looked at her granddaughter, and followed Hailong in.
Qin Yi held the zither and looked at her cousin, then at Ruan Yihan, and shouted, "I'll go with you. It's a bargain for you two old people. Can I play a song 'Handsome Old Man' for you?"
…
People left in a hushed manner.
Ruan Yihan stood there, looking at Qin Haiyao motionlessly.
She thought of many ways of saying goodbye, many scenarios, hatred, hostility, or estrangement.
There has never been such a…
Qin Haiyao walked out slowly from under the gauze curtain. She wore a platinum necklace on her slender and sexy neck, with a simple r symbol at the end of the necklace.
Ruan Yihan stared at her, staring at her intently.
The guests were already seated, the chef had set up the barbecue grill, elegant music was playing, and everyone was very happy.
This scene seemed familiar, just like the first time they met.
Qin Haiyao stared at Ruan Yihan for a while, "Ah Han."
She didn't call her Ms. Ruan, nor did she call her Ruan Yihan, she called her Ah Han.
Ruan Yihan's eyes were full of mist. Qin Haiyao tilted her head, looked at her with her favorite doting eyes, and slowly stretched out her hand: "Can I ask you to dance with me?"
They fell in love because of that dance.
Love or hate, it all starts from now on.
Now, it’s the third life.
Qin Haiyao was tired. She had never lived for herself, but in the end, everyone resented her and she couldn't stand it anymore.
She had a premonition that her body could not hold out for much longer. Her soul was tortured again and again, and she suffered loss after loss, each time excruciatingly.
This time, she didn't want to lie to Ruan Yihan.
She wanted to know something.
She told her everything.
—Because of love, there is sorrow; because of love, there is fear. If one is free from love, there will be no sorrow and no fear.
This is the last time. Whether it is love or hate, she will bear it as long as it is given by Ruan Yihan.
Maybe in the end, all she can get is just the word "nothing".
Ruan Yihan looked at Qin Haiyao's hand, slowly raised her hand and placed it on it.
Right now.
The Qin Haiyao in front of him was no longer Teacher Qin, not Doctor Qin, and not in any other disguise. She was the eldest daughter of the Qin family.
Is she going to confess? Or is this another round of deception
Qin Haiyao's eyes were filled with smiles, and she put her hands around Ruan Yihan's waist, "Thank you for your kindness."
This sentence... This sentence...
Once upon a time, Ruan Yihan and Qin Haiyao would dance together under the moonlight. At that time, Ruan Yihan had many social engagements, and she wanted to lie down and sleep every day when she got home. She didn't want to move at all, let alone exercise. Qin Haiyao was afraid that she would affect her health if she continued like this, so she had no choice but to pester her, kissing her and acting coquettishly. She pulled her up from the sofa like a witch who wanted to squeeze her dry, and Qin Haiyao pulled her to dance gracefully. At the end, she would playfully say in Ruan Yihan's ear: "Thank you for your kindness."
The dance steps are turning.
Ruan Yihan looked into Qin Haiyao's eyes: "What's going on?"
Qin Haiyao looked at her, the wind blew her eyes, "Ah Han, do you think the necklace on my neck looks good?"
Ruan Yihan looked down. It was a very simple necklace without too many decorations. It just had the design of r, r, r… Was it Ruan
Qin Haiyao looked into her eyes and smiled faintly: "You put this on me yourself."
That was the first time the two of them confirmed their relationship.
Ruan Yihan put it on her. Under the moonlight, her face flushed. Qin Haiyao fiddled with the small pendant and smiled softly in her ear: "R? Ruan? Why do you want to tie me down just because I agreed to be your girlfriend?"
Ruan Yihan probably doesn’t even know about that first time.
As expected, Ruan Yihan's eyes were a little confused. Following a rhythm, Qin Haiyao leaned down and bent her waist. She looked into her eyes and said, "You have always been like this, never changed, you are always my Ah Han."
That moment.
Something flashed through my mind like thunder.
All the previous speculations were ignited by Qin Haiyao's words at this moment.
Ruan Yihan's expression suddenly changed. She stood up and took control, grabbing Qin Haiyao's waist: "You, you are..."
Qin Haiyao endured the force of her hand, and she looked into her eyes: "Yes, Ah Han, I am just like you, just reborn."
Just reborn...
Just rebirth?? !!
Ruan Yihan's hands almost instantly grabbed her neck, tears welled up in her eyes, "You... you have been lying to me?!"
"Lie to you?"
Qin Haiyao was still laughing even though she was strangled by him. "Ah Han, you said I lied to you, but on the other hand, when I wanted to tell you the truth, you never believed it. How could I tell you from the beginning? When I recognized you when you just came back? Would you believe it?"
