The stars are especially beautiful tonight.
The twinkling stars and the bright moonlight are not found in the city.
Ruan Yihan and Qin Haiyao relaxed for a rare moment, not caring about love, hate, or any other grudges. They sat in the yard and truly achieved the simple togetherness they had promised to do back then.
Is it really so hard to let go of hatred
At that moment, Ruan Yihan's heart was soft. She looked at Qin Haiyao, who smiled at her. She raised her glass: "Ah Han, let's drink from each other's cups again."
Let’s drink the wine again…
So many words, so many images, they were repeated over and over again in the entanglement of these three lives.
Even if it is just an illusion, it will eventually come to an end.
Ahan is right.
Separated by a sea of blood and deep hatred, they can never go back.
In this case, let’s leave more pictures for you to savor slowly in the future.
Qin Haiyao didn't want to admit it, but there was nothing she could do. This was how her life would be.
She was destined to be trained as a tool of revenge since birth.
But after meeting Ruan Yihan, he fell in love with her uncontrollably, immersed in the whirlpool of love, unable to extricate himself from the sweet hatred.
Qin Haiyao accepted everything she gave. Now, this vortex was about to swallow her up.
Maybe, they were wrong from the beginning.
If we had never met, we would not have fallen in love. If we didn't want to love, it wouldn't be so painful.
But, without each other, are they still themselves
They drink cups of happiness together, grow old together, and love each other without any doubt.
When Ruan Yihan's arms were around Qin Haiyao's arms, she repeated these words silently in her heart. Her eyes fell on Ruan Yihan's face greedily and persistently, wanting to remember everything about her.
Won’t you be sad
Have you really forgotten everything that happened in the past
No.
Otherwise, Qin Haiyao would not have seen her mother covered in fire and blood, chasing her for her life in her dreams every midnight.
But…
Perhaps it was because of her three lifetimes of struggle that she had long since gotten used to the existence of pain.
No matter how hard she tried, she couldn't escape this cycle of reincarnation.
Either the mother or the lover, one of them is destined to be let down, and she will eventually be hated.
It's like a wound, it heals and then breaks again, being stabbed mercilessly by the knife again and again. In the end, no matter how painful it is, she will be tired and numb.
Mom left, taking with her all the love, hate, and past.
Now, Ahan is also going to leave her.
This is probably her fate.
Destined to be alone forever.
Ruan Yihan chewed the food bit by bit. She wanted to keep the taste and engrave it in her soul.
Qin Haiyao was particularly beautiful today. Under the moonlight, she kept smiling and looking at Ruan Yihan tenderly.
It's this moment.
After all, they never talk about the past.
After all, let’s not talk about love and hate.
They just sat together, enjoying the breeze and relaxing, living the stable life that should have belonged to them.
"I sometimes fantasize about what we would be like if we were not born into aristocratic families and did not have the grudges and hatreds of the previous generation."
Perhaps it was the final scene of the drama. Qin Haiyao looked at the wine glass in her hand and murmured the fantasy that had been buried in the deepest part of her heart.
She had thought of this more than once.
She and Ahan, not being born in such a family, could live a little poorer, even if they were just two village women born in this paradise.
They would be much happier together than they are now, right
They will rise with the sunrise, rise and set together, and will never separate.
There may be brief quarrels, small arguments, and even a cold war where no one cares about each other, but now it seems that is also another kind of romance, isn't it
As long as she is here, everything is happiness.
It’s a pity that happiness in this world will not last forever, and fate often plays tricks on us.
Ruan Yihan took a sip of wine and looked at the bright moonlight: "I have thought about this many, many times."
They should be very happy no matter where they are born, as they are not entangled by the vines of hatred they are born with.
She thought to herself, if Qin Haikun had not left, if Xiaohai's family was intact, they would have known each other since childhood.
What a beautiful scene it would be, of childhood sweethearts who are always inseparable.
"Let's not talk about that."
Qin Haiyao hid the tears in her eyes and stretched out a hand, "Ah Han, let's dance."