Ruan Yihan was going crazy. Too much information was pouring into her head and she was about to explode.
The surrounding grass and trees seemed to become sharp in an instant, and all the scenery passed by quickly before my eyes as if it was upside down.
Qin Haiyao grabbed her hand and pinched her neck with her: "If possible, I hope to die in your hands, Ah Han, I am not afraid of death. Death is just a relief for me."
…
Everything is still.
Ruan Yihan stood there and looked at Qin Haiyao. The wind blew across her cheeks, like a knife cutting. "You lied to me... You lied to me, right..."
Too many words.
Too many lies.
She couldn't believe it anymore.
Qin Haiyao stared at her: "This time, Zheng Yi will no longer be my fiancé."
Something rushed out from the bottom of her heart, as if it was going to make Ruan Yihan's head explode. She stared at Qin Haiyao, "You—"
"Bitch?" Qin Haiyao spoke for President Ruan. She looked into Ruan Yihan's eyes and said, "I told you that I had a fiancé and was about to get married so that you could leave and stay away from my mother and not be persecuted."
Talk nonsense.
Ruan Yihan didn't believe it at all. She tried to shake Qin Haiyao off, but Qin Haiyao held her hand tightly: "Ah Han, let me ask you, if Ah Li didn't come to find me and didn't alert the enemy, what would happen to you and grandma?"
If Ali didn't go find Qin Haiyao.
…
At that moment, time seemed to flow backwards.
Qin Haiyao stood in the bedroom with her arms folded. She looked at Xiaoyan and asked, "Is everything arranged?"
Xiao Yan nodded and said, "I bought the ticket through an informal channel, so President Qin can't find it."
Qin Haiyao nodded. She looked at the night view outside the window with tears in her eyes. "Is grandma okay?"
Xiao Yan: "The old lady is old. Although we have been secretly protecting her and arranging a train to deliver food, she must have been exhausted after running around. But Xiao Hai, you know Boss Qin's methods... Escape is only temporary, she will not give up."
How could she not know her mother's methods
After the last accumulation of hatred, she had gone crazy. Now that she had finally got what she had worked so hard for for so many years, she would of course catch Ruan Yihan and her grandmother, show off in front of them, humiliate them, and completely let out the hatred that had accumulated over the years.
Qin Haiyao pursed her lips and said, "That's why I let her leave. Only by going far away can I escape from her control."
Xiao Yan stared at Qin Haiyao. She wanted to ask, "What about you? Xiao Hai, what will you do?" If President Qin knew that she was the one who let Ruan Yihan go, she would definitely not be happy.
Qin Haiyao said softly: "You go down first."
Xiaoyan left quietly and closed the door.
There was only one desk lamp on in the room.
Qin Haiyao took out a file bag and put three plane tickets and a large check in it. Finally, when she was putting the ring in, the tears she had been holding back finally flowed down.
Reluctant to...
After reading it over and over again, Qin Haiyao closed her eyes.
—When this is over, let’s go, take grandma with us, and find a place with beautiful scenery. You... marry me.
Ah Han, are you still willing to marry me
After a long time, Qin Haiyao put the ring to her lips and kissed it. She murmured, "Ah Han, you have to live well and give me a chance to find you and explain everything."
…
Xiaoyan was originally scheduled to go later when Duanzi was less alert. Everyone on Duanzi's side had gone out to look for him, and even Xiaohai had spies watching him.
Qin Haiyao went to the study to clear her mind. She thought about the arrangements for Ruan Yihan and her grandmother after they went abroad.
There is no problem with Ruan Yihan's English.
With this check, they can have no worries about food and clothing when they are abroad.
In the first few years when she couldn't find Ruan Yihan and her grandmother, Qin Qin would have been angry and mad. She might even... take her anger out on her.
But so what
As long as Ahan and grandma could leave, she wouldn't mind dying for her again.
But man proposes, God disposes, and the wheel of fate never seems to favor Qin Haiyao.
When she closed the book and saw that the time was almost up, Xiao Yan's low voice came from the corner: "Don't move!"
…
Such a critical moment.
Any rumor could make Qin Qin alert. Qin Haiyao had no choice but to go find Ruan Yihan immediately. She knew that with her pride, she would not leave until she got a resigned answer.
Qin Haiyao also knew that after she said such words, even if Ruan Yihan loved her deeply, she would only hate her to the core in the end.
But the most urgent task is to save life. No matter what the future is like, only life can be saved.
only…
Is she greedy
There is more to life than just love.