How it started, how it ended.
It's really a standard ending.
Ruan Yihan looked into Qin Haiyao's eyes and placed her hand on hers, interlocking their fingers. Qin Haiyao looked at Ruan Yihan and said, "I once heard someone say that two people interlocking their fingers like this will be able to communicate with each other. Even if they really have to part on the day of separation, they will no longer be bound by karma. They will still remember each other even if they drink the love potion."
Do you still want to remember
Ruan Yihan's eyes were blurred with tears. Qin Haiyao looked into her eyes, putting her arms around her waist. She looked at her and smiled, the deep affection between her slender and beautiful eyebrows almost overflowing.
They danced in the moonlight.
They hugged each other deeply.
Mix all the love, hate, and vengeance into it, burn and release it as much as you can, there is nothing else.
Ruan Yihan and Qin Haiyao smiled like two moon fairies. She clung to her, she hugged her. They were so close and intimate that they were infected by each other's breath.
late at night.
Ruan Yihan leaned on the bed, her brows tightly furrowed, unable to fall asleep.
Migraine has become a cage that tortures and binds her during this period of time. She is shrouded in nightmares day and night and cannot escape.
Qin Haiyao saw it, she gently placed Ruan Yihan's head on her lap, and gently rubbed her temples with both hands, "I'm sorry."
With a slight nasal tremor, she looked at Ruan Yihan's red eyes. Ruan Yihan did not open her eyes, "What's wrong?"
Qin Haiyao was thinking, if it wasn’t her, if it wasn’t for that deliberate approach at the beginning.
With Ruan Yihan's kind and gentle personality, she should find someone who truly loves her, right
As for her...
Her soul was not blessed. It was nothing for a person to fall into the abyss, but she shouldn't drag her along.
But…
Love is so random.
By the time she found out and realized it, everything was out of control.
Ruan Yihan couldn't wait for an answer. She rested her head on Qin Haiyao's legs, surrounded by the familiar smell. Finally, she closed her eyes with a smile and slowly fell asleep.
This was the first and last time in such a long time that she fell asleep under her care.
At twelve o'clock in the morning, Qin Haiyao thought Ruan Yihan had fallen asleep. She looked down at her with love in her eyes. But at the moment when the bell was about to ring, she heard Ruan Yihan whisper softly: "Xiao Hai, happy birthday."
She said happy birthday to her.
Continue to speak softly in your heart.
-I love you.
The sun rises the next day and will not stop because of anyone's tears.
For the first time, Ruan Yihan spent a night without nightmares in Qin Haiyao's arms.
That whole night, she was surrounded by an atmosphere called security.
There were no dark memories, no deception, and no images of parents being hit by a truck or Qin Qin being burned to charcoal.
When she woke up, Qin Haiyao was still in the same state as before she went to sleep, staring at her without blinking.
I don’t know if it’s because of a sleepless night.
Seeing Ruan Yihan wake up, Xiaohai rubbed Ruan Yihan's cheeks with his fingertips and whispered softly: "Ah Han."
She lowered her head and kissed Ruan Yihan gently on the forehead: "Good morning."
She didn't sleep all night.
We had originally agreed to let go.
But seeing Ruan Yihan sleeping so soundly in her arms, at that moment, she felt reluctant to leave.
Why
Why
They obviously love each other, so why can't they stay together forever
Why on earth were they born into such a family... Is it so difficult for them to just love each other
The morning sunshine has a fresh smell, the air is filled with the fragrance of grass, and the sheep outside the house are bleating.
Being able to wake up and see your loved one by your side is a very happy feeling.
Ruan Yihan stared at Qin Haiyao and tilted her head: "Are your legs numb?"
Qin Haiyao smiled and looked into Ruan Yihan's eyes. "I'm fine. What do you want to eat?"
What do you want to eat
As long as you are with your loved one, simple food is the best.