Ruan Yihan hated her to the core because of her grandmother's death and couldn't sleep at night. Wasn't she also struggling and suffering because of her mother's death? But who could she hate
In the first life, although Qin Qin was bent on revenge and a little paranoid, he was not as vicious as he is now.
Although she was strict with Qin Haiyao at that time, she would often hug Xiao Hai, poke her face and smile: "Our Xiao Hai has grown up. Daddy once said that he would give you everything. Xiao Hai, mommy will give you everything too."
She would hug Xiao Hai and cry, "I'm sorry... Xiao Hai, I'm not a good mother, but... but I can't control myself... I want to avenge your father..."
When Qin Haiyao had a fever, she would stay by her side for two days and two nights without eating or drinking.
She may have her own ways, but they won't be as outrageous as they are now.
Xiao Hai knew that she had made a mistake. She was obsessed with revenge and fell into a quagmire, unable to get out, and ruined her whole life.
Or maybe... revenge became the breath that kept her alive.
It was wrong for Qin Qin to be obsessed and crazy, but that was her mother, the only person in the world who was connected to her by blood.
Qin Haiyao once saw what Qin Qin wrote in her diary.
—Xiao Hai, Mommy misses you so much. At night, my breasts swelled up like rocks. I secretly cried in the bathroom and squeezed out the milk. The pain was heart-wrenching. Xiao Hai, my Xiao Hai… Mommy is sorry for you… Mommy misses you… But I can’t bring you to them. Mommy also thought that the Ruan family was really good to us, but your father died unexpectedly and mysteriously. Mommy is afraid…
—Hold on a little longer, Xiaohai. Once I’ve taken revenge, Mom swears to give you everything.
—Mom will not touch the inheritance your father left you. I will put it away and leave it to you.
—Haikun, Haikun... Why did you leave me alone? You might as well take me with you and die.
…
Qin Haiyao hugged Qin Qin's legs and cried, begging in front of her: "Mom, I fell in love with her, please, please let her go."
Qin Qin stared at her daughter in a daze, "Xiao Hai..."
Qin Haiyao looked up at her mother, her eyes sparkling. "I love her, just like you love dad. Mom, if you harm her, you'll kill me. From childhood to adulthood, I've never begged you. Please let her go."
Qin Qin was silent. She looked out the window stiffly, tears falling one by one.
—Like you love your dad.
…
In the end, she bent down and hugged Xiaohai.
Qin Haiyao also told Ruan Yihan everything.
Ruan Yihan was shocked and couldn't believe it, but what happened next? She suddenly disappeared for two months, and when she came back, she went to find Qin Qin quietly.
The next time Qin Haiyao saw her, her mother and Ahan were pointing guns at each other. When the gun went off, Qin Haiyao instinctively stood in front of Ruan Yihan without thinking.
What remained in her life was the sadness in Qin Qin's eyes and the unwilling words before she died: "You are really a good daughter to your mother..."
It made Qin Haiyao heartbroken.
She wanted to start over.
But what happened next was far beyond her expectations.
After the first rebirth, Ruan Yihan was still the same as before, but Qin Qin became even more terrifying and intensified because of the accumulation of hatred.
Xiao Hai is no match for her and can't just watch her hurt Ruan Yi Han.
She wanted to buy time...
Qin Qin is old, and she has been intensifying her expansion in recent years. She has completed all the tasks that her late husband had not completed, and has become crazy and evil. Although she has no memories, she has an inexplicable hatred for Xiao Hai.
Every time Qin Qin sees Xiao Hai, she gets angry and furious for no reason.
She would never stop because of anything Xiao Hai did.
She was too crazy.
Her body was overdrawn day by day, and she survived by relying on her hatred for the Ruan family and fulfilling her late husband's last wish.
She won't last a few years.
Qin Haiyao has arranged a cemetery. Whether Qin Qin believes it or not, she will tell her that Ruan Yihan and her grandmother are buried there to kill her inner demon.
After that, everything will belong to Qin Haiyao. She never cares about money or power. At that time, no matter whether Ruan Yihan listens to her explanation or not, she will return everything that belongs to her to her.
She calculated it very well.
But man proposes, God disposes. If you make a wrong move, everything will be irreversible.
…
The last of all.
Everything... made Qin Haiyao heartbroken. She lay on the edge of the cliff, crying and shouting: "Ah Han, Ah Han, Ah Han..."
One sound after another.
Zheng Yi wanted to go over and pull her, but Qin Haiyao stared at him intently: "Don't come over!"
Zheng Yi was stunned by her eyes. At that moment, he had a feeling that if he tried to catch Qin Haiyao, she would take him with her and jump down.
Qin Qin had not expected this either. She rushed to the edge of the cliff and looked down with red eyes, "Ah Han? Ah Han..."
The sound of wind, rain, and tears of blood.
Qin Haiyao lay on the ground, she looked at Qin Qin: "Mom, are you satisfied? Are you satisfied?..."
Everything in front of me was dark.
Wake up again.
It's already three days later.
It was not a hospital, but a meditation room. Xiaoyan brought her here. Qin Qin knew that if Qin Haiyao woke up and saw her in such a mood, she would probably not be able to survive.
Qin Qin thought she would feel happy after getting her revenge, but she suddenly became ill and collapsed all of a sudden.
She simply built a small house at the place where Qin Haikun fell off the cliff and lived there alone. She transferred all the property and shares under her name to Xiaohai, and handed over all the shady businesses to Duanzi, telling him to do it if he wanted to, but to move everything away if he didn't want to. She just warned him to stay away from her daughter.
The owner of the Zen room, Master Huiguo, was Qin Haiyao's master. That experience was very strange. Xiaoyan drove with her. They had never been to this temple before, but Qin Haiyao seemed to be very familiar with it. She walked straight towards the mountain road. They walked for a long time and stopped in front of an extremely inconspicuous thatched cottage in the deepest part of the forest.
Master Huiguo was chopping wood. Few people came here, so when she heard the noise, she put down her hoe.
Qin Haiyao looked at her, her eyes slightly red. She clasped her hands together and bowed.
Master Huiguo has been in seclusion since she was eighteen years old. She is now over fifty years old. She has cut off all worldly affairs. No one from the secular world has come to see her for a long time. Master Huiguo clasped her hands together, stared at Qin Haiyao for a while, smiled gently, and said only: "Amitabha."
Qin Haiyao walked over and without saying anything, she knelt on the ground and kowtowed three times.
Xiao Yan was confused, and Master Huiguo helped her up: "Kneel to heaven and earth, kneel to your parents, not to others. Don't do this again in the future."
From then on, Qin Haiyao would come here every once in a while. Sometimes she would listen to Master Huiguo's lectures, and sometimes she would just kneel in front of the Buddhist temple. She would fiddle with her Buddhist beads, and often burst into tears as she looked at the gods and Buddhas in the hall.
…
The master fiddled with the Buddhist beads in his hand, "Amitabha, Xiaohai, you are awake."
Qin Haiyao's tears suddenly slid down her face. She rushed off the bed, staggered, and fell to the ground.
I don't care how embarrassed I am.
She crawled towards her master and hugged her legs tightly: "Master, please, please..."
Master Huiguo fiddled with the Buddhist beads, and the sound fell into people's hearts one by one, "Xiao Hai, when a person dies, it is like a lamp going out, or like soup poured on snow. You are so persistent, and you are ultimately going against the will of heaven, hurting others and yourself."
…
All that.
Ruan Yihan doesn't believe it! She won't believe it!
Qin Haiyao looked into Ruan Yihan's eyes: "Did you... hear me crying?"
…
Ruan Yihan's eyes widened. She remembered the time when she jumped off the cliff and thought she was dead. She saw many dark shadows walking around, as if they were in a hurry. She subconsciously followed them and wanted to go, but she heard someone crying and shouting in her ear again and again: "Ah Han, A Han, A Han..."
After that, she seemed to be sucked back into a huge vortex.
Qin Haiyao took another step forward and said, "Have you ever heard anyone say in your ear that she has replaced you and you can go back?"
Ruan Yihan's body shook and she took a step back.
Ruan Yihan looked at Qin Haiyao in disbelief. She shook her head vigorously. She squatted on the ground and covered her head with her hands: "I don't believe it, I don't believe it!!! I don't believe a single word!!!"
Her heart was broken.
She said she didn't believe it, but every word Qin Haiyao said... she had experienced it herself.
Qin Haiyao smiled, her eyes reddened, and she took out a pink paper crane with a black border from her pocket.
When Ruan Yihan saw the thousand paper cranes, her eyes widened and her body became stiff and motionless.
…
Xiaohai, why do you like paper cranes so much
Because I’m afraid that one day I won’t be able to find you, so can I use these paper cranes to find you
You've left such deep bite marks on people, are you still afraid that you won't be able to find it? Oh, okay, don't look at me like that, give it to me, I'll write something for you and mark it.
What to write
—You are my good time, I am your beautiful scenery, we will never be separated.
It’s just... beautiful scenery, but unfortunately it’s not what we expect.