Ruan Yihan and Qin Haiyao cooked porridge together in a big pot. The millet porridge was boiled into golden rice oil, and the whole courtyard was filled with fragrance. Jiang Zhenyue came over and knocked on the door. She pursed her nose and said, "I'm coming over to eat."
Miss Jiang is the first person to eat for free so openly.
She sat down carelessly, holding the millet porridge and began to drink, "This place is really nice. I walked around yesterday. There are wild flowers blooming everywhere on the country roads, and the people look simple and honest."
If they could really let go of everything and stay together here for the rest of their lives, how many people would envy them.
Ruan Yihan glanced at her and said, "If you like, I'll leave one for you in the backyard."
Qin Haiyao looked at the two people with a smile. Jiang Zhenyue shrugged and said, "It's boring for me to live alone. I'll get bored after two or three days. It would be fine if you two stayed with me all the time."
These words, like boiling porridge, flowed into the hearts of the two people.
Ruan Yihan and Qin Haiyao looked at each other and remained silent.
The breakfast was good.
While Ruan Yihan was resting, Jiang Zhenyue sat on a small stool, fanning herself and looking at Qin Haiyao: "Xiao Hai, isn't it good to be like this all the time?"
Too many people in this world pursue money and material things, toiling and rushing around all their lives without even a moment's rest.
Jiang Zhenyue has seen many people like this, but Qin Haiyao and Ruan Yihan are not like that.
No matter how much hatred there is, can it compare to the sweetness we have now
Qin Haiyao was washing rice. She smiled and said, "Yes, it's very good."
Jiang Zhenyue looked into her eyes and said, "Actually, Ah Han... Although she is stubborn at heart, she will soften her heart if you are a little more assertive."
She knows.
In this world, is there anyone who knows Ruan Yihan better than Qin Haiyao, who has followed her for three lifetimes
However, Qin Haiyao was also afraid. She was afraid that one day, when the sweetness faded, the hatred would eventually surge over like a tide and swallow them up.
"We need time between us. Even if she is soft-hearted for a moment, she will eventually remember everything that happened."
The wind blew through Qin Haiyao's long hair, and her eyes were filled with tears. "Zhenyue, I think she has told you everything."
From Jiang Zhenyue's insight, she knew that Ruan Yihan must have told her everything that had happened before.
Jiang Zhenyue nodded, and Qin Haiyao met her eyes: "We have experienced three lifetimes, but it seems like a dead knot that has never been truly untied. Is it really just a feud? Is it just the grudges of the previous generation?"
She asked herself this question many times.
Since the first life, it was like a calamity stood between them, and no matter how hard they tried, they could not get over it.
"It's the tribulation in our hearts, it's us who are unwilling to let go of the past."
Qin Haiyao's voice was very gentle. Jiang Zhenyue looked at her and suddenly felt it was cruel: "But it's just one day... If it were me, if it were me..."
She would rather not.
How painful it is to see the bloody loneliness when that layer of fantasy is torn off.
If it were her, she would rather walk alone in the desert, moving forward alone, than watch the ephemeral flower bloom at this moment.
You have to know that everyone in this world is like this.
Having never obtained it, the most you feel when you lose it is a sense of loss.
But if you have truly obtained it and have said it once, then to separate again is like cutting a piece of flesh off your heart.
Qin Haiyao looked at Jiang Zhenyue: "Zhenyue, thank you for always taking care of her."
In the past, they also stood on opposite sides for Ruan Yihan.
Now, they are still doing it for Ruan Yihan, but their life is much calmer and more harmonious.
It’s probably because a person has let go.
Isn’t this how the world is
"Then after we leave, you—" Jiang Zhenyue suddenly felt sorry for Qin Haiyao. Who is born to like loneliness and pain? With her personality, she would be a rare talent no matter where she was, and would be admired by countless people, but she gave up voluntarily. Jiang Zhenyue was afraid that Qin Haiyao would not be able to wait for the day when Ruan Yihan would come back... After all, people who were dead in their hearts... For them, that day and night would no longer be an enjoyment of life, but a torture of loneliness and pain.
Qin Haiyao said softly: "I'm here, I'm not going anywhere. When she really decides to let go of everything one day, she can come to me when she thinks of me. As long as she turns around, she will see me."
She won't go far.
She would not give up on herself as Jiang Zhenyue worried.
She always believed it.
Believe in Ruan Yihan, believe in their love, one day, Ahan will come to his senses and come back to find her.
This is not a flash in the pan, it is the most brilliant color in their hearts and the last force that can make Ruan Yihan turn back.
If letting go was really that easy, she wouldn't have followed him for three lifetimes.
Qin Haiyao touched the paper crane in her pocket and smiled softly: "She will come back, right Zhenyue? She will definitely come back to find me."
The wind blew.
Jiang Zhenyue lowered her head, her throat seemed to be stuck with something, and a tear slid down her cheek.
Yes…
Jiang Zhenyue knew that the two of them still had a lot to talk about, so after breakfast, she left in a hurry, insisting that she had to go to the house of her grandmother next door to watch her milk the cows.
I don’t know how she did it, but in such a short time the local villagers liked her so much. Now even the village chief knows that a cheerful and beautiful girl has come to the village. She is very good at drawing and often draws for children.
Sometimes, Ruan Yihan was quite envious of Jiang Zhenyue. The eldest lady had not changed from childhood to adulthood. She could take it or leave it, and instead became the most straightforward and unrestrained person of this time.
In Jiang Zhenyue's own words, "Being a human being is hard enough, why should I make it harder on myself? I'm here to play around in this world, so I should live a carefree and uninhibited life."
Finish breakfast.
Qin Haiyao suddenly wanted to fly a kite, and Ruan Yihan naturally agreed. They didn't go out to buy one, but made it together at home.
Mr. Ruan always thought that making kites was quite challenging, but the lines were well controlled in Qin Haiyao's hands. She prepared newspapers, bamboo threads, and a small knife, and started making them in an orderly manner.
Qin Haiyao worked very seriously, even more seriously than when she was marking documents. Her eyes were shining and her mouth was slightly pouting.
Ruan Yihan felt tender in her heart and hugged her from behind, "Do you like it so much?"
"Yeah." Qin Haiyao leaned against her, "I've wanted to fly a kite with you for a long time, but I never had the time."
Now, I have finally achieved my wish.
halfway.
Ruan Yihan received a call from her grandmother. Her grandmother was worried about her after all, so she asked her casually and also told her the words Song He left for her.
Ruan Yihan was silent after hearing this. Grandma Ruan said cautiously: "She said Cindy is back. Grandma was thinking that you guys could get together."
Ruan Yihan held the phone tightly: "Grandma, I don't want to care about this anymore."
She had already made up her mind to say goodbye to yesterday once and for all.
The people around her have changed.
Ali left after all.
But before leaving, Ali knelt down and kowtowed to his grandmother, then left with tears and regret.
Ali always thought that she and Ruan Yihan grew up together and she knew her best. She believed that it was because of her betrayal that Ruan Yihan brought her mother from the countryside in order to threaten her to tell everything behind the scenes.
But when everything happened, when Qin Qin jumped off the cliff and died, Ali was scared for a while.
As ruthless and meticulous as Qin Qin.
Before he went to prison, Ying Di told her, "If it weren't for Mr. Ruan, your mother might... have also met with misfortune."
At that moment, Ali burst into tears and regretted deeply. But what was the use of regretting? Ruan Yihan would never forgive her again.
So what if they grew up together
It was because of that intimate and inseparable past that her betrayal seemed so ridiculous and pathetic.
Now, she no longer has the face to stand beside Ruan Yihan.
After finishing their meal, Ruan Yihan and Qin Haiyao took their kites and went to the mountains.
Although Ms. Ruan didn't know how to make a kite, she flew it many times as she was playful when she was a child. Qin Haiyao tried several times but couldn't get it to fly high. But she picked up the kite, shook the string, and quickly ran back a few steps, and the kite flew high.
In the boundless sky, the pink paper cranes flew higher and higher. Ruan Yihan kept looking at them. At the beginning, the string in their hands was released very quickly. They had specially prepared a very long string, but no matter how long the string was, it would have an end.
Ruan Yihan originally wanted to make this kite in a more classical style, but Qin Haiyao wanted it to look like a thousand pink paper cranes, pure pink without any other ingredients mixed in.
After knowing this, Ruan Yihan was silent for a moment, and then she obeyed her.
When the pink paper crane kite was made, both of them were silent for a while.
Qin Haiyao looked up at the thousands of paper crane kites flying in the blue sky, feeling a strange feeling in her heart.
This kite looks exactly like her and her love.
No matter how hard she tried, the kite's string was always held in Ruan Yihan's hand.
She can control it all at will.
But it is always pulled by the string in its hand and obeys its commands.
Ruan Yihan probably doesn’t know…
How long has she loved her
Ah Han...
Ruan Yihan walked up to Qin Haiyao and asked, "Are you still letting it go? Do you want to take it back?"
Qin Haiyao thought about it, and she whispered to Ruan Yihan: "No, just let it go with the wind."
Ruan Yihan stared at Qin Haiyao's eyes for a while, then nodded and tore the thread apart.
Without the restraint of the kite string, the kite danced with the breeze, as if it was given life, flying freely in the sky until it became a dot and disappeared...
This is the time when flowers are in full bloom.
After flying the kite, the two of them lay down on the grass to rest for a while. Although they were tired, Qin Haiyao didn't want to waste time. She grabbed Ruan Yihan's arm and pulled her up: "Let's go see those flowers. They are in full bloom."
Ruan Yihan didn't know much about these wild flowers, but Qin Haiyao knew more than her. They walked while smelling the fragrance of the flowers, which diluted the surging sourness.
Before, Ruan Yihan didn't like flowers very much, but because of Jiang Zhenyue, she once bought a manor full of flowers. Although they smelled fragrant, they were not as real as these country flowers.
The two of them walked among the flowers, surrounded by clusters and groups of flowers.
Qin Haiyao let go of her hand, she bent down and stopped in front of a pink sunset.
The morning light shone on her, and the scene of her sniffing the fragrance of flowers was unrealistically beautiful, like a person walking out of a landscape painting.
Ruan Yihan stood not far away and watched quietly. She suddenly wanted to cry, but in the end, it turned into a bitter smile: "What kind of flower is this?"
Qin Haiyao bent down and gently picked a few flowers. "This is called sunset primrose. It blooms when the sun sets and falls when the morning dew begins to collect."
It’s just like their commitment and companionship on that day.
No matter how strong the love is, it will fade away at dawn.
When Ruan Yihan heard the name, she felt a pang in her heart for some reason. However, Qin Haiyao looked at her tenderly. The breeze brushed her face, and her body fragrance and the scent of flowers blended together, making Ruan Yihan intoxicated.
"Ah Han."
Qin Haiyao called her name softly. It turned out that he loved her so deeply that just calling her would make his heart so soft.
Ruan Yihan looked at her and said, "Yes, I'm here."
"Today is my birthday." Qin Haiyao looked into her eyes. She wanted to laugh, but her eyes turned red. "What kind of unforgettable birthday gift are you going to give me?"
She had said this to her before.
Ruan Yihan stared into her eyes, her eye circles slightly red.
Qin Haiyao looked at her dimly for a while, then she raised her hand and gently touched her lips, then closed her eyes: "Kiss me."
This is what she said to the shy Ruan Yihan when they first kissed in their first and second lives.
Although they kissed each other before, their love was not pure and was calculated.
Now, she can finally honestly and passionately keep that warmth and the taste of Ruan Yihan.
She couldn't be more ashamed of her.
Ruan Yihan put her arms around Qin Haiyao's waist and kissed her without any hesitation, passionately and resolutely.
This was the first kiss they should have in this life.
Such a beautiful scenery.
There are lovers and sweet kisses.
They must be the happiest people in the world.